- It’s Friday night and a late one at that.. well for writing it is . It’s 11:00 and yes a bit late but I’m up until 2 anyway . Just when my mind decides to settle. Hubby is snoring away as I write this in the dark (haha) air conditioner is on so I decided to settle in the bedroom . Another warm night, hopefully we will get a break soon. My daughter is at a concert a couple hours away I’m sure she will not be waking in the door for awhile. My son is sleeping well hopefully he was having a hard time with that knowing he needs to be up at 4 for National guard weekend so he will be gone for the weekend. As I lay hear in the darkness wishing the windows were open so I could hear the sound of the train a distance away it’s whistle echoing through the night. It’s such an eerie but comforting sound.
This summer has been so different one it’s almost over already into August . My daughter turning 24 this month my son heading off to college and telling me I’m going to miss him … hmm ..I know I will but I’ll be okay he will not be that far away and only a phone call or text away I think it’s more like he will miss me and home. The freedom of being home. Since turning 50 I feel so different .. I feel different. About life.. my kids are adults now and I feel a since of new freedom to get back to taking care of me . To be me . Yes I was always was me but motherhood changes you ,you think a lot more about your kids then yourself …. well I did , and now my time is my time, and honestly I was dreading it . But now I’m embracing it I’m doing what I enjoy . I’m spending a bit more time on me . And realizing it’s not a bad thing .. oh I think we are our own worse enemy ..
So I started this late Friday night and fell asleep so I am posting this now🙄