Oh the signs..

Well sitting down at noon drinking my first cup of coffee and listening to all the ridiculous news .. yes ridiculous . What is wrong with society ? Anyways not what I really want to talk about.. what would we gain if we did… the house is quiet as I enjoy my coffee but the signs of a full house is everywhere. My sons hats two to be exact hanging off the kitchen chairs a sure sign of my son being back. My daughters coat hanging on the other chair that’s a new one. The kitchen sink full with dishes ..when I know that it was empty when I went to bed. Oh a big one an empty roll of toilet paper still in place on toilet holder.. yes one of my pet peeves 🙄 BUT would I change this for the world? No! Okay maybe a bit (hahaha) I cleaned the kitchen .. now until round two.. soon very soon my son will be back from the gym and ready for lunch and that he will clean up . Dishes will find their way into the dishwasher with his own hands. it will be supper prep soon as well . oh where did this day go! Oh I know … I guess laying in bed all morning and then enjoying a warm shower may have cause this.. after thinking I would get to bed earlier . I read until after midnight again and still haven’t finished the book. Then trying to sleep after was a bit hard . I kept trying to figure the ending of it. It’s a crazy cycle I’m on . This time change has thrown me for a loop. Plus the bit of Spring fever does not help. Oh the days of summer vacation when for just a season the world felt like it stopped because the kids were on vacation and we had the days of summer to get off the routine of busy morning school schedules, sport practices, just lazy days and no place to be unless we wanted to be. Now it feels as I’m the only one who is staying in place and I’m on a vacation if you want to call it that . Since being on disability. I’m home more then anyone. yes I do the bare minimum of things in the house some days are better then others ,if I do too much or in repetition you see what happens when I wrote about my sciatic pain . It’s a juggling act of what I can put my energy towards and to keep my muscles active. I think that’s why I am so happy I was able to do all the things with my kids when they were growing up and my body was able. And now their adults and do not need me to do anything for them it’s funny now they do for me which at times is hard to bare … I guess call it pride. I have learned what is important. It’s the time spent the laughter . Even if it’s in moments .. minutes, seconds . It’s just hard at times when everyone is busy with work , friends , life and I just sit here and watch. I’m always watching . (It’s hard especially when I can see my family running themselves ragged and my kids making choices that are not good but know I can’t tell them what to do .)but some days it’s not . See that’s what I do . I go back and forth and at times when everything is done and fine and I spend time.. hour hours reading , blogging which has been the best thing I’ve discovered . 🙂 or I stay up late reading and sleep in because I do not need to do the 6:00 wake up time .I feel this guilt. It’s probably silly .. my daughter told me it was wrong to feel this way . I’ve told her how I feel . She said I’ve done my job . To relax and enjoy what I’m doing. I guess I’m opening up on here because I feel when I write it’s the same ol … but that’s just how it is especially in the winters everything I see from my house my front deck . 🙄 so I thank all of you who follow my blog and read my posts especially my faithful readers I call friends. You make this new chapter in my life feel like something when you read my posts.🙂

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