Sigh…

Oh it’s just seems like everything is a downward spiral… so not me I’m usually such a happy person. Yes I know we all have our moments, it just seems like it’s been something every day …. and it’s getting a bit tiring . I do not like feeling this way. I feel like I’m being pulled in many directions and it’s all in the directions I do not want to go …I try to do my best with helping family and others . But after awhile it can mentally exhaust you. I won’t go in to detail … it just needs to change and I just need a break from it.

On another note sadly we lost a beautiful young women today her and her family well known in our small town . She has struggled with cystic fibrosis her whole life after a couple years ago after having two lung transplants and her body rejecting them she was told she wouldn’t live to or pass the age of 25 . She passed today at the age of 26 … she suffered severely but always had a brave loving heart a strong will and a very big beautiful smile. She believed she wouldn’t beat the odds and so she lived her life to the fullest enjoying her family her pets her friends and raising money for her disease through many walking benefits even when she could only walk half way down the road. With the help of her loving guide dog . She made sure that everyday of her life on this earth was beautiful. And worth fighting for. So now she is at peace and the heavens have gained a beautiful angel. ❤️

I hope everyone has a good night and takes a moment to count their blessings and lives their life with love and happiness .

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Beautiful day out!

After a rainy humid Sunday ,the night had given away to a windy night …waking to a sunny cold ,windy Monday not feeling like June one bit.  After laying in bed dragging myself out of my warm bed.  I grabbed a quick shower and a cup of coffee. accomplishing  a few thing around the house before my daughter woke . We were going to spend the day out ,check out the sales at the candle shop and grab some coffee. The sale was good so my daughter stocked up on candle melts of her favorite scents as well as car freshener’s . I bought some wax melts and this quote wall decore for my kitchen. I love what it says . My daughter agreed when we saw it. Remarking how I am  always talking about the simple things saying I needed to buy it , after we left there we headed to grab our coffees and then headed home chatting, laughing about random things and singing songs that my daughter had programmed into  her radio. Had a beautiful day with her. We may not do this as often as we use to but when we do we cherish the time and we always have a lovely day out. and yes my quote decor is hanging up in my kitchen and it fits perfect.💖

Quietness…

Drifting off to sleep slowly… thankfully the night is quieter the winds no more . Replaced with the moonlight shining in through the sides of my window shades. No trains tonight echoing in the distance , oh the eery but comforting sound it is. The house is quiet , everyone is home and settled in. Even Miss Abigail is down in her place . Happily she went down the stairs as my daughter called to her and as I told her good night her little face looked up at me from the bottom of the stairs … I swear if she could talk she would of said goodnight. 🙂 her eyes said it all tho. Off and on through the quiet darkness I can hear my son laughing quietly , he must be on his phone . The sound makes me smile. Oh how I will miss this as time goes by and they all spread their wings .. but for now I will absorb every moment every sound every quietness of us all settled in together. And now I will drift of to sleep as I say my prayers ….

Moments…

Good Morning ! Enjoying my coffee and happily another morning of sometime with my son, he’s not a big talker well not at home at school he is but that’s always the way when your a teenager. He had good run may have made it to All States will find out today he missed it by a second in one race that he ran. Very proud of him.

Back tracking : last night when he arrived home , if you read my last post he had a track meet 3hrs away ,my hubby and I couldn’t make it so we waited for him to come home my hubby caved into sleep , of course I was up ..in bed but awake. He arrived after midnight and I heard him come in so I looked down our hall and could see him peeking out the door …hmm I’m like what is he doing ? Next minute he shuts the door locked it turned the kitchen light off and walking faster then normal down the hall to his room he spots me looking at him he says “oh your awake I’m scared” I’m like what! He tells me that as he got out of the car and walking up to our house he heard this screaming crying howling noise I’m like oh the boys are out (coyotes) I call them the boys. I asked if they where in our woods he said that he was trying to figure that out but wasn’t sure he said close ..maybe ?The most eerie sound of the wild to hear if their hunting it sends chills up your spine . After that I just let him get some sleep. and I did as well . Then this morning it was just him and I before he went to school so that was nice . Like I said before ,few and far between the moments with him. Now all is quiet everyone’s at work and school and I’m catching up on the news.. sad once again today .. my heart is breaking for all those angels and their families In Florida .😥 never take any thing or anyone for granted that is why even if I have only moments here and there with my children who are always on the go I will take that . It’s all special to me . So hug your kids tell them you love them everyday.❤️ with that it’s time to get busy myself do somethings around the house . Have a great day everyone.

Beautiful Day!

Aww the sun has been shining since I woke this morning so nice. Today was a different start usually it’s my daughter and I enjoying our morning coffee and a nice chat . Today it was spent with my son . It was a nice moment with him . I do not get many moments like this with just him and I , so with every minute I could grab I took it.I’m so amazed what a man he is growing into. He is so active and outgoing and such a jokester around his friends but then there’s this side to him a sense of protectiveness and loyalty that is so calming ,warm that shows his big heart only the lucky few get to see . I’m happy I’m one of those lucky few . I know when he gets home after school and practice is tired side will show then that’s the side we all know to well to let him be ..feed him and let him shower and go to bed . I’m just happy I had the moments I did with him this morning because I know there few and far between❤️

Relaxing …

The house is quiet my sons friends all went home the kitchen is clean thanks to my hubby ..and now we are all relaxing my son watching a movie no exams for him tomorrow he did them today and then Fri he has some so that’s good he can relax my hubby and I are relaxing in bed, I’m enjoying my book and he is watching tv ..was hoping he would read but that’s okay the book will be there on his shelf.

Like I’ve said in my past posts he’s not a reader I just pushed it hoping it would help him to relax but that will not be he what relaxes him by running and hiking is it where I cannot with my hip . But it’s all good . We just have our own thing what relaxes me is writing reading and coloring. Yes I would love to hike and run , I use to be able to but as I got older and had kids it’s not easy and that’s okay because I’m lucky to have been able to have kids and that is the greatest gift and sacrifice. When they where younger I was younger so I was able to do a lot with them and it was perfect to be able , now their older and I’m older and my job has lesson as well as my body of doing a lot of things. what I can do is sit and watch my sons track meets well In the spring more seating available the indoor winter meets my hubby goes and messages me. I can enjoy a cup of coffee with my oldest my daughter and I love to chat with our coffee and go to a book store and get our books. I can make supper for my family and my hubby cleans up and then we settle and watch our favorite shows or movies so it’s taught me one thing getting older and having no choice but to slow down that it’s not a bad thing that the most simplest things are just as important if more then the bigger things and when my house is filled with my kids friends and their filling the quiet with laughter and loud music and messing my kitchen up making food that is what I call a special moment . Life isn’t always easy but it’s good and it’s how you look at it and that is what life should be about not what and how much you have material wise but how many special moments you make and have to look back on .

Full house❤️

Ahhh it’s a Saturday night a very cold one at that and my house is full ..meaning we are all home plus two of my daughters friends are over . Nights like this have been becoming less by the minute usually there is always someone that is out. So I tend to cherish these moments as I hear my son playing a game online with one of his buddies laughing way or a sudden bang of movement in my daughters place as I lay here next to my sleeping hubby . Such. a Cozy feeling as I drift off to sleep and then awaken by the morning light and the hustling and bustling of my son getting ready for work and the beautiful scent of fresh brewing coffee because my hubby always gets up before me. Then my day begins.