Can you say rollercoaster….

So it’s a cold Wednesday night in June …Yes cold and remarkably windy . I could almost get away with using our electric blanket. Crazy weather that goes with the crazy changing moments at my house. So  my Son’s best buds have graduated and he went to it and was happy when they all hung out after ,see my Son if you read my past posts he is only a sophomore so he is much younger then them but they are all great friends and teammates . His attitude has been so hard and trying to help him has been like being on a roller coaster ride , one minute I am good ..  do not need you attitude to I need you, so I have been crazy busy,  Its not like my Son is my only child my daughter is soon to be 21 but it just seem like she was younger so much longer and a lot less demanding, she is my quieter one and we connect pretty well but it’s hard to know when to let go because you know you should because she is an adult but she  gets unsure at times and I  have to  choose what I know I should help her with or make her handle  herself. Being a mom is just such a hard job and sad  at times it’s so hard to let go when you know you should but your heart gets in the way. so sadly  I been neglecting my blog and my post I put up on Mondays and Fridays . So please be patient with me if you follow and like my posts . Things are calming down a bit here my Son is finishing up this school yr in 6 days and happily doing so he still getting to see his graduating buddies and spending time with new ones.,he found a summer Job which is so great that was one of  our problems too and starting driving classes at the end of the the month as well so I hope to be back on more and more family moments to share if anyone wants to hear !! and you can go on this new journey of motherhood with me.So stay tune .

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Photo Monday….

Happy Memorial Day everyone I hope everyone had a safe one. Yes I an back to doing my Photo Monday It’s been busy and starting this blog this winter I for got how busy the end of the school year gets so bare with me as I try to get back on track and  the summer season and get the hang of keeping my blog going.  Here is my photo It was a quiet Memorial Day no cookouts kids where off doing their own thing so my husband and I went for a drive nothing like living in the country, this is from on top of one of our mountains in our area Its so beautiful in the Fall when the leaves change colors.  I hope you enjoy .

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Our Journey. ..

Our life is our individual journey.Our ups our downs what,we learn what,what we take from it our moments our memories  to keep to  let go.so why does society try to tell us what we should do with our life and why do we listen.I guess  on this journey of life some have not learned the strength to be strong and believe in ourselves  but God willing we have a new day to learn.

The world as we know it..

The world we live in is becoming  a  sad hateful place violence is escalating  , people are becoming more miserable then nice . I love when I go food shopping and I smile at a passerby  or her in someone’s way unintentionally and I say oh sorry and I get glared at .okay yes we all do not like to food shop but it’s not just there,   it’s many places actually more and more are people are getting this way.When did it become harmful if we stated our opinion and its not what everyone else believes?  How do  we raise our kids in such a world where you cannot be proud of your children for what they believe in and stand up for   but worry  more what price they will pay, have we lost our way?, I’m afraid so ..Will things change for the better I only can hope and pray yes pray I believe there is a god and he looking down upon us and shaking his head .it’s a scary thought if that is the case .

Too much thinking ??

I feel like I am on a roller coaster emotionally in the path months . In the pat year I have felt content peaceful thought I had life figured out ….was I so wrong I guess we never have life figured out at any age.My life feels off kilt and i just want it back up straight. I want my contentment back. I am doubting everything I thought I did was right I am wishing I could go back and redo somethings because now trying to succeed at something again it maybe to late. so I am kicking myself…is this a midlife crisis? or just everything I believed I was doing was just the wrong way , well not everything just one thing or should say a person .  can you guess ? hahahaha my Son this has been what my last two posts have been about. Great kid  great grades has great friends him and his friends do not party like the other kids at school they hate the fact that kids are wasting themselves on drinking and drugs .their on the running team so they care about their bodies which I am so proud of and their so respectful to people but  great with people  except… us  his parents comes in the house kills him to speak hmm unless he wants something just not easy to love right now hate to say that do not get me wrong his dad and I love him just he makes it so hard. All I hear yup he is a teenager…ugh!!! so sick of hearing those words I m thinking that is not the case .Afraid we spoiled him and now we created ourselves a handful. My daughter was never this way . I was when I was 16 but I knew how far to push it with my parents. just so tired . and do not have any answers anymore. Help need some advice…

Still here..

Hi to all my followers I’m still here . It’s been crazy busy since I last posted ..always at the end of the school year. My Son Seth  is keeping me physically and mentally busy.  Seth  and his track team won their last  meet of the year so that put them as  one of the  undefeated teams and now championships begin. What a beautiful moment to watch  when  their coaches and  the boys do a victory run around the track together. but bittersweet at the same time knowing it’s set in some of their minds the last time they will all run together as a team .  as the Seniors  now venture on to their next journey in life for some it will be  college others  the service, or jobs what ever they have chosen as their path at this moment  now that  they have done their time in High School,  for my son and the rest of his friends and team members  next year will be a little more tougher I know  getting back on that track with out their best friends  their hearts will be heavy  but like we all know this time always comes and is a marking stone to what the world has to offer and what we make of it. Now   the rest of his team will  move up and be come the good example for the younger kids as they have been taught when they started out.and show them as their best friends shown them how it’s done  ,they will be the leaders now, as for myself I will be the whisper in my sons ear .guiding him and hoping to keep him on this right path we call life….. now if he listens that will be his choice. and sometimes that’s all we have is the hope they listen.

Summer….

As I sat outside on my porch swing  and enjoyed my morning coffee. I am amazed at how every Spring and summer seem to feel just a little bit more different.let me elaborate,it’s just when the kids were little and Spring and summer  arrived I felt renewed alive…time to pull out all the outdoor items and set the yard up for endless summer days and fun.So this meant kiddie pools and tiny tyke picnic table and swinging and looking for fireflies. then once again life stepped in like it should and I held on tighter. 🙂 so school yrs began and that came with friends camp outs in the back yard movie nights with friends slip and slides then eating watermelon and seeing who could spit the seeds the farthest remember those days ? then the back yard got smaller to them and the endless days at the public town pool was the new place so as the kids swam and ate treats from the snack bars and played kickball on the premises then back in the pool us parents sat by the pool and absorbed the sun and socialized with one another.life once again slowed down life was great Then the train of life rolled again and middle school was here and the pool was no longer the happening place then the summer jobs and and more friends and you know the rest. they grew up. even though my son is 16 he still needs me and my daughter go out to lunch together and shop and have beautiful long talks ..but its so much more different my sons  world is his  friends and running with them and the occasional loud sound of his music  that rocks my house but not enough of those moments more looking at my phone checking for him to tell me he needs to be picked up or that he is sleeping over I believe I look at my phone more then his baby blue eyes. I know how it is suppose to be and I thought I was ready I did everything a mom does and I let go a bit like I should but no one tells you how hard it can be.it’s just a lot more quieter. yes I  believe I am going through the mommy blues hahaha I do still  take out the kiddie pool for my pups hahaha he loves his pool so I guess some things do not change hahaha.