Can you say rollercoaster….

So it’s a cold Wednesday night in June …Yes cold and remarkably windy . I could almost get away with using our electric blanket. Crazy weather that goes with the crazy changing moments at my house. So  my Son’s best buds have graduated and he went to it and was happy when they all hung out after ,see my Son if you read my past posts he is only a sophomore so he is much younger then them but they are all great friends and teammates . His attitude has been so hard and trying to help him has been like being on a roller coaster ride , one minute I am good ..  do not need you attitude to I need you, so I have been crazy busy,  Its not like my Son is my only child my daughter is soon to be 21 but it just seem like she was younger so much longer and a lot less demanding, she is my quieter one and we connect pretty well but it’s hard to know when to let go because you know you should because she is an adult but she  gets unsure at times and I  have to  choose what I know I should help her with or make her handle  herself. Being a mom is just such a hard job and sad  at times it’s so hard to let go when you know you should but your heart gets in the way. so sadly  I been neglecting my blog and my post I put up on Mondays and Fridays . So please be patient with me if you follow and like my posts . Things are calming down a bit here my Son is finishing up this school yr in 6 days and happily doing so he still getting to see his graduating buddies and spending time with new ones.,he found a summer Job which is so great that was one of  our problems too and starting driving classes at the end of the the month as well so I hope to be back on more and more family moments to share if anyone wants to hear !! and you can go on this new journey of motherhood with me.So stay tune .

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Still here..

Hi to all my followers I’m still here . It’s been crazy busy since I last posted ..always at the end of the school year. My Son Seth  is keeping me physically and mentally busy.  Seth  and his track team won their last  meet of the year so that put them as  one of the  undefeated teams and now championships begin. What a beautiful moment to watch  when  their coaches and  the boys do a victory run around the track together. but bittersweet at the same time knowing it’s set in some of their minds the last time they will all run together as a team .  as the Seniors  now venture on to their next journey in life for some it will be  college others  the service, or jobs what ever they have chosen as their path at this moment  now that  they have done their time in High School,  for my son and the rest of his friends and team members  next year will be a little more tougher I know  getting back on that track with out their best friends  their hearts will be heavy  but like we all know this time always comes and is a marking stone to what the world has to offer and what we make of it. Now   the rest of his team will  move up and be come the good example for the younger kids as they have been taught when they started out.and show them as their best friends shown them how it’s done  ,they will be the leaders now, as for myself I will be the whisper in my sons ear .guiding him and hoping to keep him on this right path we call life….. now if he listens that will be his choice. and sometimes that’s all we have is the hope they listen.

21st Anniversary!!!

Today is mine and my husbands 21st Anniversary, I am in awe of how fast that came let’s see if you add 6 yrs together before getting married we have been together 27 yrs. where did that time go it’s not a blur but more like  book that is  left out in the wind and the pages flip  rapidly  through and you can’t grab the book  in time before the wind looses your page . life has changed a lot since we got married …yes that is what happens that is what is suppose to happen, we get married or not we have kids or not we focus on our careers or not whatever the path we choose or where god leads you.. my husband and I worked a lot and we chose to buy a house that needed a lot of love and care and we knew we wanted to marry we jumped on it  so we worked through the week and weekends were spent working on the house with the help of family and friends ..  and we  spent our weekends with friends or at our home with home cooked meals  snuggled on the couch with a good movie and snacks money was tight but it worked  we had two dogs we got has pups and they were our babies. life was good we had fun  and then one day I found I was pregnant which nothing we planned on or was   against just didn’t think this  could ever be possible because with my health issues and that is where God chose my path with this blessing of a beautiful baby girl and I a stay at home mom. yes it was a little hard financially at first but that what I chose and  it worked out in the end and then five years later I received my second blessing my handsome baby boy and my doctor said okay no more you have two healthy kids a girl and a boy …I agreed never imagined this would be possible I became busy things changed rapidly like life does but you never imagine. I was busy being a mom and I  took the role very seriously I love being a mom love taking care of my family and then guess what?? They grew up and I found myself less busy less chaotic less the cool mom but just a mom that quote my son who I am not his friend but his mother…hmmm okay.. yes boys have a mind of their own and have all the answers well mine thinks so. My daughter graduated works a lot and spends time with her boyfriend but we get our lunch out day.:)  my kids are beautiful and turned out to be good kind people ,so since them getting older I have been so  focused on so much of who am I? and thinking I lost myself and my husband but each day I am learning and finding out yes I have change yes my husband has changed….we grew up and as I sit here writing I think I haven’t lost myself Im still back to writing like I have always loved to do but didn’t have time and reading more and socializing again but without the kids. I was so worried how our marriage would be now but it’s calm content and we are happy and learning the next chapter in our lives and god willing we keep learning.