Always wondering…

So it’s 9:30 on a Thurs night and the storms have passed for the time being. Oh wait now it souns like a monsoon out there where did this rain come from… I’m laying  here in the dark on my phone  playing the game bubble pop and for the life of me can’t get past level 32, two days so far …why did I even think to start playing  this game . ūüôā It’s so addictting . So any how I’m laying her playing thinking of how we are  all settled in for once… hmm nope my son asks if he can drive into town and see his two best buddies hmm okay I could I should say no but well soon school will be here and he will be home  at night his friends will head back to college soon so I say yes … and said be back by curfew one of his buddies moms owns a fudge / candy ice cream store so they sit there after it’s close and eat ice cream and talk well what I’ve been told . Small town so if he is not telling the truth I will find our. Parenting is not an easy thing. In all the parenting books they do not warn you that there will be a lot of worry and wondering and that you become a detective as well. Yes the perk of being a parent . So I guess it’s more bubble pop untill my son gets home unless I fall asleep but that is rare when he is out I usually stay up . Well hope everyone has a goodnight you know what I’m doing

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Sigh…

Today was  a day full of unexpected surprises for instance as I was enjoying my morning coffee I was looking to see what was treading on Twitter , yes I’m a twitter fan  so I came up on an an article that was  saying how there was an attacking squirrel in one of the New York Parks and it attacked 5 people I was shocked . Any how I  signed out and started laundry and Then proceeded into the living room to tidy up things you know always something needs to be picked up.or wiped down. I heard a clunk and then a persistent tapping my daughters friend heard it as well so we started looking around  first we thought it was the washing machine … nope ok well we then found it and it was looking right at us on top of my deck chairs a squirrel and it was literally  pressed to my window that doesn’t have a screen luckily we do not open that side . Well it was tapping with it’s claws at my window then jumped into it and got back up on chair and was staring at us again it all happened so fast , her and I screamed and the thing ran up on to the deck railing along it stopped and stared at us . My daughters friend screamed shut the door before it comes through the screen oh I did …. we just stood there looking at one another and I thought of that darn article …and wondered what the heck is wrong with these squirrels so   crazy  thankfully he hasn’t been back , after things where done and supper started I turned on a channel that one of my oldie but goodies  80″s show came on 7th Heaven haven’t seen this showing since the end of winter I was happy ! The ironic thing it was an episode of the kids growing up and the parents seeing through their eyes them as children but then it brings them back to being older and the parents are seeing that they need to let go . Hmmm what I have been struggling with can you say sign? Now if you asked my son he would argue that he does not believe in signs or superstitions okay some superstitions I don’t but signs YES! What do you think do you believe in signs? Let me know. Time to go and have some supper. 

change of life…

So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional ¬†and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager ¬†my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly ¬†on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor ¬†and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon. ¬†I will keep you posted.

Good Morning

Good Morning woke up to sunny and 80 degrees ¬†and muggy. No happy medium ¬†just two days ago we had the heat on and now we should ¬†have air conditioning on but not ready to run that yet so it will be Windows close and shades half down untill the sun moves away from our house …so crazy. If you read my last post well I think I am going stop ¬†obsessing over everything being the way it use to be and follow my family’s way ¬†and if they do not like it or wonder what’s going on hmm well then I guess they will have to step up. I think I need to be able to have my own way as well..this is so hard for me because ¬†then i always feel guilty ¬†or selfish so I have to push through these feelings and do this so we can ALL be happy. .. will see .

Can you say crazy….

