Why not….

I woke from a dream thinking the ground was covered in white. Sweet thing about that dream .. it was wrong . 🙂 not ready I do not think I’ll ever be ready but it will be here shortly. The weekend forecast it looking brutally cold. You will find me reading blogging and under my cozy blanket with cups of steamy coffee and tea, if the sun is out and bright I may venture out though. Have to have my sun.

No snow but tons and tons of rain . I can handle the rain. My daughter and I went to some appointments and then a coffee stop. We stopped in to the cell phone store. Sadly this morning she woke to her cell not turning back on. Let’s see it’s 5 yrs old so she has done well with it . The phone really doesn’t exist anymore. She got onto a cell phone plan .Not a bad deal for the newest iPhone. She couldn’t resist . The deal yes was that good. And I told her to go for it . She has never asked or wanted much . She has a heart of gold that gets used way too much . And with her depression I felt she deserved a little happiness even if it’s a materialistic one. I told her I would help her I paid the tax and start up fee plus a case she definitely needed . It’s basically part of Christmas gift . She loves her phone and out of all of us she had the oldest phone. The look on her face when they brought out the phones to pick a color she would like was priceless. I wanted to cry. I know … I’m such a crier… but oh her face lit up . It’s not often I see her face light up like that.

Now it’s 10:30 at night I’m settled on the couch everyone’s in bed as usual except me. To early for me. My son will be home as of tomorrow for the long holiday weekend from college . He will come In like a hurricane and leave like a hurricane. Maybe….. he will get some catch up sleep . Doesn’t sleep well in his dorm. Well how appropriate on the country station I’m softly listening to , Martina McBride’s song My Daughters Eyes is playing . Here I go again tearing up. Okay that’s over … so now to try some more of the audiobook I started . I’ll settle under my blanket a bit more and listen to it . Let’s see if I fall asleep to it again. Lol. I’ll let you know tomorrow.

The things I do ..

It was a lazy start to the Monday. Woke from a dream which I wish I could remember . It must have been something of a sort to have me wanting to remember I guess the feeling I had when I woke was the reason. Grabbed a quick shower and then off to the kitchen for some much needed coffee.. oh my poison.. I only had one cup. Surprised? Don’t be because I knew my daughter and I were heading out to food shop and I knew we would stop for coffee always a given. After food shopping was finished the sun decided to show itself so I was fueled up with caffeine and wanted to be out. So we took a ride. As of today it’s 3 yrs that a child lost her life to a bus accident in our community. 9 yrs old her knapsack strap was caught in the door of the the bus . Negligence of the bus driver who shut the door too soon and not realizing she was trapped as he took drove off to his next stop the rest is self explained😥 this little girl will never be forgotten . She was so precious. I felt it was only fitting to go to the cemetery and think about her visit with her. . My daughter and I have this thing about cemetery’s . We find them peaceful and we use to go a bit more then we do . She went with me today . And we said a prayer for the precious child. My daughter said to me ” I know we do not come here much and I know you like to . I was quiet for a moment. And then started to drive .I stopped at the beautiful fountain that’s sits in the beginning of the entrance guarded by a medal design fence. She looked at me and said ” oh why have we stopped here. I told her this is where I park when I come by myself to find some peace and to collect my thoughts and yes to be by myself , no one would think except for her and a close friend that this is where you could find me if needed. I just love to listen to the fountain bubbling and have some soft music playing quietly in the car . And yes I let my thoughts drift. It’s really a nice feeling . Comforting .. yes I said it and this is a person afraid of death. I guess it’s more about the unknown of it. So yes this is where we sat for a bit and talked . It was nice. And well needed. So have I made you think of me differently now? Some would be a bit standoffish by this. We all have a place where we find comfort. And yes this is mine.

Late night movies..

  1. Saturday night my daughter and I settled on the couch and enjoyed the movie The Notebook . We have seen it “hundred times ” but it just never gets old. Yes we laughed and we cried but that’s what happen with good movies. 2 hours went by quickly and it was midnight when we looked up from the TV . My daughter sighed as she yawned . Tiredly telling me how she enjoyed watching it once again. Moments later she headed down to her place and I stayed there cozy wrapped in my blanket in the darkness … yes thinking , thinking about the movie the meaning of it . Yes like I stated seen it ” a hundred times but I’m always amazed how every time I watch it I find something new that jumps out at me . And it sets more meaning to me . As I sat there pondering . I decided I wanted to watch it again .. crazy? (Hahaha ) no I just wasn’t tired and ready to move from my cozy spot. And I thought it would be nice to just watch alone . This movie has so many emotions in it . And yes I feel everyone one of them to my core . I cozied more into my blanket and before I knew it it was over . And my eyes were moist from the tears that once again built up in them. It’s kind of a silly thing when watching a movie that can make you so sad also makes you feel good. And you would shed those tears a”100 times over” to feel those emotions again.

A beautiful day ..

