Mornings….

Good Morning ! Woke to an empty bed my hubby up early and out hunting , my daughter still sleeping, late night out ughhh hate them makes for a late night for me wondering , need to let go a bit more ….. how? my sons up and I’m trying to catch some time with him before he leaves for work and then whatever he will be doing after that.. in the mean time trying to eat my breakfast and talk and grab things for him because he is running late ..ughh my fork fell into the syrup I swear this poor plate of pancakes has been in 3 different places sense I made them oh don’t you hate when your fork ends up in the syrup and you pick it up and now your fingers are all sticky .. ick nasty feeling , so that’s my morning . The rest of the day will be food shopping , thankfully Christmas shopping is about done . This yr my hubby asked me what do you want he said do not say nothing hahahaha I said actually I do want something he was like really okay tell me I said it’s nothing money can by he looks at me and says I know what it is ūüôā I said I want peace in my head from worrying about things I cannot control . I want a good nights sleep. I want to know I raised my kids right that they have a good happy life after all the over protecting I feel I’ve been as a mother. Yes that’s my list can I have that ? Time will tell .

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Embracing things with a better attitude…

The last 4days have been an eye opener what you felt was important really isn’t well let me rephrase that it’s important but it’s not the end of the world . Just a little curve in the road that lets you see things in a different light. If you read my last posts you will have learned we lost a 17 year old who was part of our community in a horrible automobile accident we went to part of the service and it was all so heartbreaking and unreal Life sometimes can throw us a cruel joke . The loss of this young man will be a forever one. Through these last 4days my son has limped through them been off and on crutches since our Thanksgiving Football game ,he went to the ER but was still bothering him has he got ready for school so off to his Dr. we went results no indoor Track until he can get into a specialist my son is taking this at the moment not has bad as I thought he would be being that Track started today. Sadly he cannot get in for 2weeks their so booked . So we wait and he sits or helps the coach until then … I think he may take this a bit hard when it sinks in that he isn’t running .In the past I would of been devastated and feel bad for him …well I do feel bad for him but he new making the choice to play football he could get injured so life lesson we live with our choice . I am just feeling this has a little bump in the road and it’s not the worst thing in life I have seen that ūüė•. he will get through this and I will be calm and supportive but I will not let this be I told you so moment which I know will happen . We all live and make choices that we live with and some are good and some are bad but no one as a right to judge . Life isn’t always a easy ride and he will learn from this that he and no one is invincible from life’s curve balls no matter what situation arrives. Life is so incredibly beautiful but sometimes so hard.ūüė•

A New Day!!

I woke to a new day¬† sun shining big¬† blue sky and saw this simple beautiful rose out side my front door and¬† I just looked at it so bright and peaceful soaking in the sun not bad for¬† a November cold morning ..it was¬† just being and I sighed thinking now if this world could be as content as this rose taking in each day as it comes blossoming with not a care in the world just being …sometimes just being is such a beautiful feeling.. so I stood there admiring it as long as possible as¬† the world around me was¬† in total chaos over our new elected President , rioting in the streets in the cities and on the media¬† and people in my town voicing their opinions again and not being very nice I just turned off the sites and started on with my day with a thank you to this rose for showing me¬† that life is still beautiful and life still goes on and we have the choice to watch or not , to shut everything off and make it into a beautiful positive day . Positive was the direction I went, okay I will warn you¬† nothing exciting but I enjoyed a peaceful quiet cup of coffee and then did things around my house with my pups by my side happily carrying his toy in his mouth¬† once things were in there right place I¬† settled down to watch¬† my favorite soap opera with a cup of hot chocolate and watched the drama unroll through my show, now this drama I can handle.¬† Soon the quietness will be replaced with¬† dinner plates clanging my family chatting about their day and for me I will sit and listen laugh and smile as contentment sets in and that my friends is a good day.

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Adult Coloring ,more then just coloring.

Adult Coloring is so much more then just sitting there and coloring a page. To me it’s a stress reliever it stops me from¬† thinking, worrying over things I cannot control . I usually do more coloring when the days get colder and shorter.. during the day when my family is off at school and work and I have done what I need to do. I curl up in a comfy chair and a hot cup of of my favorite tea and just color away . It’s also great when your feeling under the weather and not much is on the television,¬† so it’s ¬†¬† not just a stress reliever but so enjoyable and helps time go by. I highly recommend it ,there is so many¬† great coloring books to choose from wildlife patterns to city living patterns flowers , shapes quotes I could just go on but you have the idea. so try it and enjoy.¬† Happy coloring.

