So in less then a week my son will be starting his Senior yr of Highschool ….and more change comes with it like there hasn’t been enough changes this summer😒 so our schools are lacking kids our numbers are low so sports gets effected by this badly plus a lot of the kids are not into sports now…sadly My son is lacking boys for Cross Country running and he is the only Highschool student the rest which are only three other boys are 7th graders so newbies so really no team persay .. so he checked out the football practice today and the football team wants him badly but I don’t know how much his heart is into it, he played back in elementary and middle school one yr then got into running and that became his passion. I know I am sad because I love watching him run cross country and I do not want him to get hurt in football because he has winter indoor track and spring that he loves . So he is a bit disappointed because he was hoping to have one last yr of Fall running but what can you do when there is just not enough kids. One more thing for him to adapt to. I’m amazed how this school year is already upon us this summer went by so fast. and a sad one as well. Today I notice on my deck some fallen leaves that have already changed and when I’m sitting on my swing I can hear the acorns falling in my woods already. So even the season is moving forward soon the apple orchards will be ready for people to pick apples. And I will make my Swedish apple pie so delicious , a very sweet tasting pie. I will post it when I make one. But for now I will embrace the last week of summer vacation and move forward when it’s time and whatever my son chooses for a sport I will embrace that as well. Right now I’m laying in my bed writing this with my husbsnd sleeping away but the house is filled with the sound of laughter from my daughter and her friend in the other end of the house ..such a beautiful sound.🙂
It’s late at night lying in bed and my thoughts feel all scattered and nothing feels normal ..I think this will be mine and my families feeling for awhile as well. ..everything as changed so fast it’s unbelievable so. I guess the feeling of normalcy is not happening is where it’s at for the time being one think that hasn’t change is the kids are still out and I will wait to fall asleep unless sleep overcomes me …haven’t had much of a good nights sleep ‘this past week. So I will let the humming from the fan get me to sleep .
Hope everyone had a good weekend if it was the weekend in your part of the globe. Mine was as always pleasant and well spent with my family laughing and chatting untill we all went our separate ways doing our thing . My hubby and I are noticing the days are getting shorter already each day it gets darker a little earlier and then there’s the back to school commercials selling all the essentials needed to have a great year. I’m like really,,, it’s July yes the last week of it but still . I think this is the shortest feeling summer ever . I know it’s been the most layed back summer my hubby and I have had . Okay it’s been a more wondering where my kid is summer hahaha now that it’s his first driving one. . That’s been a bit of a challenge and still is but trying to be better I did state in my last posts to whoever read it I would try to be better with being more lenient with the texting (checking up) I would trust him more. I believe I am getting. better but something’s a mother has a hard time with certain things. Any how happy the humidity breaked for the moment it’s nice to have the fresh air come in . My hubby and I are relaxing in our bedroom since he has to get up earlier for work this week I’m going to read my book in a bit and yes wonder where my kid is . School will be nice because he will be roaming less with his busy schedule and I’m looking forward to his Last Highschool Cross Country Meets well….that is sad to say actually first time saying it wow nothing like feeling like you got the wind knocked out of you wow his last yr of Hogh School ..time sure does fly if you blink and then you missed it.😥 well this mama will have a lot of picture taking …I know im some ways he is ready to move on but at the same time it’s going to be a hard one a lot of years put into his sports and his friends yeah isn’t it for a lot of us when we graduated , but for now will concentrate on the school year and go from there.
It’s a quiet Tuesday night at 8::41pm and my better half and I oh can’t forget Miss Abigail are settled in bed with the air-conditioner blasting and watching Americas got talent nice place to be at the moment . Yes we are proud homebodies getting use to it , yes sometimes it’s too quiet but it happens. and I need to embrace this new chaphter ,life is forever a change of moments and I know my better half and I have done our job ..but where not done yet we just have more layed back days .My son is going into his senior yr of Highschool and it will get a bit busier for a bit with his cross country and track meets and preparation for graduation . So right now homebodies is just fine.
So I believe the last time I was on was Monday…hmm let’s see that Is basically two days ago why does it seem so much longer then that…I guess my mind has been occupied , errands appointments and life what does that mean well let’s see keeping things moving along even though you feel like your the only one doing that and everyone else around you is just going to expect that you do but they do their own thing and you just want to throw your hands up and say okay I’m on strike …and let them just deal with supper ..wash not worry if your kids school is falling apart because they don’t it will be fine I quote ..but sadlyyou do .let supper and wash be their thing because hmmm would it get done for you ? Yeah I’m tired of living like everything is the same as when we started this family and it’s not the kids have grown my daughter an adult my son about 17 and everyone including myhubby has grown so why am I feeling like ‘ m in the same spot and go by the same routine because is that what mothers still do when your kids grow up and do this or is it me ? I have been doing a lot of thinking and I think I’m afraid to embrace the change even though I feel I’m ready …does that make since? Hmm still have some thinking to do.
Unfortunately I feel like a Bah Hum Bug this Christmas..I just feel like we all lost the true meaning of it. ..yes giving and receiving gifts are nice but it’s seems every year we go more and more extreme that it becomes like a chore then a pleasure we empty our wallets its just doesn’t seem like it’s either not good enough or enough. I wish we could focus more on the company of others possibly instead of a present a good deed. a listening ear , not wait I want this or what that’s all I have. Sadly I believe it’s not going to change we have become so materialistic yes things are nice but they always end up getting forgotten put aside and then we are on to a new I need or want ..yes it’s life , what I would like is for peace, back track weeks months have back What I have lost and others who have lost as, well more nights at home with my family laughing , enjoying a movie together. Kids grow up family gets smaller routines change but just maybe I can get my family to pick one night a month when their not working or with friends and have takeout laugh at a funny movie together. My husband and I have been enjoying more quiet nights and watching a movie together but this would be nice to try and be together .