Evening Sky

imageThis was the sky tonight .Seemed strange for a winter evening . The darkness is unbelievable.

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Keep with it.

Hi everyone so I’m on day 2 Yes day of not checking in on my son hoping he will be responsible if I back off you will understand if you read my last posts . So last night I kept the cell aside and kept on reading eventually my over thinking mind took a rest and I happily got into my book and it was so relaxing and nice . So yeah me of keeping it going and my son came home within 15 mins of writing my post. He told his dad and I how the basketball game was then he said goodnight and I went back to my book. So today it’s 32 out and it feels good. I open the widows a crack for a bit to get some fresh air in and Miss Abigail loved it as well. Supper is made and ready to go into the oven Shepard’s pie . Now having some lunch and watching my soap and then off to the grocery store funnn…not🙂 but things we sadly need . Well time to get going . Have a great day everyone.

Reading… okay trying 😂

I’ve had this books for months and I decided it was time to try reading again the book I posted earlier I couldn’t get into so I pulled this off my bookshelf and got comfy in bed with my hubby who sadly is now not feeling good , as my daughter is resting in her place downstairs still not feeling well , of course my son went out …do these kids ever stop? I tried not to quiz him he said he was meeting up with friends at a basketball game ….okay I believe the game should be over now it 9 he said it wouldn’t be late he wanted sleep after getting up at 5 to go to the gym before school, hmmm what’s early I really trying to get into this book I am into it it’s really good but my stupidity of a mind has me thinking and wanting to text him . I’m giving him 30 minutes more to walk through that door or text then I may just call him . Why I ask why . Tomorrow I may have to be firm and tell him enough nights this week , he has a meet Friday a late one then nay have work Saturday morning. Sorry everyone if I sound like a broken record . I’m just not not good with this teenage stuff. Okay wish me luck going to try reading till I decide to call him.

Monday!

it’s Monday a fresh new week to get back into a routine ,a full week of school, sports meet warmer temps no big storms insight sadly my daughter is still out of work due to illness but hoping she feels some improvement when she wakes up. Laundry is going beds are made kitchen is cleaned up after breakfast . I am now sitting down catching up on the morning news and enjoying a cup of coffee ahhh so nice. I’ve started the book I posted and started a new coloring page over the weekend which kept me busy and warm

. I am going to pat myself on the back , if you read my last post I wrote how my son was out with his girlfriend and I was NOT going to text him to have him check in. or worry and I didn’t well I didn’t text. I wouldn’t say I worried but hoped he drove slow and careful on his way home. I got into the Golden Globes with my hubby and didn’t realize my son had texted me ….it wasn’t that long until I noticed but it hopefully showed him was waiting with my phone in hand . He texted “on my way home. ” I do not know who was more surprised 🙂him for checking his phone and seeing no text from me or I seeing his text .. before I knew it he was walking in the door he talked a little bit and I tried not to do the twenty questions just how was Mary ? Did you have a good time? And after that he said goodnight and was off to bed. Now to keep this going oh am I trying….so hard when I’ve been by their side from day one through their first cut to their first everything to their first letting goesI can’t tell you what is the hardest part their first cut or letting go ….maybe letting go because it’s i that is now hurting not with them but just I because this is what I’ve known for so long .. my daughter is so different we have always been close and we are friends as well . With my son it just feels so different. I know boys let go differently then girls but this is ……different 😥 no hand book in the world could of warned me how this would feel. I’m am trying and I will keep doing this. Everyone tells me go out with friends do things with your husband I am but we are not big go to the movies we like watching them when they come out and we can cozy up at home and watch them . We have always been homebodies .. before kids we out dinking and dancing on the weekends but now that doesn’t hold an interest . We have spent nights out at relatives and enjoyed some drinks food laughs more that has been nice just need more idea s but for now it’s Home Movies going out for coffee dinner I guess we are heading in the right direction .. but it just feels different .

Weekends

weekends why do they have to go by so fast.  It was nice not having any set plans just whatever came up or didn’t was nice most of the weekend was pretty much spent inside keeping warm and  for the most part we all where at home,my daughter is sick and has a notice to stay out of work for several days so she laid around and read and watched movies with me and slept my poor daughter winter is not her friend she gets sick so much during this time ,we both believe she should of had her tonsils out but everyone she saw said no there fine and now she gets the worst sore throats   .I think this time around we may have to push it more but now she is older and risk factor is not good . We will  have to talk to the doctors about this more. My son was in and out when he was out he came home earlier and then spent it in his room .life of a teenager. No work for him on saturday  was scheduled for night skiing instructor but they closed due of the wind chill then today he was not schedule , now he is at his girlfriends and I’m trying to not worry and check in with him there is school tomorrow so he will be home at a decent time. It’s just where his girlfriend lives is not an easy drive . But can’t think about it. Nope ….not coloring watching The Golden Globe Awards  with my hubby and my daughter . All in black tonight the actresses and actors for sexual harassment awareness . A topic I won’t get started with but yes applauding them wearing their black. Im hoping he is home soon… Okay I know don’t think about it 😞 One track mind sorry…. .

Trying….failed

I’m trying I really am but the mother in me and my mouth opens and once again I’ve failed…. on New Years I didn’t make a resolution but a try to do better kind of thing, I was going to try to worry less try to not be the overprotective mother and well I failed that more then once this weekend and it’s only Saturday night. Uggg … Friday he went to the gym and it was getting past the time they close I texted him ….(my son) I should know by now that when he is warming his car up he is checking his messages if I waited just a bit longer he would of been home and that would of been that . Instead I got why are you texting me it’s not late … and attitude it was. Then just now because he is actually home tonight I drilled him where all his friends where and what they where doing and he looked at me like I had three eyes🙄 he said you question when I go out and now you question when I’m home ? I know I was that roll eye pout face teenager so why can’t I learn. I need to shut my mouth 😫