What a beautiful ending to a snowy day … for just a moment this happened then was gone . The sun if you look close looks like a heart. Blessing!
The evening started off as usual my hubby getting home from work and taking a run before the storms came in to shake off the stress of the work day. My son at his Tuesday night work out group and my daughter at work. Then there was Me .. holding down the fort and getting supper ready well leftovers last night After when everyone was home supper finished and cleaned up the thunder rolled in .My son asked if we wanted to watch a movie my son has been in a movie mode lately I’m thinking it’s his way of distracting his thinking mind and tired body so I said yes even though my book was on my lap ready to finish ..my hubby opted out this time to relax in bed for an early work morning. My daughter came home about 15 minutes into it and decided to watch with us . My son chose one of the Thor movies I’m not much of a Thor fan but the guy who plays him I love ! (Hahaha) it was such a relaxing fun night with both of my kids . I’m absorbing all this beautiful energy from them .
When they were younger we always watched movies together it was a Friday night thing after a long week of school and work , we would order pizza and settle in and watch movies .. then the rest of the weekend was theirs to do . Now it’s when or if they want to …few and far between. So I take it while I can . ❤️
Today time seemed to move in slow motion. I went around cleaning up things around the house ,dusting, the usual .Figuring what to make for supper . .. knowing I had time because my hubby had texted to say he was working late. I watched my day time soap and then as I was waiting for the washing machine to finish I sat outside on my swing closing my eyes trying to stop thinking .. reflecting back to what my daughter had told me earlier in the day.. ( read my post before this) couldn’t imagine how that family was coping with this loss … I looked up at the blue sky and thought how beautiful it was and the same word echoed in my mind…..why? Does God know why ? Does he understand ?
I worry about this I must admit because I have a daughter that suffers from such anxiety since high school she is doing much better now , has her moments but gets through . She is so sensitive which I believe is what makes me so nervous .. I know when she hears about suicide it breaks her heart . She has such a big heart . After sitting outside for a bit I knew it was not doing me any good because I just sat there swinging back and forth which usually I love but I was thinking thinking to much . I got up and made myself busy until finally the washing machine was done.. About 2hrs later my daughter walked into the house alone I looked around for her boyfriend she was with earlier … no where to be found . She stated he would be here soon was with his family getting a car from them and I just wanted to come home and wait for him . I didn’t push , I watched as she went down to her place and came back with her book in hand and settled on the couch as she asked what I was doing … I stated not much sat in the living room with her with my book . I knew she was needing some quiet time but also wanted to talk but not , always when she grabs a book. she then said said I think everyone is at the beach I was like what ? she said on Facebook everyone for the most part is saying their at the beach ..going to the beach …you will see this all summer posted on there . I told her yeah I’m sure. Do you want to be ? she said no not at all just wonder why it has to be plastered all over Facebook . I thought to myself that’s what happens on there . People need to state where they are . I rolled my eyes to myself . I just replied well then stay off Facebook . Take a break from it. She sighed .
