Soon!

Good morning it’s a quiet Tuesday one .. after waking up at 7:00 the aroma of coffee found its way to me . I dragged myself to the shower but not before starting a load of laundry my husband had loaded in the washing machine ..I blasted the hot water since it’s so cold trying to warm up . Finally finding my way to the kitchen grabbing some coffee was so worth every sip.Miss Abigail is already in her chair sleeping away again . Oh this house is quiet but going to be even quieter by Friday when my hubby flys out to my Son for his Basic Training graduation I’ve mentioned this in past posts ,I’m not going can not fly or do the long distance walking so he will video and get a lot of pictures. The graduation isn’t until next Wed with visiting the base the day before so actually he’s flying out Saturday early morning with his mom who got them a room by the airport on Friday night so she wouldn’t have to to do an hr and a half ride to the airport for a 8:00am flight sadly they will be hanging around in a hotel from Sat to Tues because of finding a flight so close to my sons graduation . Then after graduation they will head to the airport and fly home with him . It will be a long day for them they should arrive home around 1or 2 in the morning.. I will stay up to at least give my son a hug and then let him head to bed . And then catchup with him as much as possible until his friends get ahold of him. They have already started texting me asking when he will be home …… so this will be interesting 🙂. It’s only 12 days here then he flys back out again but it’s ok I can at least have him home for Christmas !

I have been slowly decluttering the house .. my daughter will help me when my hubby is away which will keep my mind busy . Yes my mind (hahaha) I think too much . And so decluttering and freshening up his bedding will keep me busy . Yes I have been thinking and what timing as I’m writing this post I’m watching the morning local show while enjoying my coffee their talking about first holidays with your adult kids coming home from college , moving out military etc ..stating how when they come home it will be different for them and the parents as well.. The day they first walked out the door on their own they became adults and started their new life and so they will be different and we will be different as well ..So how we treated them before will change a bit yes their still our kids but their adults, seen a different world so transitioning to coming home will be however we make it but to respect there difference as well as they should respect our difference of how we as parents have adapted to them not being here But being adults doesn’t mean they will not need us they will. But in a more supportive way of letting them tell you how they feel if it’s been hard then guide them with ideas to make it more easier but teaching them , telling them is no longer our job. It’s their life. and we want them to want .. to look forward to coming home.Ok I must say listening to this has helped a lot because that is what I’ve been thinking about so much as the time has come closer to my son coming home and him coming home from Basic Training he will be different. And that could be a good thing . Oh I love him but he needed some help with growing up and hopefully taming his wild ways ..not a bad wild but a young wild .. so I will step back see how he is when he walks though the door and then trend carefully seeing the difference in him. My daughter growing into an adult was so different and easy she didn’t move away but went in a separate part of our house and just transitioned so much better I think she was born an adult ) hahaha) being a teenager was hard for her she always acted older then her peers . Was better around adults so being adult she has flourished and I’m proud of her. . So yes we will see . I’ll keep you posted.

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Monday’s….

