Melting…

Today I manage to wake a bit earlier. And get myself out of the house before my son actually woke . I went mudding out of our driveway . Sliding here and there. Yes it’s mud season in New England. The snow is melting making the snow not so pretty looking anymore mixed with the mud a white color car is not a good color for my driveway. I drove into town as the sun beat down into the car warming it . I arrived at the Post Office to collect our mail and looked at my car that was caked with mud all around the tires … I wondered what was making a flapping noises as I was driving I believe it was the mud flying off the tiresūüôĄ after driving through town taking in our quiet little town . I can see people sitting at the pharmacy /soda bar enjoying coffee and chatting. People walking in and out of our little market. With bags of food. I headed home . As I walked into the house I was greeted by my awaken son. Blending up his protein drink he loves so much. I gave him a hug since he had some good news that came in the mail . One of the several colleges he applied to came back congratulating him to their College. Not his top choice …..he’s still waiting to hear . BUT was happy to see the big envelope with the congrats all over it. He said he was on the right track. And I’m happy to say he did his laundry ! ( hahaha) yes I was for the most part doing it before Basic but those days are over. That I’m defiantly not sad about.? Because it was almost in the 50’s I hurried with getting the Shepard’s pie made for dinner so I could go out on the deck and absorb some sun. Then came back into watch some of my General hospital …. it’s so good right now I wanted to see what was going on. The Shepard’s pie I think came out good everyone ate it including my son who is on his own food program. My daughter after working her shift came home and helped herself to a plate and finished it all. Stating it was filling. I believe she enjoyed it.

It’s 9:30 at night now after the beautiful evening sunset which I give the credit to my daughter for captioning it . The guys are asleep . My daughter and Miss Abigail getting ready to head downstairs to their place. We watched some of the I Heart Radio Awards on tv . Seeing the performers we wanted we are done with it now . Oh the music these days . I really do not understand how they are famous…. some are good like the ones I stated my daughter and I enjoyed . But the rest oh boy.. now we do the task of shutting everything off .. the tv , lights , dryer will shut it’s self down when it’s done. Hopefully I can sleep . I’m wide awake . Wish me luck.

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Snow …

It’s been a pretty calm winter snow wise , for the most part the ground has been more bare then covered in white, but that could soon change according to the forecast . Fri to Monday looking nasty. It’s now the mid afternoon on a Thursday The laundry is rumbling away. Food supply in the house is good ..my daughter grabbing a few necessities as she leaves work tonight . Mail is checked . So now to settle in the next several days thankfully my daughter has Fri and Saturday off ,if need be her shift is very short on Sunday she can call out or most likely they will tell her not to come in. I have enough to keep me busy here and my daughter does as well it’s my other half that worries meūüôĄ most likely he will be like Miss Abigail and just sleep away until it stops and has to go out and plow. Plus my son may keep him busy texting him or calling him since my son has a three day weekend at the base and has his phone. New England never know how the weather will be here.

Going away family party..

Today turned out to be a bittersweet family going away party for my son . After tackling the busy drive of leaf peepers everywhere making driving some what crazy with my daughter , treating ourselves to a mocha ice coffee being that we were a bit early helped ,coffee makes everything better well almost everything (haha) picking up the over abundance of Chinese takeout for the party then arriving home with the help of my son setting the food out for everyone to dig in . As we enjoyed the food the younger cousins went in and out to the bonfire my husband and brother-in-law had going . After we all went out and enjoyed a lot of laughs around the fire… the guys decided to throw around the football . It was a easy going day and memories for my son to take with him for the 6 months he will be away . It’s unbelievable how it’s already 9:30 at night … now the days will fly by . .. and it will be Wed early morning driving my son to the local base where he will be leaving from . He’s ready but when family started to leave and hugged him and tears in families eyes I believe I saw something of sadness in my sons eyes as well . As much as my son plays such a tough guy he has a very big heart that only a few and lucky ones get to see . I m one of the luck ones that have and I know he will miss us . I know we will all miss him too . ūüė• that being said I’m going to now get ready for bed say my prayers and get some sleep.

Moments!

Oh how I love the laughter! I believe there is 6 teenagers crammed in my sons room ones a girl but all good her brothers here too her brother is my sons good track buddy who is now in his 2nd yr of college and his sister is graduating with my son. they all showed up to ransack my kitchen making food and to hang out . Ahh love nights like this as long and little it lasts I’ll take it. Basically when the food runs out ūüôā my hubby and I are in the living room watching our shows . I know as much as my son was tired and wanted to rest for his race tomorrow I think he is happy that their all here . We are too ūüôā it’s a nice Friday night.

Free time… what to do?

