Old habits die hard…

 

I am happy to say I’m getting  back into reading again so I started reading  in bed before I  go to sleep to relax my mind .Its been going good the last couple of days and so tonight I read again and my mind just wouldn’t shut off I’m reading but my mind is actually thinking of other things.. night is when I think so no  wonder why I am not a good  sleeper …I guess old habits die hard . So I will put the book down and I will just try sleeping  wish me luck oh by the way the book is good it’s just not winning over my thoughts tonight and sadly things I shouldn’t be wasting a minute on.

Content….

Laying in bed relaxing at 9:30 at night just because  everyone  else has settled in actually  feels pretty  nice a strange feeling of content has swept  over me it’s  been a nice weekend and this is a perfect ending to it. I will fill you in on this weekend on Photo  Monday because my photo will be about this weekend. So for now I’m going to relax lay in bed go on Twitter once it’s been awhile and catch up on things enjoy your night everyone.

 

Stars…

Sitting on our deck with my daughter a bit of a chill in the air but it’s not keeping the peepers  from Making there beautiful music. The moon is a crescent shape but very bright..The first star is out so I must make a wish……. it’s a beautiful  night  after last night’s hail storm …Yes the weather is crazy Mother Nature at her best. Well going to enjoy have a goodnight everyone ..hopefully the boy’s (coyotes)  do not decided  to appear  will see who makes it inside 1st hahaha.

 

 

change of life…

So haven’t been feeling like myself lately…spacey flakey emotional  and yes hot flashes night sweats. ..have you caught on? Hahaha actually not funny just down right miserable …so not liking this but then who does I heard . I’m am amazed how I just do not not feel like myself it’s like something or someone else took over my body . This yr has brought on so many changes around me from loss..to my teenager  my baby getting his drivers license and just constantly  on his own new path that has changed my mother duties to patrol monitor  and more me time which is hard to get use to because I’m such a take care of someone person and now this change with me . My doctor says oh you will get through this take it one step at at time it’s easy for some but not for others well will see which one I am soon.  I will keep you posted.

Thinking…

I’m laying here in the darkness while my husband sleeps I could go into another room but I want to feel the warmth of my bed and hearing him sleep is comforting. .My thoughts are keeping me awake the  tradegedy  in London and just all the injustice in this world is heavy on the mind and ‘heart.  Everyone is suffering from something  whether is attacks drug addiction it’s just so unfair .life as become more scary every time my kids walk out the door I pray they will  be safe. Yes I guess that is normal but it’s just the worries have gotten so much  bigger and how do we stop it ? It’s definitely not going to change any time  soon. I just wish for peace and love and a simple safe happy life. Is that possible?  Oh my mind is so unsettled tonight even the sound of a distant train is giving me a chill down my spine , when other night’s it would be soothing…comforting. I pray tonight for health and safety and happiness   as I try to sleep..

 

 

 

 

 

Motherhood

Motherhood..happy ..laughter , strict ups and downs.  One minute busy next minute   echos of loudness next moment quietness you  could  hear a pin  drop. One minute you feel you have all the answers next minute you  have none. You try to be strong all the time but sometimes you just feel weak. One day you feel like your everything to everyone sometimes you feel like your nothing. Life of a mother is a hard job there are a lot of special moments but there can be some sad and sometime you feel like your working 24/7 then your not doing nothing at all. I guess that’s what mothers do and its a tricky thing but in the end it’s so worth this roller coaster  ride.