It’s close to noon on a beautiful Bright Sunday . I’m am just sitting enjoying my first cup of coffee. Yes a bit late , lazy morning. For all of you who read my post ,if you haven’t read it this will not make sense . Yesterday as I posted started at 6 in the morning .. (early for me ). And a good start I was sore but I was full of positivity . I was going to do what I needed .. could do . I did but as the day went on and people came and went and I became a bit more sore . The pity party struck me. I wanted to go places be active my energy level was so high but my body said no . I may have pushed it a bit more then I was told . Sadly I’m not one to be told what to do . And I dislike to be held back . I’m a fighter . I do . Hmm I wonder where my kids get this attitude. So yes as the day progressed . Pity turned into anger. Once again I so do not like to get angry because I do not often take it out on people but on myself . But you can still feel the vibe if your in my presence .
In a blink of an eye the signs came to light first it started with my daughter sending me a text on her work break. She rarely drinks Coca Cola and she grabbed a bottle without looking at it she went to sit and drink it . On the bottles some have random names on them . She texted me a pick of the bottle she wrote under I just noticed this mom look at the name . In huge letters was Francis . I was in awe I couldn’t believe it but a smile came over my face . It was my Dad’s name rare name especially on a soda bottle and when I was at a low point and my daughter having some bad days herself there he was showing us he was near . When he was sick he said he would always be there . My daughter was the last grandchild he saw born . She was 6 months when he passed . He loved her so much and told her one day as he was holding her ” this will be your world enjoy it be strong” sorry tears but happy ones are forming in my eyes. He told me to ” let him go to say goodbye before he got worse “he didn’t want me to watch him die. He said” enjoy your beautiful little girl focus on her love her be happy” so I did what he asked. It’s been unbelievably 24 yrs and I know he still sends me signs especially when I am down . He was showing us he was still with us. Some can be skeptical but I believe that was not random the name on the bottle.
Second sign but this happen to a my friend of mine . she was telling me about it yesterday as well . A ring she loved and wore constantly she lost months ago she’s a nurse so she thought it came off in one of the gloves she has to wear she looked every where as well for it no luck. She was cleaning her bedroom and she said she looked down on her dresser where she had a little basket that held her favorite rings . And there did she notice sitting on top of the others was the ring . She said she was so dumbfounded said she looked through it many times even grabbed other ring from it and it was not there . She asked all her family members if they found it and put it there . They told her they never saw or new it was missing so no. I said to her ” you do know what month it is”? She was silent for a moment I asked if she was still there? She said ” oh my Kim do you think” I told her yes . Her only and younger sister passed away 3 yrs ago of this month next week it will actually be 3 yrs . I am such a believer in all of this . I feel this so deeply. So I do believe she had a part in this . Okay last sign and yes a long post this is. My son came home while I was up watching a movie at midnight he was with friends all day . He told me how one of his friends had a bad day . Bad day is not the word I would use. He showed me a photo it was a car his mother handed down to him when she bought a new one , he only had it 3months … coming home from college for the long weekend with his girlfriend they were hit by a guy who was weaving in and out of the passing lanes and speeding on the highway.He hit him my sons friends car flipped twice and the suv not car was completely gone the photo showed pieces of the car all over the road . Him and his girlfriend walked away from it without a scratch . Yes a bit shaken up but good . People showing at the scene couldn’t believe it , this could , should had killed or at least hurt them . But nothing and thankful for that . Not their time. I do believe So after my son went to bed I sat there in the dark and silence andI told myself to stop feeling sorry for myself that there is so much worse things in life and this is just a little set back and that life is a gift , and we need to honor this gift whether it’s a love one guiding us that has moved on from this world or an experience of an accident we need to get up be thankful smile , be happy and stay strong . Life is not easy by any means but it’s so worth it.think about that as you go along with your day.🙂
It’s Friday and yes another rainy day but it’s warm in the 60’s could possibly get to the mid 70’s I wish we would get a thunderstorm love them , My hubby NOT !hahaha you know how a dog runs or goes from one window to another looking out in anticipation of something or someone outside well that is pretty much my hubby. While I tend to just sit and watch 😂 possibly on Sat their predicting we could get one. I’m sitting here enjoying my coffee and the quietness. My daughter still sleeping as Miss Abigail is too . My son off to his second day of work at the restaurant/ pub. He’s enjoying it . A Long day to day, 11:30 to 9 .
