Soon!

Good morning it’s a quiet Tuesday one .. after waking up at 7:00 the aroma of coffee found its way to me . I dragged myself to the shower but not before starting a load of laundry my husband had loaded in the washing machine ..I blasted the hot water since it’s so cold trying to warm up . Finally finding my way to the kitchen grabbing some coffee was so worth every sip.Miss Abigail is already in her chair sleeping away again . Oh this house is quiet but going to be even quieter by Friday when my hubby flys out to my Son for his Basic Training graduation I’ve mentioned this in past posts ,I’m not going can not fly or do the long distance walking so he will video and get a lot of pictures. The graduation isn’t until next Wed with visiting the base the day before so actually he’s flying out Saturday early morning with his mom who got them a room by the airport on Friday night so she wouldn’t have to to do an hr and a half ride to the airport for a 8:00am flight sadly they will be hanging around in a hotel from Sat to Tues because of finding a flight so close to my sons graduation . Then after graduation they will head to the airport and fly home with him . It will be a long day for them they should arrive home around 1or 2 in the morning.. I will stay up to at least give my son a hug and then let him head to bed . And then catchup with him as much as possible until his friends get ahold of him. They have already started texting me asking when he will be home …… so this will be interesting πŸ™‚. It’s only 12 days here then he flys back out again but it’s ok I can at least have him home for Christmas !

I have been slowly decluttering the house .. my daughter will help me when my hubby is away which will keep my mind busy . Yes my mind (hahaha) I think too much . And so decluttering and freshening up his bedding will keep me busy . Yes I have been thinking and what timing as I’m writing this post I’m watching the morning local show while enjoying my coffee their talking about first holidays with your adult kids coming home from college , moving out military etc ..stating how when they come home it will be different for them and the parents as well.. The day they first walked out the door on their own they became adults and started their new life and so they will be different and we will be different as well ..So how we treated them before will change a bit yes their still our kids but their adults, seen a different world so transitioning to coming home will be however we make it but to respect there difference as well as they should respect our difference of how we as parents have adapted to them not being here But being adults doesn’t mean they will not need us they will. But in a more supportive way of letting them tell you how they feel if it’s been hard then guide them with ideas to make it more easier but teaching them , telling them is no longer our job. It’s their life. and we want them to want .. to look forward to coming home.Ok I must say listening to this has helped a lot because that is what I’ve been thinking about so much as the time has come closer to my son coming home and him coming home from Basic Training he will be different. And that could be a good thing . Oh I love him but he needed some help with growing up and hopefully taming his wild ways ..not a bad wild but a young wild .. so I will step back see how he is when he walks though the door and then trend carefully seeing the difference in him. My daughter growing into an adult was so different and easy she didn’t move away but went in a separate part of our house and just transitioned so much better I think she was born an adult ) hahaha) being a teenager was hard for her she always acted older then her peers . Was better around adults so being adult she has flourished and I’m proud of her. . So yes we will see . I’ll keep you posted.

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The quietness …

It’s 10:30 at night and laying here in bed in the darkness taking in the stillness.. the quietness of my house. It’s been this way for several months now no sound of music or tv in the next rooms or the sound of laughter echoing in the house. Throughout the night Just quietness . Something I’m adjusting to . Not a bad thing actually for the moment comforting because this quietness is not a worry feeling but a reassuring one ..my kids are doing what they should be doing their making a life . Their not running all over town doing god knows what or where. I say this because in our Town three young adults in their 20’s were in a terrible car accident the night before and it took the life of one of the three ..leaving the other two in serious condition in the hospital. I feel for this family and the girl who’s life was cut short. Do not know all the details no one really knows at this point still figuring it out . But one thing is speed was a factor and these young adults all they do is run and so on . So I take this quietness and am grateful that I’m not wondering where my kids are . I just pray when my son comes home he stays on the foundation he is building …of course I cannot wait for some noise it will be welcoming and there will be since he is leaving 12 days later for more training so friends will be here to see him. but knowing that he is growing and maturing will be a nice feeling too , and I hope his humbleness he has lately being away stays with him. I will always pray for them to be safe and well and happy . But knowing their starting to settle into a life of their own . The quietness will not be a sign of emptiness or sadness but of a new journey my husband and I will be happy to live with. For months now we have taken this quietness as sadness when all along we should have embraced it as a start of good things our family is where they should be. We did good and now to keep praying for all this and keep the faith they stay on the right path. So as I drift off to sleep with the stillness of our house I will pray for peace and yes for the families of this terrible tragedy ..

Leaving.. it’s almost here….

