Contentment versus Happiness?

Here is the definition of content and happiness some will argue this meaning doesn’t or shouldn’t go together. I do understand the definitions but… I feel at times content can be used as a safe haven to use as an excuse to not further grow in life . To be happy to have the settled approach is easier then changing because we all no change can be so hard. If we settle to what is ..even if it’s not a good thing we as human beings do because it’s so much easier. We learn to live , except . Are we happy ? That’s my question . Like I stated content follows happiness but I have found many to say their content they have their routine their material things . Are you happy though and I will hear yes but no . Hmm yes because your settled no because you are not enjoying what you want to in life . Happiness yes is a feeling and some say a desire. Only quoting of what I have heard . Why is being happy over being content so hard for people to except . Why does happiness have a negative if we do not follow it with content. Yes some are very happy with just being , good enough. But do not frown on if it’s not the same believe of others. For example. When I was younger and not a mother I was out going social . I was happy with being me happy and never doubted . Then I became a wife a mother and I slow changed yes as we do . Yes my focus was taken away from me and now directed towards my family. Yes I was happy yes I was content I knew nothing else . My focus was what was asked of me what you do . My writing etc everything I enjoyed that was apart of ME slowly faded . Yes I still wrote except my writing took on whole other meaning about family life. I was less social even though you would think I was around other parents constantly with play dates . They where not my close friends that faded as well. Yes all probably my doing because ones I focus on something I take it to the limit. Who would figure our kids would grow up πŸ™„ well they did . And I found my ” content life” was not the same . My kids could not be my main focus anymore . It left me wondering now what? I cannot keep going as I was .

I see life now as I use to be yes older but my need to bring back what I love my social side my silly side , to be me . Take care of me . To realize life doesn’t slow down after the kids are out of the house. That life is about change .. a good change. To take control of my health , my wants, And to me that is yes happiness and contentment.

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First day of summer!

It’s the first day of summer. I woke refresh after the night before not getting much sleep . Took a quick shower then enjoyed my coffee while talking with my son .. well I was talking he was busy on his new laptop he purchased for college in the Fall. A bit later my daughter and I headed out grabbed some coffee her first my second of the morning. Then checked out prices on tires for my car and a stop at the appliance store to purchase an air conditioner for our living room . We have them in the bedrooms but the living room and kitchen gets unbearable so bought a small one that should do the job. Paid some bills and headed home. Cleaned up the house as I heard my son leave on his motorcycle and my daughter with her boyfriend , I turned up the stereo and got lost in the music as I cleaned .. thankfully no one was home as I love to sing πŸ™‚ the humidity cleared and the night is cool so I made chocolate chip cookie bars as my hubby enjoys the baseball game.

Now let me just say this was a different first day of summer for me. In the past it would start off with my kids begging to get to the community pool so making up sandwiches to bring and a lot of water . Pile towels into the car and off we go take in the sun the friends until it was time to call it a day and get home to cookout for dinner and a movie together till bed. Aww how I miss those days. Weekend nights at the drive-ins , ice cream rides, still have bonfires even as time went by it would be the start of kids driving .. so the door to our house opening and shutting …well more like slamming more then I can count . Kids friends hanging out outside or in their room music echoing from my sons bedroom walls And sound of giggling girls from my daughters room . To quietness of them falling to sleep or leaving. Then last year it changed it became a bit quieter my youngest graduating from high school as yrs before my daughter. My daughter with her boyfriend on days off from work or with friends . My son with friends .. and hubby and I having more bonfires with the rest of our family members .Saturday suppers out to different eatery’s , daytime car rides the two of us , occasional outings for a coffee run with my daughter all the things that become the new or I should say start of the next journey of life after kids . My son enlisting in The Army National Guard so that meant he had to be on his best behavior doing training at nearby base until heading to Missouri in the Fall. Less running here and there and everywhere .

