Oh how the wheels turn..

Life has been such a strange twists and turns of emotions since the beginning of summer. Leading my thoughts in every direction. and I just want to get off this rollercoaster at times. On Sunday my thoughts where quiet . I relaxed and settled in on my couch with my chrome book and the beautiful warm sun shining in on me warming me as I caught up well started to catch up on all your wonderful posts. The house was quiet my son once again headed back to his college dorm. And when he left the liveliness of the house left with him. The house feels sadly like a quiet hollow shell. It’s not that I haven’t adjusted to him now living in his dorm . SurprisinglyI have better then I ever thought I would. It’s just hard when he comes home on weekends and he comes in like a hurricane and leaves like one. (hahaha) yes it’s a country song but it’s the only way I can describe it. I think why my thoughts are in every direction is since both my kids are young adults now I am not in the Mother mode well always a mom but it’s on a whole new level . We can only guide and be there for them . It’s their time to find their own path and yes they will make mistakes but they will learn. I believe I’m finding my new path on this next chapter. I’m finding ME again . The person I was before kids ,is slowly floating up to the surface and of what and who I have been for so long is breaking off in bits and pieces . And I’m remembering the the person who was so social never went a day without laughter in it. A smile constantly on my face. That was replace with a serious detail to the limit non social person because I focused so much on the responsibilities of being a mother. Yes I did smile and laugh but it was different . I’m now left with no routine no place to have to be only if I want to be. I have reconnected with friends. And the best part I’m taking care of ME . Eating healthier and feeling good doing it. With a chronic illness it’s important . Yes at times it’s hard but I know I won’t stop . Just need to keep moving forward so with that said yes this has been my focus and not everyone is on board with me at times… okay that part is for another day but I cannot will not be discouraged . It’s just keeping it going and seeing that part of me I thought I lost so many years ago .Yes we age . We do change but we are still who we are and that is okay. So bear with me sometimes my posts will seem all over the place like my scattered thoughts but it’s all good..

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A simple day .. shouldn’t it be?

After falling asleep around 1 ( very early for this insomniac) and woke at 8. To a quiet house I was very surprised .. decided to lay there for a bit and enjoy it .. then it was time to grab a quick shower and then head to the kitchen for some coffee ..ahh coffee …and the Wendy show ( hahaha) my new norm since our cable took away our local channel I use to watch . Can’t complain nice to switch it up even if it isn’t by choice. After my coffee and show was done I started with the everyday house things laundry .. cleanup last night snack dishes. Put a meatloaf in the oven for dinner as I enjoyed once again my music blasting from my beautiful speakers, makes house work go so much easier . It’s relaxing. Now just catching on some blog posts and enjoying a protein drink . Needed to add a bit more protein to my diet . I guess I do not eat enough of what I should … thanks to coffee and water that fills me. 🙄 bad habit coffee , not the water . Well struggling with the Stephen King book .. I am determined to finish it but I know I need a new book just can’t find one so I’ll keep reading this one. Not much to tell .. let’s see sadly we are back to humid weather again after some really cool temps . My son is on his last week of his jobs he has committed very well to all summer . Taking a couple of the weeks he has left before he heads to college to do some trips to see some army buddies and finish dorm shopping . Actually he is pretty much all set just some odds and ends. Hubby will have a vacation next week . Not doing much maybe some day trips get somethings done around the yard just needs a break . I honestly think he will go stir crazy … he loves the work routine when he is home he is so antsy . Where I am the other I’m content ( hahaha) oh how things change. In past summers when the kid were young we took week vacations somewhere now trying to do that is not easy .. just trying to get us all together for a dinner out is so hard . Out of my hands now kids are adults just how it goes.

Supper is done … and after cleaning up I will try to read a bit more. Let’s see how much I get read .

Moments..

After all the strange things the day before …mess up at the bank , Post Office, the day went on as usual .. making supper . Etc etc .. then my son called all shook saying how the interview didn’t look good .. I try to reassure him to not think about it . It sounded like it went well to me of what he had told me . Its the Military part that had him shook and the look I guess they gave him about possible training days in the summer. …will see. The afternoon turned into evening and both my my kids ate supper at home then my hubby and daughter settled on the couch while I in my chair watching tv an old show that plays every night . MASH anyone remember this ? My daughter doesn’t care for it ,thinks it’s old .. and doesn’t see how my hubby and I find the humor in it .My son in his room. Then 8:30 came and my son was craving PB&J but someone kept the jelly out instead of putting it back in the fridge they put it in the cupboard and it went bad .. hmm my son said not him but I know better(haha) I said I want an ice cream at McDonalds yes a Sm and quick one. My daughter jumped up I want one but I do not want to drive ,my hubby was like I have to get some sleep. My son spoke up said I’ll drive and get some Jelly at the market … off we went . It was nice being with my two kids it’s been awhile . Even if it was only moments .. we smalled talked.. laughed . It was nice . Now about the ice cream a bad choice but it doesn’t happen often and It was worth the calories to be with both kids . After we drove in to the driveway we stood outside looking around for possible animals roaming around in the night woods .all we saw was a possum scurrying away deeper into the woods away from us . Thankfully he didn’t hiss which they do when their caught off guard. I think the wild animal was inside running up and down the hallway as we entered the kitchen… yes Miss Abigail wondering where we went. Then the moments were over we all went to our bedroom to settle into some sleep my hubby already snoring away . I fell asleep to the sound of my son laughing and talking whether he was on his game or phone it was a nice sound to drift off to sleep too. And yes he got his jelly🙂

Dr. Seuss’s Birthday !

