Good NightūüĆô

the fan is humming it’s the only sound breaking through the quietness in the house tonight my hubby and his fan… the bedroom is darker then usual no light from the moon ,clouds moving in to bring some rain. My daughter is out with a friend and my son is in bed settling his mind down with a hot cup of night time tea . Hubby is fast asleep and I am not ūüôā always… I was just reflecting on the little things I guess when my phone went off a minute ago because my daughter texted me a heart because earlier before she left work she told me she was going to be a bit later she sent me a heart so I sent one back but I guess she was just seeing it and even though she is out with her friend she sent me one back still ‚̧ԳŹ so it got me thinking of how her and I had this special goodnight saying she was the one who thought of it ,it was long and she would say it first then I would repeat it back with her name and it went on for yrs and I always wondered when she would grow out of it . Well it took a class trip in Elementary school that she went on for a week . She was worried she wouldn’t be able to say it so I told her when your all settled in and your ready to fall asleep if you think about it say it to your self your part and when I go to bed I will say my part ….. she. Liked that idea , honestly I do not know if she ever said it to herself that whole week . I never asked because when she came home she never ask to say it just said good night … hmm funny what you can remember and still can tug at your heart… my son was more simple it was ,have sweet dreams then a hug .. hmm how I miss all those moments ..at the time it was just second nature what we did . Now its missing memories .. oh the simple things we can take for granted but then when time passed it’s really becomes a big thing and means everything. So tonight when I say my prayers as I drift off to sleep tonight I will make sure to add a thank you to god for all these simple blessings I believe I have thanked him for all these blessing but I think I need to thank him again especially about the little things . ‚̧ԳŹ

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A beautiful sight!

Today our friend came back , she was roaming around our woods and front yard during the fall time . My daughter and I where driving up our driveway yes up our driveway is like a small country road I will have to post a photo sometime. So as we are¬† driving she pasts¬† in front of us thankfully a good space away and went¬† into the edge of our woods we stopped to get a picture .she was beautiful she just stood their wagging her little tail and happily staring at us there was no fear in her eyes I think he knew she was safe.¬† I can’t tell you how long we sat there admiring her this beautiful animal God ¬† created and blessed us with her presence again it seems she made¬† our home hers for the moment because as of this evening she is still roaming and eating on our land and staring as the kids coming¬† and goings in there cars. This amazing beautiful doe. we are so happy to have her back she brings a good energy with her .I hope she stays around a bit longer .

letting things go…okay trying.

Woke up got things going earlier around the house since the rain calmed down and the sun peaked of and on and my daughter had the day of we decided to spend the day together get out of the house so since I just got my subie¬† back this week we took my car and went to grab some Starbucks all was going good it felt good to be driving my new car because if you have read my past posts I¬† have not had an easy time with that car I have had more driving time with their loaner cars. So my daughter and I decided to look for the school my son would be starting is first Spring track meet for the season and we had to drive slow well I was going 10 to 15mph in their parking lot and my daughter turned the music down and says “do you hear that noise “? Im like nooo okay it was me in denial there was no way not too people outside the school could hear it and stared I just wanted to jump out and beat my car the noise started as a rubbing noise from the back right wheel when you got over 20 you didn’t hear it as much but when we got to our driveway the noise was a high pitch¬† we just sat there my daughter was like so what are we going to do and I calmly grabbed my cell and called the Manger at the dealership again….but this time I was calmer not the radical person they had the last time. but straight to the point that I was disgusted and what where they going to do and he said we are going to have you bring it back and we will give you a loner and my people WILL as he emphasized it and check all the breaks and everything again I just sighed to myself again hmm lets say for the first time.but like I said I kept it to myself because¬† their going to take care of it and I’m going to not over think this what do I expect new used car .

