Oh the signs..

Well sitting down at noon drinking my first cup of coffee and listening to all the ridiculous news .. yes ridiculous . What is wrong with society ? Anyways not what I really want to talk about.. what would we gain if we did… the house is quiet as I enjoy my coffee but the signs of a full house is everywhere. My sons hats two to be exact hanging off the kitchen chairs a sure sign of my son being back. My daughters coat hanging on the other chair that’s a new one. The kitchen sink full with dishes ..when I know that it was empty when I went to bed. Oh a big one an empty roll of toilet paper still in place on toilet holder.. yes one of my pet peeves 🙄 BUT would I change this for the world? No! Okay maybe a bit (hahaha) I cleaned the kitchen .. now until round two.. soon very soon my son will be back from the gym and ready for lunch and that he will clean up . Dishes will find their way into the dishwasher with his own hands. it will be supper prep soon as well . oh where did this day go! Oh I know … I guess laying in bed all morning and then enjoying a warm shower may have cause this.. after thinking I would get to bed earlier . I read until after midnight again and still haven’t finished the book. Then trying to sleep after was a bit hard . I kept trying to figure the ending of it. It’s a crazy cycle I’m on . This time change has thrown me for a loop. Plus the bit of Spring fever does not help. Oh the days of summer vacation when for just a season the world felt like it stopped because the kids were on vacation and we had the days of summer to get off the routine of busy morning school schedules, sport practices, just lazy days and no place to be unless we wanted to be. Now it feels as I’m the only one who is staying in place and I’m on a vacation if you want to call it that . Since being on disability. I’m home more then anyone. yes I do the bare minimum of things in the house some days are better then others ,if I do too much or in repetition you see what happens when I wrote about my sciatic pain . It’s a juggling act of what I can put my energy towards and to keep my muscles active. I think that’s why I am so happy I was able to do all the things with my kids when they were growing up and my body was able. And now their adults and do not need me to do anything for them it’s funny now they do for me which at times is hard to bare … I guess call it pride. I have learned what is important. It’s the time spent the laughter . Even if it’s in moments .. minutes, seconds . It’s just hard at times when everyone is busy with work , friends , life and I just sit here and watch. I’m always watching . (It’s hard especially when I can see my family running themselves ragged and my kids making choices that are not good but know I can’t tell them what to do .)but some days it’s not . See that’s what I do . I go back and forth and at times when everything is done and fine and I spend time.. hour hours reading , blogging which has been the best thing I’ve discovered . 🙂 or I stay up late reading and sleep in because I do not need to do the 6:00 wake up time .I feel this guilt. It’s probably silly .. my daughter told me it was wrong to feel this way . I’ve told her how I feel . She said I’ve done my job . To relax and enjoy what I’m doing. I guess I’m opening up on here because I feel when I write it’s the same ol … but that’s just how it is especially in the winters everything I see from my house my front deck . 🙄 so I thank all of you who follow my blog and read my posts especially my faithful readers I call friends. You make this new chapter in my life feel like something when you read my posts.🙂

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COLD! ❄️❄️

I know …. I’ve posted already today but I’m awake still. I’m laying in bed though so that’s a good thing. It’s so cold and I wanted my bed. As I’m laying here and was trying to organize my Facebook wall and messaging my daughter off and on because she is awake as well. I keep hearing over my hubby’s snoring hahaha … okay to get serious the popping and cracking noise of our house proving all to well how cold it is. My daughter has a friend sleeping over who has to do a night shift so has to go for 1in the morning and oh is it going to be nasty going out to her car in -1 temps , I feel so bad for her. My son texted me tonight he said it was only 1 in Missouri all day and he had to be out in it. I think the cold got to him even though he should be more use to it then his army buddies that are from the south . Being he was brought up in New England. He was grumpy and yes I could tell even over text that he wrote he didn’t actually come out with it that he was grumpy I could just feel it when I read his messages . I said are you feeling cooped up ? He wrote ” oh my god yes! ” ” you can tell ?” I said oh yes I can . He is such a free spirit … even though he loves what he’s doing . Just always been that way. Love and hate that about him it’s like trying to tame a wild animal at times hahaha didn’t know how else to put it. But then on the other hand his heart and humbleness is huge. My daughter is that way too but I don’t feel I have to tame a wild animal with her 🙂 So I was making an album of his army photos on Fb and now their all on my feed and people are liking them and I’m thinking he will not be impressed 🙄 I didn’t realize if I made an album in photos so there all together it comes up in the news feed… 😩 yeah that will really impress him… not! I told my daughter and she laughed and said yeah they kept coming up as notifications on my phone that you posted. Oh well not much I can do about it now. Earlier I was watching videos and reading about Hygge I know so random but I just heard another loud pop and it reminded me of this .. a few of my friends on here and my hubby were talking about it . It’s so interesting . I love to talk more about it but my eyes are not wanting to stay open and it is late so I guess I will get under the covers a bit more and get some sleep. Goodnight everyone.

