Growing Up…

Night has arrived and my heart is heavy. Yes I’m probably thinking too much but isn’t that what night does sometimes to people who think too much…. Its the School April vacation week and it’s just not the same . The days are too quiet and normal . The nights have been quiet as well . No loud music playing shaking the walls down ,no laughter of a house full of kids. No not having all our food ate up .

Instead the walls are not shaking just the sound of a movie playing in my sons room no laughter unless it’s my son laughing about something in the movie and a house is full of food . I know he’s growing up . The high school yrs are just about over , he’s done with work the ski season job is over so looking in the mean time for another but not having much luck . So it’s been going to the gym then to sport practice and then maybe one night he ate out after with his track friends but has been home the past 4 nights . I know I shouldn’t complain but this is just not how he is .The friend group has changed so he’s not hanging around with friends that are constantly running in between everything, the friends he has are doing what he is doing and as he puts it chilling at home at night. Does he miss the running hmmm I don’t know but why do I feel sorry for him? He came home tonight after gym and practice made his special diet for supper showered and then put on a movie in his room .. about an hour later he texted me ….yes he did I was in the living room. He asked if I would make him a pb&j sandwhich . How could I refuse 🙂 I brought it to him and there he was in his bed in his comfy clothes watching his movie and looking content so maybe he’s not missing the running around … maybe he is just growing up. Or maybe he’s doing wha I’m doing and thinking too much and needs a movie for distraction🙄 a lot of changes are happening to him and it’s fine if he’s actually chilling himself 😂 I need to stop thinking myself and let him be ,soon it’s back to school ,exams prepping for graduation college signups so yes I need to let him be…oh nights can do a number on you and Facebook as well al the posting of who’s doing what ugh need to stop comparing our family with others . That actually is maybe the problem … and him as well he seems to be on it a lot okay I need to stop …. always a mom…. well I do not hear the movie anymore he must have gone to bed. What I should be doing. Along with my hubby who is fast asleep …okay think I will good night everyone …

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Mornings…

woke to a thunking sound and I just laid in bed trying to ignore it haha my daughter who was up early getting ready for work came in to my bedroom to tell me that the bluebird was back again hitting against our living room window and clinging to the screen ….yes again over the weekend it was doing this and it was so creepy it wouldn’t stop .Miss Abigail was going crazy jumping in the window and making cat noises it finally stopped and went away when I pounded on the window . There is a bird house below the deck railing so it could have babies in it she’s protecting …..I hope hahaha you can see it in the photo peeping in as well as the crazy squirrel that has been hanging from the feeder since I finally rolled out of bed and dragged myself to the kitchen for coffee. Their it was just hanging there . Crazy morning out my window . The bird is gone once again but Miss Abigail is still unsettled she is hiding . Well my coffee is finished and now time to get some things done around the house. I hope everyone has a great day .

Night⭐️

it’s been a quiet easy going day after the errands were done supper was ready to be prepared and then our favorite tv show was on . Everyone’s home , 2 nights in a row … I said to my hubby do not get too use to it 🙂 he agreed . They have just been busy and now tired out. Our shows are over early and we have settled in for the night as have the kids . I may actually get to sleep earlier for a change . Need to get In a better sleeping pattern. When I do not sleep well mornings are not good. No amount of coffee will work, hmm my hubby just shut the tv down and yes the fan is on humming away. I guess it’s time to settle . I hope everyone has a good night . Wish me luck 🙂

Good Afternoon..

It’s Tuesday but feels like a Monday hmmm ..always feels that way when Monday ends up being a holiday. It sometimes tends to throw the whole week off. It’s April vacation if that means anything to me hahaha my son is still not around but doing good things, helping a family member with some outside cleanup then to the gym and his track practice . So busy. A good busy . My hubby and daughter are back to work . I doing my usual cleaning up the house a bit.. prepping supper and now settled for a bit watching my daytime soap soon . Then out the door to run some errands . One thing at a time 🙂

What is with this new generation… oh my gosh the drama is beyond the normal If drama is normal… my daughter too busy taking care of her friends that are causing their own stupidity sadly yes it’s stupidity things…. and my daughter feels she needs to help them okay their in their 20’s their adults yes but they really need to get a grip and yes parents need to help them at this point friends are not doing it…and my daughter needs to take care of herself and get her things together. So crazy. Where did we go wrong?these kids do not want to grow up.so frustrating and I just shake my head because no matter what I say she isn’t going to take the advice well she will take it but follow it hmmm no I do not believe so . 🙄well time for my show then after errands to run . have a great day evening , what ever time a day it is in your part of the world.

