Good morning everyone hope everyone’s having a good week . I can’t believe it’s Wed already . Been a less running around week then lasts . Last week I felt I needed to keep running around to keep my mind from thinking , wondering. And when that only helped a bit I just gave in and decided …. it’s okay to just stop and if my mind started thinking and wondering fine . Running from it was not going stop it. Things are different .. quieter .. less busy and yes I miss my son so much and it’s fine to feel that . And shed a tear or two or three ..(hahaha) so this week I realize after giving in to my feelings I’ve had a calmer week , I’ve kept busy no chance in that not happening house still needs to be kept up errands still need to be run and suppers still need to be made . But my mind as let me concentrate on reading and coloring . My husband and I are enjoying are shows together and we are joking more learning to be us again . Always have been but now it’s more joking just laughing to our own little things. . My daughter is still at home but has been out with friends and boyfriend and work so haven’t seen her much . I know soon enough my son will be home but I know this experience of his has started a shift in a change of how things will be .around here for all of us.
So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon. I will keep you posted.