Thinking too much…

It’s a beautiful day the sun is shining the temps are just right. House is clean suppers set but why… can’t I stop my mind from thinking about everything …. so much coming up it’s over whelming me and my thoughts just go to the worry mode why… what happened to my saying , take it one day at a time . One thing at a time should add to my motto list. I’m not taking my own advice too well.. ughh so frustrating . Why am I so afraid that things will work out think positive… why . I guess this is why everything is done in this house today earlier then usual racing around trying to ignore my thoughts. I know over thinking worry does not change anything. It will be what will be . I just pray that God can wash these thoughts away ..

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Mornings..

Good Morning ,it’s been some quiet mornings this week just Miss Abigail and I she’s roaming around in the house as I sit outside enjoying my coffee . Another beautiful day suns shining the air is a bit cooler then the other mornings but feels refreshing. I have been trying to get use to these moments of quietness … as each day passes it’s one day closer to a quieter house. No more doors opening and closing continuously , no houseful of kids ransacking our cupboards for food. No loud music playing unless it’s my hubby or I (hahaha) I think that actually will be me playing more music to drown out the quietness.. no more sport meets to run too that will be the hardest for my hubby to adjust to.. My children will still live at home for a bit ..but now they will both be adults and living their life doing their thing . My daughter working getting closer to her new boyfriend spending more time away from the house, my son ,college / National Guards and spending also more time away as well. . Time sure does fly by and I’m still / trying to adapt to a new journey myself . I will be spending more time now with friends then taking care of this house. I’m hoping my hubby can adapt easily he is thinking a lot about things too … I know I need to go back to my motto ..take it one day at a time . Hmmm so hard taking your own advise. Oh but I will. ūüôā

Good Afternoon..

It’s Tuesday but feels like a Monday hmmm ..always feels that way when Monday ends up being a holiday. It sometimes tends to throw the whole week off. It’s April vacation if that means anything to me hahaha my son is still not around but doing good things, helping a family member with some outside cleanup then to the gym and his track practice . So busy. A good busy . My hubby and daughter are back to work . I doing my usual cleaning up the house a bit.. prepping supper and now settled for a bit watching my daytime soap soon . Then out the door to run some errands . One thing at a time ūüôā

What is with this new generation… oh my gosh the drama is beyond the normal If drama is normal… my daughter too busy taking care of her friends that are causing their own stupidity sadly yes it’s stupidity things…. and my daughter feels she needs to help them okay their in their 20’s their adults yes but they really need to get a grip and yes parents need to help them at this point friends are not doing it…and my daughter needs to take care of herself and get her things together. So crazy. Where did we go wrong?these kids do not want to grow up.so frustrating and I just shake my head because no matter what I say she isn’t going to take the advice well she will take it but follow it hmmm no I do not believe so . ūüôĄwell time for my show then after errands to run . have a great day evening , what ever time a day it is in your part of the world.

Life’s lessons…

I rarely post anything about my daughter unless it’s that we spent ¬†the day together out and yes today we did . ūüôāanyways my daughter has been dating a guy now going on 5 yrs in Oct he is 7 yes older so almost 30 per say but in most cases acts like he is 18 or younger my daughter is way more mature then him at 22 and this relationship is so one sided always been about him ¬†and and he is a gamer so stays up all night playing video games works but only part time could of landed a full time position¬† but has lost his chances by not giving .. showing enough effort to be the right person for it. Sadly he has no motivation¬† so your thinking why is she with him well we all wonder the same thing her family friends . We¬† did not realize all this at the time seemed like a super nice person but now seeing he isn’t well he¬† is not a bad person but he is not a happy person due to his own fault¬† and she is not happy but he plays poor me and she gets mad for a bit but then feels bad and stays with him … we have all been so nice to him helped him but sadly he is not going anywhere they tried living together it lasted barely a year so now he is living with his mom. not saving complains. constantly¬† about everything you cant give him advice he does not take it it’s¬† his way or no way can’t compromise ,and when he is at our house for several day he sets off this vibe a dark cloud over me and she has felt it too yes I believe in vibes.. karma ¬†when he leave it lifts ¬†yes I instantly can feel the relieve ,I cannot take seeing her get miserable but then play nice to him and no matter what we say she stays with him . She says she isn’t as attracted to him like she was and wished it would fade out instead it just keeps going this way they work together so this doesn’t help and now I’m finding that even what I say doesn’t matter as a mother to daughter talk¬† she stays with him . I’m so frusturated with all this and I’m ready to cut the ties myself from befriending him on Facebook … buying him things for holidays I just realize she isn’t going to end this with anyone’s input . why I ask ? She is so much better then this deserves so much more I can’t understand . All I know is I tried being nice to him for her sake but cannot anymore too much stress , so I’m going to stop asking about him if she as an issue with him I will not give feed back I’m washing my hands from this . Anyone have any advice ? I would gladly take it. I’m thinking more negative things I say she stays with him . Is this going to sadly be her life lesson to deal with him and regret this someday . ¬†I hope not . What to do ….anyone ?