So another quiet weekend ..yes this is probably now going to be the new norm. I should be enjoying it , okay I was but now with each passing weekend even some week days it’s sadly out of my comfort zone. Yes I said that. I am just so use to doors slamming shut music blasting through walls running around cleaning up after everyone and now the house is always clean doors and walls quiet just the sound of the house creaking or my husband snoring hahaha well with the cold temps at the moments movies have been our new thing snuggle under the warm blankets in the comfort of our bedroom , going¬† for rides again for a coffee or just riding I know ….why am I finding issue with this? a lot of people would love this free time.¬† I’m just such a take care of someone or something kind of person. It’s just what I do . but now I need to rewire my brain hahaha and try to get use to this so I am going to get back into reading books again I use to love reading but it took me forever to get through one . I am thinking of summer with my husband at the drive in movies and sites to check out that my hip will allow. More summer evening at our favorite eatery sitting on their patio. Okay I can do this hahaha can anyone give me some suggestions like good reads , movies,¬† activities? would love some ideas .

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Contentment….

I know I have written about this subject¬† before but need to say it’s so worth repeating. My Son was enjoying the day snowboarding at one of the bigger ski area’s that him and his friends never had been too so I was happy he was doing one of the many things he enjoys. My Daughter had a later shift in the day for work so we decided to enjoy a relaxing lunch at our favorite place to eat, Panera the best I had their zesty creamy tomato soup and grilled cheese she had a chicken soup and macaroni and cheese …yes very simple and yes we could of made that at home hmm …maybe but not as good as them and the atmosphere is so pleasant and relaxing even when it is busy and today was one of those day but what do you expect when something is good people go there. so we took our time and enjoyed . love the simplicity of this to some this would be nothing but to me its just who I am simple I wish more people could just sit back take in their surroundings like I saw today people chatting away smiling or reading a book as they enjoyed their meal. life should be happy and enjoyable and not stressed and rushed and full of judgmental opinions and anger shall I go on ? …yes I know I’m asking too much but can we at least try. I know life is full of all kinds of ways just seems we need to enjoy the life we are given as a gift.

 

Self discovery…

It’s February¬† vacation for my Son this week. let’s see I think since it began Sunday was the longest Ive seen him. Ever since that day he has been at friends houses and sleepovers . …he is definitely¬† my teenager. It’s all good this February ¬† vacation has been moments of peacefulness contentment , I know what I mean or should say¬† what I¬† feel just trying to get it out in words will be hard but I will try so bare with me.On Sunday Valentines Day was celebrated by an anniversary Mass for my husbands grandmother . I grew up catholic¬† went to church every Sunday . Then married into a religious family brought raised my kid’s catholic but ….then life got crazy it was harder getting everyone to Church, yes sounds like excuses okay yes maybe??I will not deny. So we stop attending but I never stopped believing I say my prayers every night I still try to¬† instill this in my kid’s my daughter is an adult so this is her decision but my son is my struggle and¬† I mean a struggle and okay I do struggle with getting there too but once there I am good. I get this serene feeling that comes¬† over me. so yes this past weekend was a struggle¬† I held to it with my husbands help to get¬† my Son there¬† with us and the rest of the family .Off we went and it was such luck or fate I don’t know what to call it. the priest of the church ended up not feeling well so we had a retired priest that fills in and it was the one that my Son made his¬† first communion with and it was my sons last¬† class¬† that he taught then he retired . he is very dear to my heart and my sons he was down to earth but strict when he needed to be¬† but I always felt calmness with him so it was wonderful when we saw him and he was so happy to see my son hadn’t seen him and years and I think it was good for my son too, it made church go¬† so much smoother, the next thing that just seemed to fall into¬† place was when they said the sermon it was just¬† how I have been feeling the Deacon spoke and he talked about life getting more complicated¬† and parenting in¬† this day and age especially having¬† teenagers and finding the patience to parent them in this world ..etc.etc. My son and I looked at each other and just smirked it’s another moment I will never¬† forget.

Then my in-laws had made reservations at a restaurant which was the restaurant my husband and I¬† had our wedding reception at , as of Feb 25 th which will be 21 yrs this yr. so that was exciting and strange because we have not been back since our wedding My daughter had to work so it have been even better if she was there to share this with both my kid’s¬† oh but don’t you worry we will go back the four of us. So the day I was dreading because we had not been to church in awhile was turning out to be a moments of times¬† past, moments of signs¬† yes I do believe in signs and they seem to be every where that day¬† so amazing¬† how that happens .so this was so rewarding and did make me miss attending church like I should … so I’m thinking since the last two yrs have been a time of change I am thinking I may just start going to church on my own for my 0wn¬† peace of mind.¬† so we will see¬† life is funny at times and no matter how old we get we are always learning something new. I am learning about the next chapter of my life of taking care of my family but in a whole different way no more bedtime stories no more setting clothes out for them no holding their little hands while crossing the street. but letting go and trusting them letting them learn to cross the roads they go on with God guiding them and keeping them safe .