I have always been a giver a over doer always put others first. why do I ? not for recognition but just because it makes me happy and I like to give then take. but then after a yr ago I started feeling the poor me syndrome and after several occasions I didn’t do you know life gets busy or things come up you forget and let me say I did not hear the end of it and that opened my eyes .. people took advantage of this ….so I stopped doing to a point I am still am who I am that will not ever change but I now know who and when I should do for people and not to go over board because it doesn’t matter to some people . some people can do nothing and not care and get treated better and even though I did this because it’s just my way and your tired and you do it anyway but there is not at least a thank you it is upsetting. I must say Easter was nice I did for my family like I always do and kept it at that and I for once was a happier person for it. Do not get me wrong it was hard not to want to just keep doing habits are hard to break but I am happy I stuck to my decision. made for a nicer day .
The Photo is blurry but you get the adjust of it .It was so beautiful on Saturday so I sat out on my deck and took in the amazingly blue sky and absorbed the warm sun and that is when I heard the birds going back and forth from my bird feeder and the trees. that is when I took the photo. I had to take it fast….it was so nice watching them and hearing them Spring is definitely here.
As I laid in bed last night wide awake at midnight one word echo’s in my mind WHY?? a word that could have so many unexplained unfair sad answers or maybe no answers at all some asking why can be petty reasons but for ever reason could it be a right answer is there a right answer anymore? hmm truly hope so. I bet there is one would know the answers …God.. or would he?sometimes I feel like we are so out of touch with him and he looks down on us and he see’s all this hatred the dark path that people are are walking down and he is shaking his head. If we do not get off this path can he will he help us ? it’s a bothering question. I know today is Good Friday and Jesus suffered and died on the cross for us for our sins. I do not know about you but what Jesus did for us makes me want to be a better person, a good person and I hope this Good Friday will make this possible for all of of us since there is so much more hatred in this world. I know this is a a request that at this point is so unrealistic,but one can only hope.
I took this the night the moon was at it’s fullest. I think this is the best photo I ever took ,it was so striking couldn’t resist . I love the moons brightness when it’s lights shine upon the the tree’s in my yard casting the whole yard with shadows and you can see such a distance through the woods its creepy but so tempting to look sometime you can see the glow of a coyote’s eyes has they hunt its a beautiful sight. nature at it’s best.
Does anyone ever just wonder why we just can’t live just the way we are…happy just being happy. do not get me wrong goals of success are great but not everyone feels this way ,some just want to live simple just be … find a decent job that supports their means and just do what you enjoy whether that is snowboarding in the Colorado’s ,biking across the state just enjoying life and nature or the girl who loves her job at a flower shop and is so good at making people smile when they ask for advice on flowers and they love it or the wife who just wants to stay home with their child and be a mother and their husband is fine with it.simpleness without judgement is that possible ? maybe for the strong who can handle the judgement of your not living up to your potential .. maybe ? but your happy this is what you want . I know how people want to climb that ladder of success but at the top of that ladder is not for everyone and we should not judge . I just had to get this thought out for those who just want to just simply live.
When I was younger and Spring came , I loved going on the seesaws they were so much fun…. you do not see as many around now…
Soft warm surface like sands from an hour glass I sit upon.
blue sky above that fades into the water in front of me
the warm sun upon my skin
the water that tickles my toes is refreshing..
peaceful sound of rolling waves echo through my mind
the scent of salt awakens my sense’s
The ocean my home.