Hope everyone had a good weekend if it was the weekend in your part of the globe. Mine was as always pleasant and well spent with my family laughing and chatting untill we all went our separate ways doing our thing . My hubby and I are noticing the days are getting shorter already each day it gets darker a little earlier and then there’s the back to school commercials selling all the essentials needed to have a great year. I’m like really,,, it’s July yes the last week of it but still . I think this is the shortest feeling summer ever . I know it’s been the most layed back summer my hubby and I have had . Okay it’s been a more wondering where my kid is summer hahaha now that it’s his first driving one. . That’s been a bit of a challenge and still is but trying to be better I did state in my last posts to whoever read it I would try to be better with being more lenient with the texting (checking up) I would trust him more. I believe I am getting. better but something’s a mother has a hard time with certain things. Any how happy the humidity breaked for the moment it’s nice to have the fresh air come in . My hubby and I are relaxing in our bedroom since he has to get up earlier for work this week I’m going to read my book in a bit and yes wonder where my kid is . School will be nice because he will be roaming less with his busy schedule and I’m looking forward to his Last Highschool Cross Country Meets well….that is sad to say actually first time saying it wow nothing like feeling like you got the wind knocked out of you wow his last yr of Hogh School ..time sure does fly if you blink and then you missed it.😥 well this mama will have a lot of picture taking …I know im some ways he is ready to move on but at the same time it’s going to be a hard one a lot of years put into his sports and his friends yeah isn’t it for a lot of us when we graduated , but for now will concentrate on the school year and go from there.
It’s a quiet Tuesday night at 8::41pm and my better half and I oh can’t forget Miss Abigail are settled in bed with the air-conditioner blasting and watching Americas got talent nice place to be at the moment . Yes we are proud homebodies getting use to it , yes sometimes it’s too quiet but it happens. and I need to embrace this new chaphter ,life is forever a change of moments and I know my better half and I have done our job ..but where not done yet we just have more layed back days .My son is going into his senior yr of Highschool and it will get a bit busier for a bit with his cross country and track meets and preparation for graduation . So right now homebodies is just fine.
So I believe the last time I was on was Monday…hmm let’s see that Is basically two days ago why does it seem so much longer then that…I guess my mind has been occupied , errands appointments and life what does that mean well let’s see keeping things moving along even though you feel like your the only one doing that and everyone else around you is just going to expect that you do but they do their own thing and you just want to throw your hands up and say okay I’m on strike …and let them just deal with supper ..wash not worry if your kids school is falling apart because they don’t it will be fine I quote ..but sadlyyou do .let supper and wash be their thing because hmmm would it get done for you ? Yeah I’m tired of living like everything is the same as when we started this family and it’s not the kids have grown my daughter an adult my son about 17 and everyone including myhubby has grown so why am I feeling like ‘ m in the same spot and go by the same routine because is that what mothers still do when your kids grow up and do this or is it me ? I have been doing a lot of thinking and I think I’m afraid to embrace the change even though I feel I’m ready …does that make since? Hmm still have some thinking to do.
Unfortunately I feel like a Bah Hum Bug this Christmas..I just feel like we all lost the true meaning of it. ..yes giving and receiving gifts are nice but it’s seems every year we go more and more extreme that it becomes like a chore then a pleasure we empty our wallets its just doesn’t seem like it’s either not good enough or enough. I wish we could focus more on the company of others possibly instead of a present a good deed. a listening ear , not wait I want this or what that’s all I have. Sadly I believe it’s not going to change we have become so materialistic yes things are nice but they always end up getting forgotten put aside and then we are on to a new I need or want ..yes it’s life , what I would like is for peace, back track weeks months have back What I have lost and others who have lost as, well more nights at home with my family laughing , enjoying a movie together. Kids grow up family gets smaller routines change but just maybe I can get my family to pick one night a month when their not working or with friends and have takeout laugh at a funny movie together. My husband and I have been enjoying more quiet nights and watching a movie together but this would be nice to try and be together .
