Friday

This is what our Friday afternoon became …yes snow April 6th ..crazy then by evening the sun came shining in and now it’s night and it raining and cool out. The kids are out so hubby and I are watching tv and chatting .. it was a day of decluttering the house as I watched my soapys yes have a 2nd one I’m getting into . Gives my mind a break from thinking about all the college things and it’s nice to take a break from it. My daughter was off today but was busy cleaning her place and doing laundry. . I’m finding that my Facebook days are limiting more and more everyday I just can’t take all the drama and that’s not because of the kids on it but adults … 🙄 I feel like I’m back in high school again and I just can’t.

I’m happy I reached out and chatted with a friend I haven’t talked to in awhile on the phone . Our kids grew up together she lives with her family in another town about an hr away if that . Her youngest is also graduating as well this yr so we talked about her daughter and my son . Then just talked about whatever , it was nice it’s hard when you get older and your friends are busy with their family things too so I will take what time I can get with my FRIENDS yes I’m emphasizing t hat because we are friends not just because our kids went to school with theirs because they didn’t . In this town I live in half the people are friends just because their kids are friends so sadly the parents form a clique even more if the kids are in the same sport together and sadly some of theses parents are not nice not trustworthy and the drama is crazy so when I’m on Facebook this is what I see and I like and need to stay out of it and my son likes it as well . This is his world I do not remember my parents in my friend world they had their own separate friends and so I could just be with my friends . Yes I do keep in touch with the parents my kids hung out for safety reasons but their not the people I would share private things with or it would be spread throughout this town 🙄 my hubby and I are private we are nice but we mind our own business . I must say everyday of your life your still learning something hahaha and I’m learning this new chapter one day at a time and trying to keep my sanity intact 🙂 I guess I will finish a show with my hubby , my son is home now and my daughter should be sometime soon . Good night everyone.

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Saturday … 

Saturday started with sleeping  in ..then enjoyed my coffee with the amazing write up o’my sons and his  football team  in the local paper , so proud !  My son was thrilled but sore all part of the game he went to work and came home and was ready to go hangout with his friends so I think he’s good. My hubby spent the day working on the barn while my daughter and I went to get a few essentials we needed and checked out some books we thought would be a good read , you can never have enough books . Now home settled in bed with my husband watching tv and reading . It’s a quiet night It’s nice . Tomorrow will be food shopping and get ready for the week and my sons last High School  Booster Day week lots of festivities planned for thier school ,each class has a different theme they dress up as each day through out this week showing school spirit by how many participate then on Friday there’s a parade with the floats each class made and a. Bonfire then the big. Football game. Then to finish it off the homecoming dance .  This has been going on forever I enjoyed it so much when I was in Middle and High School I loved it, it was a time we all could share with our friends ahh the memories I hope my son enjoys this week . I know this is all so  bittersweet my son and his friends are ready to graduate but not ready to leave thier friends . Or the way they have lived for yrs . We all remember those days ..yes different for everyone . My daughter was always ready to leave it all behind . My Son like I stated bittersweet.  Okay everyone going to get some more reading in before I call it a night . Have a good night or day wherever you are in your part of the workd.🙂

Active night…

After a typical Monday day getting back to the work and school week and the lovely task of housework which is never done, you know laundry dusting weekend clutter etc .. then making supper which was stuffed peppers  I must say came out pretty good. So tonight was an active one not the quietness my hubby and I  have been settling into lately it was the comings and goings of my son and his friends and now they have decided to stay the night and my daughter went out with  one friend but another friend asked to come here after work till my daughter came home and now she is staying over . I love when the house is full of friends it’s such a great feeling I hope there will be a lot more of this, this yr till my son goes to college  . My husband is awkward about it hahahaha but not l! I’m happy my daughters friend feels comfortable to come here on thier own   and my sons friends are comfortable to leave and come back t makes my house seem homey to them. That’s really all that makes me happy.  đź™‚it’s just these simple moments that I  cherish . 

Too much thinking ??