Last night I watched my hubby and I’ s favorite show . Seal Team . Then we settled in bed he went to sleep I read . Let’s just say I should of just kept reading until I finished it ..I was up thinking about it. I’m about 3 chapters to finishing it. Last night as I was reading we had the window open a bit since the house felt stuffy there was a slight breeze so it kept blowing in the fresh outside air . It was strange I t blew in for one moment a cigarette smoke scent. I really can’t say why or who because my kids were not home it was around 10 at night and they don’t smoke . And my neighbors are not that close to us for the breeze to carry it . So that was eerie … I thought oh maybe my dad was thinking of me .. no I’m not loosing it . Ever since my dad passed I have smelled smoke off and on most times it’s been when I’m having a hard day so I don’t know .. it’s strange when you see signs at times of a love one . I would rather think that is what it was then someone lurking around in our woods. A bit after that my son arrived home and we chatted for a bit , him telling me about his first night of work. Then went to settle as I did well tried . 🙄 now its time to get this day done started some laundry in between writing this … yes multitasking . I see sun hmm it’s possible we could see a thunderstorm! They say sun coming out a bit with rain coming in is a perfect recipe for a storm. Well time to get this day done .
Life is so unpredictable .. first your on top of the the world then the next minute your at the bottom , now you can decide to stay at the bottom or you can choose to climb back up stop letting life …people get in your way . You where born for a reason so climb back up show the world who you are and never let your weaknesses if others stop you but let it make you stronger ,be who you where meant to be live believe in yourself for there is no other like you . So climb and keep climbing but remember do it for yourself not for someone else . For they don’t deserve the strength you have endured to get back up.
Changes life’s way….everything is always changing sadly I am not very good with changes. changes need to happen that is how we grow or make things better but sometimes there hard ..sad changes and not wanted . A lot of them lately bitter sweet ones lets see soon we will all have a new President to some it’s good to others it isn’t we will have to learn to adapt which lately society is having a hard time of that and that is a worrisome thought. My Family and I have gone through a sad change our beloved pups past away before Christmas and it has not felt the same around our house especially for my daughters kitty Miss Abigail and I who spend most of our time in the house . Each day is getting a bit better but some days I feel like he is here because Miss Abigail does her hide in the corner then pounces in to empty air now like she is pouncing on the pups like she use to do, then they would chase each other down our hallway which is what Miss Abigail does after she pounces into empty air but something tells me she sees or feels her buddy …yes I believe in things like that it helps me get through with out him.
My Other change is in less then a month my youngest child will go for his drivers license and I am excited for him but worried at the same time because he is my youngest and he loves to always be on the go so I will have some or should say more sleepless nights. I just feels like yesterday he had just learned to pedal a bike how did time go by so fast its all so surreal . So make memories a lot of them a hold them tight because change has no time span and we are all on this crazy ride called life.
It’s a new day and a new President elected and new laws that have passed that I am not to happy about. I know some of us are happy and some of us are not happy who is our new President but protesting doing it violently is not the answer. I am sorry for that but life will go on and hopefully we can find some hope that things will change for the good. I do not like to talk about politics because to me it’s just a subject not all will ever agree on. I wish we could of voted for more good more peace more morals and especially more love the hate in this world is just unbelievable I never seen it this bad and it’s so scary. we need to stand together and get stronger and love more to get through this world how can we raise strong happy loving kids if all we show them is the negative’s I just do not believe we can …..I know I am going to try to keep showing my kids that there is good in this world still we just need to try harder and I know there are other ways to deal with things we do not agree on by using hate. I hope everyone gets some sleep tonight I know I am hoping to .. a very late and long night.it was.
Love the evening sky this time of year the days get shorter but still warm and the nights are cool and the air smells of fallen leaves and wood smoke from the houses in a distant taking the chill out . the sunsets amazing light , the setting of the sun casting shadows upon the darkening trees is a serene feeling and reminds us that even though life has it’s ups and down its still beautiful and somethings will never change.