Oh Mother Nature!

It’s Saturday started off warm sunny birds where singing it was so beautiful slept with the window open all night falling to sleep to the sound of peepers . It felt like Spring had finally arrived .. hmm I guess Mother Nature didn’t think so as the day went on the winds started to blow the birds stopped singing and the temperatures started falling and did they fall ..its now evening we went from 70 yesterday to 30’s right now and freezing rain coming in and predicted for Sunday as well . My son went hiking with his track team on one of the many big mountains in our area this afternoon curious to hear how cold it was on top when he arrives home. Feels like winter is back for the moment. The peepers are defiantly not peeping tonight😂 poor Miss Abigail was loving the windows open and laying in the window sills now their closed and she is roaming around the house going room to room.. she’s not liking it as well. Soon I keep saying Spring will come and stay .

The weather is as changeable as everything else lately …starting or adjusting to all the new changes and I’m haven’t even begun to feel the changes . Less then a month my son will graduate high school and I will then feel the change more then ever . Give me strength 🙄

Give me strength …

it’s night time once again … happy that this week will soon be over and then April vacation begins on Monday for my son , yay!!!! He needs a break from all the drama at school and needs a break from people he thought was his friend best friend but sadly my son found out the hard way … my son holds trust and loyalty so high and now this kid who broke his trust will never see my son as a friend again . My son won’t let that happen.. why do people have no guilt in hurting others ? Life can be cruel in so many ways but I’m hoping in less then two months when he graduate he will see life in a different light . Yes not always easy but so worth looking to another day , new beginnings hopefully he will see a happier road in front of him . I pray that he will .

Yes being a teenager has its drama but it’s so different these days . The times have changed people not all but a lot are out for them self’s . I try I’ve taught my kids to be good people , but in this world like the saying goes … “nice guys finish last ” but just maybe being last isn’t so bad maybe its a good thing if your last then your not up there where all the hurtful disloyal people are ., yes… I try to find a silver lining out of everything .. one of my many faults ,hmm maybe but it keeps me hopeful that silver lining .. when I pray at night I always tell god it’s so hard down here why ? I wish he would answer maybe then I could find the answer the would be able to see that smile on my sons face more often , Or hear my daughter come home from work and tell me one time how nice a customer was to her then to hear how they complained over her not having something that they so needed that they had to be so hurtful about🙄 Really is this right? No ! Karma I want to say but with that make me any better then them … just hard being a parent hurt me I can take it but do not hurt my kids. Well on that note I will try to settle my mind down and let this humming of the fan hahaha yes gotta love this fan 🙂 drift me off to sleep . Maybe hubby is snoring could be a long night 😂

Good Night🌙

the fan is humming it’s the only sound breaking through the quietness in the house tonight my hubby and his fan… the bedroom is darker then usual no light from the moon ,clouds moving in to bring some rain. My daughter is out with a friend and my son is in bed settling his mind down with a hot cup of night time tea . Hubby is fast asleep and I am not 🙂 always… I was just reflecting on the little things I guess when my phone went off a minute ago because my daughter texted me a heart because earlier before she left work she told me she was going to be a bit later she sent me a heart so I sent one back but I guess she was just seeing it and even though she is out with her friend she sent me one back still ❤️ so it got me thinking of how her and I had this special goodnight saying she was the one who thought of it ,it was long and she would say it first then I would repeat it back with her name and it went on for yrs and I always wondered when she would grow out of it . Well it took a class trip in Elementary school that she went on for a week . She was worried she wouldn’t be able to say it so I told her when your all settled in and your ready to fall asleep if you think about it say it to your self your part and when I go to bed I will say my part ….. she. Liked that idea , honestly I do not know if she ever said it to herself that whole week . I never asked because when she came home she never ask to say it just said good night … hmm funny what you can remember and still can tug at your heart… my son was more simple it was ,have sweet dreams then a hug .. hmm how I miss all those moments ..at the time it was just second nature what we did . Now its missing memories .. oh the simple things we can take for granted but then when time passed it’s really becomes a big thing and means everything. So tonight when I say my prayers as I drift off to sleep tonight I will make sure to add a thank you to god for all these simple blessings I believe I have thanked him for all these blessing but I think I need to thank him again especially about the little things . ❤️