Monday…

I woke to a dark quiet house doesn’t help that a rainy one at that. My hubby and daughter were already at work .I just laid there trying to not think about how quiet it was and knowing the longer I laid there I would think….. showering the night before I dragged myself out of bed ran a brush through my hair and went to the coffee pot made a cup for myself and just looked around at the kitchen ….. it was clean nothing to have to pick up, sad how that is a bit upsetting no breakfast chaos cleanup … I alway thought of it as . Crazy how we tend to miss the chaos of housework or the slamming of the back door.through out the day . When that’s been your life for many many yrs it’s not easy to forget.. Today is the beginning of my new routine or whatever you want to call it. My husband took last week off so after my son left for Missouri on Wed , my husband and I took rides watched movies stayed up late watching tv ,sleeping in the next morning so it still felt different the quietness was different even though my husband and I kept one another busy.my daughter who is out just as much as my son would be even stated it was different when she came home and saw all the cars in the yard. As of Sunday reality set in ,…my hubby getting himself back in the work routine he woke early ..we did separate things. I know it’s only been 4 days but thought maybe my son could call home being that it was Sunday and Sunday night will be when he will call ..A long night when the phone didn’t ring and it was 8 at night and we knew we were not going to be hearing his voice .. Today is his first day of Basic Training if all went well physically and the Army schedule. I would think if it didn’t we would have heard something…. so now it was just Miss Abigail and I until I had to run out to an appointment and do some errands. Then I came home to a daughter who arrived home at 2 after her shift and feeling a bit under the weather . I decided it would be a good day for homemade chicken soup ,as I was making the soup my daughter and I chatted and she said how as the day progressed at work she didn’t feel that good and had stated that the house was quiet and was missing her brother. As a 5 yrs difference in age and complete opposites one thing that they have in common is blood and they have each others back so I knew she was missing him. After the soup was made and the house was nice and warm from cooking and smelled quite good. She grabbed a movie she had . She put the movie in got comfortable on the couch and we watched About Time if you ever watched the Travelers Wife it was something like that . Very interesting and sadly a bit sad. It was good though. Worth a watch.

It’s evening ,movies over ,suppers done and cleaned up hubby’s settling in our bedroom watching tv since my daughter has fallen asleep upstairs on the couch …. I know she isn’t feeling well but most important I think she’s needing sleep . She stated she hadn’t been sleeping good and her boyfriend who was off all weekend and works nights was up so she was up with him . A good night for resting … still raining and cold and now dark out. The house is nice and toasty still since I ran the oven and made a fresh batch of cookies. . Later I think I will settle in bed with my hubby and read some more of my book . Hoping to get to the library tomorrow when it’s open and get a new library card . Their open two nights a week and Saturday morning . So when I think about going it’s always on the night their closed or closing. Plus another run to our PO Box for our mail hoping that the Army base sends out the address so we can write letters to my son. . I guess it’s time to settle I think I ll let her sleep on the couch until she wakes herself up and I will get comfortable and get to my book.

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Friday….

It’s a cold quiet Friday night… except for the occasional cheer my husband yells out towards the TV when our baseball team hits a home run . It’s the playoffs so he’s anxious for our team to win. Miss Abigail is sleeping away how I do not know .. she is upstairs with my husband and I a lot lately … my daughter has been occupied by a friend of hers that broke up with her boyfriend so now every free moment my daughter has when she isn’t working or with her boyfriend she is out. My son took my husband for a hike this morning till mid afternoon so that made my husband happy , now my son is out with friends off and on until tomorrow night to see them while their back from college for the holiday weekend and my son wanting to see them before he ships out for Basic Training Wed . Sunday We will have a family party for him so all the family can come and see him enjoy some food , then Monday and Tues will be him getting ready for leaving. Now I’m starting to get more anxious with him leaving .. ugh I do not want to start this feeling I was doing good . Now I’m thinking and feeling how quiet it will be .. the days shouldn’t be too bad he’s not usually home during the day but the nights he is or has been a bit more lately and knowing he’s not in his room is making me feel anxious .. I keep saying just think he will be fine when I’m sleeping he will be he will have to be, and after two weeks he can call home on Sunday nights . I’m trying to sink this into my head sadly it’s not working. I’m hoping it’s just my mood tonight and tomorrow will seem better with this . I hope .

Reading would be good but I do not know if I could concentrate on it .. I know I should try it’s only 8:30 too early for bed. I know I need to try . I guess I will see if this helps.wish me luck. 😞

Friday rainy day nothings…

Rainy day . ..a calm quiet day , temps are cool, things are done around the house just supper has to be made but that’s in a bit . Enjoying some hot chocolate while talking with my daughter. My son left at 6 this morning and arrived home around 2 he has showered and is laying down now . He took a hike up on Mt Greylock an elevation of 3,491 I dislike when he does this hiking alone but he prefers it then he can go at his own pace . The day before I started on another adult coloring page. It’s coming along pretty good. After supper is made and cleaned up and the evening turns into night I think I will work on some more of the page . I guess it’s time to get supper going

No over thinking..

