Awake …

So once again another snowstorm is coming in actually already here and all the Schools and some business are closed tomorrow already. My son has two of his buddies over for the night and so the house is filled with occasional sounds of laughter or razzing each other as guys do . My daughter and I sat at the kitchen table talking and laughing for awhile as she tried to help me sign up for Pinterest …she has no patience when it comes to helping me with this kind of thing . My hubby was in bed because he has work in the morning. Now I’m settled in bed my daughter made a cup of tea and is enjoying it in her place with a book and Miss Abigail. Nights like this as simple as it is are always special to me. ❤️

Reading… okay trying 😂

I’ve had this books for months and I decided it was time to try reading again the book I posted earlier I couldn’t get into so I pulled this off my bookshelf and got comfy in bed with my hubby who sadly is now not feeling good , as my daughter is resting in her place downstairs still not feeling well , of course my son went out …do these kids ever stop? I tried not to quiz him he said he was meeting up with friends at a basketball game ….okay I believe the game should be over now it 9 he said it wouldn’t be late he wanted sleep after getting up at 5 to go to the gym before school, hmmm what’s early I really trying to get into this book I am into it it’s really good but my stupidity of a mind has me thinking and wanting to text him . I’m giving him 30 minutes more to walk through that door or text then I may just call him . Why I ask why . Tomorrow I may have to be firm and tell him enough nights this week , he has a meet Friday a late one then nay have work Saturday morning. Sorry everyone if I sound like a broken record . I’m just not not good with this teenage stuff. Okay wish me luck going to try reading till I decide to call him.

Right or wrong?

In my post last night I had mentioned I had a conversation with my son. and I had said it didn’t go as well as planned well I have decided my son is a teenager and definitely does not  or is in defiance, does not have a clue about life okay yes he is 16 maybe very social has a lot of drive… focus but maturity not. Okay yes we have all been 16 and we lived in our own worlds  and we thought life was so great and fun and we thought we knew everything and our parents we looked at them like they where aliens ….well that was the  look I did  towards my son. Nothing I said clicked nothing I said was right ,he contradicted himself through out the conversation. I was  dumbfounded and knew our talk was going in circles and I didn’t know who was chasing who. I stopped talking just let it go and he went in his room . I pondered the thought over and over in my head the one thing he said that kept slapping me in the face was I qoute  “You ask so much of me” “your always telling me to get a better job”  it’s always about money I need to concentrate on school  and sports ,okay one his father and I only ask for respect when he walks into the house and good grades . and yes we want him to do good with his sports and get into a good college so he can run for them and he is so good at it but its hard to take him after he gets so tired he  is exhausting after because he is ugly that I cannot take.who doesn’t want that and we only say things about his job because he his always complaining about money and his father and I feel he wants to hang out with his friends every night and eat out  in which case he contradicted himself when he said we do not do that as much now and I only need enough money for gas. yeah okay that’s why when this weeks Spring vacation is here he will be going out and why should we have to pay for that when we pay for everything else and he is able to work. hmm is he thinking of other parents…what is it with these kids and their drama they do not have a clue about life I know my son does not. where did we go wrong or his this just the teenage hormones and friends talking ? so I think as much as I do not want to it’s time to  back of  and let him eat his words and fail a bit. This is going to be very painful to watch.

Life.. teenagers ..changes it’s enough to make a parent crazy. I know all have been through it and survive but my day we worked for what we wanted we asked for nothing and we got it we where grateful .this generation just seems so arrogant and my Son tries to make it be that it  is me …oh no it is not and I am going to show him. wow that was a rant..hahaha okay guess I needed to get that out . Sorry Everyone. Just been a crazy ride on this new journey of being a teenager .Yes have an adult daughter but never went through any of this with her but they are 5yrs apart and so different from one another. Does anyone have any advice to give ? would love some.

Photo Monday….

