So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon. I will keep you posted.
Good Morning woke up to sunny and 80 degrees and muggy. No happy medium just two days ago we had the heat on and now we should have air conditioning on but not ready to run that yet so it will be Windows close and shades half down untill the sun moves away from our house …so crazy. If you read my last post well I think I am going stop obsessing over everything being the way it use to be and follow my family’s way and if they do not like it or wonder what’s going on hmm well then I guess they will have to step up. I think I need to be able to have my own way as well..this is so hard for me because then i always feel guilty or selfish so I have to push through these feelings and do this so we can ALL be happy. .. will see .
House clean Check
laundry done Check
Bills paid Check
school issues Check
supper cooking Check
Myself Crazy…… ughh how I feel this week I do not think one day warm and sunny then 3 days cold and raining does not help . It was one of those weeks when I feel like I’m running in two different directions. Thankfully it’s Friday. So now everything is done and the house is quiet Miss Abigail is doing what she does best on quiet rainy days snuggled up and sleeping it away… until everyone gets home . I think I am going to check out that new series that is based on a book. that is on Netflix it actually a book that my daughter read back when she was in 7th grade and now she is 21 and is reading it again its called 13 Reasons Why .. there is a big controversy in my part of the globe I do not know how far this controversy stretches to the rest of the globe but society is saying it glamorizes teenage suicide and gives the teenager the idea that if they have a problem this is an easy way out. my daughter said she believes people are getting the wrong message that what she gets out of it is that the main character was so bullied mistreated and had know one who she felt she could tell who could help her friend wise and other kids went along with the abusing and that more teenagers and adults should learn more about bullying and issues teenagers go through and more now in this society from this book/series how to see the signs of bulling or abuse to help someone if you witness this to stop being so hateful to others you never know what someone is going through. Okay I can agree with that so I decided I will watch it and see what I see being that I do have a daughter who suffered from bulling … when she was in High School yes my now 21 yr old and thankfully was strong enough to tell me and now she is doing well and is a very stronger person that I am so proud of.
Now my Son is in High School a Junior and the pressures and the games girls or should say a girl that is playing ,the mind games with my son who is not into drama like his sister says it like it is doesn’t like to be lied to okay yes who does right… is heart is so big he respects girls he will be nice to anyone so there are days he is in the slumps yes he gets tired from sports school work but the kids and girls play a big part of those slumps so I like to keep a close eye on him He does know his dad and I and sister are here at anytime time to talk to. Sadly this day in age these kids do not have it easy peer pressure is at a all time high and they will not talk to someone and will take it upon them self to handle it I quote… so this when you have to become a detective not easy but its possible. so will see when I watch this I will let you know in between reading the book I showed you in my past post ..its good but so far its going by the movie which usually does not happen which I was hoping would be more detailed but I will see and get back to you on that as well.
It’s been a brutally cold Saturday so my husband and I where fine to stay home today and keep warm . We decided since we where home and the kids where off doing their things we would watch a movie so we thought humor drama sad romance hmm…well we decided on humor would be nice to laugh. The movie we chose was Sausage Party …Oh boy hmmm well what a pick hahaha okay we really did not know what we were in for .let’s say maybe animated but so not for kids well under 16.it was so nasty I can’t even begin to describe how nasty ..and we will never look at food the same for awhile….Oh it was not what I was expecting okay it was funny but literally just bad .So my Son did warn us not to one day when my daughter said watch it …well she came home from work and saw that we where watching it and went into hysterics and she just couldn’t believe the looks on our faces hahaha I think she liked seeing us look awkward .So that was our night and I am still trying to get it out of my head, I hope I do not dream about singing food tonight yeah you ha e to watch it to understand or not. .well time to call it a night
Better late then never my photo for today. It’s been a busy weekend as well as a busy Monday. It’s only going to get busier and crazier … well hopefully Tues I have a breather. Thursday my son will be going for his drivers license and I am a wreak LOL! I am going to be living on my phone texting him the words WHERE ARE YOU every minute….. ughh he is the baby and a boy .I did not feel this way with my daughter she is so much more mature I knew where she was , this is not something I am embracing at the moment. I am trying to because he is so excited and I am excited for him but not for what I am going to go through…. with his more found freedom. So over the weekend my daughter and I went and enjoyed a shopping and coffee day and Ive been on a budget so I was trying to stay practical and my daughter saw the adult coloring book and said you have to get this I have this one and love it and it will help you with your worries, get it you will not regret it. My daughter was right I started a page last night and I am really enjoying it it’s a lot of fun this book .I have two others one that I have just about colored all the pages in and I love them as well but this one is refreshing , really calming. I am so happy someone thought of this for adults to relieve some stress or just take your mind off things for awhile. Thank you to whoever came up with this beautiful idea and to my daughter for giving me the push to buy it.
So my Son made it home from snowboarding in Thursdays nasty storm..Yes I did worry though always do. Then today was crazy pay bills day ughh so dislike this day but don’t we all? so my Son went with me to do this and run some of his errands and he was happy to drive. ..all was good then we came back to the house so he could get ready for track practice so an hour later he goes out to the car to start comes in says umm car wont start okay I wanted to to lay on the floor like a little kid and throw a tantrum I was just so not needing this today. ,,,he tells me I believe it’s the battery because I noticed I left the lights on. We found some one to jump start it and off we went so now I am going to hold my breath for the next few days every time start that car…..Oh Im starting to believe be negative brings in bad karma …I’m trying not to but winter is not my friend I despise winter. and sadly this holiday season this year ready to pack up the rest of the decorations and say goodbye to the tree for another year, ‘Im going to try to bring good things into this new year because I have had enough…oh no our washer isn’t now working ughhh okay and on to another day …..give me strength.
Oh boy this is going to be a long night. lets see my Son has been home long enough to eat dinner and tell his dad and I his day at school and practice if that… lets see our front door as had comings and goings with in the last hour of teenage boys including my son .I am thinking its not a homework night we will see. I trust them their all good kids just so hard keeping track I think it will be a texting night of where are you? before the evening is over . Now my husband and I sit.. yes myself on the computer and him watching The wheel of fortune he loves that game show I can’t believe it still exists. He started watching it again when one day him and my son where flipping through channels and they came upon it and my son challenged his father that he could get most of the puzzles right, I’m telling you this happens all the time in my house with these guys…..yes sometimes it makes me a bit crazy but its all in good fun. I am waiting for shows to come on in a bit and that will be my husband and I cozy under our blankets in our bedroom with our pups faithfully sleeping at the end of the bed … hmmm at one time it was my husband myself and both of my kids at the end of our bed all covered up watching TV with us,. then my daughter after the shows where over she would tiredly walk with my guidance to her room and my husband carring our son to his bed because he always feel asleep, now it’s replaced with me in bed watching our shows but my husband and I eyeing the time and myself texting my son in all capital letters GET HOME NOW!!! it works. Oh a Mother;s job never done. I guess I will go settle and we will see if its going to be that kind of night…. Good Night Everyone.