It’s Dr. Seuss’s Birthday ! He wrote so many amazing books a lot of kids enjoyed and still enjoy . My daughter and son had two favorite Dr.Seuss stories .Green eggs and ham and Are you my Mother? Now are you my Mother was written by P.D. Eastman but in with the series of Dr. Seuss my kids love reading them before bed several times over until I had to finally say ok no more lights out. My daughter would be great about it and we would say our goodnight saying ,I posted this In past posts ..something cute she came up with and a bit time consuming but I think that was her point 🙂.My son would just keep saying one more time with reading and I having to get a bit stern and tell him no and tuck him back in after he was standing up in his bed protesting . 🙄 yes my kids so totally different from one another

. I love at their Elementary school they had someone dressed up in a Dr.Seuss costume .I must say why they had a women do it I’ll never know ..hahaha leave it to my daughter to wonder why Dr. Seuss had a chest haha ..yeah she pointed that out … then yes later as my son was older he would say to one of his friends it gives it away for the little kids knowing that it isn’t really Dr.Suess with a chest I would just roll my eyes as I listen to him and his friend talk about it . But I do agree hahaha …anyways it was nice they would read Green eggs and ham as the kids all sat in the lunch room and then there was a big birthday cake and the kids would sing happy birthday .It was cute. I don’t know if they still do it ,it would be a shame if they didn’t but like everything ,.things change ,kids have changed. .well my kids are adults now but they do remember those books and that time which is nice and comforting to know because at that time things seem so much simpler and kids were kids . And it just seems like kids do not read as much as they use to . Now being replaced by cellphones and texting a bit more.Only my opinion …

Friday night..

The day as I posted earlier flew by so fast . I was in awe . My daughter came home and then left again with her boyfriend. My husband and I enjoyed supper as we chatted about our day then when supper was done and cleaned up my son texted us off and on from his base, it was nice to hear about his day and the break they have for several days from class . He is doing well but is ready to be back in his home town . I told him he would be bored he said no he wouldn’t he would be content . Hmm I don’t know if it’s homesick or the Army is making him humble. Our town is so laid back for an 18 yr old but then again he is an adult now and has seen the other side … anyway it’s a small country town , with mountains surrounding it like a a blanket wrapping the town in it. Woods to hike , run , bike , is what most enjoy around here. You never know what the weather will be from day to day. It’s just plain simple living, so will see after he’s home for a bit and the homesick has worn off.

The evening and night is going by slowly go figure (hahaha) my hubby and I decided to settle in our room to watch tv as I try to finish my book .I’m so close to finishing. We got comfy and my son texted us one more time to tell us he had night duty so he was saying goodnight and would check in tomorrow to see how we were doing with the storm . Well my book never got read , we decided to watch a movie . Ocean 8 yeah it came out this summer but we had never seen it and it was free on the movie channel , we enjoyed it, better then we thought, now it’s over Miss Abigail has settled in bed with us. And my hubby is turning on his trusty fan. (hahaha) yes he can’t sleep without it ..as I have come accustom to it as well🙄 I guess it’s time to call it a night and get some sleep. Goodnight everyone.

Lazy , rainy day..

With my husband off using his vacation time as thrown me off my routine . My son being home has thrown my bedtime off .. plus my hubby with late night movies as well .. ugh! I decided to relax with my adult coloring in bed easy to do with a firm pillow , anyways I thought this would relax me , as it did . I colored I was in my happy place. Then my son arrived home with a group of his friends and asked if he could play his music we said it was fine. Well being a small house my bedroom walls where rocking as the base pounded through our walls . I gave in to watching tv with my hubby and put the coloring aside ,the laughing was nice to hear but then came the thumping in which case I believe was some of the guys wrestling 🙄let’s say 1:25 hit and slowly the house quieted and slowly I fell asleep to wake which felt like I only slept for 5 minutes.. to the rain hitting the side of the house. I looked at the clock 9:00 I just wanted to roll over and go back to sleep but feeling that I needed to get up and see who was still in the house ..friend wise I dragged myself to a quick shower and followed the beautiful aroma of coffee to the kitchen. Only seeing my hubby relaxing on the couch with his coffee as the shower ran in the main bathroom . My hubby told me his friends had all left earlier this morning .. how ? To be young again. My son came out of the bathroom cheerful and dressed for the gym don’t ask I know he took a shower😂 I said good morning as he headed to the spare room which has been turned into a computer /lounge for whoever realizing that his Sargent wanted him to enroll in a couple of university in our area for the ROTC program so he could do more with the army now that he knows that’s what he wants after being back from Basic Training he had to write some essays .that being said took most of the morning and after that was done he was off to the gym .. As my hubby and I enjoyed our coffee we chatted in between yawns. The rainy day did not help even Miss Abigail was settled in ready to sleep the day away. It’s now 7 and I think I’m going to head into my room . My son is out at a dodge ball tournament with his friends. I’m hoping he’s not late but I may not hear him come in because I’m that tired to just fall asleep. My daughter works until 8 then up at 6 for tomorrow for work. So she will be ready to settle. Tomorrow night we will actually go out the four of us as a family to my sons favorite restaurant . Since he leaves Wed and it’s the only time my daughter has off in Between New Years so we will spends some time together. But for now I want to get under the covers and get some sleep …hopefully ..wish me luck.

Me time …

It’s a Thursday night hubby and I are relaxing my daughter with her boyfriend my son visiting friends .hubby’s off until The 2nd week of January so we have been staying up late watching movies , I decided to try out my new color pencils and new adult coloring book my kids bought me along with several other beautiful things I received from them but they know how I love to relax .. so while my hubby is watching his movie I’m coloring having some me time. Loving the coloring book and the colors of the pencils. Okay back to some more coloring.