Give me strength …

it’s night time once again … happy that this week will soon be over and then April vacation begins on Monday for my son , yay!!!! He needs a break from all the drama at school and needs a break from people he thought was his friend best friend but sadly my son found out the hard way … my son holds trust and loyalty so high and now this kid who broke his trust will never see my son as a friend again . My son won’t let that happen.. why do people have no guilt in hurting others ? Life can be cruel in so many ways but I’m hoping in less then two months when he graduate he will see life in a different light . Yes not always easy but so worth looking to another day , new beginnings hopefully he will see a happier road in front of him . I pray that he will .

Yes being a teenager has its drama but it’s so different these days . The times have changed people not all but a lot are out for them self’s . I try I’ve taught my kids to be good people , but in this world like the saying goes … “nice guys finish last ” but just maybe being last isn’t so bad maybe its a good thing if your last then your not up there where all the hurtful disloyal people are ., yes… I try to find a silver lining out of everything .. one of my many faults ,hmm maybe but it keeps me hopeful that silver lining .. when I pray at night I always tell god it’s so hard down here why ? I wish he would answer maybe then I could find the answer the would be able to see that smile on my sons face more often , Or hear my daughter come home from work and tell me one time how nice a customer was to her then to hear how they complained over her not having something that they so needed that they had to be so hurtful aboutšŸ™„ Really is this right? No ! Karma I want to say but with that make me any better then them … just hard being a parent hurt me I can take it but do not hurt my kids. Well on that note I will try to settle my mind down and let this humming of the fan hahaha yes gotta love this fan šŸ™‚ drift me off to sleep . Maybe hubby is snoring could be a long night šŸ˜‚

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letting things go…okay trying.

Woke up got things going earlier around the house since the rain calmed down and the sun peaked of and on and my daughter had the day of we decided to spend the day together get out of the house so since I just got my subieĀ  back this week we took my car and went to grab some Starbucks all was going good it felt good to be driving my new car because if you have read my past posts IĀ  have not had an easy time with that car I have had more driving time with their loaner cars. So my daughter and I decided to look for the school my son would be starting is first Spring track meet for the season and we had to drive slow well I was going 10 to 15mph in their parking lot and my daughter turned the music down and says “do you hear that noise “? Im like nooo okay it was me in denial there was no way not too people outside the school could hear it and stared I just wanted to jump out and beat my car the noise started as a rubbing noise from the back right wheel when you got over 20 you didn’t hear it as much but when we got to our driveway the noise was a high pitchĀ  we just sat there my daughter was like so what are we going to do and I calmly grabbed my cell and called the Manger at the dealership again….but this time I was calmer not the radical person they had the last time. but straight to the point that I was disgusted and what where they going to do and he said we are going to have you bring it back and we will give you a loner and my people WILL as he emphasized it and check all the breaks and everything again I just sighed to myself again hmm lets say for the first time.but like I said I kept it to myself becauseĀ  their going to take care of it and I’m going to not over think this what do I expect new used car .

My new or trying to be new attitude let it go it’s a car I will have a car I am not stranded it’s life let it go….they will fix it . out of my hands .yes trying this let it go attitude need to for myself and especially my kid’s . let the little things go deal with the bigger be more happier carefree enjoy and be thank full for my blessingsĀ  Believe me not an easy task for meĀ  letting things goĀ  I know somethingsĀ  are not to be let go but over the years I have taken it to a bit of an extreme. Now I am going try to not be as uptight. …will see I will keep you posted how this is going,Ā Ā  I will add one thing before I enjoy a movie with my family …Starbucks was so good and spending some laughing moments with my daughter was the best.