The things I do ..

It was a lazy start to the Monday. Woke from a dream which I wish I could remember . It must have been something of a sort to have me wanting to remember I guess the feeling I had when I woke was the reason. Grabbed a quick shower and then off to the kitchen for some much needed coffee.. oh my poison.. I only had one cup. Surprised? Don’t be because I knew my daughter and I were heading out to food shop and I knew we would stop for coffee always a given. After food shopping was finished the sun decided to show itself so I was fueled up with caffeine and wanted to be out. So we took a ride. As of today it’s 3 yrs that a child lost her life to a bus accident in our community. 9 yrs old her knapsack strap was caught in the door of the the bus . Negligence of the bus driver who shut the door too soon and not realizing she was trapped as he took drove off to his next stop the rest is self explainedūüė• this little girl will never be forgotten . She was so precious. I felt it was only fitting to go to the cemetery and think about her visit with her. . My daughter and I have this thing about cemetery’s . We find them peaceful and we use to go a bit more then we do . She went with me today . And we said a prayer for the precious child. My daughter said to me ” I know we do not come here much and I know you like to . I was quiet for a moment. And then started to drive .I stopped at the beautiful fountain that’s sits in the beginning of the entrance guarded by a medal design fence. She looked at me and said ” oh why have we stopped here. I told her this is where I park when I come by myself to find some peace and to collect my thoughts and yes to be by myself , no one would think except for her and a close friend that this is where you could find me if needed. I just love to listen to the fountain bubbling and have some soft music playing quietly in the car . And yes I let my thoughts drift. It’s really a nice feeling . Comforting .. yes I said it and this is a person afraid of death. I guess it’s more about the unknown of it. So yes this is where we sat for a bit and talked . It was nice. And well needed. So have I made you think of me differently now? Some would be a bit standoffish by this. We all have a place where we find comfort. And yes this is mine.

Comfort..

It’s 10:30 at night laying in bed enjoying my book . It feels good to finally settle and read . My comfort zone. The house is quiet everyone is home and settled in their rooms . The fan is all that echos through the house as I read. This was so needed . It stops my thinking wandering thoughts. In which case is always something I do. But for now I am focused on the story my book tells . And it’s comforting. I think another chapter or two then I will get some sleep. Good night everyone.

My World..

It’s a cloudy Saturday ,storms will be arriving later this afternoon . Enjoying my coffee on our deck before they come . This is just some pics of what I call home, my world. Country ..simple living ,comfort, quiet, yes very peaceful. Even on a cloudy day. Everyday day we are visited by turkeys and their little ones also I believe two fox’s maybe three. Yes nature as well oh we can’t forget the many squirrels and birds that run around . On occasion we have our two does that appear for a bit. I haven’t seen a moose yet , my husband has

while he was here when we were building the house .

My son had told us while up at his girlfriends house this past week that is about 30 minutes away they decided to star gaze in this open field across from her house so they walked out there and my son could hear this huffing sound and it kept getting closer he told his girlfriend to walk back to the house don’t run just walk but go ..she didn’t hesitate did what he said , it was just getting dark so you could see a bit away in front of you he saw a moose he said it must of had calf’s around because it was not happy in its protecting mode staring right in our direction and regardless they love to make a run towards you. So he made loud noises and it backed away as he slowly walked away keeping his eyes on it . It did walk away and he made it back to her house she said what was it he told her a huge moose . He said you should of saw her eyes. He admitted it scared him because he knows how mean they can get So yes there are moose around as wellūüôāI guess I’m okay if I do not see one.as I sit here there is a cool breeze that is picking up I’m thinking air conditioners could take a break and open windows up and let some fresh air in always look forward to windows open.

Your life…

Good Morning ! Sitting here on my couch  coffee in hand and imensly enjoying it . I’m watching tv and it’s the Today show and they stated what happen to personal choice oh my yes!!! That’s it what happened … I find myself fighting this more and more everyday now that time is becoming my time. We have raised our daughter our youngest is about to be 17 a senior and I’ think my better  half and I have done well or as well as can be . So now I and my hubby can do and go wherever but you know what I honestly don’t want to …. fior myself give me a good book to read a notebook , computer to write , or the stars at night and my comfy deck to enjoy them ,my bed or couch with a warm cozy blanket  and a movie or favorite show on a cold winter night  and I’m happy why when I’ve done my house cleaning and watched my sons track meets and enjoyedmy daughters   chats with a cup of tea or coffee and my hubby and I talk all the time take rides watched tv together be enough? Especially after a long day at work   Why do I  feel guilty why do I feel like we should be doing more why do I feel I have to justify this why do I compare when I honestly know I am happy with this my hubby is as well but why ? A question I ‘m struggling with a lot this year. As society made us feel we have to constantly be doing , going somewhere. Comparing ourselves with others Or is it me ? Any answers anyone?  Would love some help on this.

Summer Nights…

I’m laying in my bed the Windows wide open the warm summer night ¬†with a gentle breeze feels just ¬† right the light of the moon shadows the walls of my room .Down the hall ‘ in the next rooms the sound of the girls contagious laughter is comforting ..my daughter ¬†and her friend catching up on the days gossip. Love these moments for there short and less often So I take it in absorb it for those the¬† are moments I will remember when the house grows ¬†quieter with only the sound of the walls showing there age.this will be one more memory¬† I hold in my heart .

Shake it up a bit….

You will see my quiet rainy day at home doing house work and setting up dinner got shaken up a bit well some housework did get done kitchen’s clean and dinner is in crock pot cooking away, the clouds and rain gave away¬† into a beautiful sunny day and my daughter decided on lunch out so why not . .off to Panera’s we went .¬† I had their cup of¬† cheddar and broccoli soup and grilled cheese simple but¬† delicious and my daughter had there chicken caesar¬† salad and mac and cheese one of my other favorites¬† as well. I must say it was extremely busy¬† but so worth the wait. and as we ate we enjoyed a nice conversation we are good at that we can talk forever and about anything yeah¬† our conversations can get pretty crazy some times hahaha¬†¬† no one would understand ..then that was that,¬† we can never leave town without¬† finishing our outing¬† with a Starbucks coffee or latte so we both got the¬† Caramel Brulee¬† latte one of their November flavors absolutely amazing! so creamy and comforting a must try if your a coffee lover . It’s nice to shake things up a bit even if it is as simple as this and now my Son will be home from his school field trip and my husband from work and supper will be ready my daughter is now off to work. Have a good night everyone!