House clean Check

laundry done Check

Bills paid        Check

school issues Check

supper cooking Check

Myself Crazy…… ughh¬† how I feel this week¬† I do not think one day warm and sunny then 3 days cold and raining does not help . It was one of those weeks when I feel¬† like I’m running in two different directions.¬† Thankfully it’s Friday.¬† So now everything is done and the house is quiet Miss Abigail is doing what she does best on quiet rainy days snuggled up and sleeping it away… until everyone gets home . I think I am going to check out that new series that is based on a book. that is on Netflix it actually a book that my daughter read back when she was in 7th grade and now she is 21¬† and is reading it¬† again its called 13 Reasons Why .. there is a big controversy in my part of the globe I do not know how far this controversy stretches¬† to the rest of the globe but society is saying it glamorizes teenage suicide and gives the teenager the idea that if they have a problem this is an easy way out. my daughter said she believes people are getting the wrong message that what she gets out of it is that the main character was so bullied¬† mistreated and had know one¬† who she felt she could tell who could¬† help her friend wise and¬† other kids went along with the abusing and that more teenagers¬† and adults should learn more about bullying and issues teenagers go through and more now in this society from this book/series how to see the signs of bulling or abuse to help someone if you witness this to stop being so hateful to others you never know what someone is going through. Okay I can agree with that so I decided I will watch it and see what I see being that I do have a daughter who suffered from bulling … when she was in High School yes my now 21 yr old and thankfully was strong enough to tell me and now she is doing well and is a very stronger person that I am so proud of.

Now my Son is in High School a Junior and the pressures and the games girls or should say a girl that is playing ,the¬† mind games with my son who is not into drama like his sister says it like it is doesn’t like to be lied to okay yes who does right…¬† is heart is so big he respects girls he will be nice to anyone so there are days he is in the slumps yes he gets tired from sports school work but the kids and girls play a big part of those slumps so I like to keep a close eye on him¬† He does¬† know his dad and I and sister are here at anytime¬† time to talk to. Sadly this day in age these kids do not have it easy peer pressure is at a all time high and they will not talk to someone and will take it upon them self to handle it I quote… so this when you have to become a detective not easy but its possible.¬† so will see when I watch this I will let you know in between reading the book I showed you in my past post ..its good but so far its going by the movie which usually does not happen which I was hoping would be more detailed but I will see and get back to you on that as well.

Saturday …

It’s been a brutally ¬†cold Saturday ¬†so my husband ¬†and I where fine to stay home today and keep warm . We decided since we where home and the kids where off doing their things we would watch a movie ¬†so we thought humor drama sad romance hmm…well we decided on humor would be nice to laugh. The movie we chose ¬†was Sausage Party …Oh boy hmmm well what a pick hahaha okay we really did not know what we were in for .let’s say maybe animated ¬†but so not for kids well under 16.it was so nasty I can’t even begin to describe how nasty ..and we will never look at food the same for awhile….Oh it was not what I was expecting okay it was funny but literally ¬†just bad .So my Son did warn us not to one day when my daughter said watch it …well she came home from work and saw that we where watching it and went into hysterics ¬†and she just couldn’t believe the looks ¬†on our faces hahaha I think she liked seeing us look awkward .So that was our night and I am still ¬†trying to get it out of ¬†my head, I hope I do not dream about singing food tonight yeah you ha e to watch it to understand or not. .well time to call it a night

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Photo Monday….

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Better late then never my photo for today. It’s been a busy weekend as well as a busy Monday. It’s only going to get busier and crazier … well hopefully Tues I have a breather. Thursday my son will be going for his drivers license and I am a wreak LOL! I am going to be living on my phone texting him the words WHERE ARE YOU every minute….. ughh he is the baby and a boy .I did not feel this way with my daughter she is so much more mature I knew where she was , this is¬† not something I am embracing at the moment. I am trying to because he is so excited and I am excited for him but not for what I am going to go through…. with his¬† more¬† found¬† freedom.¬† So over the weekend my daughter and I went and enjoyed a shopping and coffee day and Ive been on a budget so I was trying to stay practical and my daughter saw the adult coloring book and said you have to get this I have this one and love it and it will help you with your worries, get it you will¬† not regret it. My daughter was right I started a page last night and I¬† am really enjoying it it’s a lot of fun this book .I have two others one that I have just about colored all the pages¬† in and I love them as well but this one is refreshing , really calming. I am so happy someone thought of this for adults to relieve some stress or¬† just take your mind off things for awhile.¬† Thank you to whoever came up with this beautiful idea¬† and to my daughter for giving me the push to buy it.