Just not the same…

.       Yes it was a snow day, but just not the same anymore…not snowed in life went on as usual.. work for my daughter, gym for my son and cleaning for myself  only thing  that was the  same ,my hubby was home so it was all business as usual No stuck at home together cuddled under blankets lounging around with hot chocolate and movies after sledding ,no snow angels or snowmen being made.or just even the cars being stuck in the driveway and all of us doing different things inside but at least all at home together. No cars made it out just fine and life didn’t stop for the day. I need to get use to this   These kind of days things have changed and I need to as well even though I do not go out on days like this with my hip but it’s about my mindset that needs to change and except this it’s the way it suppose to be. Im trying believe me but change is not one of the thingsI except easily . .  Tonight we are all home but it’s nigh hahaha a quieter night friends are gone home my son is finishing up homework my daughter is down In her place ,my hubby and I are settled under our covers watching our shows soon he will be snoring because he always falls asleep before me .okay somethings never change.🙂

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Monday!

it’s Monday a fresh new week to get back into a routine ,a full week of school, sports meet warmer temps no big storms insight sadly my daughter is still out of work due to illness but hoping she feels some improvement when she wakes up. Laundry is going beds are made kitchen is cleaned up after breakfast . I am now sitting down catching up on the morning news and enjoying a cup of coffee ahhh so nice. I’ve started the book I posted and started a new coloring page over the weekend which kept me busy and warm

. I am going to pat myself on the back , if you read my last post I wrote how my son was out with his girlfriend and I was NOT going to text him to have him check in. or worry and I didn’t well I didn’t text. I wouldn’t say I worried but hoped he drove slow and careful on his way home. I got into the Golden Globes with my hubby and didn’t realize my son had texted me ….it wasn’t that long until I noticed but it hopefully showed him I was waiting with my phone in hand . He texted “on my way home. ” I do not know who was more surprised 🙂him for checking his phone and seeing no text from me or I seeing his text .. before I knew it he was walking in the door he talked a little bit and I tried not to do the twenty questions just how was Mary ? Did you have a good time? And after that he said goodnight and was off to bed. Now to keep this going oh am I trying….so hard when I’ve been by their side from day one through their first cut to their first everything to their first letting goesI can’t tell you what is the hardest part their first cut or letting go ….maybe letting go because it’s i that is now hurting not with them but just I because this is what I’ve known for so long .. my daughter is so different we have always been close and we are friends as well . With my son it just feels so different. I know boys let go differently then girls but this is ……different 😥 no hand book in the world could of warned me how this would feel. I’m am trying and I will keep doing this. Everyone tells me go out with friends do things with your husband I am but we are not big go to the movies we like watching them when they come out and we can cozy up at home and watch them . We have always been homebodies .. before kids we out dinking and dancing on the weekends but now that doesn’t hold an interest . We have spent nights out at relatives and enjoyed some drinks food laughs more that has been nice just need more idea s but for now it’s Home Movies going out for coffee dinner I guess we are heading in the right direction .. but it just feels different .

Laying here thinking…

It’s a Sunday night laying in bed thinking yes I know I should be sleeping. Once again the airconditioner is humming  and to believe it’s Fall … sadly not weather wise . So wish for a crisp cool day enjoying a nice hot cup of pumpkin spice coffee.   Soon … well now another change has serviced my son has now traded his cross country shoes for football cleats .. , yes he is now  playing football as mom sits on the bleachers holding her breath till the game has finished .  What to do but support him . He is stubborn should of known he was not happy with CC this yr . So soon I will post some photos he has to to miss two games since he started later so as of now after this Saturday coming he will start playing A very different school year .. it has been from the get go ,  I’m slowly getting use to my new norm …well maybe ,    I guess I will try to get some sleep  or I will regret it in the morning .Goodnight everyone wish me luck . 

Thoughts .. 

Laying in bed just put the Adult coloring book down for the night it was nice taking a break from thinking for a bit. Friday was a beautiful night at the fair followed by a relaxed no rush kind of weekend .  Soon it will be time to think about getting some pumpkins for around the house and  some scarecrows .  Decorate for Fall,  crazy that this time  is already upon us . Now to get my kids involved … need to carve pumpkins with them . My daughter will be on board it will  be my son who will take some pushing to agree.  I will get my way  🙂I will post some pics when the time comes. So  I am happy to say it’s so nice to be reunited with my close friend somewhere along the line we let life stray us away from one another and for a time I was afraid we wouldn’t find our way back to one another … there was nothing we couldn’t tell one another  and our kids grew up together especially our two older ones my daughter and her daughter best of friends thankfully they have kept in touch as much as possible being so busy but have done a better job at that then their mothers . I’m so happy we have reconnected it’s so comforting and I have missed our talks so much.  back in the day we could talk a whole day on the phone about just nothing hahaha it was nice now it’s a bit more busier but I treasure our moments to chat even if it’s a  text here and there. Life sure can change the direction of things hopefully we will not let all these changes get in the way off our friendship . Seems like more then ever we need this friendship to get through them. Change  has been such a big part of our world, for so long things  felt like they stayed the same unless we just didn’t see it … I don’t know how all of a sudden it’s just smacked us in the face and it’s our. new norm . New journey whatever we want to call it maybe  it’s just life… yes that’s it . Well me eyes are getting heavy I guess it’s time for some sleep . Goodnight Everyone.

Ever Changing 

Life is an ever changing journey this has been a long week an emotional rollercoaster . My Father in-law passed about a week ago the services are over and now we celebrate my daughters 22nd Birthday so very bittersweet. Family will be arriving soon and it will be low key , I am sitting on my porch swing and just having a moment to reflect on this  past week and to adjust my mindset. Thinking back to yesterday when it was my daughter actual birthday and it was a bit hard for her when she didn’t get the call she is so custom to every year that was a tearful moment but she and all of us got through and her friends came over and cheered her up so today it will be family and we will adjust keep moving   forward one step at a time. I guess we are creatures of change not easy but that is what we do . I must say this has been a summer of many changes and now  more new journeys .

change of life…

So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional  and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager  my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly  on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor  and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon.  I will keep you posted.

So layed Back…

This week is my Sons Spring Vacation. It’s been a very different one. My Son goes to work then has an  hr when he gets out of work to then get ready for track  practice .then gets out of practice to galavant with his friends for a bit to feel like it’s a vacation. As for I it’s so layed back that it’s such an unfamiliar  thing okay actually I shouldnt say that.. Im getting use to this change.He  drives himself so I do my house duties then may take a ride and grab a coffee .I can my time and write. Change such a thing to get use to but not much of a choice you are given you just go with it.Tonight it’s chilly and raining so no star gazing  My favorite Spring Summer past time so my hubby and I and Miss Abigail the kitty are settled in watching tv and I  am adult coloring. All good. After s couple of days on the deck in the sun I need a break my face is a bit  sunburned.  Crazy weather Mother Nature is being moody I heard  it is helping the tick population so start now and check your pet’s when they come inside and if you are hiking or in the woods working and your little ones are operating around in the high grass check them and yourself ‘ there predicting a bad season with them. Well in my area Alright everyone I’m going to enjoy my sons company for a bit now that he just arrived home before he goes out  or goes to bed .