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Are we coming or going……

It’s been a long week and a half. everything seems so upside down what are we doing as a society with teaching our kid’s right and wrong…it just seems like whats right is wrong whats wrong is right….who wins who learns it’s just so frustrating . A situation in our town has turned into such a confusing mess yes a mess is what it is just by one person’s bad choice and wrong doing effecting innocent kid’s . everyone is confused if we could just say it like it is, if we didn’t have to add drama to it or sweep it under the rug, but be a friend believe in the person¬† stand by your friends help each other¬† then to go against them it would not be so confusing but the sad thing is kid’s do not know what is right or wrong¬† or are afraid to stand up because you will be judged society has taught this because they see how people clearly can turn on each other okay¬† I am not meaning everyone but a big majority¬† do. everyday our kid’s witness people being mean and making bad choices¬† a for example in a line at a store the person in front of you being nasty because the cashier did something wrong.. well in their mind so they belittle them in front of a whole¬† store¬† your kids see this¬† or you let someone go first in line or on the road driving and can you get a thank you..hmmm no. then again they see this so how do you instill do the right thing be the better person stop the blame game open our ears listen which yes is still possible but in this world lately you need to be a strong person enough to do this. Instead our younger kids just clam up and say well better to say nothing at all, not in all cases. so this is what I am dealing with we need to learn what our actions teach our next generation. it’s scary thinking what this generation will be like when they become adults . will they be okay that’s¬† the big question.

An off day…..

I woke from a restless nights sleep…I new something didn’t seem right my Son like I had wrote in my last post running out with friends right when he got home from school but asking me as his friends are driving in the driveway ..he tells me they are just going to another friends house for a bit….well that was at 6:00 at 9 :00 I started to think okay¬† where are you so I started to text him and a text comes through it’s my son I will be home soon so okay that was fine with me but then 10:00 came and my husband and I started to get angry I texted him telling him to get home he said I will we are just talking¬† about things..I”m sorry don’t worry….hmmm okay so now not only am I angry worried but now confused wouldn’t you be? so my son comes home he sits he knows I am upset my husband had to go to bed early morning..so he sits with me and my daughter and tells us¬† how things are¬† going on at school and¬† its not good…I can’t go into detail but it does not involve him or his group of friends….thank god..but I¬† feel for the ones involved let me just say I would not want to be a teenager in this day in age thank god my son and his friends have a good head on their shoulders . This world is just getting scarier by the minute the things I just heard , things you hear on the news. the newspaper it just never ending¬† I am tired of why people make the choice they do and and do the things they do it’s just so sad and sickening …It feels like some people have just lost their way more and more everyday . No morals nothing why I ask?? so today my mind just keeps going back to the conversation from last night… I wish I could just stop time for 2 minutes and take a breather and have everything just be happy. and see people be nicer and make better choices .but I know this has been going on for years but little bit¬† more now a days. just frustrated ……..

21st Anniversary!!!

Today is mine and my husbands 21st Anniversary, I am in awe of how fast that came let’s see if you add 6 yrs together before getting married we have been together 27 yrs. where did that time go it’s not a blur but more like¬† book that is¬† left out in the wind and the pages flip¬† rapidly¬† through and you can’t grab the book¬† in time before the wind looses your page . life has changed a lot since we got married …yes that is what happens that is what is suppose to happen, we get married or not we have kids or not we focus on our careers or not whatever the path we choose or where god leads you.. my husband and I worked a lot and we chose to buy a house that needed a lot of love and care and we knew we wanted to marry we jumped on it¬† so we worked through the week and weekends were spent working on the house with the help of family and friends ..¬† and we¬† spent our weekends with friends or at our home with home cooked meals¬† snuggled on the couch with a good movie and snacks money was tight but it worked¬† we had two dogs we got has pups and they were our babies. life was good we had fun¬† and then one day I found I was pregnant which nothing we planned on or was¬†¬† against just didn’t think this¬† could ever be possible because with my health issues and that is where God chose my path with this blessing of a beautiful baby girl and I a stay at home mom. yes it was a little hard financially at first but that what I chose and¬† it worked out in the end and then five years later I received my second blessing my handsome baby boy and my doctor said okay no more you have two healthy kids a girl and a boy …I agreed never imagined this would be possible I became busy things changed rapidly like life does but you never imagine. I was busy being a mom and I¬† took the role very seriously I love being a mom love taking care of my family and then guess what?? They grew up and I found myself less busy less chaotic less the cool mom but just a mom that quote my son who I am not his friend but his mother…hmmm okay.. yes boys have a mind of their own and have all the answers well mine thinks so. My daughter graduated works a lot and spends time with her boyfriend but we get our lunch out day.:)¬† my kids are beautiful and turned out to be good kind people ,so since them getting older I have been so¬† focused on so much of who am I? and thinking I lost myself and my husband but each day I am learning and finding out yes I have change yes my husband has changed….we grew up and as I sit here writing I think I haven’t lost myself Im still back to writing like I have always loved to do but didn’t have time and reading more and socializing again but without the kids. I was so worried how our marriage would be now but it’s calm content and we are happy and learning the next chapter in our lives and god willing we keep learning.