As my hubby is enjoying the hockey game on tv I am looking at paint colors online . We want to repaint our kitchen and living room it’s been 13 yrs since we built our house and feeling like we need a change defiantly over due. As you see I’m the one looking as my hubby is watching the game …okay it’s not that he doesn’t care it’s just he is sick of me not liking his color and him not liking mine so he needed a break . It’s so hard . When we had first moved in it was actually not too much of a though what we wanted and the house was painted now . It just feels so overwhelming . The more I look the colors are starting to look all the same hahahaha . Earlier I thought we had it then one issue came up do we break up the color in the hallway that is connected , follows the kitchen color or now break it up …ughh . It’s a ranch so everything is so connected . I like the idea to break it up he doesn’t . So that has led him to stop thinking about it at the moment . Oh what to do …. sadly I’m not a hockey fan so that is not going to distract me 🙂 well I guess I stop looking give it a break and see if it’s clearer tomorrow. Maybe .
Book read ? maybe since I’m settled under the covers with our electric blanket on ..yess it’s cold it was snowing an hour ago not sticking but snowing ,crazy middle of April. having to use my blanket . It will be used again tomorrow unless I can get close enough with my car to see the track , my son has a track meet tomorrow afternoon in a couple towns over . So if it’s cold it will not be fun sitting outside . Bad enough the kids stiffen up trying to run in their uniform in the cold. Once again my son is home settled in his bed watching a movie after getting home from practice. Such a record . Next week he will be back at school and then watch he will be out at night a bit more … hmm . I guess I will read for a bit Good night everyone.
A very long mentally exhausting day… moments on the phone dealing with financial aide and figuring out life that isn’t talking about my life but my sons …. yes defiantly something wrong with this picture …. be 17 and you think the world is yours hmm ..and things will just magically happened ….. NOT! ..Oh to be 17 and have your head in the clouds ….help! So yeah it got better towards night time when I’m trying to fix supper and my son in his mood comes home and throws a pkg of Hamburg on the stove to open and cook but the problem is the burner is still on because I’m still using it yeah the house filled with smoke I grabbed it but not fast enough the fire alarms are touchy but yeah there was smoke so they went off screaming through the house having Miss Abigail run for cover, my hubby running around and opening windows as my son stood there doing the blame game with me …oh boy let’s just say that didn’t last long I shut down and just glared when I do.not speak you know I’m done .. he just kept staring at me while we all finally sat at the table eating.. I have still said nothing even in his return from the gym.. I’m in my bed settling my mind or trying .. and flying the defeat flag tonight . Just tonight …
lets see after a night of laying awake because the house kept making random banging popping noises because of the cold . Then awakened by my husband”s sudden movement at 5:30 this morning to find out it was my son leaving for the gym ….hmmm can you say why… I finally fell back to sleep when the front door opened at 8:00 to him getting home and I was up yawning my way to the coffee pot and inhaling the incredible scent of hot steaming coffee . About an hour later everyone was out the door my hubby off to get an oil change on his truck my daughter and son off to work and some moments to myself as Miss Abigail followed me around the house collecting laundry and cleaning up then there was errands to run and then back home to prepare supper and catch my favorite daytime soapy, The sun is settling and I was happy to catch the beautiful sunset .Now I’m sitting ready to color until everyone gets home, I have the tv on and the movie not the animated version but the one with Jonny Depp”s Alice In Wonderland is on ..ummm let me just say of all the kid moviess, fairytales this was not one of them I do not even own the animated one. This movie just never set well with me it always just seemed like such a strange movie it was not one I ever introduced my kids to when they where younger it’s funny though because over the yrs my kids did see it and my daughter shares the same feeling of it as I🙂. I laugh with what she says it represents to her now as an adult I hope no one gets offended but I have to agree it’s like some one is on a bad trip if you know what I mean and they need to come out of it …..hahahaha sadly I agree. Thankfully my hubby just arrived home and news will now take its place . coloring will wait till later must go and check on my supper.. My son just arrived home looking tired and cold and it looks like he is ready to settle in …good night to .Soon the house will be making its noises again the house is starting to feel cold another cold night is once again upon us.
