My mind is clear as the crystal blue ocean water , my eyes only see the beautiful rays of light. My energy is endless… my heart beats echoing through my soul . I crave for more of this awakening for this freedom I have never felt before . I yearn for a touch ever so gentle that send chills through my body . I want for more I need more, oh this feeling is like a forbidden fruit .. eat it and I will get burned or not and I will still not feel you near . Either way I will loose
I know …. I’ve posted already today but I’m awake still. I’m laying in bed though so that’s a good thing. It’s so cold and I wanted my bed. As I’m laying here and was trying to organize my Facebook wall and messaging my daughter off and on because she is awake as well. I keep hearing over my hubby’s snoring hahaha … okay to get serious the popping and cracking noise of our house proving all to well how cold it is. My daughter has a friend sleeping over who has to do a night shift so has to go for 1in the morning and oh is it going to be nasty going out to her car in -1 temps , I feel so bad for her. My son texted me tonight he said it was only 1 in Missouri all day and he had to be out in it. I think the cold got to him even though he should be more use to it then his army buddies that are from the south . Being he was brought up in New England. He was grumpy and yes I could tell even over text that he wrote he didn’t actually come out with it that he was grumpy I could just feel it when I read his messages . I said are you feeling cooped up ? He wrote ” oh my god yes! ” ” you can tell ?” I said oh yes I can . He is such a free spirit … even though he loves what he’s doing . Just always been that way. Love and hate that about him it’s like trying to tame a wild animal at times hahaha didn’t know how else to put it. But then on the other hand his heart and humbleness is huge. My daughter is that way too but I don’t feel I have to tame a wild animal with her 🙂 So I was making an album of his army photos on Fb and now their all on my feed and people are liking them and I’m thinking he will not be impressed 🙄 I didn’t realize if I made an album in photos so there all together it comes up in the news feed… 😩 yeah that will really impress him… not! I told my daughter and she laughed and said yeah they kept coming up as notifications on my phone that you posted. Oh well not much I can do about it now. Earlier I was watching videos and reading about Hygge I know so random but I just heard another loud pop and it reminded me of this .. a few of my friends on here and my hubby were talking about it . It’s so interesting . I love to talk more about it but my eyes are not wanting to stay open and it is late so I guess I will get under the covers a bit more and get some sleep. Goodnight everyone.
So once again another snowstorm is coming in actually already here and all the Schools and some business are closed tomorrow already. My son has two of his buddies over for the night and so the house is filled with occasional sounds of laughter or razzing each other as guys do . My daughter and I sat at the kitchen table talking and laughing for awhile as she tried to help me sign up for Pinterest …she has no patience when it comes to helping me with this kind of thing . My hubby was in bed because he has work in the morning. Now I’m settled in bed my daughter made a cup of tea and is enjoying it in her place with a book and Miss Abigail. Nights like this as simple as it is are always special to me. ❤️
Well another night of listening to the air conditioner do its thing while trying to sleep …so sick of it having to run. I actually am welcoming the Fall. weather …..yes I’m aware its still July . I don’t know I guess I’m feeling irritable I’m thinking it could be my birthday next week and I would gladly be happy if it would just get here and be done… never liked birthdays after I hit 40 . Now it’s just a feeling of dread … I am looking forward to my sons though that is next week as well a day after mine …ahh to be 17 again the best well back in my day it was now I think it’s a lot different 17 now is like turning 20 kids grow up so much faster and have so much more pressures put on them . Life has become so complicated and there is so much more kids worry about and feel they have to live up to. I just hope he enjoys it because there is a lot of good times to be had with this time he just has to stop thinking of all the have too’s for just a bit All I want his time to slow down a bit so I can catch my breath and my son can be a teenager . A carefree one hahaha I know not happening is a nice thought though , well everyone’s home tonight and settled in 2 nights in a row that’s a record in my house .and I’m wide awake good thing I bought more coffee today will definitely need it in the morning. 🙂
It’s once again night time and yes I’m in the dark. If you read my last post I wrote in the dark☺..the fan is gently running bringing in the fresh cool night air..rain is coming you can smell it .the fan is humming I think the sound is relaxing to miss Abigail she is laying with us tonight love this fur ball. I should be sleeping but I am wide awake then ever always liked night time better it’s a strange thing I guess I just find it peaceful I read better I like to write and yes I like to talk hahaha which is not good for my husband because he is not a night person…soon school will be out and no routine well it’s less over the yrs now that I have only one left in school and is a junior so he is very independent. Doesn’t like to talk in the morning so I do not have to get up he does his thing.. but still needs to be pushed and set straight at times so my job is not done yet.Soon I can sit on our deck with my daughter and look at the star’s and see how many falling stars we see have a little wine as well and hear the peepers but for now the fan will have to do . Oh I think the boy’s are out that is what I call the coyote’s I can hear them in the distance now howling to each other they must be hunting. In all the yrs we lived here I should be use to them but it still sends a chill through me when they howl such a Erie sound it makes you want to be inside well they have stopped must of found what they where hunting for so tell me what your favorite part of the day I would love to know.
Laying here in bed darkness surrounds me ..except for the shadows on the wall from the moon . A train whistle echos as it passes through the night. Why is the sound seem like such a lonely cry? My eyes feel heavy of sleep but my mind is filled with thoughts ..sleep I tell myself tomorrow is another day. Sleep and dream of pleasant things another train whistle blows and this time gently persuades me to sleep.