Calm..

Woke this morning with a unsettled feeling. If I can even call it that . It’s really hard to define what I was feeling. I grabbed a quick shower then went and grabbed some coffee. Still feeling the unsettled ness .I tried to shake it off as just tiredness . I knew though it wasn’t that. I went about getting somethings done around the house. As the day went on I started go feel more at ease . By afternoon I felt better. I decided to go outside and absorb some sun in my face . Feel its warmth. It was such a beautiful day out. The sky could not have been any more blue then it was . Such a deep radiant blue. I just enjoyed the sun ,listening to the birds. And in the distance of the woods I could hear the acorns falling . All was peaceful.

A car pulled into the driveway. And my peace felt gone within seconds . My in-law aunts seem to arrive at our house . I do not mind company . I do welcome it but I like to know when someone wants to visit. I waited for them to come into the house .once inside things became strange. Well rude. Not on my part but theirs. They made rude remarks. at me because they didn’t like what I was saying. It wasn’ their way . Sadly these are two sisters who have never married and live together. I believe their not happy people unless they judge someone . I do not agree with this behavior . I have put up with it ever since I married. I am or for the most part kind to everyone as long as you are to me and my family if not I will not stand for it and yes it has got me In Trouble many times. I am a fighter I can get angry yes who wouldn’t when your verbally being attacked for no reason but being yourself. Yes I have change a lot over the yr. I have come to take care of me . I have come to realize there is a time when you had enough so yes . I speak my mind . But today was different. Something felt different. As they dished out the bad behavior . I stood there sipping on my tea. I replied with one maybe two words. I was so calm. I wasnt letting them get away with this if that’s what your thinking. I was just calm I had no will to fight there was no reason to . They were being rude. My daughter was amazed at my calm demeanor . And honestly I believe they where shocked the relatives . Because I had no come back .. no raised voice, I just kept excusing myself to walk away for a bit. My calmness amazes me. And the anger I would once feel when this happened. was not there. I was just calm. Luckily I thought of a away to makeup an excuse to get them to leave by telling them my daughter I had appointments to be at and we needed to go . Lucky my daughter caught on with what I was doing. So we acted like it was time to go . Thankfully they stood up from where they where sitting and head for the door. I told them to have a good day . And they were gone . I do not know what happened . The person standing there in that room with them just felt like it wasn’t me. (Haha) no I’m not crazy .. yet😂 Its just a yr ago I would have been lashing back at them and giving them what they wanted . A reaction. But today I believe I shocked them with my calm demeanor . And it was like they inflated. All was quiet for many moments. And I felt fine. My daughter was impressed.

I will never understand why people have to hurt others why they get pleasure out of being rude to others. Maybe their really not happy with them self’s . Maybe their not as confidence as we think they are. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. I really do not like to think bad of others.. Sadly I did use to judge. But now I see no point in it . It only hurts us to be so hurtful by that behavior. And turns us into angry people and I know I do not want to be that kind of person .

A lighter note..

  • On a lighter note… Sunday has been a nice quiet calm day . I did the usual things that are never ending around the house. Then settled for a change and enjoyed an afternoon movie. The house was mine my husband went for a run . My daughter at work . My son laying down after a long sleepless weekend with National Guard Duty. I enjoyed . It’s now evening and the sun is slowly setting the evening is still warm. Dinner is done and cleaned up . This afternoon I happen to look out to see the fox was back in our yard enjoying himself in our compost . He is such a little guy , not afraid you can walk outside and he will just look at you and turn back enjoying what feast he may find. Now our coyote is a different story . He is so skittish one sound or movement and he is off running deep into our woods. Never realized how skittish they are .
  • It’s 7:00 in the evening it’s still calm and quiet. Just enjoying it. Nothing else needed to do nothing to have to think about. Just nothing (hahaha) yes I’m feeling a bit lazy as well. I’m thinking of reading in a bit and see how that goes. Yes still struggling my way through the Stephen King novel. It is getting better but honestly you shouldn’t have to struggle through a book. Until I find another book to get into. Stephen King is it. On that note I think I will go and try reading .Have a goodnight everyone.
  • Summer night scenes..

    Starting to feel like summer. Night time is my favorite I know it sounds a bit odd but I’m such a night person, so of course summer nights are the best. Here is the second night photos of this summer. The deck is a work in progress the white on the railings and the deck floor is all treated with paint remover . It was so hot my hubby had to stop so little by little getting rid of the old paint to had the new. Other then that I think the yard looks peaceful with the solar lights illuminating the yard . The sky is a very dark blue, clouds slowly moving in. I was hoping to catch some eyes glowing in the pics through the woods .. but nothing , it’s all calm in the woods tonight . The boys (coyotes) are probably settled in or hunting elsewhere .Sometime tonight I should hear the trains whistle echo through the darkness . Or the dog barking at the nearby house . All such a comforting sound as I lay in the darkness of our bedroom saying my nightly prayers as I’m slowly drifting off to sleep . With that said I guess it’s time to do that . Back to the work week for my hubby and son and for me back to getting the house in order and errands to run as well as my daughter on her day off. Good night everyone.

