The night darker then usual the moon is covered in clouds ,no shadow upon my walls instead a very darken room filled with nothing but quietness ..and my thoughts that seem to occupy my mind. Endless thoughts with no place to escape . What to do if only I knew the answers….
Good Morning ! Just now having my coffee , put some laundry in and cleaned the kitchen up a bit of the breakfast dishes from the guys before work and school. Cool crisp air coming through the windows Fall mornings are here. Happy to say that my Son and his cross country team won their first meet ! So happy for them especially being such a smaller team we where all worried about will see still a long season to go but what a great start. Nice mention in our Town paper this morning of them nice plus. Well going to finish enjoying my morning coffee and finish this laundry .. never done. 🙂
Today is the first day of my Sons last season of Cross Country Meets . It’s bittersweet because he lovesThe sport but not many on the team one more joined so that helps . I wish I could be there for it and him but it’s an away one he has my car ,hubby can’t get out in time. So my heart ❤️is with him and I hope he knows this . I will be at the next meet that will be at his school. I’m so proud of him he works so hard for all this and his stamina is unbelievable. I wish more kids felt this way ….the kids these days do not want to do much or care about much it’s a scary thing . This generation is I’m sorry a bit lazy or just want do not have the motivation to commit to not just sports but jobs anything well at least where we live. That’s why my heart breaks when my son puts 100 percent into all of this and then some any ways it’s a good day for a run I hope they do well I am thinking of him and his teammates .
Laying in bed just put the Adult coloring book down for the night it was nice taking a break from thinking for a bit. Friday was a beautiful night at the fair followed by a relaxed no rush kind of weekend . Soon it will be time to think about getting some pumpkins for around the house and some scarecrows . Decorate for Fall, crazy that this time is already upon us . Now to get my kids involved … need to carve pumpkins with them . My daughter will be on board it will be my son who will take some pushing to agree. I will get my way 🙂I will post some pics when the time comes. So I am happy to say it’s so nice to be reunited with my close friend somewhere along the line we let life stray us away from one another and for a time I was afraid we wouldn’t find our way back to one another … there was nothing we couldn’t tell one another and our kids grew up together especially our two older ones my daughter and her daughter best of friends thankfully they have kept in touch as much as possible being so busy but have done a better job at that then their mothers . I’m so happy we have reconnected it’s so comforting and I have missed our talks so much. back in the day we could talk a whole day on the phone about just nothing hahaha it was nice now it’s a bit more busier but I treasure our moments to chat even if it’s a text here and there. Life sure can change the direction of things hopefully we will not let all these changes get in the way off our friendship . Seems like more then ever we need this friendship to get through them. Change has been such a big part of our world, for so long things felt like they stayed the same unless we just didn’t see it … I don’t know how all of a sudden it’s just smacked us in the face and it’s our. new norm . New journey whatever we want to call it maybe it’s just life… yes that’s it . Well me eyes are getting heavy I guess it’s time for some sleep . Goodnight Everyone.
I have been trying to bring in the good energy be more positive instead it’s seeming to go the opposite ..things are breaking and going wrong all around me and it’s making me unhappy. , what am I doing wrong ? Am I not trying enough to bring the good energy in? I’ve never been a high believer in this but I thought I would try it. Should I just be who I am think the way I always have because honestly I think I was less exhauste when I just letting things go the way they will I seemed more happier with thinking and living one day at a time and taking things has they come then looking through roes color glasses . I’ve always have believed that somethings you just cant change no matter how positive you are . In some case yes but but not all the time I’ have always lived I guess in the middle . So I guess I need to stay that person. Especially this yr with all the changes I need to just focus on getting use to the changes is that a bad thing. It’s been a rough day and Im sick of being who I’m not . I’m sorry my sister in law said I should try this good energy positive thing I don’t know how it’s working for her it seems more like she avoids things and people and shelters herself in her home with her family and that’s it and doesn’t want to hear or read about anything bad … is that such a good idea ? I’m so confused. Any advice any one I guess what’s good for som isn’t for others.