Monday’s what can we say about Monday’s … their not the most favorable day 🙄 but this one I must admit wasn’t too bad , after a rainy dreary Sunday and no sleep the night before , it was nice to wake up to a bright sunny morning after a good nights sleep. and a very good hair day (hahaha) now to tell you what I did today well I don’t know it was a day of just whatever I enjoyed my cup of coffee a bit longer this morning . Chatted with a friend on Facebook . Then proceeded with getting supper going in the faithful crockpot . Then just chatted on and off with my daughter who had off today but spent the most part of her day down in her place as she cleaned it and hung out with her boyfriend who was over. I left went to the Post Office and there sat two letters from my son in our post box. It was nice to hear from him he is sounding much more mature . And excited about coming home for Christmas but actually now is switching gears … again … now instead of missing home he’s going on now how he thinks he’s going to miss the base it feels like home to him now the funny thing is I’m wondering because he is coming home for 12 days for Christmas and I’m thinking when he comes home to his bed , us , his old friends we could be dragging him to the airport to go back to AIT there. But I do understand and he’s made such great friends and even though they exchanged phone numbers and so on it won’t be the same as they move on to graduation and their AIT heading in different directions. One guy he is happy about because they realize they only live several town overs so hopefully they can catch up with one another. He’s come a long ways from feeling sappy to now going to miss being their .. oh home is going to be so boring for him. I’m thinking he may reach out even more to an Army career but will see he’s young and good at changing his mind a lot … it can make your head spin. Whatever he chooses I just hope it’s not settling for less in this town .. it’s a nice little town to raise a family and retire in but not for a active adventurous young guy . It can be a bad thing. So yes defiantly will see. I do know I love my kids will do anything for them but want them to be independent happy adults like we all hope and wish for. And I’m actually getting use to just doing whatever ..my lazy routine if you want me to admit it. (Hahaha) yes I know I’m limited as it is physically and so I know my limits … I just know I’m into a routine of keeping myself busy in simple ways . Taking to more friends doing more hobbies It will be nice to have a bit more activity in this quiet house . But Im just afraid he will come home and after awhile settle back into his old ways of doing his running and I wondering where he is .. I know what people have told me he’s part of the Army now so National Guard reserves or full time they own him and that has and will keep him knowing to be on the straight and narrow not that he never was he just loves late nights and keeping me wondering. Oh how things change and it’s so hard to adjust then you do and then things change again and you have to adjust again to that change .. this thing called life 🙂

The quietness …

It’s 10:30 at night and laying here in bed in the darkness taking in the stillness.. the quietness of my house. It’s been this way for several months now no sound of music or tv in the next rooms or the sound of laughter echoing in the house. Throughout the night Just quietness . Something I’m adjusting to . Not a bad thing actually for the moment comforting because this quietness is not a worry feeling but a reassuring one ..my kids are doing what they should be doing their making a life . Their not running all over town doing god knows what or where. I say this because in our Town three young adults in their 20’s were in a terrible car accident the night before and it took the life of one of the three ..leaving the other two in serious condition in the hospital. I feel for this family and the girl who’s life was cut short. Do not know all the details no one really knows at this point still figuring it out . But one thing is speed was a factor and these young adults all they do is run and so on . So I take this quietness and am grateful that I’m not wondering where my kids are . I just pray when my son comes home he stays on the foundation he is building …of course I cannot wait for some noise it will be welcoming and there will be since he is leaving 12 days later for more training so friends will be here to see him. but knowing that he is growing and maturing will be a nice feeling too , and I hope his humbleness he has lately being away stays with him. I will always pray for them to be safe and well and happy . But knowing their starting to settle into a life of their own . The quietness will not be a sign of emptiness or sadness but of a new journey my husband and I will be happy to live with. For months now we have taken this quietness as sadness when all along we should have embraced it as a start of good things our family is where they should be. We did good and now to keep praying for all this and keep the faith they stay on the right path. So as I drift off to sleep with the stillness of our house I will pray for peace and yes for the families of this terrible tragedy ..

August already …

Good morning! It’s unbelievable that it’s August already … not that lI’m to sad it’s been a very humid and rainy one which has been a summer of many days spent indoors somewhere . Not as many bonfires as we thought we would have. I always say I love August for one reason .. it’s the month my first born was born and shocking that she is going to be 23 . Time sure does fly by. So the middle of the month we will celebrate her Birthday in any way she wants . 🙂 I must say it’s been a summer of reading hat has been nice . My book is Getting pretty creepy (hahaha) but so good.. the better of the day before was spent at the Dr.s for physicals and then errands it did help the rainy day move along much easier then it was Home and relaxing in the air conditioning . My other half laying watching tv my son relaxing in his room my daughter and I reading.-a calm quiet night once again.

August use to be buckling down getting back in gear for the school routine .. this year will be so different … my son will be getting back in a routine but it will be for getting ready to leave in 2 months for Basic Training .. Oct until March. While his friends will be leaving at the end of this month for college so it will be bitter sweet for him instead of all going back to school together it will be them all going in different directions some will stay local so he will see them until Oct. for myself I will keep thinking positive and know my son is doing what makes him happy .. now my husband is going to be the one who will have a hard time adjusting .. my daughter and I are close but she has her life to lead even if she still lives here in the furnished basement . Will see as I said before … one step , one day at a time even if my mind still wanders back to thinking of all of this..

