Soon!

Good morning it’s a quiet Tuesday one .. after waking up at 7:00 the aroma of coffee found its way to me . I dragged myself to the shower but not before starting a load of laundry my husband had loaded in the washing machine ..I blasted the hot water since it’s so cold trying to warm up . Finally finding my way to the kitchen grabbing some coffee was so worth every sip.Miss Abigail is already in her chair sleeping away again . Oh this house is quiet but going to be even quieter by Friday when my hubby flys out to my Son for his Basic Training graduation I’ve mentioned this in past posts ,I’m not going can not fly or do the long distance walking so he will video and get a lot of pictures. The graduation isn’t until next Wed with visiting the base the day before so actually he’s flying out Saturday early morning with his mom who got them a room by the airport on Friday night so she wouldn’t have to to do an hr and a half ride to the airport for a 8:00am flight sadly they will be hanging around in a hotel from Sat to Tues because of finding a flight so close to my sons graduation . Then after graduation they will head to the airport and fly home with him . It will be a long day for them they should arrive home around 1or 2 in the morning.. I will stay up to at least give my son a hug and then let him head to bed . And then catchup with him as much as possible until his friends get ahold of him. They have already started texting me asking when he will be home …… so this will be interesting 🙂. It’s only 12 days here then he flys back out again but it’s ok I can at least have him home for Christmas !

I have been slowly decluttering the house .. my daughter will help me when my hubby is away which will keep my mind busy . Yes my mind (hahaha) I think too much . And so decluttering and freshening up his bedding will keep me busy . Yes I have been thinking and what timing as I’m writing this post I’m watching the morning local show while enjoying my coffee their talking about first holidays with your adult kids coming home from college , moving out military etc ..stating how when they come home it will be different for them and the parents as well.. The day they first walked out the door on their own they became adults and started their new life and so they will be different and we will be different as well ..So how we treated them before will change a bit yes their still our kids but their adults, seen a different world so transitioning to coming home will be however we make it but to respect there difference as well as they should respect our difference of how we as parents have adapted to them not being here But being adults doesn’t mean they will not need us they will. But in a more supportive way of letting them tell you how they feel if it’s been hard then guide them with ideas to make it more easier but teaching them , telling them is no longer our job. It’s their life. and we want them to want .. to look forward to coming home.Ok I must say listening to this has helped a lot because that is what I’ve been thinking about so much as the time has come closer to my son coming home and him coming home from Basic Training he will be different. And that could be a good thing . Oh I love him but he needed some help with growing up and hopefully taming his wild ways ..not a bad wild but a young wild .. so I will step back see how he is when he walks though the door and then trend carefully seeing the difference in him. My daughter growing into an adult was so different and easy she didn’t move away but went in a separate part of our house and just transitioned so much better I think she was born an adult ) hahaha) being a teenager was hard for her she always acted older then her peers . Was better around adults so being adult she has flourished and I’m proud of her. . So yes we will see . I’ll keep you posted.

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Roaming..

Just like my title says …roaming.. I just feel like I’m running in place. I do not have much Christmas shopping for my kids to do ..I ordered online for something’s and then its gift cards and money towards things they need help with. What can you do when their adults. Oh the days of toy shopping was so much easier and more fun! As I write this I’m seeing a toy commercial come on the tv. (hahaha) then having older nieces and nephews it’s a money gift card for them as well . So as I look at everyone on line or talking with people their all wound up about buying things . I just want to have my family all together … my son will be coming home for twelve days and when he just starts to relax it will be time to fly back out is what I’m thinking so the whole present thing is probably not his main focus , my daughter feels like she hasn’t done enough and I told her I’m sure it’s fine . All long as I feel like I’m just roaming walking in place feeling like I should be doing more. .. but honestly it’s no different from any other yr since they have become older . Their fine. So that being said I will just get this house ready with the help of my daughter with food in the house since it’s been just feeding my hubby and I . My daughter doesn’t eat too much at home and when she does she buys what she wants. So stock up on food that my son likes but then again I don’t know if he is eating the same way he did before he left for Basic .. he may want junk food (and eating out. hahaha) And ….,that being said it’s waiting for my son to come home .