My new or trying to be new attitude let it go it’s a car I will have a car I am not stranded it’s life let it go….they will fix it . out of my hands .yes trying this let it go attitude need to for myself and especially my kid’s . let the little things go deal with the bigger be more happier carefree enjoy and be thank full for my blessings¬† Believe me not an easy task for me¬† letting things go¬† I know somethings¬† are not to be let go but over the years I have taken it to a bit of an extreme. Now I am going try to not be as uptight. …will see I will keep you posted how this is going,¬†¬† I will add one thing before I enjoy a movie with my family …Starbucks was so good and spending some laughing moments with my daughter was the best.

My Valentines Day….

This years Valentines Day was a quiet one ,¬† My husband and I where not feeling that great ..not surprised with everything that is going around at the moment¬† so we ordered in from one of our favorite places enjoyed a quiet but delicious meal . Our kids where out so it was very quiet .. then we decides to settle in our bedroom and and get cozy¬† under the the covers and watch our shows we watch on Tuesday nights and so we laughed mind you in between coughing and the kitty Miss Abigail scratching at our bed¬† ….okay so not the most romantic night but lets see we will be celebrating¬† our 22nd wedding anniversary¬† next week and that isn’t adding in the fact 4yrs together before¬† that.¬† we must be doing something right hahaha .and adding in sickness what can you do so we made the best of it . I must say the I loved it and it was so simple and cozy and nice, sometimes the littlest things are the most meaningful and memorable ,Didn’t I say in my past posts its the simple things in life that makes me happy.

The Quietness….

I lay here in the warmth of my bed , darkness all around me except for a shadow of light from the moon above.¬† The sounds¬† of a trains whistle¬† in¬† the distance breaks the quietness¬† that¬† is comforting but almost unsettling…. The quietness comes back my eyes are feeling heavy soon sleep will be upon me . So I say my prayers to the heavens above thanking God for all the blessings he has given me…then I turn gently to my side trying to not awake my husband who is sleeping softly next to me, has I lay there. sleep takes over me and I fall gently to sleep…..

21st Anniversary!!!

Today is mine and my husbands 21st Anniversary, I am in awe of how fast that came let’s see if you add 6 yrs together before getting married we have been together 27 yrs. where did that time go it’s not a blur but more like¬† book that is¬† left out in the wind and the pages flip¬† rapidly¬† through and you can’t grab the book¬† in time before the wind looses your page . life has changed a lot since we got married …yes that is what happens that is what is suppose to happen, we get married or not we have kids or not we focus on our careers or not whatever the path we choose or where god leads you.. my husband and I worked a lot and we chose to buy a house that needed a lot of love and care and we knew we wanted to marry we jumped on it¬† so we worked through the week and weekends were spent working on the house with the help of family and friends ..¬† and we¬† spent our weekends with friends or at our home with home cooked meals¬† snuggled on the couch with a good movie and snacks money was tight but it worked¬† we had two dogs we got has pups and they were our babies. life was good we had fun¬† and then one day I found I was pregnant which nothing we planned on or was¬†¬† against just didn’t think this¬† could ever be possible because with my health issues and that is where God chose my path with this blessing of a beautiful baby girl and I a stay at home mom. yes it was a little hard financially at first but that what I chose and¬† it worked out in the end and then five years later I received my second blessing my handsome baby boy and my doctor said okay no more you have two healthy kids a girl and a boy …I agreed never imagined this would be possible I became busy things changed rapidly like life does but you never imagine. I was busy being a mom and I¬† took the role very seriously I love being a mom love taking care of my family and then guess what?? They grew up and I found myself less busy less chaotic less the cool mom but just a mom that quote my son who I am not his friend but his mother…hmmm okay.. yes boys have a mind of their own and have all the answers well mine thinks so. My daughter graduated works a lot and spends time with her boyfriend but we get our lunch out day.:)¬† my kids are beautiful and turned out to be good kind people ,so since them getting older I have been so¬† focused on so much of who am I? and thinking I lost myself and my husband but each day I am learning and finding out yes I have change yes my husband has changed….we grew up and as I sit here writing I think I haven’t lost myself Im still back to writing like I have always loved to do but didn’t have time and reading more and socializing again but without the kids. I was so worried how our marriage would be now but it’s calm content and we are happy and learning the next chapter in our lives and god willing we keep learning.