Friday Evening!

ahhh beautiful and mild !

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Moments…

Good Morning ! Enjoying my coffee and happily another morning of sometime with my son, he’s not a big talker well not at home at school he is but that’s always the way when your a teenager. He had good run may have made it to All States will find out today he missed it by a second in one race that he ran. Very proud of him.

Back tracking : last night when he arrived home , if you read my last post he had a track meet 3hrs away ,my hubby and I couldn’t make it so we waited for him to come home my hubby caved into sleep , of course I was up ..in bed but awake. He arrived after midnight and I heard him come in so I looked down our hall and could see him peeking out the door …hmm I’m like what is he doing ? Next minute he shuts the door locked it turned the kitchen light off and walking faster then normal down the hall to his room he spots me looking at him he says “oh your awake I’m scared” I’m like what! He tells me that as he got out of the car and walking up to our house he heard this screaming crying howling noise I’m like oh the boys are out (coyotes) I call them the boys. I asked if they where in our woods he said that he was trying to figure that out but wasn’t sure he said close ..maybe ?The most eerie sound of the wild to hear if their hunting it sends chills up your spine . After that I just let him get some sleep. and I did as well . Then this morning it was just him and I before he went to school so that was nice . Like I said before ,few and far between the moments with him. Now all is quiet everyone’s at work and school and I’m catching up on the news.. sad once again today .. my heart is breaking for all those angels and their families In Florida .😥 never take any thing or anyone for granted that is why even if I have only moments here and there with my children who are always on the go I will take that . It’s all special to me . So hug your kids tell them you love them everyday.❤️ with that it’s time to get busy myself do somethings around the house . Have a great day everyone.

Beautiful Day!

Aww the sun has been shining since I woke this morning so nice. Today was a different start usually it’s my daughter and I enjoying our morning coffee and a nice chat . Today it was spent with my son . It was a nice moment with him . I do not get many moments like this with just him and I , so with every minute I could grab I took it.I’m so amazed what a man he is growing into. He is so active and outgoing and such a jokester around his friends but then there’s this side to him a sense of protectiveness and loyalty that is so calming ,warm that shows his big heart only the lucky few get to see . I’m happy I’m one of those lucky few . I know when he gets home after school and practice is tired side will show then that’s the side we all know to well to let him be ..feed him and let him shower and go to bed . I’m just happy I had the moments I did with him this morning because I know there few and far between❤️

Anxiety…

Hmmm.. being a mom is such an amazing most beautiful feeling .That first moment whether it’s your 1st 2nd etc amount of children you have that special moment holding them in your arms and them looking up at you is like no other feeling you will ever know and you want to hold on to them and never ever let them go . You will protect them with all your might. There is nothing you wouldn’t do to keep them from hurting or succeeding in life…..but then the teenage yrs come and they turn into a person you know is your child but this attitude this whole new person standing in front of you is not that little girl or boy you held in your arms not that long ago okay well yes very long ago. Many moons ago but to a mom the time is irrelevant You know that little child is in that grown body some where now telling you their fine they got this let me be . Oh but those are words you thought you would never hear or would of taken a little bit longer to get here then it did. Why does time have to fly by so fast .

My mind keeps counting how many months to graduation and my anxiety grows.. every college application every moment waiting for that email or letter in the mail and seeing if they get in or the disappointment on their face when one college has gotten back to them and it’s a not at this time . So you watch them wait for the next . Oh and as the wait goes on you think how one step closer they will be-to starting this journey of life . As a parent a mom that journey also consists of change for us as well … figuring out what we do now when all you really have done has been a stay at home mom ,one because it worked and two because of my disability . ..But still what to do ? So my anxiety is up and flaring and I’m trying to change some things now so it won’t be so hard when he is off. Oh believe me he’s helping this hahaha my son and daughter are not home much my daughter the oldest is here more she has a place downstairs and a steady job and saving up and paying her car off so she is comfortable at the moment with her kitty living here with her . My son the youngest is ready to run . They are so opposite and it’s coming to light so much more now that their older … anyways my son is helping this change he’s usually at practice the gym with friends ,working or hiding out in his room that part is nice 🙂 I must say I’m happy I have this blog it keeps me busy and something to look forward too plus I love my adult coloring and I’m reading more once again . Soon I can spend some time out with my friends and not worry about all the ice and snow . The days are getting longer. As I hope my spouts of anxiety get shorter 🙂

More snow coming😥

More snow coming their predicting 6to 9 inches plus a mix of freezing rain . Schools are already cancelled for tomorrow , my son is at a friends house in town so he is closer to school because he still has track practice ,I know it’s Championships Friday but really they know what they need to do , he needs a break. My daughter will or I should say may be home because work will be slow so she is going in on Friday which would of been her day off. The photo I posted was this evenings sky it defiantly looks like a storm is coming ,I thought it was pretty so I captured it before it got dark. I love the evening skies . ..any chance I can get a photo I do . Well it’s getting late I guess I will settle and try to get some sleep early for a change . My daughter is down in her place with Miss Abigail for the night hubby’s sleeping away . So I will say my prayers and whisper a good night to my son hope he feels the vibe hahaha I could text him but you never know how he will feel about that if his mom is texting to say good night with his friends around😂 teenagers❤️

Super Bowl Weekend!

Tonight my hubby and I enjoyed watching the Dog Bowl tomorrow afternoon is the Puppy Bowl that my daughter and I love to watch oh and they have a Kitty Bowl as well we enjoy that too. Tonight I loved how they dedicated it to the older dogs that need a home . Let me just say I wanted them all. After loosing our pup last yr this house of ours has not been the same it’s too quiet I miss hugging him and having him greet me at the door when I came home and when he would sleep in between my hubby and I at night and when Miss Abigail and I where home alone at night him laying by my feet on the couch being aware of anything unusual he was so protective of Miss Abigail and I . My heart still feels broken and seeing these older and loving dogs makes me want another one and it showed me it’s okay too because I wouldn’t be replacing him because we rescued him and he was so loved till the end and we would be rescuing another pet that could use the same love and my heart would never let me replace my pup he is always going to be apart of me I was his mama and I know he knew that. ❤️