Quiet house…

It’s Saturday and having this house so quiet is just not right. I am missing the chaos of a active strong will son razzing me , the sound of the back door opening and closing .. even the sound of the blender waking me in the early morning while he made his healthy smoothies. Sadly it’s been only 3 days and it feels like he left weeks ago. Yes can you tell I’m not embracing this new change well? I’m hoping when he can start to call home once a week and we get his address and we can send letters I’ll adjust better. It’s just so hard when I’ve been a stay at home mom and this is what I’ve done for so long take care of my family. The funny thing , well not funny a bit frustrating I think our dryer is gave in and decided to retire ughh … now the funny thing is this would have been a catastrophe on any other day or time but tonight when I realized it and I had to hang the clothes that were not fully dry and know that it could take until Friday to get a new one by the time their open on Monday and then deliver and take away the old one it could be Friday and going to the laundry mat I may then loose it….I think my husband was shocked that I did not loose it when I realize it wasn’t working. I guess there so much more to worry about then this bit of a inconvenience but what can you do . I guess another funny thing I’m yawning .. yes a good thing I will get some sleep then letting everything keep me up worrying .. thinking . I guess it would be a good thing to get off here and get some sleep. Good night everyone.

Decisions

As my hubby is enjoying the hockey game on tv I am looking at paint colors online . We want to repaint our kitchen and living room it’s been 13 yrs since we built our house and feeling like we need a change defiantly over due. As you see I’m the one looking as my hubby is watching the game …okay it’s not that he doesn’t care it’s just he is sick of me not liking his color and him not liking mine so he needed a break . It’s so hard . When we had first moved in it was actually not too much of a though what we wanted and the house was painted now . It just feels so overwhelming . The more I look the colors are starting to look all the same hahahaha . Earlier I thought we had it then one issue came up do we break up the color in the hallway that is connected , follows the kitchen color or now break it up …ughh . It’s a ranch so everything is so connected . I like the idea to break it up he doesn’t . So that has led him to stop thinking about it at the moment . Oh what to do …. sadly I’m not a hockey fan so that is not going to distract me 🙂 well I guess I stop looking give it a break and see if it’s clearer tomorrow. Maybe .

Book read ? maybe since I’m settled under the covers with our electric blanket on ..yess it’s cold it was snowing an hour ago not sticking but snowing ,crazy middle of April. having to use my blanket . It will be used again tomorrow unless I can get close enough with my car to see the track , my son has a track meet tomorrow afternoon in a couple towns over . So if it’s cold it will not be fun sitting outside . Bad enough the kids stiffen up trying to run in their uniform in the cold. Once again my son is home settled in his bed watching a movie after getting home from practice. Such a record . Next week he will be back at school and then watch he will be out at night a bit more … hmm . I guess I will read for a bit Good night everyone.

Good Morning!

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Good Morning on this cloudy warm morning, siting enjoying my cup of coffee before I start my day of some laundry  ,dusting and then setting up my faithful crock pot  up with some stuff shells for dinner tonight . The weatherman says there will be some rain coming in so after I finish what  needs to be done it will be a quiet day of  an hr of my favorite soapy and some adult coloring then some time of reflection if you read my last posts you will understand  if  you haven’t then I will just say a lot of very sad unfair losses in my community.and this is a good day to reflect.. well friends time to get started have a great day everyone.