Monday…

Once again here we are Monday again . And late afternoon at that .Had a Dr.’s appointment . Routine blood work followup. Then back home to cleanup the house and chatted with my daughter while we did our things.. It’s a rainy cold day … a rude awakening after a beautiful warm sunny weekend. Sitting on the deck with my book or just with my daughter chatting and enjoying the sounds around us was nice. My son went for his interview he said it went well but will see if they call him. Crazy transitioning time for him . All of us … when I think about how busy I was .. we were with little kids running around and having to be some place or another, every minute of the day play dates , school open houses , sport events. ..seems like only yesterday. Busy was nice . I miss it at times.. maybe not the running part I guess I will admit.. but the chaotic parts of friends running in and out of the house . Sleepovers, loud music .. I know all the things I’ve mentioned before on my blog. I guess seeing the transitioning my son is going through brings it all back to me . It was more fun is what I think he is thinking . (hahaha) he was always rushing to grow up and now he is and I think he love to take it back .. well maybe somethings. πŸ™‚ life is not easy it has its up and down moments .. it’s struggles and rewards . But it’s defiantly worth it. The key is just keep moving forward and having faith . I try to tell both my adult kids this . I know they agree but do not want to hear it. When things are on the downside . They will learn . I think we all keep learning no mater how old we are . I know I have had a year of my own transitioning and learning. But like I’ve told my kids keep moving forward that’s what I tell myself . At times it’s slower then it would be fore them but it’s still moving forward..

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People….

Hi Everyone I hope all of you had a good weekend and Monday.I did until this evening just warning you this could be a long post beware 😭… I alway thought I was a people person actually I don’t know now I guess it depends on the person so maybe not .I looked up the definition and it states people that are good with dealing with people okay well yes and no then . A person I have known since my son and her daughter went to preschool and now graduating together I could take her but would need a break because she could become over bearing with a lot of un called forbragging and know it all …but this past last week we have done well chatting through text well the Facebook app and it’s actually been pleasant .Tonight she stepped over the line over something yes important but not important enough to be hurtful .. My son didn’t participate at the fundraiser for his class he went to sports practice and then came home and did homework and my hubby and I where not going to go then and we respected his option to op out he told them no it was a dinner .. one he wasn’t the only one who didn’t participate but that’s is not the point.. I know any how it’s a bit late I told him what’s it for we have paid for a yearbook they where not suppose to , will be paying for his graduation gown so where is the money going ? My son said I believe for our first class reunion my hubby and I where like what…. that’s 5 yrs away … and this lady had been on me all day leaving messages on oh how her daughter was running everywhere doing all the work and it just kept going … now she can stretch the truth a bit and her daughter can over do herself to try to look like the best once again not the point …and remind you I was still ok was not letting her get to me. My son has had a hard time lately with classmates he’s ready he needs to graduate soon he does not do drama and well he told me I would regret chatting with her and my daughter warned me as well he and she where so right she rubbed people in my face this evening because my son and hubby and I where not going to let her push us to go … if anyone knows me you do not do that.. then I’m done …. and she hit hard with that and all I have ever done was mind my own business take care of my family , teach my kids to be good and be polite we have done what we needed to do. This yr so anyways we taught our kids never let anyone ever belittle you well .. hmm I guess doing this I’ve shown people you can walk all over me .. oh mo I’m not that easy so now I am done. People do not know me .

I try to be a nice person to everyone . I do not get in other peoples business . I honestly think my blogger friends oh and my family and closes friends know me the best. I can be myself when I write ..right now yes I’m venting … just so angry, hurt if I could of stomped around earlier I would of but I can’t because that would only hurt my hip πŸ˜‚. I’ve only shown kindness to this person but then to throw people in my face especially the people who’s kids hurt my sons feelings and trust so much and this lady knows it is a low blow. Why? These parents are as bad as their kids with drama …. why are people so hurtful life is so short and people worry and hurt others over the simplest things. My kids say I worry too much about making people happy that I should worry about myself is that the right thing? Is that what we are suppose to do ? I really do not know anymore.. of course for starters my son said Facebook should go hahaha true….getting there . Yes I am just trying to figure things out …

Long Day….

A very long mentally exhausting day… moments on the phone dealing with financial aide and figuring out life that isn’t talking about my life but my sons …. yes defiantly something wrong with this picture …. be 17 and you think the world is yours hmm ..and things will just magically happened ….. NOT! ..Oh to be 17 and have your head in the clouds ….help! So yeah it got better towards night time when I’m trying to fix supper and my son in his mood comes home and throws a pkg of Hamburg on the stove to open and cook but the problem is the burner is still on because I’m still using it yeah the house filled with smoke I grabbed it but not fast enough the fire alarms are touchy but yeah there was smoke so they went off screaming through the house having Miss Abigail run for cover, my hubby running around and opening windows as my son stood there doing the blame game with me …oh boy let’s just say that didn’t last long I shut down and just glared when I do.not speak you know I’m done .. he just kept staring at me while we all finally sat at the table eating.. I have still said nothing even in his return from the gym.. I’m in my bed settling my mind or trying .. and flying the defeat flag tonight . Just tonight …

To my daughter .

You came into this world with fire  and strength and a  heart so big .Do not ever let life hurt you so bad that it takes away that fire and and shatters your heart but learn from it .use the heat to warm that heart of yours and use that strength to fight back and show this crazy world what your made of .. People  with big hearts hurt more because they feel so much more deeply not a bad thing . I think the world needs more people like you.

Days getting shorter…

At 7:20 tonight I realized the sun had set and it was getting dark out….so it begins shorter days , where has the summer gone … not that I’m unhappy to see it go it’s been a challenging and sad one. My son received his class schedule and all the paper work that needs to be signed and sent back to the school but sadly my mind is having a hard time getting back into the routine of another school yr so I think I will take a couple of days to take a breather from the have to’s I know my son is hahaha he slept the day away today but it was well needed. So I will give myself a break stop beating myself up that I’m not being wonder mom and take those two days one day at a time and reflect over this summer and learn from it then go from there. I must say it’s nice to see my son home and reading his book he needs to read for school. Then worrying where he is running around to with his buddies . Being his Senior yr I’m hoping there will be more nights like this then last yr when he had more free time which In his case is not always s good thing and was out. We will see if I have anything to do about itπŸ™‚