The Sun was so welcoming this morning after a cloudy day the day before . I couldn’t help myself to capture a picture on the way to school and yes my son was driving. It was just so uplifting It was well due needed the suns energy on me.. I have been feeling so over whelmed lately with everything that has needed to be done, paid etc… that worrying as got the best of me which I do not like to let this happen to often. I cannot wait for things to wined down just a bit.I will take it day by day or at least try to. I know there still is the holidays to add in going to or try to take in stride ….yes… do not get me wrong love the holidays I am just having a hard time getting into them this year , much .. much harder when your kids are adults and teenagers so not the same …The magic of Santa is what I miss the most especially this one memory . when my kids where young. There Daycare use to give out these little packages of reindeer food which was oatmeal and other safe edible ingredients if squirrels ate it so Christmas eve before the kid’s would go to bed they would sprinkle it on the front yard and Santa’s Reindeer would smell it and bring Santa to the house they did know after they did this they had to go to bed and they did hahaha but it was the look their faces how they would light up as they sprinkled it well my son liked to throw it 🙂 my daughter was so dainty.. she would sprinkle it just so ..oh how miss those moments. I am happy we have those memories to look back on. I have now replaced it in which Is what we should think more of is counting our blessings , I always have but now it’s more meaningful when your kids are old enough to share this meaning with you,, happy they know what is important there also finding even though holidays are coming life is busy for them and they still have their responsibilities how life changes in one blink. Where did all those years go?….hmm a question I ask myself at least once a day 🙂 So I am trying to just walk sometimes it’s a crawl through this new journey of life but I do know somethings that have not changed is still having our schedule maybe a bit different no more writing in kid play dates to or kid parties . now writing in driving time for my son, exam fees due. Sport meets to be at.. work drop offs yeah I think it’s a bit busier in a different way, and no more little kids running around the house with their friends but my son and daughters girlfriend and boyfriend coming over loud music banging through my sons wall my son and his friends coming and going through my front door my daughter having a girls night with drinks and movies yes their 21 and her friends stay over good thing she has a furnished basement . but I must admit I like the noise and there chaos 🙂 with all this newness comes a little more quiet nights home with just my husband and then that’s when we find Some time for a ride and enjoy a coffee or grab takeout and settle in with a good movie and enjoy one another’s company that time has changed more then ever we forget how it use to be just him and I so do not forget this a very important thing to remember when it comes to this for all of you new parents. There is hope some things that do not change 🙂 all though this I would not mind is Laundry having to be done 😦 which my Son could do but mom does it better.hmmm good one on his part. lets not forget the rest of the housework ughhh …then dinners to be made . yes all the fun things. I must say I am happy today house work is done supper is ready to be made when time the comes and I actually enjoyed my coffee and news this morning I believe it was the sun yes going to hold on to that thought. and so now today is pretty much mine and my pups yes my loyal friend. so I will wait for my favorite show do some adult coloring and yes tweet love twitter… tomorrow will be another day oh yes …but today It’s a me day !!!
It’s a new day and a new President elected and new laws that have passed that I am not to happy about. I know some of us are happy and some of us are not happy who is our new President but protesting doing it violently is not the answer. I am sorry for that but life will go on and hopefully we can find some hope that things will change for the good. I do not like to talk about politics because to me it’s just a subject not all will ever agree on. I wish we could of voted for more good more peace more morals and especially more love the hate in this world is just unbelievable I never seen it this bad and it’s so scary. we need to stand together and get stronger and love more to get through this world how can we raise strong happy loving kids if all we show them is the negative’s I just do not believe we can …..I know I am going to try to keep showing my kids that there is good in this world still we just need to try harder and I know there are other ways to deal with things we do not agree on by using hate. I hope everyone gets some sleep tonight I know I am hoping to .. a very late and long night.it was.
It’s a quiet cold windy Saturday at home. I sit her watching the cat enjoy watching the leaves swirl around outside and the pups lay sleeping comfortably on my couch and I wonder why am I sitting here watching them doing something they enjoy. I should be doing something enjoyable so I stare at my laptop then I turn away once again yes this is not the first time I have turned away. I scroll through Twitter ..Facebook and wonder why can I not get back on this blog? so many thinks to write about so many things to let go of, so today I have done it here I am . Bare with me the last time I have written was the end of June and the last thing I believe I wrote was I whining to a close friend that I didn’t want to be an adult anymore 🙂 I was tired sad okay feeling sorry for myself a bit yes it hurts to admit this but come on haven’t we all felt this way at one time or another… YES!
So summer as come and gone and it was a summer of change sadness happiness and a lot of growing in many ways. My oldest my daughter turning 21 it’s so unbelievable to me that she is officially an adult already , it feels like just yesterday watching her at the playground swinging on the monkey bars and playing hopscotch. My youngest turning 16 and receiving his drivers permit My Husband and Son spending a week in California because my son qualified for the Junior Olympics in running hurdles so that was both happy.. sad.. busy many days of running him to the gym the track to train plus running him to work and drivers ed . See why I didn’t want to be an adult hahaha but happy because we where all so proud of him and the sad part because it was the first time him being away for his and my birthday, my husband did have a cake for me the weekend before they left so that was a pleasant surprise but to keep the cost down it was best that my husband just went with him plus my bad hip would not have been happy with all the walking. I stayed back with my daughter and we had a pretty calm week went shopping stayed up late talking and she surprised me with a cake as well on my birthday the week flew by and my husband and son made it home safely .What an experience they had though my son loved California but did admit home wasn’t so bad after all quieter less people and much cooler ..he said city life was not for him. hahaha He is like my husband more of a woodsy private person who enjoys the solitude of nature . Then the summer had its low points a young boy 13 yrs old lost his life to an all terrain vehicle accident in our town and that twas just so heartbreaking it just proved to all of us in this quiet little town even more how short life really is so I take back saying I do not want to be an adult. so you see many new and sad experiences this summer that yes have taught us more to appreciate what we have and we should never take for granted.
now it’s Oct and there is foliage rides with my husband .Coffee trips with my daughter for a hot cup of Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte’s the best . A new school year sport events for my son .My son driving us with his drivers permit every chance he gets and then cozy night in bed cuddled up watching our favorite shows with our pups at the end of the bed .This might sound boring to some but to me this is everything after this summer and a lot of soul searching and feeling like there should be more well maybe there could be but right now this is enough and everyday is a new learning experience I believe for my husband and I and us spending more time alone together again. and for myself to do what I never had time for in awhile , that is why I started this blog and I am finding like this summer I will have days even months that I am not on but please bare with me at those times. This is such a whole new world. When you have kids they become the center of your world and then they grow up and you find yourself almost lost because you can’t go back to that person you where before so much has changed you have changed it’s like this whole new journey of rediscovering who you are and what you do here on out it really can be so mind blowing I am sure I will have many things to tell. Stay tune. 🙂