I woke early to the sound of my son and his friend in the kitchen . I was shocked it was morning after reading my book before bed and shutting the light off around 11 ,I fell asleep quick . This is the earliest I’ve fallen to sleep in a month. No thinking well over thinking I told myself the day before I wouldn’t do that I’m such a thinker so this is going to be a challenge . I kept myself happily busy did things that needed to be done then I relaxed enjoyed my soapy and settled with a afternoon coffee and finished my page I was working on in my adult coloring book. Anyways Morning was. here so after hearing my sons friend leave I jumped in the shower and then for a cup of coffee ,my son chatted with me as I enjoyed my coffee so that was nice . My daughter comes home today after being away for 3days with her Grandmother at the beach. Miss Abigail will be happy to see her. She has been my little buddy following me through the house as I was getting things done.

Happy to say it’s the 1st day in about 2weeks that I could shut off the air and open windows. Been sitting outside reading my book while Miss Abigail sits in the window watching me .🙂 It feels good to be able to sit outside and not feel hot. Soon my daughter will be here she texted me that she was grabbing us pumpkin spiced coffee on her way home and would be here soon .. mine decaf since it’s now 4 in the afternoon. Can’t wait . My son is off on a bike ride with some friends in the nearby town bike trails . So do not expect him home anytime soon. I guess I will enjoy some more of my book before my daughter arrives to chat with me about her trip . 🙂

Can you say Nightmares..

Tonight my daughter wanted to catchup on the last 3 or so episodes I stopped counting.. of American horror stories in the living room while making cookies . The new seasoned started tonight . So she is watching that now down in her place. For the most part my eyes where closed .. I couldn’t do it (hahaha) I do not mind horror stories but this goes just a bit further to insanity in my opinion .. it’s gross . She would tell me when to open my eyes 🙄 then when my eyes were open I was strolling through Instagram , Twitter, word press . So yes partly watching it as well. My son who is having a hard time sleeping lately , I believe thinking .. sleeping pattern is off , nerves , has decided to try an all nighter to get tired so he can get some earlier sleep patterns tomorrow. Hopefully this works. I told him if you hear me yelling or screaming in my sleep tonight it’s only me having nightmares (hahaha) he shook his head in agreement because he saw how I was watching it and shook his head.. Oh what I do for my kids. Well time to get some sleep wish me luck .

Rainy Monday..

I woke late after a not so early night. I had hope for since feeling under the weather all Sunday. I settled in bed earlier enough with my book desperate to relax under the warm blankets and read . I really want to start reading my newest book I bought with my son. I read about two chapters mind you the chapters are not very long to the next , my eyes kept closing but my mind kept wondering where my son was he had been gone from early afternoon and said he would be home for supper …well the plate sat wrapped in the oven waiting for him. Time ticked on. My daughter who came home from work was now settled down in her place with Miss Abigail. Around 9 I gave in shut the light off and laid there. A bit into laying there my phone dinged it was my son letting me know he would be home late don’t wait up … what every mother loves to hear but does the opposite. My daughter then rang my phone asking if he was home I told her she said he’s fine go to bed. So once again I settled in. As I closed my eyes I heard through the quietness of the house a barking noice then a yipping noise that turned it to a loud eerie howl . Oh the boys were back or at least one of them …thinking this boy (coyote) is living in our woods. My daughter came up and said do you hear that it’s so loud . I was shocked she could hear it. Well once again wide awake. About midnight my son texted Home in driveway go to sleep now … he knows me too well . I told him about the coyote he texted oh good will tame him. I laughed to myself .. Then he was off and I heard him walk in. Next thing I know it’s 8:30 in the morning . Rain coming down hitting the window. Can you say no let it still be night (hahaha) even though I felt a bit better I laid there in bed taking in the quietness of the rain . Soon after my kids were banging around in the kitchen and the sound of coffee cups being set on the counter had me up and showered and heading for one of those cups. Ahh coffee always helps. So that was my night hoping for a earlier night tonight. afternoon was nice my daughter and I took a ride it was a perfect rainy cold day for a drive thru Starbucks for my first pumpkin spiced latte for the season …So good. Now it’s night time my sons home reading in his bedroom my daughters with her boyfriend catching up on American horror stories down in her place. I will read a bit while hubby is laying here next to me watching Monday Night football. Then I will get some sleep it’s still raining so hopefully the boys are sheltering themselves deep in our wood and staying quiet tonight. We will see.

Get them while you can!

The evening started off as usual my hubby getting home from work and taking a run before the storms came in to shake off the stress of the work day. My son at his Tuesday night work out group and my daughter at work. Then there was Me .. holding down the fort and getting supper ready well leftovers last night After when everyone was home supper finished and cleaned up the thunder rolled in .My son asked if we wanted to watch a movie my son has been in a movie mode lately I’m thinking it’s his way of distracting his thinking mind and tired body so I said yes even though my book was on my lap ready to finish ..my hubby opted out this time to relax in bed for an early work morning. My daughter came home about 15 minutes into it and decided to watch with us . My son chose one of the Thor movies I’m not much of a Thor fan but the guy who plays him I love ! (Hahaha) it was such a relaxing fun night with both of my kids . I’m absorbing all this beautiful energy from them .

When they were younger we always watched movies together it was a Friday night thing after a long week of school and work , we would order pizza and settle in and watch movies .. then the rest of the weekend was theirs to do . Now it’s when or if they want to …few and far between. So I take it while I can . ❤️