Good Morning

Good Morning woke up to sunny and 80 degrees  and muggy. No happy medium  just two days ago we had the heat on and now we should  have air conditioning on but not ready to run that yet so it will be Windows close and shades half down untill the sun moves away from our house …so crazy. If you read my last post well I think I am going stop  obsessing over everything being the way it use to be and follow my family’s way  and if they do not like it or wonder what’s going on hmm well then I guess they will have to step up. I think I need to be able to have my own way as well..this is so hard for me because  then i always feel guilty  or selfish so I have to push through these feelings and do this so we can ALL be happy. .. will see .

Enjoying things ….rainy day

Yes …another rainy day. trying not  to let this dreary day bring me down. SO now that things around the house have been done and supper will be cooking shortly I have  enjoyed an extra cup of coffee with one of my blast in the past TV shows that I found months ago while flipping through channels because watching the news has not been very pleasant, the show is from the 80’s and it had a good running time I do not think a lot of people would remember it My hubby didn’t 🙂 It’s 7Th Heaven its such a great inspirational calm realistic feel good show and I enjoy it so much these days not to many good shows are on good shows. or role models for teenagers anymore  well if teenagers even watch TV shows at night because their busy on their phones.  well about that will save that subject for another day 🙂  Now back to enjoying things after supper and it’s cleaned up and my family and I are all  settled in for the evening I am going to enjoy some Adult coloring ,whoever discovered this for adults is a genius .It  takes my mind away for awhile when I want to be free of stressful things and it’s so much fun too .I have always love coloring when I was a little girl and now I can enjoy it as an adult and it helps relieve stress and anxiety . Now that is a good thing.  I do love to read but lately I cannot find a book that keeps my interests any idea’s would love some.

why do I write ?..thoughts

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Why do I write? I believe it’s like a runner who loves to run it’s a need a drive . It’s something that your body craves when it discovers it just like how someones mind craves to write words down on paper that the mind wants to express,. and likes the feeling of freedom it gives them . Runners run to also relieve stress and clears their mind, same as it does for  a writer . Now the question is WHY do I write? well all that I have stated but it’s more then that I have been writing since I was a teenager I can’t count the amount of Journals I have had and then the endless amount of poems I’ve written thoughts that are in my head. When your a teenager my favorite place to take a notebook and pen and write was an old abandon covered bridge, listening to the walls of the old wood creak as the wind would blow through those warn down walls and the beautiful sound of the the stream  was a perfect place. I love the satisfaction of it .After I started a family I got busy with them and writing went to the side a bit. Off and on if I had a moment I would write but not as much as I wanted . I have  chronic hip issues and I cannot run to relieve my stress so writing helps a lot and now with my kids growing up my daughter an adult now and my son a teenager and another yr to graduate High school I have the  time now and do I need this more then ever.

I started this blog about a yr ago and it’s about my life with my family everyday life going on’s the stresses of having kids teenagers   writing about my other interests .To some who read this will probably get board and just pass by it and to some may like it for them thank you. believe me I am not writing this blog for a ton of views yes it would be nice it feels good when I see the likes but my simple little issues are not for everyone and I know that, but at times it does hurt when I do not get a like and I doubt myself and I question everything I wrote…yes my grammar is not up to date. the writing structure needs to be worked on but sadly I just get on here and just write what come out of my thoughts and really do not thing about it. but I do know I love all my followers and appreciate them and me and read my post. I try to as well.  So once again a big THANK YOU!

Sigh …day 2

So it’s the day after I wrote my post of a not so good day with my new/used car purchase . So like I wrote in my post on Wed The car was told to come back because things had not been serviced on it and probably should of never left their lot.