I feel like I am on a roller coaster emotionally in the path months . In the pat year I have felt content peaceful thought I had life figured out ….was I so wrong I guess we never have life figured out at any age.My life feels off kilt and i just want it back up straight. I want my contentment back. I am doubting everything I thought I did was right I am wishing I could go back and redo somethings because now trying to succeed at something again it maybe to late. so I am kicking myself…is this a midlife crisis? or just everything I believed I was doing was just the wrong way , well not everything just one thing or should say a person .  can you guess ? hahahaha my Son this has been what my last two posts have been about. Great kid  great grades has great friends him and his friends do not party like the other kids at school they hate the fact that kids are wasting themselves on drinking and drugs .their on the running team so they care about their bodies which I am so proud of and their so respectful to people but  great with people  except… us  his parents comes in the house kills him to speak hmm unless he wants something just not easy to love right now hate to say that do not get me wrong his dad and I love him just he makes it so hard. All I hear yup he is a teenager…ugh!!! so sick of hearing those words I m thinking that is not the case .Afraid we spoiled him and now we created ourselves a handful. My daughter was never this way . I was when I was 16 but I knew how far to push it with my parents. just so tired . and do not have any answers anymore. Help need some advice…

Still here..

Hi to all my followers I’m still here . It’s been crazy busy since I last posted ..always at the end of the school year. My Son Seth  is keeping me physically and mentally busy.  Seth  and his track team won their last  meet of the year so that put them as  one of the  undefeated teams and now championships begin. What a beautiful moment to watch  when  their coaches and  the boys do a victory run around the track together. but bittersweet at the same time knowing it’s set in some of their minds the last time they will all run together as a team .  as the Seniors  now venture on to their next journey in life for some it will be  college others  the service, or jobs what ever they have chosen as their path at this moment  now that  they have done their time in High School,  for my son and the rest of his friends and team members  next year will be a little more tougher I know  getting back on that track with out their best friends  their hearts will be heavy  but like we all know this time always comes and is a marking stone to what the world has to offer and what we make of it. Now   the rest of his team will  move up and be come the good example for the younger kids as they have been taught when they started out.and show them as their best friends shown them how it’s done  ,they will be the leaders now, as for myself I will be the whisper in my sons ear .guiding him and hoping to keep him on this right path we call life….. now if he listens that will be his choice. and sometimes that’s all we have is the hope they listen.

Summer….

As I sat outside on my porch swing  and enjoyed my morning coffee. I am amazed at how every Spring and summer seem to feel just a little bit more different.let me elaborate,it’s just when the kids were little and Spring and summer  arrived I felt renewed alive…time to pull out all the outdoor items and set the yard up for endless summer days and fun.So this meant kiddie pools and tiny tyke picnic table and swinging and looking for fireflies. then once again life stepped in like it should and I held on tighter. 🙂 so school yrs began and that came with friends camp outs in the back yard movie nights with friends slip and slides then eating watermelon and seeing who could spit the seeds the farthest remember those days ? then the back yard got smaller to them and the endless days at the public town pool was the new place so as the kids swam and ate treats from the snack bars and played kickball on the premises then back in the pool us parents sat by the pool and absorbed the sun and socialized with one another.life once again slowed down life was great Then the train of life rolled again and middle school was here and the pool was no longer the happening place then the summer jobs and and more friends and you know the rest. they grew up. even though my son is 16 he still needs me and my daughter go out to lunch together and shop and have beautiful long talks ..but its so much more different my sons  world is his  friends and running with them and the occasional loud sound of his music  that rocks my house but not enough of those moments more looking at my phone checking for him to tell me he needs to be picked up or that he is sleeping over I believe I look at my phone more then his baby blue eyes. I know how it is suppose to be and I thought I was ready I did everything a mom does and I let go a bit like I should but no one tells you how hard it can be.it’s just a lot more quieter. yes I  believe I am going through the mommy blues hahaha I do still  take out the kiddie pool for my pups hahaha he loves his pool so I guess some things do not change hahaha.