    Friday…

    Ahh Friday is here which means a payday and bill day . Ughhh the dread but all done, as supper is cooking in my crockpot so love that contraption. The house is filled with the delicious aroma of pot roast cooking. House is clean for the most part . Now finishing my daytime show. As the house is quiet . Even Miss Abigail is not here .. well she is but has herself tucked away down in her place . Nice and comfy I’m sure. It’s a dreary cold day so she has the right idea. My son got a call back from one of the jobs he applied to , he has a in interview on Monday . I’m crossing my fingers and praying doesn’t hurt. They respect him being in the military so they understand about drills . So that is good. I know it’s a law they have to let him but they respect it which is the good part. For now he has his first weekend drill since being back from Basic Training this weekend. I guess it’s time to cook what sides will go with the roast. Of course it’s going to be mashed potato .. my family loves them! As I finish up on this post outside my window there is some snow coming down… yeah .. not😥

    Mother Nature…

    The wind roared like a temper tantrum last night . It’s calmed down now but the wind has been replaced with cold temps and rain and snow coming in tomorrow then back to 60’s for the weekend . Mother Nature is being temperamental . And my body is feeling it. Going back and forth with the temps is not good. At least there was a beautiful sunset tonight . I hope you enjoy it. Happy I captured it. Haven’t been capturing them in time.

    Calmness..

    It’s Tuesday and the morning was a quiet calm one . I woke to the sound of birds since we had our bedroom window open a bit for fresh air during the night . I scrolled through my Twitter , Instagram account , email and horoscope then decided it was time to head for a shower. Love walking out to a clean house . Went to get my coffee and enjoyed it with a little conversation with my son who was up and heading to the gym . Tomorrow he has a job interview . I’m crossing my fingers for him. My daughter still was sleeping . So after he left , the house was quiet. I am now enjoying my daytime show while the sun is slowly coming around to the front of the house to shine in . I think opening the slider door to the screen was a bit early it’s a bit cool . But I’m just craving the feeling to open the house up . This is the sun shining through my living room window the evening before it the photos . I love how the rays of the sun appears. in the photograph beautiful .

    As I was getting some lunch I noticed my turkeys are back it’s hard to see them their blending into the woods a bit. It’s another sight of Spring! Soon we will be hearing the boys ( coyotes) that’s what I called them when my pup was alive … he would go crazy when he heard them so I called them the boys and told him it would be okay . They come so close to the house at night running by our bedroom window always reminds me of the wolves running along the polar express train in the Polar Express movie . At night when we are sitting out looking at stars you can spot them in our woods their eyes catching the light from our solar lawn lights. It’s a bit creepy but beautiful ( hahaha) I know two word s you wouldn’t expect together. It is though. I guess it’s time to get something done around here . Have a great day everyone.

    Calmness…

    As you see I’m laying in the dark comfy though in my bed ,the house is quiet as the day was . Everything shut down and settled in bed all of us.. It was a calm quiet day as well even though all of us where home . It started with enjoying a cup of coffee with my hubby then a second cup with my daughter , as my son ran around in the kitchen making something for breakfast the sound of the blender and the decent of eggs frying coming from the kitchen . ..He’s back and with his special diet regimen . My hubby did step out for a bit and did the food shopping for me while I was decluttering the kitchen a bit more since it will be a new color and decor. While my daughter did some laundry and cleaned her place up. Then everything was quiet hubby was home groceries were put away . Daughter down in her place . My son sleeping ..out like a light . Exhausted. And not feeling well . As for me getting some dinner going a rotisserie chicken my hubby brought home from the market all set to eat ..so I made mashed potatoes with ranch seasoning in them . Some steamed corn . Nice and simple but hearty . My son ate with us . It was strange but so nice having us all together eating dinner together. Very rare. So I absorbed the moment. Because I know they won’t always be this way . Then my son went back to bed and hubby settled in our room to watch tv as my daughter and I enjoyed a show in the living room .so yes a very calm day but content and relaxed. So now on ward to Monday and a new week. Back to business tomorrow … more bills to be paid ,post office run, my kids hoping to get a Dr.’s appointment . And hubby back to work . Maybe I can sneak in a coffee run. Well it’s getting late and even though it’s really is only going on 10 but with the time change it going on 11 I guess it’s time to get some sleep . It was a late night last night so do not want another one. Goodnight everyone.