This first day of summer as you see is no different then last summer a bit more quieter my son working until 10 then going out with friends will be asleep by the time him and my daughter arrive home. Now just the baseball game and the smell of fresh baked cookies. For my hubby and I . Miss Abigail having a treat of being with hubby and I tonight roaming to one window to the next looking out to the dark summer night . . Did capture this guy as it was getting dark heading off to settle for the night . Now going to read my book until I fall asleep . Happy First day of summer everyone πŸ™‚

Movie night…

It was another quiet Saturday . My hubby not feeling good and I did not want to food shop without him , we just let it go and ordered a pizza for supper with fries . And then after found a movie to watch . We settled with Deadpool 2 … okay that was interesting… the dreams I may have tonight. It was comical but strange at the same time , I wouldn’t say it’s at the top of my movie list. I hadn’t heard from my son for most of the day since he had some down time there this weekend so I sent him a quick text . He replied back saying he was ..has been sleeping trying to recover . That he felt horrible. I feel so bad he’s many miles away and if he has what my daughter and I had I wish I was able to take care of him. I tried to tell him to go to the base infirmary to get checked out and get some Advil or Tylenol because I believe he may be running a fever . When I asked if he was he said probably .. do you think he responded ? No he didn’t. I hope his roommates can get him to go. He is so stubborn. I spent sometime coloring , got a bit more done on the page I have been working on. Tomorrow with out fail I will need to food shop. Oh the task that I hate to do. Now watching movies are done for the night and I think I will try to get some sleep . Goodnight everyone.

Something strange but cute!

So tonight my husband and I were relaxing in front of the tv after supper was done and cleaned up watching our shows . When Miss Abigail planted herself right in front of us facing the tv . My husbands says , do you see this ? She actually watching it . Her head was moving side to side as the images on the tv moved . She sat there for almost 5 mins . It was so strange but cute . I had to get a picture for my daughter so she could see her cat. Then I figured why not share it with all of you . Something different for a change and pleasant . EnjoyπŸ™‚

Soon!

Good morning it’s a quiet Tuesday one .. after waking up at 7:00 the aroma of coffee found its way to me . I dragged myself to the shower but not before starting a load of laundry my husband had loaded in the washing machine ..I blasted the hot water since it’s so cold trying to warm up . Finally finding my way to the kitchen grabbing some coffee was so worth every sip.Miss Abigail is already in her chair sleeping away again . Oh this house is quiet but going to be even quieter by Friday when my hubby flys out to my Son for his Basic Training graduation I’ve mentioned this in past posts ,I’m not going can not fly or do the long distance walking so he will video and get a lot of pictures. The graduation isn’t until next Wed with visiting the base the day before so actually he’s flying out Saturday early morning with his mom who got them a room by the airport on Friday night so she wouldn’t have to to do an hr and a half ride to the airport for a 8:00am flight sadly they will be hanging around in a hotel from Sat to Tues because of finding a flight so close to my sons graduation . Then after graduation they will head to the airport and fly home with him . It will be a long day for them they should arrive home around 1or 2 in the morning.. I will stay up to at least give my son a hug and then let him head to bed . And then catchup with him as much as possible until his friends get ahold of him. They have already started texting me asking when he will be home …… so this will be interesting πŸ™‚. It’s only 12 days here then he flys back out again but it’s ok I can at least have him home for Christmas !

I have been slowly decluttering the house .. my daughter will help me when my hubby is away which will keep my mind busy . Yes my mind (hahaha) I think too much . And so decluttering and freshening up his bedding will keep me busy . Yes I have been thinking and what timing as I’m writing this post I’m watching the morning local show while enjoying my coffee their talking about first holidays with your adult kids coming home from college , moving out military etc ..stating how when they come home it will be different for them and the parents as well.. The day they first walked out the door on their own they became adults and started their new life and so they will be different and we will be different as well ..So how we treated them before will change a bit yes their still our kids but their adults, seen a different world so transitioning to coming home will be however we make it but to respect there difference as well as they should respect our difference of how we as parents have adapted to them not being here But being adults doesn’t mean they will not need us they will. But in a more supportive way of letting them tell you how they feel if it’s been hard then guide them with ideas to make it more easier but teaching them , telling them is no longer our job. It’s their life. and we want them to want .. to look forward to coming home.Ok I must say listening to this has helped a lot because that is what I’ve been thinking about so much as the time has come closer to my son coming home and him coming home from Basic Training he will be different. And that could be a good thing . Oh I love him but he needed some help with growing up and hopefully taming his wild ways ..not a bad wild but a young wild .. so I will step back see how he is when he walks though the door and then trend carefully seeing the difference in him. My daughter growing into an adult was so different and easy she didn’t move away but went in a separate part of our house and just transitioned so much better I think she was born an adult ) hahaha) being a teenager was hard for her she always acted older then her peers . Was better around adults so being adult she has flourished and I’m proud of her. . So yes we will see . I’ll keep you posted.

