Coloring !

It’s Sunday night hubby and I are watching the Winter Olympics and I am Adult Coloring . My nerves feel on edge ..this change of life is not easy to deal with …women you know what IM talking about My mood swings are the worst . I feel sorry for my hubby hahaha I warned him 🙂 ahhh he has is moods so its all good . So we thought we settle in our bedroom and watch tv and I will color as well . House is quiet except for the on and off sound of little paws sounding like she is doing laps around the house Miss Abigail in her active moments. My page is coming along , this one is time consuming but not challenging which is what I usually like so it will be nice to finish this one up and start a more challenging page. .

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Once again …

Once again it’s the weekend . To me it’s another day okay that did not come out right, having the chronic disability I have has its moments of disappear For example today the sun is shining and my mind feels like it could run miles but my hip says otherwise … it’s hurting today more with the temps changing . My hubby went grocery shopping for me ,thankfully . I know I should be happy I do not have to do it but instead I feel not useful ,weak I hate this feeling . I know that the things I can do I should be thankful for I’m here I’m with my family I can cook for them I can talk with them but when they go off and do something as simple as a hike or my sons meets  or an all day shopping day with my daughter where I can not stand for long or walk for long periods of time is so frustrating . I know they understand but it’s hard and soon my kids won’t need me to cook for them or need laundry done  it’s already has been less  well my daughter does her own  and  my son does it on occasions ,  I know all good how it should be it just lets me feel useful .crazy thinking …I know.

My hubby is going through is own changes he is going to be 50 in April and is dreading it , to me age is just a number . I know he is thinking of his dad who will not be here for it since his passing this past August. He would just love to forget that day , So more then ever he is wanting to keep moving keep busy running hiking and sadly the things I can’t do with him and when the track meets and football games are over he will not know what to do with himself  even more .  I’m hoping to get up to Maine with him and sit on the beach , eat out at our favorite spots there ,  do more with just the two of us why not we sit home at night with each other  hahaha  we where going to go to the drive – ins last summer just the two of us but every time we had the chance they where showing a kid movie ,   Of course. Will play it by ear one day at a time for now to get through this winter and its ever changing weather . I have always been a reader Over the last several yrs I have not been as avid but now with more free time I’m picking it back up  and have a list of books I want to read . My hubby is not a reader . When it’s time to relax for the night it’s watching tv and then he falls asleep .. I love the adult coloring books , my daughter got me interested in them when she bought me my first book and now I’m hooked . I have several now. On nights  my

hubby falls asleep or I can’t sleep I read or color. My daughter laughs at me when I show here the finish page she will and I quote her “so you couldn’t sleep last night ”  🙂 Or how long did you wait up for Seth . Yeah she’s got my number 🙂  Getting back to the subject it’s hard when you want to do something but you can’t oh I could try but I know I will pay for it for days .there are things that are worth the pain but all in all its hard when your mind feels young but your body feels old.

Moments…

Good Morning ! Enjoying my coffee and happily another morning of sometime with my son, he’s not a big talker well not at home at school he is but that’s always the way when your a teenager. He had good run may have made it to All States will find out today he missed it by a second in one race that he ran. Very proud of him.

Back tracking : last night when he arrived home , if you read my last post he had a track meet 3hrs away ,my hubby and I couldn’t make it so we waited for him to come home my hubby caved into sleep , of course I was up ..in bed but awake. He arrived after midnight and I heard him come in so I looked down our hall and could see him peeking out the door …hmm I’m like what is he doing ? Next minute he shuts the door locked it turned the kitchen light off and walking faster then normal down the hall to his room he spots me looking at him he says “oh your awake I’m scared” I’m like what! He tells me that as he got out of the car and walking up to our house he heard this screaming crying howling noise I’m like oh the boys are out (coyotes) I call them the boys. I asked if they where in our woods he said that he was trying to figure that out but wasn’t sure he said close ..maybe ?The most eerie sound of the wild to hear if their hunting it sends chills up your spine . After that I just let him get some sleep. and I did as well . Then this morning it was just him and I before he went to school so that was nice . Like I said before ,few and far between the moments with him. Now all is quiet everyone’s at work and school and I’m catching up on the news.. sad once again today .. my heart is breaking for all those angels and their families In Florida .😥 never take any thing or anyone for granted that is why even if I have only moments here and there with my children who are always on the go I will take that . It’s all special to me . So hug your kids tell them you love them everyday.❤️ with that it’s time to get busy myself do somethings around the house . Have a great day everyone.

Waiting..

My Son is about 3hrs away being that they traveled by s school bus this afternoon to his Champion Indoor Track Meet and mine and my hubby’s heart is with him since we couldn’t be there. We are so proud of him him and his team have worked so hard to make it to States I hope he does well but I hope he has fun as well ❤️ it will be a late night for him if he doesn’t run till 8 tonight it gets over at 9 but then picking up and getting to the bus and heading to the school for some who have their cars like him.so the waiting to hear how he did is hard . It could go either way after he’s on the bus he could be tired and not want to call or text so we wait until tomorrow when he’s rested because he will walk through the door go directly to the shower and then to bed . .. or his adrenalin could be high and he will call or tell us when he gets home. So we wait… . of course wait up for him . My husband may not make it being that he has to be up very early for work and sadly my son too but thankfully it’s Feb break for my son next week so some sleeping in …well maybe I know he will doing a lot of friend sleepovers plus work and snowboarding in between . Oh to be young. 🙂

Heartbreaking…

Sitting here drinking my morning coffee with a heavy heart. If your a parent or not this is hard to grasp once again …a school shooting has happened if you have heard about the high school shooting in Florida where 14 kids 3 staff members have been killed also some in hospitals fighting for their life please say a prayer for them .Hug your children hug your love ones life is so precious . As a parent I can’t and not want to imagine this pain . As a parent we do everything we can or I should say are capable of doing to keep our kids safe and sending them to school should not be a worry but it has become this way in this new world we live in . We need to do something . …

Beautiful Day!

Aww the sun has been shining since I woke this morning so nice. Today was a different start usually it’s my daughter and I enjoying our morning coffee and a nice chat . Today it was spent with my son . It was a nice moment with him . I do not get many moments like this with just him and I , so with every minute I could grab I took it.I’m so amazed what a man he is growing into. He is so active and outgoing and such a jokester around his friends but then there’s this side to him a sense of protectiveness and loyalty that is so calming ,warm that shows his big heart only the lucky few get to see . I’m happy I’m one of those lucky few . I know when he gets home after school and practice is tired side will show then that’s the side we all know to well to let him be ..feed him and let him shower and go to bed . I’m just happy I had the moments I did with him this morning because I know there few and far between❤️