It’s 10:30 at night need to get some sleep Morning will be here too soon and I’m a afraid I will not be able to hold back the tears much longer… I know my son is ready and he will be back but all the mother Questions in my head are questioning everything do you have warm clothes in case it’s cold until your on base ? Do you know we’re to go . Will he be okay first time flying by himself , Did they tell you this or that? Yes my brain is working over time. I know nothing unusual….. and then this comes to mind , oh this house will be quieter then ever and I will have less laundry less food shopping ,less dishes and I’m actually going to miss this ..well right now I’m thinking this. I will miss his comings and going constantly , my car will have a break which is good since now it’s leaking oil since a recent oil change okay that’s for another day … ugh but do need tho have that checked. Anyways he’s thinking he may be back for 9 days in Dec for Christmas but not sure since it will be expensive and only 9 days then he goes back for the next training until March so he may be away up until March . I’m already missing him along with my hubby . Going to be a long day tomorrow . I guess I better try and get some sleep , I’m just not ready for this morning to arrive . I know it’s going to happen whether I stay up and drag the night hours out πŸ˜₯ then I ll just feel terrible and that will not be fair to him . He is ready has been ready since he was sworn in . So I will get some sleep and if my tears fall and they will ..do be it.

Thinking….

In 4 weeks it will be my turn as a mom to let go of the strings that has her her child so close since the day he was born . to watch him go off into the world to do what he’s been waiting and working for. I thought I would handle this better then I am guess not. Right now it’s 1 in the afternoon and he is still sleeping I think he may have caught what’s been going around .. he wouldn’t tell me if I asked . Usually this is the only time he sleeps till this time when he’s sick. I have looked in on him but holding back to wake him to see if that’s it. He will say I’m babying him and I know I need to let go a bit but it’s so hard . He leaves in Oct and then comes back the middle of Dec for Christmas but reports back to Basic Training until March. I know he will be fine he chose this and then he will be in the Army National Guards and college if he chooses that path of full time army.

When you have kids no book or person can tell you how fast time flies and how hard it will be to let them go and do what their suppose to do. I know I need to stop focusing on counting down the days and enjoy these 4 weeks and be proud and happy for him.

August already …

Good morning! It’s unbelievable that it’s August already … not that lI’m to sad it’s been a very humid and rainy one which has been a summer of many days spent indoors somewhere . Not as many bonfires as we thought we would have. I always say I love August for one reason .. it’s the month my first born was born and shocking that she is going to be 23 . Time sure does fly by. So the middle of the month we will celebrate her Birthday in any way she wants . πŸ™‚ I must say it’s been a summer of reading hat has been nice . My book is Getting pretty creepy (hahaha) but so good.. the better of the day before was spent at the Dr.s for physicals and then errands it did help the rainy day move along much easier then it was Home and relaxing in the air conditioning . My other half laying watching tv my son relaxing in his room my daughter and I reading.-a calm quiet night once again.

August use to be buckling down getting back in gear for the school routine .. this year will be so different … my son will be getting back in a routine but it will be for getting ready to leave in 2 months for Basic Training .. Oct until March. While his friends will be leaving at the end of this month for college so it will be bitter sweet for him instead of all going back to school together it will be them all going in different directions some will stay local so he will see them until Oct. for myself I will keep thinking positive and know my son is doing what makes him happy .. now my husband is going to be the one who will have a hard time adjusting .. my daughter and I are close but she has her life to lead even if she still lives here in the furnished basement . Will see as I said before … one step , one day at a time even if my mind still wanders back to thinking of all of this..

Early Friday Night..

I guess it’s time to get some sleep .The house is so quiet. Except for the air conditioner humming everyone is settled in already early for a Friday summer night. … My kids have to be up and out of the house by 6 for work and National Guards , My other half is just tired from the long work week.., how things have changed .. no loud music pounding through the walls no friends laughing and jumping around. No in and out of kids coming through the door at all hours of the night. My son is growing up ,.. just happened way too fast now I have two grown kids now well I know that’s how it goes … sadly , so I think I will say my prayers and get some sleep. Then conquer early food shopping with my hubby . Get that out of the way. Well good night everyone.

Morning…

Good Morning! enjoying my coffee while the deck has shade before the sun takes over it, when the sun is shinning down on it ,it’s unbearable sadly.. right now it’s beautiful sitting out here listening to the fountain making rippling sounds like when your near a beautiful lake and the water is flowing over the rocks. Today the sounds of a woodpeckers echoing in the woods near by . When I finally dragged myself out of bed after watching a very late movie last night I walked out to a kitchen that looked like a bomb exploded …yes morning with the men … so I just grabbed some coffee and headed out to my deck …it can it would wait.

The sky is so blue and there is s bit of a breeze it feels nice. The squirrels are running around gathering as much of the bird seed they can get before the birds come . Oh if they only knew it wasn’t for them . My daughter is sleeping in and my son must of went back to bed or is just in his room after his early morning gym. He is on his last week of classes and only has two so he goes in later then championship track practice. Soon this will be all done and he will begin his next chapter in life called growing up (hahaha) every time he has a complaint I tell him welcome to the real world it’s called growing up he just rolls his eyes at me. He has so much on his plate I think he overwhelms himself. So I keep saying to him one step at a time one day at a time and it will be less over whelming . I do not know if he takes this advice… he agrees with me.but I think to humor me. I taking my advice to get through everything . Thinking about all this is over whelming for my hubby and I as well . The last one to graduate and the baby…..