It’s a crisp windy sunny fall Sunday morning the sun just shining on the fading beautiful foliage is stunning . Everyone is busy as usual.. my son went home coming dress shopping with his girlfriend my daughter off with her boyfriend and my husband doing some outside cleanup then there is me I am thinking of making a nice homemade soup for supper feels like a soup kind of day when everyone settles in for the night.. I had hear some towns around our area got a dusting of snow and people were so happy I would not have been one of the happy ones ..not a fan of it and sadly I live where we get it. isn’t that always the way? well must start my day I hope everyone enjoys their Sunday, off to make my soup have a great day everyone.
It’s a quiet cold windy Saturday at home. I sit her watching the cat enjoy watching the leaves swirl around outside and the pups lay sleeping comfortably on my couch and I wonder why am I sitting here watching them doing something they enjoy. I should be doing something enjoyable so I stare at my laptop then I turn away once again yes this is not the first time I have turned away. I scroll through Twitter ..Facebook and wonder why can I not get back on this blog? so many thinks to write about so many things to let go of, so today I have done it here I am . Bare with me the last time I have written was the end of June and the last thing I believe I wrote was I whining to a close friend that I didn’t want to be an adult anymore 🙂 I was tired sad okay feeling sorry for myself a bit yes it hurts to admit this but come on haven’t we all felt this way at one time or another… YES!
So summer as come and gone and it was a summer of change sadness happiness and a lot of growing in many ways. My oldest my daughter turning 21 it’s so unbelievable to me that she is officially an adult already , it feels like just yesterday watching her at the playground swinging on the monkey bars and playing hopscotch. My youngest turning 16 and receiving his drivers permit My Husband and Son spending a week in California because my son qualified for the Junior Olympics in running hurdles so that was both happy.. sad.. busy many days of running him to the gym the track to train plus running him to work and drivers ed . See why I didn’t want to be an adult hahaha but happy because we where all so proud of him and the sad part because it was the first time him being away for his and my birthday, my husband did have a cake for me the weekend before they left so that was a pleasant surprise but to keep the cost down it was best that my husband just went with him plus my bad hip would not have been happy with all the walking. I stayed back with my daughter and we had a pretty calm week went shopping stayed up late talking and she surprised me with a cake as well on my birthday the week flew by and my husband and son made it home safely .What an experience they had though my son loved California but did admit home wasn’t so bad after all quieter less people and much cooler ..he said city life was not for him. hahaha He is like my husband more of a woodsy private person who enjoys the solitude of nature . Then the summer had its low points a young boy 13 yrs old lost his life to an all terrain vehicle accident in our town and that twas just so heartbreaking it just proved to all of us in this quiet little town even more how short life really is so I take back saying I do not want to be an adult. so you see many new and sad experiences this summer that yes have taught us more to appreciate what we have and we should never take for granted.
now it’s Oct and there is foliage rides with my husband .Coffee trips with my daughter for a hot cup of Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte’s the best . A new school year sport events for my son .My son driving us with his drivers permit every chance he gets and then cozy night in bed cuddled up watching our favorite shows with our pups at the end of the bed .This might sound boring to some but to me this is everything after this summer and a lot of soul searching and feeling like there should be more well maybe there could be but right now this is enough and everyday is a new learning experience I believe for my husband and I and us spending more time alone together again. and for myself to do what I never had time for in awhile , that is why I started this blog and I am finding like this summer I will have days even months that I am not on but please bare with me at those times. This is such a whole new world. When you have kids they become the center of your world and then they grow up and you find yourself almost lost because you can’t go back to that person you where before so much has changed you have changed it’s like this whole new journey of rediscovering who you are and what you do here on out it really can be so mind blowing I am sure I will have many things to tell. Stay tune. 🙂
Once again I’m having a hard time where to begin have pressed backspace several times. I feel the time getting onto my blog is getting more and more of a distance I do not want to get into a habit of but my time is at such a minimum of what I have to do to what I want to do .Today my friend and I actually got a moment to chat on the phone and the first thing I told her , I do not want to be an adult anymore and her response on the other end was laughter…and a sigh and then she said I understand. It’s only been two weeks ‘s been a crazy busy summer and did I say it’s only been two weeks.
What happen to days spent by the pool… Popsicle’s melting in the sun , weeks spent at the beach now replaced with me being a taxi to and from drivers ed my sons job drop offs and pickups with his friends thank god for moments of bliss enjoying a coffee or lunch with my oldest she his my savior hahaha from having to be an adult and when weekends use to be day trip adventures is now me recovering on my deck swing and enjoying some peace of mind. I tried to get into a book its been awhile since I read , that worked for a day and now it sits on chapter 4. I am not complaining I know it sounds that way, I am just stating the unbelievable change this year has been and amazed how fast childhood disappeared and I am exhausted hahaha so moms enjoy your summer with your little ones because it goes by fast and if you think your tired now just wait when they get older and they have places to be and no license and your older you too will be saying I wish I wasn’t an adult at the moment 🙂 so I will try to be on here more maybe not everyday but more then I have been so please keep reading my post. I also welcome feedback.
