Stopping a wandering mind…

It’s A cold ..Full moon Monday night. Thankfully my daughter is home and took Miss Abigail with her down to their place. It’s bad enough the full moon is intensifying my anxiousness . It was causing mischief for her . My husband stayed home from work after waking up and still not feeling well still .. plus had a checkup he was going to take a half a day for to come home and change before it. . I’m still feeling a bit under the weather so took my time with doing things . Prep supper … yes in my crockpot (hahaha) love that thing which I believe a lot of my readers have noticed. Then I ran to the Post Office to mail our letters and extra envelopes and stamps to my Son. Grabbed a few things at the market then headed home to fold a bit of laundry . Now been settled in reading my book . It helps at night when my mind has been now switching gears to missing my son at night .. before it was around supper time now it’s at night when I’m either sitting in the living room or laying , settling in bed I think I hear the back door click open and I think oh he’s home from working out or being with friends . but then I know it’s only my mind playing tricks on me. It’s only been 12 days since he left …. but it seems so much longer. That’s why reading helps but tonight with this full moon I’m having a hard time concentrating and twice I think Ive heard the door. and my husband keeps asking me what I’m looking down the hall at ..🙄So happy he’s coming home for Christmas for a bit. I’m happy I can write him letters but I never realized how long it takes for him to get them … unless it’s always taken a long time and we have adapted to texting and pushing the send button and bing .. they get it. I hope he realizes how long and doesn’t wonder why or think why is no one writing ? See this is my wandering mind . Okay time to read and then get some sleep . Good night everyone.

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Friday….

It’s a cold quiet Friday night… except for the occasional cheer my husband yells out towards the TV when our baseball team hits a home run . It’s the playoffs so he’s anxious for our team to win. Miss Abigail is sleeping away how I do not know .. she is upstairs with my husband and I a lot lately … my daughter has been occupied by a friend of hers that broke up with her boyfriend so now every free moment my daughter has when she isn’t working or with her boyfriend she is out. My son took my husband for a hike this morning till mid afternoon so that made my husband happy , now my son is out with friends off and on until tomorrow night to see them while their back from college for the holiday weekend and my son wanting to see them before he ships out for Basic Training Wed . Sunday We will have a family party for him so all the family can come and see him enjoy some food , then Monday and Tues will be him getting ready for leaving. Now I’m starting to get more anxious with him leaving .. ugh I do not want to start this feeling I was doing good . Now I’m thinking and feeling how quiet it will be .. the days shouldn’t be too bad he’s not usually home during the day but the nights he is or has been a bit more lately and knowing he’s not in his room is making me feel anxious .. I keep saying just think he will be fine when I’m sleeping he will be he will have to be, and after two weeks he can call home on Sunday nights . I’m trying to sink this into my head sadly it’s not working. I’m hoping it’s just my mood tonight and tomorrow will seem better with this . I hope .

Reading would be good but I do not know if I could concentrate on it .. I know I should try it’s only 8:30 too early for bed. I know I need to try . I guess I will see if this helps.wish me luck. 😞

Crazy time…

Summer is coming to an end Days are getting shorter. .there is all this talk of School and college shopping and leaving in the air. My son is..was running constantly for the last two weeks trying to fit in moments with friends that are going away for college, let’s just say he has been in a mood .. and it’s understandable so much changing no more going back to high school with all his friends ,I believe all their comfort zones are disappearing and now their all going separate ways and it’s really hitting them now . So my sons mood is not easy to deal with it’s like all of us are walking on egg shells around him. I’m also thinking he’s thinking about going away himself ..but not soon enough he has about a month and two weeks so I’m sure this is weighing on his mind. and he’s thinking and thinking I’m getting a bit anxious as well as my other half … trying not to focus on it but it’s hard not too . I guess we are all facing this change with him. It’s been nice to have my other half on vacation this week to get us use to spending more time together as husband and wife then mom and dad .. did that make since? What I’m trying to say is we are doing more together just the two of us . Yes we do have are moments where we do not know what to talk about because it’s been for awhile our talks usually had something to do about the kids, Today we went out to eat for lunch with my other half’s side and it was just so strange not really talking about our kids well just about how are they doing what are they up to since the relatives are from Florida . It’s just that the whole scene was out of my comfort zone .a lot to get use too. I’m trying to take this one step one day at a time. I’ll let you know how that goes. For now I think I will let my book take my mind off of things for a bit . Good night everyone.