It’s Thursday and at 9:30 in the morning after a very long restless night and wake up call from a roaring wind that sounded as angry as I felt at that moment. So I grabbed some coffee and started  getting somethings done that consist of using electricity because I worried we could loose it . the phone rang and it was the car dealer , the service guy sounded up beat well of course he did .. and told me that my car was all set and yes it had some issues that  where fixed  now minor as of yesterday(read Tues post) Today not…. and everything he stated now proves to me if I had known at least one of those issues I would of walked out the door. okay of course they do not tell you but rules where broken and lies where said and they wanted this car gone and I am now even more  mad because my son drove that car in the past two days while his  car was getting some things done and I felt his car wasn’t safe …oh my… my new car was the one that really wasn’t safe. so they where not happy that I was not happy about the work they did and I told them I’m sorry but how can I possibly be happy. so with this  this wind I told them I was not driving in it  with their  car they loan to me and and I feel uncomfortable driving it, he understood hesitantly  and  told me  tomorrow would be fine. I am hoping when I do get  there do  I  can get a moment to speak to their manager and ask him or her if she knew about this and that  I hope this is not how they do all their business  because if my son , daughter myself  who drove that car with the unsafe issues  had had an accident they would not be happy for what they would be in for. I just hope some other family isn’t driving one of their  unserviced  vehicles..

Contentment…

It’s a three day weekend and so far it’s been a nice calm nothing that needs  to be done weekend,  happy for that I think I catching the cold my Son and husband have had.   On Saturday I did some decluttering  around the house and some dusting and rearranging things and as I was taking off the throw blankets on my sofa I moved my sofa cushion and under it I found a dog treat  I just stood there and smiled and thinking yes another sign like he was saying Hi mommy ..I know I haven’t lost my mind well not yet 🙂 to some it was just a treat that fell down in the sofa but to me it’s a sign he was was saying he was still with us in spirit and to me that is  a happier thought. As the day progressed my husband and son put our new TV stand up I am in the process of changing and as my son would say updating our house you would think this was an  old house no it isn’t but he is 16 and image  is everything. I am hoping his head comes out of the clouds soon. ..okay the old TV stand did have to go and now I am getting a new coffee table hopefully a newer sofa .  and new paint  on the walls as well. yes change.

Sunday it’s a much quieter day ,My daughter at work and my son off with his friends and Miss Abigail my daughters cat getting into everything is it. still a full moon? she has been a crazy cat lately. and I am still slowly going through our house and decluttering yes its another boring day I am sure some are thinking but I am actually content .I am not a winter person. and even though the sun is shining it is still to cold for me and why spend money on something silly when I can use it for things I want in my house. I m not trying to be fancy just comfortable we built this house 10 yrs ago and its not been changed around to much and it’s time and I never felt I had it cozy enough I like the cozy feeling so I am determine to do that . Tomorrow will get out because I know my husband is inching to he needs to be constantly on the go and I am just content to write take care of my home and family and well yes enjoy my coffee runs my addiction 🙂 but honestly it does not take much to make me happy especially now being older I have come to enjoy the little things in life ….is that so bad ?  Tell me I would love to know what you think Well my son is home and is hungry and mom is on duty .

Bah Hum Bug….

Unfortunately   I feel like a Bah Hum Bug this Christmas..I just feel like we all lost the true meaning of it. ..yes giving and receiving gifts are nice but it’s seems every year we go more and more extreme that it becomes like a chore then a pleasure we  empty our wallets its just doesn’t seem like it’s either not good enough or enough. I wish we could focus more on the company of others possibly instead of a present a good deed. a listening ear , not wait I want this or what that’s all I have. Sadly I believe it’s not going to change we have become so materialistic yes things are nice but they always end up getting forgotten put aside and then we are on to a new I need or want ..yes it’s life , what I would like is for peace, back track weeks months have back What I have lost and others who have lost as, well more nights at home with my family laughing , enjoying a movie together.  Kids grow up family gets smaller routines change but just maybe I can get my family to pick one night a month when their not working or with friends and have takeout laugh at a funny movie together. My husband and  I have been enjoying more quiet nights and watching a movie together but this would be nice to try  and be together .img_20161212_135812-1