Once again …

Once again it’s the weekend . To me it’s another day okay that did not come out right, having the chronic disability I have has its moments of disappear For example today the sun is shining and my mind feels like it could run miles but my hip says otherwise … it’s hurting today more with the temps changing . My hubby went grocery shopping for me ,thankfully . I know I should be happy I do not have to do it but instead I feel not useful ,weak I hate this feeling . I know that the things I can do I should be thankful for I’m here I’m with my family I can cook for them I can talk with them but when they go off and do something as simple as a hike or my sons meets  or an all day shopping day with my daughter where I can not stand for long or walk for long periods of time is so frustrating . I know they understand but it’s hard and soon my kids won’t need me to cook for them or need laundry done  it’s already has been less  well my daughter does her own  and  my son does it on occasions ,  I know all good how it should be it just lets me feel useful .crazy thinking …I know.

My hubby is going through is own changes he is going to be 50 in April and is dreading it , to me age is just a number . I know he is thinking of his dad who will not be here for it since his passing this past August. He would just love to forget that day , So more then ever he is wanting to keep moving keep busy running hiking and sadly the things I can’t do with him and when the track meets and football games are over he will not know what to do with himself  even more .  I’m hoping to get up to Maine with him and sit on the beach , eat out at our favorite spots there ,  do more with just the two of us why not we sit home at night with each other  hahaha  we where going to go to the drive – ins last summer just the two of us but every time we had the chance they where showing a kid movie ,   Of course. Will play it by ear one day at a time for now to get through this winter and its ever changing weather . I have always been a reader Over the last several yrs I have not been as avid but now with more free time I’m picking it back up  and have a list of books I want to read . My hubby is not a reader . When it’s time to relax for the night it’s watching tv and then he falls asleep .. I love the adult coloring books , my daughter got me interested in them when she bought me my first book and now I’m hooked . I have several now. On nights  my

hubby falls asleep or I can’t sleep I read or color. My daughter laughs at me when I show here the finish page she will and I quote her “so you couldn’t sleep last night ”  🙂 Or how long did you wait up for Seth . Yeah she’s got my number 🙂  Getting back to the subject it’s hard when you want to do something but you can’t oh I could try but I know I will pay for it for days .there are things that are worth the pain but all in all its hard when your mind feels young but your body feels old.

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Sunday…

Sunday fun day…if you call a day of pouring rain and hitting every pothole driving because this rain is not helping the roads this time of year …then okay it’s a fun day hahaha this is a pic from the inside of our vehicle going through drive thru for a quick easy supper on the way home from my Mother -laws house. My son and their track team actually ran in this today I’m not surprised they do crazy things hahaha so it was my hubby and daughter and I that went and yes we got a coffee🙂 now it’s once again a quiet evening at home my daughter left for a friends house and thankfully my son checked in to let us know him and his friends are getting food out after their run so my hubby Miss Abigail and I are home and watching the Winter Olympics. .. and it’s still raining … ahh getting use to these nights…. hmm maybe 😉

Pleasant Day!

Even though it was was just one of those days during the week that your basically just doing what you do your mind is at ease you get things done easily and it’s just makes for a pleasant day 🙂 I think it helps that today is the last day of January …..not my favorite month . Plus I ran in to my favorite nephew who my son could be his mini me even though my nephew is in his 30’s him and my son resemble one another in just about every way looks their mannerisms …. and girls are attracted to them and they know it but they know what they want . Their hearts are both so big . So that made my day to see him and his lady . After that I came home and started making my homemade chicken and rice soup which happily it’s done and the house smells so good , Perfect on this cold day. . Now just waiting for everyone to come home . Once again I will remind you it really doesn’t take much to make me happy❤️

Relaxing …

The house is quiet my sons friends all went home the kitchen is clean thanks to my hubby ..and now we are all relaxing my son watching a movie no exams for him tomorrow he did them today and then Fri he has some so that’s good he can relax my hubby and I are relaxing in bed, I’m enjoying my book and he is watching tv ..was hoping he would read but that’s okay the book will be there on his shelf.

Like I’ve said in my past posts he’s not a reader I just pushed it hoping it would help him to relax but that will not be he what relaxes him by running and hiking is it where I cannot with my hip . But it’s all good . We just have our own thing what relaxes me is writing reading and coloring. Yes I would love to hike and run , I use to be able to but as I got older and had kids it’s not easy and that’s okay because I’m lucky to have been able to have kids and that is the greatest gift and sacrifice. When they where younger I was younger so I was able to do a lot with them and it was perfect to be able , now their older and I’m older and my job has lesson as well as my body of doing a lot of things. what I can do is sit and watch my sons track meets well In the spring more seating available the indoor winter meets my hubby goes and messages me. I can enjoy a cup of coffee with my oldest my daughter and I love to chat with our coffee and go to a book store and get our books. I can make supper for my family and my hubby cleans up and then we settle and watch our favorite shows or movies so it’s taught me one thing getting older and having no choice but to slow down that it’s not a bad thing that the most simplest things are just as important if more then the bigger things and when my house is filled with my kids friends and their filling the quiet with laughter and loud music and messing my kitchen up making food that is what I call a special moment . Life isn’t always easy but it’s good and it’s how you look at it and that is what life should be about not what and how much you have material wise but how many special moments you make and have to look back on .

National Peanut butter Day🥜

As you see today is National Peanut Butter Day, my family and I all love it we go through so many jars in our house . It makes for an easy lunch a midnight snack . We eat it with Marshmallow Fluff or Nutella and then the good old fashion pb and j (jelly) or right out of the jar yes hahaha have done that , just a scoop full and then spoon in the sink 🙂 also grilled it too like grilled cheese but pb and j so yummy now my family thinks that’s disgusting hahaha. Well whatever way you like it no wrong way of eating it .Its good in recipes as well . At my house we like the creamy not crunchy . What do you prefer ? Well time to eat my sandwhich🙂

Calm mind…

It’s been a peaceful Monday . It was a mild rainy day kept busy with some nice chats with with my daughter has she did her laundry . Then we went to get coffee. Yes our thing 🙂 then there was supper to be made and my husband did the cleanup love that part . we then settled in on this rainy night with our books …yes my hubby also read , he’s not a big reader he loves the newspaper , some magazines but when it comes to a book .. it’s the whole focus thing he gets up a couple a Times yeah he said he enjoys the book but I don’t know hopefully this will change … maybe I’m a person who could read for hours so I shouldn’t compare happy he at least relaxed a bit to read At least we where all home tonight my son settled in watching a movie and my daughter and Miss Abigail are down in there place . I’m just finishing up reading while my hubby is now snoring away . Time to call it a day I guess . 🙂

Full house❤️

Ahhh it’s a Saturday night a very cold one at that and my house is full ..meaning we are all home plus two of my daughters friends are over . Nights like this have been becoming less by the minute usually there is always someone that is out. So I tend to cherish these moments as I hear my son playing a game online with one of his buddies laughing way or a sudden bang of movement in my daughters place as I lay here next to my sleeping hubby . Such. a Cozy feeling as I drift off to sleep and then awaken by the morning light and the hustling and bustling of my son getting ready for work and the beautiful scent of fresh brewing coffee because my hubby always gets up before me. Then my day begins.