Everyone is home and settled in . Laying in bed the house is calm and quiet except for the sound of the crickets and the rain poring down watering the leaves and grass making a tapping sound as it reaches them.ahh rainy summer nights. , such a feeling summer nights.
When it sounds and looks like this you want to crawl under your covers and go to sleep.
This afternoon while in town I notice how the leaves are changing I kind of feel like those leaves, changing myself …. I see the kids on the playground as I drive home and see them running laughing and it’s beautiful so young and free where did the time go … doesn’t seem like it was that long ago I was sitting on the ground with other parents chatting while all our kids played on the playground when School let out . How we would have to finally tell the kids it was time to head home . So we could settle in for the evening with supper , homework , baths and then a little time for some TV before bed. Now my day pretty much is all mine . After things around the house needs to be done , somethings never change . I’m slowly trying to let go of this strange guilt I hold over myself with all this free time to enjoy my soaps a bit more read a bit more chat with friends all day (hahaha) I do not know why I feel guilty doing nothing a bit more except for what I enjoy . My daughter thinks I’m too hard on myself . That I’ve earned this time since there is really no routine I need to follow anymore. I believe she’s right . I guess I’ve always have had been busy and now no so much until I find somethings to do .
Love the evening sky this time of year the days get shorter but still warm and the nights are cool and the air smells of fallen leaves and wood smoke from the houses in a distant taking the chill out . the sunsets amazing light , the setting of the sun casting shadows upon the darkening trees is a serene feeling and reminds us that even though life has it’s ups and down its still beautiful and somethings will never change.