MTV The 80’s ….

My hubby was doing what he does best and flicking through channels on the TV and he came upon the 80’s music flashback …yes our era. Oh my do I feel old hahaha I can sing every word and I thought it would make me feel sad looking back but honestly I am very surprised …. I’m not I feel yes older but mature and not as young in my mind as much as I thought but younger then I should feel for my age that I have to admit…but content . A couple yrs back watching this would of sadden me hahaha if anything yes I miss the good times of my youth my friends ..dancing to this, crying over lost boyfriends over these songs but that’s what we did and now listening is like hmm ok this song I like this song no . I believe I finally got past my 80″s fetish except for my hair yes I still have long curly puffy hair but that’s me love my hair yes there’s some grey in it that needs to go 🙂 but honestly I think what saddens and makes me feel older is my kids growing up and not needing me like they use to . Makes since right?? I think so..

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Nights Thinking… 

The evenings are so much shorter these days as I’m not just talking about it getting darker earlier , it just used to be consumed by early suppers then getting the kids doing and finishing their homework then baths and showers and one tv show and reading time and  then off to bed. Now it’s later suppers and whoever is here to eat what I make and when then earlier settling in bed to watch some shows but now replaced with catching up on them on stream lining NBC the next day because hubby has to get up so much earlier for work so earlier to bed because we are older now and mornings are not good without the proper sleep🙄 how things have changed … oh believe me this is not a rant or complaint just a sad statement to life  and how much it changed in the past couple of years . I’m adjusting it’s a lot more simple  and sometimes less stressful but I’m learning or should say my hubby and I are learning how to relate to our older kids now and our life with eachother again … you will be so surprised if your younger and just starting out with marriage, babies and your reading this and going what ? Believe me now that my kids have grown and we are less needed and the focus is not all on them . You  come to realize how much you and your better half have changed and grown it’s such an amazing thing . I find that we are settled in our own routine and that’s okay and we have our routine as a couple as well it’s so different how we relate now ,this whole new chapter . Waiting to be discovered .   

This place we call life…

Oh if life came with a manual …. how to treat others how to treat ourself  how to learn that growing means change and change is so important but can be so hard sometimes cruel but at the same time sometimes good a blessing if we only knew the answers to this thing called life but then what ? Would it help us would it only disappoint us when we fund out that this life we have to work for what we want . and who and to find that path on our owner we could fail.  . I know life is hard but once you get through the bad it’s beautiful but you have to take the chance and just do it if not how will you ever know. 

This place we call life…

Oh if life came with a manual …. how to treat others how to treat ourself  how to learn that growing means change and change is so important but can be so hard sometimes cruel but at the same time sometimes good a blessing if we only knew the answers to this thing called life but then what ? Would it help us would it only disappoint us when we fund out that this life we have to work for what we want . and who and to find that path on our owner we could fail.  . I know life is hard but once you get through the bad it’s beautiful but you have to take the chance and just do it if not how will you ever know. 

To my daughter .

You came into this world with fire  and strength and a  heart so big .Do not ever let life hurt you so bad that it takes away that fire and and shatters your heart but learn from it .use the heat to warm that heart of yours and use that strength to fight back and show this crazy world what your made of .. People  with big hearts hurt more because they feel so much more deeply not a bad thing . I think the world needs more people like you.

Learning….

I guess we are never to old to learn . . I’m learning I need to let things go I had posted in my last post how I was worried about my daughter and her relationship she is in . We had a good talk and we are on the same page , I thought we where not this is where I am  letting people work things out for themselfs ( my  kids) and not to let things get to me when it’s not to my liking well  or different then what I’m use to . ..my daughter is doing what she needs and wants to do at her own pace. I find I’m connecting better with my kids lately . Things baby books you get when your expecting  doesn’t teach you how to be a mother to them when their  older but then again I never read them. I just went by my heart   and my hearts is telling me now this is right what I’m learning , ,it’s hard I find myself biting my tongue a lot lately this is going to take some time  but I need to let go a bit more and let them learn to take care of things and let them fail too if that’s the case. 

     This is good for me too and my husband we are doing more together with just us and  this we have not done much  of since we had kids . It’s strange how thinks come full circle again but we are older now and what we did then we do not do now it’s so much different  but I’m enjoying the difference . Change is good. 

Nothing like a Town Fair..

 This is the beautiful sight of the full moon shining it’s amazing light over the Roundhouse at our Town Fair as we where leaving tonight. So happy my husband and I decided to go , we always went for the kids but now they can go on thier own or not but they where both there arriving at different times my daughter with her friends and my son headed to his booth he was working at selling apple pies for his Senior yr. The night started off with my husband and  I walking down the midway looking at one  thing or another and then looking at one another with smirks  on our faces like okay now what do we do … it’s been the first time we entered this fair without kids in 20 years yes unbelievable it was just so strang but we stuck with it and stayed and we did meet up with my daughter and her friend talked to my sons friends and saw my older sister and her family that I do not get much time with, with her busy schedule and we found that we both where feeling the same way and how life has changed so much ,we had a nice talk and then went on with our families then we ran into my husbands uncle and listen to the band that was playingand shared some laughter while  enjoying my slice of a very delicious apple pie with ice cream yes from my sons booth 🙂 it was such a different but nice new experience at the fair this year . I need to remember this that things are changing and changing with them can be good  and what  choice do we have anyways it’s the way it is and look I would of missed this beautiful sight.