This past weekend is not been a happy one . i just want to say my heart breaks for two sad things that happened one Christina Grimmie her life taken so young, unexpectedly and unfair by one man for only god knows why took her away and once again with a gun ….this is just so unbelievable . So my thoughts and prayers go out to her family.
My heartbreaks also for all the victims survivors and their families of the Orlando shooting this is unbelievable how many lives were taken away and innocent loving people just out at a night club dancing happy just loving one another and life and in one minute is taken away so unfair let us NEVER forget them forever they will be in our hearts. I know mine they will be . We need to spread love and not hate life is such a gift but when taken away unfairly because one person has so much hate in them it’s hard not to be angry but that just keeps hate fueling we need to put this flame out and take steps to watch our surrounding and report if we see something not right but love, love everyone and live and spread happiness this is what we can do for the ones that have been taken away to keep their memory alive. Everyone lets try to make this life better again and banish as much hate as we can and stay safe.
I am appalled by society …morals.. the path this generation is heading in no respect for life.. authority .Why I ask ? I do not like to write about what happens on T.V the news but this one incident I have heard over and over because reporters and just people in general can’t understand the verdict on the the Stanford rape case what happened 6 months that is it we all know there is something clearly wrong with this young man , ok so he is a star athlete oh so that exempts him from bad behavior and justice bad enough he is going to miss his swimming meets well….lets see what about the poor young girl that he raped and had not a clue what happened yes she was drunk passed out but this had nothing to do with him,,,she had a right to drink yes too much but she didn’t break any law. it scares me where the justice system is heading.this could be anyone of our daughters and yes our sons and if that was the case I would be seriously upset but wouldn’t have condoned it …My son is 15 soon to be 16 and is so against how some of the kids at his school how they party every chance they get and go through girls like a new pair a shoes he doesn’t understand why these guys in his words can be such slimes.. and the girls just keep going back. I am proud of my Son and thankful he has respect. My daughter was telling me about a girl she works with and the girl would love to hang out with my daughter and other girls after work but her boyfriend does not like or let’s her hang out with anyone she as anxiety and believes that its caused by her boyfriend because she takes medication for and it doesn’t work she told my daughter her doctor thinks she would feel better if she leaves him sad thing is I do not believe she will she states to my daughter its not physical abuse but verbal .I believe abuse is abuse and she told my daughter she his hanging out with a girl after work by telling him she is working late now tell me she is not scared of him I told my daughter to stay out of it because if she could be in danger the girl whoever she hangs out with could possibly be too if and when he finds out. I feel bad for this young women but need to keep my daughter safe, its sad that I have doubt that if she tried to break up with him it could get messy…it’s sad when my daughter had told me when he graduated this past month he did not want to walk or be in the ceremony because he just did not want to his school let him just pick up his diploma the next day.Sounds to me this young man doesn’t like authority .What have we become . life as rules way past the years of parenting what are we to do.
So it’s a cold Wednesday night in June …Yes cold and remarkably windy . I could almost get away with using our electric blanket. Crazy weather that goes with the crazy changing moments at my house. So my Son’s best buds have graduated and he went to it and was happy when they all hung out after ,see my Son if you read my past posts he is only a sophomore so he is much younger then them but they are all great friends and teammates . His attitude has been so hard and trying to help him has been like being on a roller coaster ride , one minute I am good .. do not need you attitude to I need you, so I have been crazy busy, Its not like my Son is my only child my daughter is soon to be 21 but it just seem like she was younger so much longer and a lot less demanding, she is my quieter one and we connect pretty well but it’s hard to know when to let go because you know you should because she is an adult but she gets unsure at times and I have to choose what I know I should help her with or make her handle herself. Being a mom is just such a hard job and sad at times it’s so hard to let go when you know you should but your heart gets in the way. so sadly I been neglecting my blog and my post I put up on Mondays and Fridays . So please be patient with me if you follow and like my posts . Things are calming down a bit here my Son is finishing up this school yr in 6 days and happily doing so he still getting to see his graduating buddies and spending time with new ones.,he found a summer Job which is so great that was one of our problems too and starting driving classes at the end of the the month as well so I hope to be back on more and more family moments to share if anyone wants to hear !! and you can go on this new journey of motherhood with me.So stay tune .
Happy Memorial Day everyone I hope everyone had a safe one. Yes I an back to doing my Photo Monday It’s been busy and starting this blog this winter I for got how busy the end of the school year gets so bare with me as I try to get back on track and the summer season and get the hang of keeping my blog going. Here is my photo It was a quiet Memorial Day no cookouts kids where off doing their own thing so my husband and I went for a drive nothing like living in the country, this is from on top of one of our mountains in our area Its so beautiful in the Fall when the leaves change colors. I hope you enjoy .