Sitting under my tree , happy place today deck needing more work then we expected… the sun is out and there is a beautiful breeze . A quiet day . My daughter is headed to work. My son coming home this evening after an over night orientation at the college he will be attending this Fall. That said I am taking in a moment and doing nothing … as I sit here my mind keeps reflecting back to a mystery this past week .. as You know if your a regular follower or just reading my post . I live in a peaceful quiet wooded area in the country where our driveway is more of a country road . So trees surrounding our home , during the day all you hear is the wind , the birds, and the comings and goings of my kids and their friends. So this was a surprise when I open my kitchen door this past week and found this beautiful item
Outside the door laying on the railing. I asked my son who was just arriving home from his morning run if he had placed it there ?he replied no asking if maybe dad had found it and put it there before work . Puzzled I sent my husband a picture and asked . He replied several minutes later no he didn’t and that he had never seen it before. And thought maybe our daughter. When my daughter woke I asked her and the same reply no not me. Okay now I was really in dismay …. relatives never just show up out here so I didn’t think it was any of them but I called around anyways and same reply no I did not. It’s been a week and this butterfly sits in my planter within my flowers . And there is no answers to where or how his came upon our door step . Do I find it beautiful ? Yes . .. does it make me wonder where this came from ? Yes.. does it bother me this un known mystery yes.. what do you think a message perhaps a sign ? I would love to know .
it’s night time once again … happy that this week will soon be over and then April vacation begins on Monday for my son , yay!!!! He needs a break from all the drama at school and needs a break from people he thought was his friend best friend but sadly my son found out the hard way … my son holds trust and loyalty so high and now this kid who broke his trust will never see my son as a friend again . My son won’t let that happen.. why do people have no guilt in hurting others ? Life can be cruel in so many ways but I’m hoping in less then two months when he graduate he will see life in a different light . Yes not always easy but so worth looking to another day , new beginnings hopefully he will see a happier road in front of him . I pray that he will .
Yes being a teenager has its drama but it’s so different these days . The times have changed people not all but a lot are out for them self’s . I try I’ve taught my kids to be good people , but in this world like the saying goes … “nice guys finish last ” but just maybe being last isn’t so bad maybe its a good thing if your last then your not up there where all the hurtful disloyal people are ., yes… I try to find a silver lining out of everything .. one of my many faults ,hmm maybe but it keeps me hopeful that silver lining .. when I pray at night I always tell god it’s so hard down here why ? I wish he would answer maybe then I could find the answer the would be able to see that smile on my sons face more often , Or hear my daughter come home from work and tell me one time how nice a customer was to her then to hear how they complained over her not having something that they so needed that they had to be so hurtful about🙄 Really is this right? No ! Karma I want to say but with that make me any better then them … just hard being a parent hurt me I can take it but do not hurt my kids. Well on that note I will try to settle my mind down and let this humming of the fan hahaha yes gotta love this fan 🙂 drift me off to sleep . Maybe hubby is snoring could be a long night 😂
laying in bed and you see this on your ceiling and realize your candle warmer is still on. ,… but it still amazes you because there is no heart shape design on the warmer to make this shadow of a perfect heart❤️
Oh where did the summers go when the things we worried about was too much sun ,not enough water , over tired kids . how to get them inside for the night and a sad child because their popsicle melted faster then they could eat it. Replaced with worrying where your kids are ,not home by curfew .. or their not where they said they would be , insecurities if not trusting a friend , your teenager sad and playing sad depressing songs over and over after a breakup. Trying to find an answer to their why’s and it’s unfair .. then we get even more complicated with teenagers hosting parties and you find out your teenager is there because you get a 1 in the morning phone call saying you need to pick me up because there not at a sleepover…. and the party just got busted and the police are asking you to come pick your child up and their car as well . And you want to be angry at them but at the same time you just want to get them home safe and the lecturing will have to wait till morning but you cant sleep because there is so much you need to say and if your lucky they will listen . Then if you have a soon to be 22 yr old daughter who does not know what to do with her boyfriend she is unhappy with and is easy for you to say then end the relationship. But they have 10 reasons why thier unsure of , yes is your head spinning mine is . and then she is trying to save and work more which we know work and making the money to move out is a challenge in it’s self this day in age and she has a good head on her shoulder and is frustrated because she is trying but it is taking more time then she thought. Yes the challenges just as the teenage parties are .. yes some did some didn’t but this generation is parting even more and more young adults are still living at home and how did your teenager get ahold of half the alcohol is beyond me . My Son is a great kid has good friends they all have jobs and athletics and good grades but pressures yes a lot of pressures peer pressure which is at an all time high as well in this age. but do not get me started that is a subject for another day but I believe it is part of the problem and they just can’t get it that this is not a good thing of what thier doing and let me just say my husband and I’ are holding our breaths for school to start 3 more weeks and school will be here and it’s going to be the longest 3 weeks of our lives . So like my title to this post says the challenges …this has been an eye opening summer wish I could find a solution to all if these challenges yes I know learning experience but these days it’s just not a safe answer .
Good Morning siting enjoying my cup of coffee and the sound of the birds outside my living room window the sun is shining and it’s a beautiful morning… sadly my heart is heavy, our little town as witness so much grieve in this past year is just so unbelievable and we all ask why? but there are just no answers. life can be so harsh its just unfair a young family in our town as suffered a horrible loss their daughter of the age of 9yrs old was killed while getting off her school bus this past Friday …do not have all the details but something on her got caught in the bus door and the bus driver did not realize she was caught and drove off her poor dad I believe witnessed it and tried to stop the bus but that did not happen…..the rest is too much to explain. I cant imagine . Why I ask once again …Being a parent Is I believe one of the hardest thing to be and it doesn’t get any easy easier as they get older there are new worries and you just want to keep them in a bubble sadly that is not possible . We need to remember that life is a gift and we cannot take anything for granted and do are best to make each day count so pleases everyone count your blessings everyday.