I have books to read, spend a bit more on here with my blog and now my new thing my friend and I started that I posted about a week or so ago . Now that my Son is about done with Basic there isn’t any more letter writing with him so we have decided to write back and fourth and I am feeling guilty because she has already wrote me and I am dragging my butt . I have started a letter just need time to do it and to focus . And sadly I have the time I honestly can’t say why my day goes by so fast .. It’s just so relaxed I get up catch up on news with my coffee then clean up around the house and then run into town , post office garage, etc then come back home and get supper started . And then get off my feet for a bit enjoying my soap then finish supper and then hubby cleans up and then he , we settle in to watch our tv shows and try to do my thing .. books ..writing, but then my day is gone night time settles in.. and that’s why I feel this running in place feeling . Ughh maybe I’m thinking too much … I just don’t know . 🙄 like now its 6:00 in the evening been dark since 5 supper is done and cleaned up . And now my hubby is relaxing on the couch and I’m cozied in my chair with a blanket it’s so cold … they say the coldest night it will be so far . It’s strange with it being a clear starry cold evening we keep hearing the whistle of the trains going by , while we are watching the news.. yes time to time we hear them at night while we are laying in bed and it’s quiet but the last two night the whistle and the sound of the train on the tracks is crystal clear. It’s even mor creepier … well I guess I should finish my letter to my friend and then read one of my books . I’d say my hubby and I could watch a movie but he’s going to settle in early yeah it’s Friday but Saturday is the last day of hunting so my hubby and his friend are hunting for the day . Plus it’s a good night for settling earlier to keep warm( hahaha)

Monday’s….

Monday’s what can we say about Monday’s … their not the most favorable day 🙄 but this one I must admit wasn’t too bad , after a rainy dreary Sunday and no sleep the night before , it was nice to wake up to a bright sunny morning after a good nights sleep. and a very good hair day (hahaha) now to tell you what I did today well I don’t know it was a day of just whatever I enjoyed my cup of coffee a bit longer this morning . Chatted with a friend on Facebook . Then proceeded with getting supper going in the faithful crockpot . Then just chatted on and off with my daughter who had off today but spent the most part of her day down in her place as she cleaned it and hung out with her boyfriend who was over. I left went to the Post Office and there sat two letters from my son in our post box. It was nice to hear from him he is sounding much more mature . And excited about coming home for Christmas but actually now is switching gears … again … now instead of missing home he’s going on now how he thinks he’s going to miss the base it feels like home to him now the funny thing is I’m wondering because he is coming home for 12 days for Christmas and I’m thinking when he comes home to his bed , us , his old friends we could be dragging him to the airport to go back to AIT there. But I do understand and he’s made such great friends and even though they exchanged phone numbers and so on it won’t be the same as they move on to graduation and their AIT heading in different directions. One guy he is happy about because they realize they only live several town overs so hopefully they can catch up with one another. He’s come a long ways from feeling sappy to now going to miss being their .. oh home is going to be so boring for him. I’m thinking he may reach out even more to an Army career but will see he’s young and good at changing his mind a lot … it can make your head spin. Whatever he chooses I just hope it’s not settling for less in this town .. it’s a nice little town to raise a family and retire in but not for a active adventurous young guy . It can be a bad thing. So yes defiantly will see. I do know I love my kids will do anything for them but want them to be independent happy adults like we all hope and wish for. And I’m actually getting use to just doing whatever ..my lazy routine if you want me to admit it. (Hahaha) yes I know I’m limited as it is physically and so I know my limits … I just know I’m into a routine of keeping myself busy in simple ways . Taking to more friends doing more hobbies It will be nice to have a bit more activity in this quiet house . But Im just afraid he will come home and after awhile settle back into his old ways of doing his running and I wondering where he is .. I know what people have told me he’s part of the Army now so National Guard reserves or full time they own him and that has and will keep him knowing to be on the straight and narrow not that he never was he just loves late nights and keeping me wondering. Oh how things change and it’s so hard to adjust then you do and then things change again and you have to adjust again to that change .. this thing called life 🙂