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Better late then never my photo for today. It’s been a busy weekend as well as a busy Monday. It’s only going to get busier and crazier … well hopefully Tues I have a breather. Thursday my son will be going for his drivers license and I am a wreak LOL! I am going to be living on my phone texting him the words WHERE ARE YOU every minute….. ughh he is the baby and a boy .I did not feel this way with my daughter she is so much more mature I knew where she was , this is  not something I am embracing at the moment. I am trying to because he is so excited and I am excited for him but not for what I am going to go through…. with his  more  found  freedom.  So over the weekend my daughter and I went and enjoyed a shopping and coffee day and Ive been on a budget so I was trying to stay practical and my daughter saw the adult coloring book and said you have to get this I have this one and love it and it will help you with your worries, get it you will  not regret it. My daughter was right I started a page last night and I  am really enjoying it it’s a lot of fun this book .I have two others one that I have just about colored all the pages  in and I love them as well but this one is refreshing , really calming. I am so happy someone thought of this for adults to relieve some stress or  just take your mind off things for awhile.  Thank you to whoever came up with this beautiful idea  and to my daughter for giving me the push to buy it.

 

It just keeps getting better and better (cough) sarcasm.

So my Son made it home from snowboarding in Thursdays nasty storm..Yes I did worry though always do. Then today was crazy pay bills day ughh so dislike this day but don’t we all? so my Son went with me to do this and run some of his errands and he was happy to drive. ..all was good then we came back to the house so he could get ready for track practice so an hour later he goes out to the car to start comes in says umm car wont start okay I wanted to to lay on the floor like a little kid and throw a tantrum I was just so not needing this today. ,,,he tells me I believe it’s the battery because I noticed I left the lights on. We found some one to jump start it and off we went so now I am going to hold my breath for the next few days every time start that car…..Oh Im starting to believe be negative brings in bad karma …I’m trying not to but winter is not my friend I despise winter. and sadly this holiday season this year ready to pack up the rest of the decorations and say goodbye to the tree for another year, ‘Im going to try to bring good things into this new year because I have had enough…oh no our washer isn’t now working ughhh okay and on to another day …..give me strength.

Just a Mom….

A Mom’s job is 24 ours… never alone in her thoughts ,always thinking of their kid’s well being. I would do anything and everything for my two kid’s and I think I do. If you were to ask my Son that would be a no. … well in his opinion, my Daughter would say other wise she seems to have my back . even when us Mother’s are not feeling well…having an off day etc. we do we always do we get up we pull ourselves  together and we get things done. yes its crazy but we are moms right??? hmmm tonight I am thinking okay have I done to much am I  to easy do I say yes more then  the word no? YES!! I think I do and tonight I am finding this out. My teenager can make me want to pull my hair out. but then he says one thing and My paternal instincts kicks back in and  I am taking care of every need which I know he is capable of ughhhh I am trying to get tougher this is  going to take some time to learn yes and this is with my youngest child. my two kids are like night and day literally My daughter first born was born  at night my Son born at day time. Oldest has dark hair youngest blond  shall I go on they think the total opposite some people wouldn’t believe their siblings. lol….my Son is so good at testing me. then he breaks me when he does this side smile and tries  to make amends and I just want to hug him lol..crazy right?  No…just part of being a mom. Has I read back of what I wrote I wonder 1095c2f31360a8653d70c70116f7f18d om qoutes 1where I am going with this I guess I just needed to vent. right???  Yes because I am a Mom.c1279d3ec458a1321a182fe8000d3743 momqoute2

Teenagers…..

Aahhhh!!! thats how I feel. why raising a teenager feels like a balancing act or a seesaw or a tug a war should I go on….which way will he tilt today? Oh my it’s tiring I know I’m not the only parent who feels this way but it seems that way and especially when I see other parents on Facebook bragging about their child and the child liking it , I use to do that not brag but just put credit where credit was due and a photo if I was proud of him with a sport win ,but then one day my Son said Mom please stop talking about me its embarrassing ..and people are telling me what you write ,yes that hurt me and I went on the defense  and deleted his friends That I will tell you befriended me first on FB so now nothing is said no photos…and do you think it makes my life easier with him ?? NO!! hahaha  like I said a balancing act . I love how he tells me just be my mom…hmmm  okay you said it. but then they think they have all the answers… oh boy this phase can’t end fast enough .my daughter was so much easier she didn’t go through this she was more quiet laid back more cautious so she would bring her friends home and had more sleepovers at the house ,my Son use to bring his friends around and have them over for sleepovers well okay that was elementary school now he is in High school he can’t leave this house fast enough and he stays over their house . I was told by one Mom who said their suppose to do this to separate to function in life, has anyone ever heard this? could someone give me some answers ..hahaha   I will say one thing I am on Facebook less and I am not missing it. 🙂  but that is just me.