Halloween…

Today was like any other day .. except for the exception I woke late after not going to bed until 1:30 or more … had it planned to get some sleep after finishing my letter to my son sending a quick text to my daughter yes… only down in her place but still new she was still up catching up on her tv shows she recorded. So a quick text goodnight our thing..,and turned the volume down on my phone or thought I did .. been keeping it on since my son left just Incase it makes me feel better it’s complicated to explain. Old habit …. anyways I turned over closed my eyes and then my phone binged and lit up .. had to ..needed to look . It was the link notifying me of photos taken at the base. I had to see couldn’t wait .. there on one of the many photos was a photo of my son doing his thing. So yes I was on for a bit until saying ok … sleep. Well morning came quick and yes for some odd feeling it felt like Halloween but so much has changed .. yeah kids are adults now ( hahaha) really how … how time flies. Plus the fact we get no trick or treaters where we live . Haven’t handed out candy in yrs.. I drove through town ,not many decorated but a lot of pumpkins carved with a heart throughout the town in honor of a little girl who got killed in a sad accident that should of never had happened and it was I believe two days before Halloween and this yr marks two yrs this precious little girl has been gone . So it was nice to see all the pumpkins with hearts carved into them for her.

Not many trick or treaters as much anymore the kids in the neighborhood all growing up. I believe a lot more unlit houses discouraging any who want to go to to their house . I just think of the times we live in now , it just doesn’t seem safe to do this anymore. I think that’s why it seems more low key around my world now. Sadly I do miss it , loved dressing up my two and my other half and I walking through town with them , talking to other parents as we went door to door. But times have changed. My daughter out with her boyfriend after getting out of work. My son at Basic. Hubby and I settled in watching our favorite show while enjoying some recess peanut butter cups.. hahaha the best. Now he is sleeping away and I believe I should as well . Happy Halloween everyone ..

August already …

Good morning! It’s unbelievable that it’s August already … not that lI’m to sad it’s been a very humid and rainy one which has been a summer of many days spent indoors somewhere . Not as many bonfires as we thought we would have. I always say I love August for one reason .. it’s the month my first born was born and shocking that she is going to be 23 . Time sure does fly by. So the middle of the month we will celebrate her Birthday in any way she wants . πŸ™‚ I must say it’s been a summer of reading hat has been nice . My book is Getting pretty creepy (hahaha) but so good.. the better of the day before was spent at the Dr.s for physicals and then errands it did help the rainy day move along much easier then it was Home and relaxing in the air conditioning . My other half laying watching tv my son relaxing in his room my daughter and I reading.-a calm quiet night once again.

August use to be buckling down getting back in gear for the school routine .. this year will be so different … my son will be getting back in a routine but it will be for getting ready to leave in 2 months for Basic Training .. Oct until March. While his friends will be leaving at the end of this month for college so it will be bitter sweet for him instead of all going back to school together it will be them all going in different directions some will stay local so he will see them until Oct. for myself I will keep thinking positive and know my son is doing what makes him happy .. now my husband is going to be the one who will have a hard time adjusting .. my daughter and I are close but she has her life to lead even if she still lives here in the furnished basement . Will see as I said before … one step , one day at a time even if my mind still wanders back to thinking of all of this..