I slept in a bit then I made my way to the kitchen for a nice hot cup of coffee as I enjoyed it I tuned into the Today show shocked to hear the news that Matt Lauer made it to the list of mistreating women …not going to be the same watching this , well now he pays the price for his actions. I have other opinions but will not state them . ..So I finished my coffee and started my day as usual. laundry , tidy up the house , as I watched my soapy and yelled at the television hahaha my daughter loves when I get in to my show so intensely. I did some Christmas decorating around the house as Miss Abigail looked on as well . Then the phone call came in hospital setting up an appointment for my son for his MRI on his knee luckily for him they had an opening within an hr today if he wanted to go of course we said yes so I dropped what I was doing and went and got ready to bring him . So now hopefully we can get in sooner with the therapist to tell us what’s going on and what needs to be done . I just hope he keeps his head on straight and knows there is no running this winter but rehab to get this knee ready for spring track. His rushing makes me a bit nervous because I know with his way of thinking he will rush this and as usual his impulsive thinking will get him in trouble. Oh his mind works in such mysteries ways….yes he is a teenager and he his making this mom have more grey hair then she wants. I must say I love how he needs me to get him to places and then we get home and he is so oh I’m independent I’ could of done this on my own ughhh enough to make a mom crazy . Would I want him any other way hmm …haha no I wouldn’t some days he reminds me of myself as a teenager so naive cocky , and I mature hahahaha sadly. Now I’m settled in and going to do some coloring before it gets to late . Can’t believe it’s 10 already.
So it’s 9:30 on a Thurs night and the storms have passed for the time being. Oh wait now it souns like a monsoon out there where did this rain come from… I’m laying here in the dark on my phone playing the game bubble pop and for the life of me can’t get past level 32, two days so far …why did I even think to start playing this game . 🙂 It’s so addictting . So any how I’m laying her playing thinking of how we are all settled in for once… hmm nope my son asks if he can drive into town and see his two best buddies hmm okay I could I should say no but well soon school will be here and he will be home at night his friends will head back to college soon so I say yes … and said be back by curfew one of his buddies moms owns a fudge / candy ice cream store so they sit there after it’s close and eat ice cream and talk well what I’ve been told . Small town so if he is not telling the truth I will find our. Parenting is not an easy thing. In all the parenting books they do not warn you that there will be a lot of worry and wondering and that you become a detective as well. Yes the perk of being a parent . So I guess it’s more bubble pop untill my son gets home unless I fall asleep but that is rare when he is out I usually stay up . Well hope everyone has a goodnight you know what I’m doing
Today was a day full of unexpected surprises for instance as I was enjoying my morning coffee I was looking to see what was treading on Twitter , yes I’m a twitter fan so I came up on an an article that was saying how there was an attacking squirrel in one of the New York Parks and it attacked 5 people I was shocked . Any how I signed out and started laundry and Then proceeded into the living room to tidy up things you know always something needs to be picked up.or wiped down. I heard a clunk and then a persistent tapping my daughters friend heard it as well so we started looking around first we thought it was the washing machine … nope ok well we then found it and it was looking right at us on top of my deck chairs a squirrel and it was literally pressed to my window that doesn’t have a screen luckily we do not open that side . Well it was tapping with it’s claws at my window then jumped into it and got back up on chair and was staring at us again it all happened so fast , her and I screamed and the thing ran up on to the deck railing along it stopped and stared at us . My daughters friend screamed shut the door before it comes through the screen oh I did …. we just stood there looking at one another and I thought of that darn article …and wondered what the heck is wrong with these squirrels so crazy thankfully he hasn’t been back , after things where done and supper started I turned on a channel that one of my oldie but goodies 80″s show came on 7th Heaven haven’t seen this showing since the end of winter I was happy ! The ironic thing it was an episode of the kids growing up and the parents seeing through their eyes them as children but then it brings them back to being older and the parents are seeing that they need to let go . Hmmm what I have been struggling with can you say sign? Now if you asked my son he would argue that he does not believe in signs or superstitions okay some superstitions I don’t but signs YES! What do you think do you believe in signs? Let me know. Time to go and have some supper.
So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon. I will keep you posted.