Sometimes I believe life is only exciting for some if they state all their where about’s and play how happy they are to the world … but are they? . Or just need to brag or just like to state where they are . I do understand my daughters point. I grew up without it and I think life was easier . We lived our life’s did what we wanted and no one had to really know. I think that’s why getting back into reading again and doing projects . Plus waiting for my journal I want to start and so believe it’s a perfect time .not going to say anymore until I receive it. I believe will be a great blessing. 🙂 Tonight I settled in and watched my hubby and i’s favorite summer show . America’s got Talent. Now he is snoring away and I was trying to read but my eyes started to get heavy . My son is settled in for the night my daughters with her boyfriend so I think I will say my prayers and get some sleep .. hopefully I can finish saying them before I find myself falling asleep., yes my prayers are long.. ❤️
the fan is humming it’s the only sound breaking through the quietness in the house tonight my hubby and his fan… the bedroom is darker then usual no light from the moon ,clouds moving in to bring some rain. My daughter is out with a friend and my son is in bed settling his mind down with a hot cup of night time tea . Hubby is fast asleep and I am not 🙂 always… I was just reflecting on the little things I guess when my phone went off a minute ago because my daughter texted me a heart because earlier before she left work she told me she was going to be a bit later she sent me a heart so I sent one back but I guess she was just seeing it and even though she is out with her friend she sent me one back still ❤️ so it got me thinking of how her and I had this special goodnight saying she was the one who thought of it ,it was long and she would say it first then I would repeat it back with her name and it went on for yrs and I always wondered when she would grow out of it . Well it took a class trip in Elementary school that she went on for a week . She was worried she wouldn’t be able to say it so I told her when your all settled in and your ready to fall asleep if you think about it say it to your self your part and when I go to bed I will say my part ….. she. Liked that idea , honestly I do not know if she ever said it to herself that whole week . I never asked because when she came home she never ask to say it just said good night … hmm funny what you can remember and still can tug at your heart… my son was more simple it was ,have sweet dreams then a hug .. hmm how I miss all those moments ..at the time it was just second nature what we did . Now its missing memories .. oh the simple things we can take for granted but then when time passed it’s really becomes a big thing and means everything. So tonight when I say my prayers as I drift off to sleep tonight I will make sure to add a thank you to god for all these simple blessings I believe I have thanked him for all these blessing but I think I need to thank him again especially about the little things . ❤️
Today our friend came back , she was roaming around our woods and front yard during the fall time . My daughter and I where driving up our driveway yes up our driveway is like a small country road I will have to post a photo sometime. So as we are driving she pasts in front of us thankfully a good space away and went into the edge of our woods we stopped to get a picture .she was beautiful she just stood their wagging her little tail and happily staring at us there was no fear in her eyes I think he knew she was safe. I can’t tell you how long we sat there admiring her this beautiful animal God created and blessed us with her presence again it seems she made our home hers for the moment because as of this evening she is still roaming and eating on our land and staring as the kids coming and goings in there cars. This amazing beautiful doe. we are so happy to have her back she brings a good energy with her .I hope she stays around a bit longer .
Woke up got things going earlier around the house since the rain calmed down and the sun peaked of and on and my daughter had the day of we decided to spend the day together get out of the house so since I just got my subie back this week we took my car and went to grab some Starbucks all was going good it felt good to be driving my new car because if you have read my past posts I have not had an easy time with that car I have had more driving time with their loaner cars. So my daughter and I decided to look for the school my son would be starting is first Spring track meet for the season and we had to drive slow well I was going 10 to 15mph in their parking lot and my daughter turned the music down and says “do you hear that noise “? Im like nooo okay it was me in denial there was no way not too people outside the school could hear it and stared I just wanted to jump out and beat my car the noise started as a rubbing noise from the back right wheel when you got over 20 you didn’t hear it as much but when we got to our driveway the noise was a high pitch we just sat there my daughter was like so what are we going to do and I calmly grabbed my cell and called the Manger at the dealership again….but this time I was calmer not the radical person they had the last time. but straight to the point that I was disgusted and what where they going to do and he said we are going to have you bring it back and we will give you a loner and my people WILL as he emphasized it and check all the breaks and everything again I just sighed to myself again hmm lets say for the first time.but like I said I kept it to myself because their going to take care of it and I’m going to not over think this what do I expect new used car .
My new or trying to be new attitude let it go it’s a car I will have a car I am not stranded it’s life let it go….they will fix it . out of my hands .yes trying this let it go attitude need to for myself and especially my kid’s . let the little things go deal with the bigger be more happier carefree enjoy and be thank full for my blessings Believe me not an easy task for me letting things go I know somethings are not to be let go but over the years I have taken it to a bit of an extreme. Now I am going try to not be as uptight. …will see I will keep you posted how this is going, I will add one thing before I enjoy a movie with my family …Starbucks was so good and spending some laughing moments with my daughter was the best.
The rain comes pouring down making the night darker then its already is. I shelter my chilled body under the comforts of my blankets waiting for the storm to pass.My thoughts are at bay for now letting my mind feel free to occupy the many blessing I have So I close my eyes and dream of all the goodness around me . Thank you lord.