Finally back on here..after a week of total chaos and hopefully now some normalcy . In the past 5months I have felt this sense of peacefulness contentment. I finally threw caution to the wind and said I need to let go of trying to be a perfect mother and let them grow with guidence ..my Son is independent loves being with his friends playing his sport and he knows his priorities and when he sways from that path I pull him in and my Daughter she is an adult and her and I are in a good place she has here friends making new ones and her work . My husband and I are learning to be just us again before kids and I think I am handling it better then him. he is so use to us all constantly together or around lets say he hates change so the kids doing their own thing and I more into things I enjoy doing again is throwing him …I thought it would be harder for me but I am more open minded and I do not have parents telling me like he has how things should be …ughh and after my last blog if you read he got hurt at work thank god he is fine and doing a lot better and back to work . His parents thinking I am not doing enough getting back in our business my aurora of my peacefulness has vanished and been place with self doubt angry and I thought I got past this years ago. So now I am trying to get back to this peacefulness and contentment and not listening to them ….not very easy . It’s hard when people judge you just because you do not follow their ways or agree. I am thankful for this week being back to normal my daughter and I went out to a nice relaxing lunch at our favorite place, Panera Bread the best . and then we enjoyed a s’mores frappuccino from Starbucks so delicious we figured we had a light lunch we would enjoy this. Then we headed to my son ‘s school to watch his meet such a nice ending to the day. oh and yes they won! my son came in 2nd place in the hurdles and 2nd in 2nd race. So proud of him.