Better day…

After a bad day the day before, today was much better cooler morning , I got to enjoy my morning coffee a bit longer after a late night of catching up on episodes of sharp objects on HBO .. mind blowing . Then the usual a pick up here and there around the house not much to clean up. Then I enjoyed sometime outside before the humidity slowly creeped in. Decided to run some errands with my daughter then it was back home time for supper everyone did their own thing light supper it was. My son was feeling better after the allergy reaction to the new cat that will be missed dearly but just wasn’t going to workout with Miss Abigail being a bully as well. My son has decided to wait until he gets back from basic training in March being that he realized how fast Oct would be here when he leaves for Basic. He’s thinking a dog ,we think the cat will still probably not like it at first but will adapt to it better and my son won’t be effected allergy wise.

This evening my other half and I stayed inside no sitting out to warm and buggy plus my other half had had enough of the outdoors after working in it all day. So we watched the nightly news and then I grabbed my book as he laid on the couch with his phone. I was rocking in my favorite chair as I read he remarked how he couldn’t believe how I could rock and read at the same time he said it’s always amazed him and made him feel a bit queasy watching me ( hahaha) the funny thing is as I read on ..the book was getting better and better and the faster I rocked ( hahaha) he then remarked how my face expression showed how much I was into it , I laughed and said well it’s so good I can’t read it fast enough. We did earlier put a sm load of wash in and the washer had stopped he said keep reading I got this your enjoying yourself . I think he new how hard it was the day before having to deal with the whole animal scene and bringing the poor thing back to the shelter. It did break my heart. … as I read my husband said look only 8:30 and it’s totally dark already .. so it begins the days getting shorter it just seems earlier this year summer in not over until my daughters birthday the middle of Aug then I will be ready for the change of season . I have plenty of books ,just feel bad when I’m reading and my other half is just laying there on his phone I wish he would read . But not going to happen .. soon football will be on . I know shouldn’t feel a bit guilty but I do at times because once I get into a book my attention is only on that . Well I just looked at the time it’s late time to get some sleep. So good night everyone.

Oh Mother Nature!

It’s Saturday started off warm sunny birds where singing it was so beautiful slept with the window open all night falling to sleep to the sound of peepers . It felt like Spring had finally arrived .. hmm I guess Mother Nature didn’t think so as the day went on the winds started to blow the birds stopped singing and the temperatures started falling and did they fall ..its now evening we went from 70 yesterday to 30’s right now and freezing rain coming in and predicted for Sunday as well . My son went hiking with his track team on one of the many big mountains in our area this afternoon curious to hear how cold it was on top when he arrives home. Feels like winter is back for the moment. The peepers are defiantly not peeping tonight😂 poor Miss Abigail was loving the windows open and laying in the window sills now their closed and she is roaming around the house going room to room.. she’s not liking it as well. Soon I keep saying Spring will come and stay .

The weather is as changeable as everything else lately …starting or adjusting to all the new changes and I’m haven’t even begun to feel the changes . Less then a month my son will graduate high school and I will then feel the change more then ever . Give me strength 🙄

Nights Thinking… 

The evenings are so much shorter these days as I’m not just talking about it getting darker earlier , it just used to be consumed by early suppers then getting the kids doing and finishing their homework then baths and showers and one tv show and reading time and  then off to bed. Now it’s later suppers and whoever is here to eat what I make and when then earlier settling in bed to watch some shows but now replaced with catching up on them on stream lining NBC the next day because hubby has to get up so much earlier for work so earlier to bed because we are older now and mornings are not good without the proper sleep🙄 how things have changed … oh believe me this is not a rant or complaint just a sad statement to life  and how much it changed in the past couple of years . I’m adjusting it’s a lot more simple  and sometimes less stressful but I’m learning or should say my hubby and I are learning how to relate to our older kids now and our life with eachother again … you will be so surprised if your younger and just starting out with marriage, babies and your reading this and going what ? Believe me now that my kids have grown and we are less needed and the focus is not all on them . You  come to realize how much you and your better half have changed and grown it’s such an amazing thing . I find that we are settled in our own routine and that’s okay and we have our routine as a couple as well it’s so different how we relate now ,this whole new chapter . Waiting to be discovered .