This afternoon my daughter and I ventured out when we left the house it was down pouring. But knowing we were headed for our coffee and lattes it was perfect weather. Yes that’s what we do …we love our lattes. Starbucks had their pumpkin spice flavor out so we enjoyed them while we chatted in the parking lot where we were going to shop ,but coffee first always a given with us . And Starbucks pumpkin spice is the best! After we realized it was a holiday and all the college kids would be shopping. We managed to get through the crowded store and get the things we were looking for. The store was pretty much turned upside down by the college students. All in all it was a nice day spent with my daughter and when we walked out of the store the rain had stopped and the sun peaked out from the clouds . It was so beautiful to see. It’s a quiet rainy night now , yes the rain has decided to make its presence known again. The sound of the rain is calming though and I’m feeling happier ,chatted with my son earlier and he’s happy settling in with a routine. He has one more day until classes starts and is happily keeping himself busy. Now it’s my turn . As of tomorrow I will start my routine . And on the top of my list is spend more time with friends ! Get out more , and yes take care of me . 🙂

2nd laid back day..

Another laid back day. Waking to a foggy head from the medication, I knew I had no choice but to listen to my Dr. and take several days for just me. And that I did.. fell back to sleep waking at 11:30 I have not slept that late since I was a teenager. Finally heading for a shower and then to a bottle of water and my medication. No coffee …. then a protein smoothie for breakfast and sat and enjoyed my daughters company. She added some songs onto my playlist she thought I would enjoy and I did. The house filled with music. We pretty much like the same music. After when she was down in her place I went and grabbed some fresh air before the the sky decided to open up and send some rain down. Well I shouldn’t say some it’s been raining ever since. Tonight I will start some episode of Orange is a new black . Love these girls! I ended up missing these as well. So I’m happy I can catchup finally. And good time when you need to lay low.

New read and some downtime …

Hi everyone it’s been almost a week of not posting. I’ve been enjoying a new book .Thanks Diane! loving it so much. As well as some downtime .. I think the ac’s running so much this summer has done my sinus’s in.. soon I believe I will need to go to the Dr.’s and get some medication if there is no relieve soon. the past weekend we celebrated my daughters 24th birthday she had a great weekend it started with a Saturday night concert to see the Comeback of the Jonas Brothers. And ended with a beautiful cake on Sunday . And now all the birthdays are done and summer is widening down . Soon my son will be headed to college in about two weeks which I believe it’s time … he needs sone structure and routine and I need some time to myself once again.. Thankfully I have this beautiful book to relax with and focus on. I just hope I can stretch it out till my son leaves .. yes the air in my house is thick… 🙄 and well not feeling well does add to some anxiety .. so I am reading and reading ( hahaha) and did I say reading? To keep my sanity intact … so please bare with me . As I may not not be posting everyday . Until I feel better.

Beautiful day out..

Headed out a bit early with my daughter her car needed an old change . So off to dealership she bought it from . I’m happy she has such great service ,where I bought mine from it’s horrible , all we had to do was drive into the open bay they asked what was needed and 20 mins later we where off to enjoy some lunch . As you see I tried to go as healthy as I could being that yes it was eating out.. so soup and a salad no bread… it was really good and light . Now our next stop was not as healthy.. sorry but not sorry.. we both enjoyed a Carmel chocolate chip macchiato 🤷🏻‍♀️have to always get our coffee when we are near a Starbucks … okay actually any coffee place when we are out (hahaha) not a complete day out with my daughter if there is no coffee involved. After we hit the Walmart and grabbed a few things that where needed and I found a cute blouse I couldn’t let go of🙂

On a different note. We headed to this Big Y gas station our local store around our area has gas stations you can get a discount if you have their card. I went in with her to pay to grab a water. And… there was my daughters ex boyfriend. Can you say awkward! Well not for me but for my daughter. She did pretty good I must say.. he did as well a bit surprised when we walked in he said hi to me first and they talked a bit but sadly I could see his eyes tear up … the hopeless try to make everyone happy person open her mouth and asked if he was doing okay and he started to tell us … okay this guy is such a loss soul . He’s never been very happy had a hard childhood so him with a relationship is hard but other then that he’s really a good person and means well but him and my daughter were just not good for one another. He is still friends with my son and I on Facebook . My son likes the guy and felt bad for him . So once again my mouth opened and I said if he ever wanted someone to talk to message me because well the line behind us was picking up and we had to let him get back to work . Okay the look on my daughters face was not pretty…. we arrive at her car and she said oh mom why did you tell him that? And you know he won’t talk to you.. okay I’m fine with that but I just had to offer ..sadly it’s who I am . Does it get me in trouble at times yes .. My heart kind of breaks for him . I feel bad for people who are not happy with their life .. I know not my place so .. so be it I put it out there and if he does I will not mind being an ear for him. On our way home it was a bit quiet but she got over it and all was good. Now my house is filled with chatty laughing guys . A beautiful sound . My son arrived home with a friend so their cooking up food and the house is not quiet. Oh how I will miss this when he is at college… I’m trying to line my self up with things to do friends to see and talk to it will all come together I’m sure .