Bringing back something timeless…

Tonight my dear friend and I were chatting ,work has her down . She’s tired and just feeling over whelmed . So we were chatting and she had asked if I had heard from my son . I replied with a no .. no letters only the phone call on Thanksgiving . I went on telling her I believe he’s busy with finishing what he needs to do to graduate from Basic and come home for Christmas in three weeks. I went on by saying I miss his letters and writing to him . I sent one out the weekend after Thanksgiving which he probably just got this week . I want to send him another but afraid that as soon as I drop it in the mail they’ll say no more letters . I’m hoping he sends me something soon or a phone call before graduation. I know it’s only been a week from hearing from him but for some reason it seems longer then that. Oh the mother in me… so my friend and I went on chatting and she said your going to miss writing letters I know you enjoyed it . Oh yes I did indeed . It was a nice change of pace from typing , it was comforting. I joked and said I may have to write to you followed with a laugh … she is about three towns over so about an hour away but our life’s are in different directions so we do not see each other as much as we like. She paused and I asked are you still there? She responded with a yes but with a different tone . I wondered … she went on , you know you laughed but honestly that isn’t such a bad idea. I’m Like what? She says us writing letters back and forth. Why not I think that would be fun and she stated you did say they say it’s good for the mind . I thought about it and said are you serious ? I’m in if you really are . It could be therapeutic lol . For the first time through our chat tonight she was sounding more up beat . Yes she said defiantly let’s do it . It would be a good way to empty our heads and look forward to something in the mail beside bills ( hahaha) okay then we will . We explained no time limit on replying or how short or long. And we could be as creative as we wanted. She said this will be fun bringing back something people really do not do much of anymore . Sending handwritten letters in the mail. As we ended our conversation we were both excited to try this . I hope this works out. It would defiantly be something positive to do . Since lately it doesn’t seem like a lot of positive things in the world .Tomorrow I’ll go into town and see if they even sell stationary anymore and if not at least some nice paper. Excited about this . Hope it’s what we are hoping it will be like. I’ll keep you posted.

The quietness …

It’s 10:30 at night and laying here in bed in the darkness taking in the stillness.. the quietness of my house. It’s been this way for several months now no sound of music or tv in the next rooms or the sound of laughter echoing in the house. Throughout the night Just quietness . Something I’m adjusting to . Not a bad thing actually for the moment comforting because this quietness is not a worry feeling but a reassuring one ..my kids are doing what they should be doing their making a life . Their not running all over town doing god knows what or where. I say this because in our Town three young adults in their 20’s were in a terrible car accident the night before and it took the life of one of the three ..leaving the other two in serious condition in the hospital. I feel for this family and the girl who’s life was cut short. Do not know all the details no one really knows at this point still figuring it out . But one thing is speed was a factor and these young adults all they do is run and so on . So I take this quietness and am grateful that I’m not wondering where my kids are . I just pray when my son comes home he stays on the foundation he is building …of course I cannot wait for some noise it will be welcoming and there will be since he is leaving 12 days later for more training so friends will be here to see him. but knowing that he is growing and maturing will be a nice feeling too , and I hope his humbleness he has lately being away stays with him. I will always pray for them to be safe and well and happy . But knowing their starting to settle into a life of their own . The quietness will not be a sign of emptiness or sadness but of a new journey my husband and I will be happy to live with. For months now we have taken this quietness as sadness when all along we should have embraced it as a start of good things our family is where they should be. We did good and now to keep praying for all this and keep the faith they stay on the right path. So as I drift off to sleep with the stillness of our house I will pray for peace and yes for the families of this terrible tragedy ..

