Daughters when they grow up they become your best friend. My daughter knows how to cheer me up if I’m having a bad day by bringing me home a coffee or asking me to do something with her. Every night we take a good bit of time texting one another saying goodnight , just like when she was a little girl and we had a goodnight saying,❤️ Today we spent the day together . We enjoyed our morning coffee ate breakfast then decided to take a ride to Starbucks for a change haven’t been there in awhile we had errands to run but set that aside for an hr so we enjoyed the ride listening to her music singing away . We chatted about random things , laughing are butts off which we alway manage to find something to laugh about. I love how we can be open to one another , and to agree to disagree . We have always been close . She has the biggest heart . I can always tell when something is bothering her . When she is hurting I hurt . But the best part is I love this girl of mine so much . Having a daughter is a beautiful thing❤️

Missed dearly, loved always…

I happen to look out my window and catch a glimpse of something moving in the distance

for one moment I  thought it was you ….

my mind snapped back …but my heart did not.

my eyes want to see you . and my heat  doesn’t want to let go

you where my protector when I was alone

you where my comfort when my house was quiet with sleepers but I was not.

you where the one I could shed my tears on when no one else would understand.

all I had to do was look into those big brown eyes and I felt all the love you had for me as I had for you.

forever missed……..




The Rainbow Bridge..



As I take a deep breath and I begin to type my fingers feel like they’re  fumbling over the keyboard, my heart is heavy and I am so far writing this without tears in my eyes, but give me time the tears will fall soon as they have been on and off all week. Dec 2nd was the last time I had wrote anything, my last post was about counting my blessings and I was on day 2 the day my  best friend, unconditionally  by my side and so very loved by my family, the protector and rascal and just sometimes a handful I swear he was a person in his past life 🙂 and so embedded in our hearts for the last 6 years and so very loved our beloved pups took a turn for the worse and we had to say goodbye to him. This was the the hardest thing we’ve ever had to  do. I know Oakland or to us Oakie  is in a better place with no more suffering and no more worries though. My husband and son did a beautiful job with tears in their eyes  with finding a perfect place on out property over looking his home in his roaming place and in the sunlight and now he has gone over the rainbow bridge and I am hoping it’s just as  bright and sunny and warm and he is running in green grass with all the beloved other pets that have passed and he is happy and barking and playing and he will suffer no more  with his issues he had come to us with . We called him 0ur pups  his first 3 years of life were not happy ones but his last years  were happy because we saved him, we tried to erase the miseries his first owners put upon him. They where not nice and he was not able to be a happy, loved dog. I do not believe he knew what love was until he came home with us, he was haunted by  anxiety and trust issues and was not  a dog who took well to visitors he would bark  and growl until he felt you were to be trusted  .. if you were lucky, he did love his sister which I would say a sister from another mother, my daughter loved that and always got a good laugh out of that because his sister is my daughter’s cat that she had brought home 3 yrs ago as a kitten and they became fast playmates  and good company  to one another when we all had to go out. I know Miss Abigail misses him so much  and she finds it just as quiet as we do everyday  this week or I should say it will be as of tomorrow Sunday , she roams through our house looking under things, around things for him before she finally settles down sometime I find her staring off in one direction or another then sprinting like she is spooked. I want to believe she feels him and she is chasing him, yes I do believe that is possible, why not? what does it hurt? He may have been a challenge  but to us and Miss Abigail  he was faithful cuddly  and loving. Yes, each day was a new challenge, but we made it through because we believed as long as we loved him that was all that mattered to him and us and he will never be forgotten. He will be missed, so missed. Every part of our house and life has a memory of him. So my Pups, Mama loves you, Daddy loves you,  Jamie loves you, Seth loves you and Abigail loves  you and I hope you know know that. It took me until today to write this because it was just too painful to say good bye to you on here where there are several  photos and posts about you and knowing I won’t be posting about you.  Well, maybe not, I will post memories .. and I want to thank my followers who loved my photo Monday of him from about two Mondays ago. Rest in peace, my Pups.