Do not get it..

I have been trying to bring in the good energy be more positive instead it’s seeming to go the opposite ..things are breaking and going wrong all around me and it’s making me unhappy. , what am I doing wrong ?  Am I not trying enough to bring the good energy in? I’ve never been a high believer in this but I thought I would try it. Should I just be who I am think the way I always have because honestly I think I was less exhauste when  I just letting things go the way they will I seemed more happier with thinking and living one day at a time and taking things has they come then looking through roes color glasses . I’ve always have believed that somethings you just cant change no matter how positive you are . In some case yes but but not all the time I’ have always lived I guess in the middle . So I guess  I need to stay that person. Especially this yr with all the changes I need to just focus on getting use to the changes is that a bad thing. It’s been a rough day and Im sick of being who I’m not . I’m sorry my sister in law said I should try this good energy positive thing I don’t know how it’s working for her it seems more like she avoids things and people and shelters herself in her home with her family  and   that’s it and doesn’t want to hear or read about anything bad … is that such a good idea ? I’m so confused.  Any advice any one I guess what’s good for som isn’t for others.

Right or wrong?

In my post last night I had mentioned I had a conversation with my son. and I had said it didn’t go as well as planned well I have decided my son is a teenager and definitely does not¬† or is in defiance, does not have a clue about life okay yes he is 16 maybe very social has a lot of drive… focus but maturity not. Okay yes we have all been 16 and we lived in our own worlds¬† and we thought life was so great and fun and we thought we knew everything and our parents we looked at them like they where aliens ….well that was the¬† look I did¬† towards my son. Nothing I said clicked nothing I said was right ,he contradicted himself through out the conversation. I was¬† dumbfounded and knew our talk was going in circles and I didn’t know who was chasing who. I stopped talking just let it go and he went in his room . I pondered the thought over and over in my head the one thing he said that kept slapping me in the face was I qoute¬† “You ask so much of me” “your always telling me to get a better job”¬† it’s always about money I need to concentrate on school¬† and sports ,okay one his father and I only ask for respect when he walks into the house and good grades . and yes we want him to do good with his sports and get into a good college so he can run for them and he is so good at it but its hard to take him after he gets so tired he¬† is exhausting after because he is ugly that I cannot take.who doesn’t want that and we only say things about his job because he his always complaining about money and his father and I feel he wants to hang out with his friends every night and eat out¬† in which case he contradicted himself when he said we do not do that as much now and I only need enough money for gas. yeah okay that’s why when this weeks Spring vacation is here he will be going out and why should we have to pay for that when we pay for everything else and he is able to work. hmm is he thinking of other parents…what is it with these kids and their drama they do not have a clue about life I know my son does not. where did we go wrong or his this just the teenage hormones and friends talking ? so I think as much as I do not want to it’s time to¬† back of¬† and let him eat his words and fail a bit. This is going to be very painful to watch.

Life.. teenagers ..changes it’s enough to make a parent crazy. I know all have been through it and survive but my day we worked for what we wanted we asked for nothing and we got it we where grateful .this generation just seems so arrogant and my Son tries to make it be that it¬† is me …oh no it is not and I am going to show him. wow that was a rant..hahaha okay guess I needed to get that out . Sorry Everyone. Just been a crazy ride on this new journey of being a teenager .Yes have an adult daughter but never went through any of this with her but they are 5yrs apart and so different from one another. Does anyone have any advice to give ? would love some.