Laying here thinking…

It’s a Sunday night laying in bed thinking yes I know I should be sleeping. Once again the airconditioner is humming  and to believe it’s Fall … sadly not weather wise . So wish for a crisp cool day enjoying a nice hot cup of pumpkin spice coffee.   Soon … well now another change has serviced my son has now traded his cross country shoes for football cleats .. , yes he is now  playing football as mom sits on the bleachers holding her breath till the game has finished .  What to do but support him . He is stubborn should of known he was not happy with CC this yr . So soon I will post some photos he has to to miss two games since he started later so as of now after this Saturday coming he will start playing A very different school year .. it has been from the get go ,  I’m slowly getting use to my new norm …well maybe ,    I guess I will try to get some sleep  or I will regret it in the morning .Goodnight everyone wish me luck . 

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Thoughts .. 

Laying in bed just put the Adult coloring book down for the night it was nice taking a break from thinking for a bit. Friday was a beautiful night at the fair followed by a relaxed no rush kind of weekend .  Soon it will be time to think about getting some pumpkins for around the house and  some scarecrows .  Decorate for Fall,  crazy that this time  is already upon us . Now to get my kids involved … need to carve pumpkins with them . My daughter will be on board it will  be my son who will take some pushing to agree.  I will get my way  🙂I will post some pics when the time comes. So  I am happy to say it’s so nice to be reunited with my close friend somewhere along the line we let life stray us away from one another and for a time I was afraid we wouldn’t find our way back to one another … there was nothing we couldn’t tell one another  and our kids grew up together especially our two older ones my daughter and her daughter best of friends thankfully they have kept in touch as much as possible being so busy but have done a better job at that then their mothers . I’m so happy we have reconnected it’s so comforting and I have missed our talks so much.  back in the day we could talk a whole day on the phone about just nothing hahaha it was nice now it’s a bit more busier but I treasure our moments to chat even if it’s a  text here and there. Life sure can change the direction of things hopefully we will not let all these changes get in the way off our friendship . Seems like more then ever we need this friendship to get through them. Change  has been such a big part of our world, for so long things  felt like they stayed the same unless we just didn’t see it … I don’t know how all of a sudden it’s just smacked us in the face and it’s our. new norm . New journey whatever we want to call it maybe  it’s just life… yes that’s it . Well me eyes are getting heavy I guess it’s time for some sleep . Goodnight Everyone.

Ever Changing 

Life is an ever changing journey this has been a long week an emotional rollercoaster . My Father in-law passed about a week ago the services are over and now we celebrate my daughters 22nd Birthday so very bittersweet. Family will be arriving soon and it will be low key , I am sitting on my porch swing and just having a moment to reflect on this  past week and to adjust my mindset. Thinking back to yesterday when it was my daughter actual birthday and it was a bit hard for her when she didn’t get the call she is so custom to every year that was a tearful moment but she and all of us got through and her friends came over and cheered her up so today it will be family and we will adjust keep moving   forward one step at a time. I guess we are creatures of change not easy but that is what we do . I must say this has been a summer of many changes and now  more new journeys .

change of life…

So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional  and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager  my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly  on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor  and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon.  I will keep you posted.

So layed Back…

This week is my Sons Spring Vacation. It’s been a very different one. My Son goes to work then has an  hr when he gets out of work to then get ready for track  practice .then gets out of practice to galavant with his friends for a bit to feel like it’s a vacation. As for I it’s so layed back that it’s such an unfamiliar  thing okay actually I shouldnt say that.. Im getting use to this change.He  drives himself so I do my house duties then may take a ride and grab a coffee .I can my time and write. Change such a thing to get use to but not much of a choice you are given you just go with it.Tonight it’s chilly and raining so no star gazing  My favorite Spring Summer past time so my hubby and I and Miss Abigail the kitty are settled in watching tv and I  am adult coloring. All good. After s couple of days on the deck in the sun I need a break my face is a bit  sunburned.  Crazy weather Mother Nature is being moody I heard  it is helping the tick population so start now and check your pet’s when they come inside and if you are hiking or in the woods working and your little ones are operating around in the high grass check them and yourself ‘ there predicting a bad season with them. Well in my area Alright everyone I’m going to enjoy my sons company for a bit now that he just arrived home before he goes out  or goes to bed .

 

Rainy day … Thinking

It’s a rainy Spring day and it was easy to get things done around the house that really needed to be done then rushing around so I could sit out on the deck in the sun or take a drive and get a coffee …believe not a bad thing but so hard to do house work then. Supper is cooking in the crock pot the delicious smell of chicken cooking fills the house.and dusting is done laundry is going now relaxing and thinking about what a friend going to call her that she is one of my followers on my blog and she has one herself and she gave great advice on my last post. on changes and so I am sitting here and thinking about what she said and making my list. I hope she reads this and knows how i am taking her advice. It’s hard though because the person I was before my kids is a bit different or maybe I just lost who i was and its covered under the surface of being the person i am now and I just have to bring that person back to the surface…does that make since ? if you read my last post you will hopefully understand . So I know one thing hahaha I did get a little bit more serious over the years and uptight more which I think I could let go a bit… and I need to let go of feeling guilty for wanting to have more time for what I enjoy when the only one holding me back is me. I think my  kids want that because yes the string needs to be cut a bit . and there the ones cutting it and I am trying to hold on to . So hard this will take sometime maybe baby steps?  ….yes that could work. I  will get back to you on this.

The door open the door closes….constantly

Good thing I have many doors to my house,  many comings and goings lately and I think more to come. I think it makes the kitty Miss Abigail’s head spin. since my son got his drivers license he is constantly going somewhere well in reason …..and my car as well right now it’s fine I do not have to get out has much   in the  winter  my hip does not like the cold .So my Son does do well grabbing things if I  need him to but lately I  just go with my husband or daughter.  When summer gets here it will be a different story he will need to have his own car. He is loving how he can just go and not have to wait for a ride and my husband and I actually enjoy the break of being a taxi. Never thought we would feel this way ,at first it was a little sad I felt not as needed but now I see he just needs me in a different way moral support, we talk more it’s nice this little boy that I once knew now stands in front of me a  nice young man and now with my older daughter I have  a whole new insight a new relationship of conversations laughs with them and their friends and yes the comings and goings and  can’t forget a lot of quiet nights home with my husband also. Funny how life comes back around and so fast.

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