Weekend… Full circle

It’s been a nice Weekend ! Saturday evening close friends came over, a couple that my husband has been best friends with since his school days .. yes very rare these days and I best friends with his wife since the day I met both of them dating my hubby back in the day. We became fast friends when a little while after she began dating my husbands friend . We had many fun weekend adventures the four of us, so many things together. laughs and great chats before we both decided to start our families .. actually her and I were pregnant within 8 months of one another. Our two daughters growing up together from babies to now in their 20″s yes in different places of time but still best friends My friend has 3 kids so her son came a yr after our firsts then her third child her second daughter we were once again pregnant together with her third and my second my youngest my son . We did a lot together as families Trick or treating. Birthday parties sleep overs , some vacations . Many chats on the phone talking about the kids .. the good.. the bad , the drama , and then one day they all grew up as well as us (hahaha) and things Began to change less time together different towns apart . different parenting groups and less chats , yes life got busy and as always for the most part we lost sight of us being friends as we once started out to be. .. much like how you loose who you are once you have kids , everything seems to be surrounded by this new life your family your kids , not that you meant to but you just in some cases loose sight of who you are. Then one day your kids grow up and here you are but sadly thinking who are you now? If your lucky you kept sight of this when you began this new journey called parenting. If you haven’t then you now begin the new journey called next chapter and let me tell you starting a family and becoming a parent is no easy task but honestly I think this new chapter after kids is a bit more harder to except. Luckily my friend and I have found our way back to one another . Oh so different still adjusting , learning . So last night finally got together after sometime and as couples not a family get together. They came over our husbands went and grabbed the food we ordered ..and we stayed back and just let the words flow out .. we couldn’t stop talking 🙂 it was so refreshing .husbands came back with the food we ate chatted the four of us then after the guys stayed in the kitchen playing cards enjoying some drinks and her and I settled in the living room chatting , laughing then after we enjoyed some dessert my husband turned on the good ol 80″s channel and the music from our past just filled the air around us . We just stood in the kitchen laughing singing being foolish to the point of tears (hahaha) then it dawned on me I told them this is so like the saying “coming full circle ” that’s what we were doing without even realizing it .. yes older but it was such an amazing moment as we paused for a moment taking in that thought . It was indeed a nice night . I think we need more of these nights .

Simple ..little Things..yes thinking.

It’s a rainy day once again. Sitting here in my living room enjoying my cup of coffee and just thinking .. in my sons letters home he has stated many times it’s about the simple things and little things . I know he’s missing home and there has been a lot of time of him thinking and being only 18 and first time away from home , family , friends , and not much contact except hand written letters every 13 days how he receives them is a very big change. I just hope once he is home on leave he will remember this . .Statement.

It really is about the little things I have always thought that . No other way of thinking otherwise when I’ve grew up in a big family with little money to go around . Oh don’t get me wrong I’m not complaining at all .. just the way it was and we were not poor by any means , we had everything we needed and then some . Christmas with a beautiful simple Christmas tree presents under it and we counted how many present but whatever amount there was we were happy and satisfied But you know growing up there’s always I wants. And yes at times we got the I wants but when we were able to get jobs then we used our money. Life was simple though the suppers at 5 every night or you came home heated it up or made something else you ate what my mom made . Or you made a sandwich . Yes a sandwich .. Summers we cooked out a lot stayed out till bed time . Went to drive in movies . Can’t recall going to a theater much . My dad had a boat so weekends sailing . We always went to the Town fair . So simple . Until this day I’ve lived simple . My house isn’t fancy it’s a ranch style we built it’s simple cozy , homey .its not elegant it’s lived in . ( haha) and thankful for that because anything bigger would be too much to take care of for me. When the kids were little we went to the beach a lot with the whole family , my kids always had what they needed and yes alway wanted more ..if we could they got it if not they didn’t . Now the days are quieter and life is even more calmer and my past time is reading , writing , long rides with my hubby , lots of chats, and yes just plain simple nights home watching tv with my hubby or if my kids are here in which now my son wrote how he misses this . As he grew older it was only happening if he had no money to go out Hmm what you realize. . I’m sure sounds boring to some . I wouldn’t want to change anything …we..lll maybe bring back for a bit my kids being little and home more. Yes I know they grow up … and fast. Change comes and it is what it is. .. In this world now we want more never have enough money.. things but do we ever think about time ? No too busy running having to keep up with what everyone else is doing or has whether it makes you happy or not worrying more of what you say and how . Which honestly truth is the best but that is slowly fading away in these times along with love morals values , being replace with hate , rudeness , and a lot of regrets. maybe for a bit all the running around being what everyone wants you to be does make us happy but then eventually something hits us in the face with a dose of reality and you then realize what matters . . Ahh yes the simple things .. family, your special close friends you can count on your fingers . That’s what matters .