Sigh…

Oh it’s just seems like everything is a downward spiral… so not me I’m usually such a happy person. Yes I know we all have our moments, it just seems like it’s been something every day …. and it’s getting a bit tiring . I do not like feeling this way. I feel like I’m being pulled in many directions and it’s all in the directions I do not want to go …I try to do my best with helping family and others . But after awhile it can mentally exhaust you. I won’t go in to detail … it just needs to change and I just need a break from it.

On another note sadly we lost a beautiful young women today her and her family well known in our small town . She has struggled with cystic fibrosis her whole life after a couple years ago after having two lung transplants and her body rejecting them she was told she wouldn’t live to or pass the age of 25 . She passed today at the age of 26 … she suffered severely but always had a brave loving heart a strong will and a very big beautiful smile. She believed she wouldn’t beat the odds and so she lived her life to the fullest enjoying her family her pets her friends and raising money for her disease through many walking benefits even when she could only walk half way down the road. With the help of her loving guide dog . She made sure that everyday of her life on this earth was beautiful. And worth fighting for. So now she is at peace and the heavens have gained a beautiful angel. ❤️

I hope everyone has a good night and takes a moment to count their blessings and lives their life with love and happiness .

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It’s August….

It’s August ..it’s seems a bit strange . Where did summer go? At the same time I’m ready for The next season. Need it to be a bit cooler . I cannot remember the last time we had the air conditioning off and windows opened. I know Miss Abigail is wanting the windows open. The way the weather has been so unpredictable I wouldn’t be surprised if August ends up being a cooler one . Looking at today isn’t a good example to go by …. it’s warm too warm. .

Let’s see this month we celebrate my daughters birthday. She is turning 24 .. absolutely unbelievable . Where did all this time go? It feels like just yesterday she was a shy little girl with her biggest brown eyes looking up at me to read her a book . She loved still loves books . I’m proud of the bond we share . We always have one another’s back. Yes we do have our disagreements and arguments but they never last for very long .

It’s 7:43 and the sun has been settled for a bit darkness is creeping in. We have a visitor again he /she we do not Know what gender it is but this coyote has been coming into our yard for the past 4 days. It’s an odd one . Very skittish . There is no way to be afraid of it . Just passing by our door window it sees or hears us and runs. It’s nice to see it. Along with our Fox off and on. Turkeys not so much these days .

Reading is going slow I believe Stephen King May not get finished . Not feeling the story at all. It seemed promising for awhile but I have not picked it up in a week. I really need to find another book to read. But what? I guess it’s time to finish this post and get a few little things done and then settle in . Have a great night everyone.

And the weekend is over!

The cake we shared , yes a lot of pink but my son did say for me to pick the colors.. pink for me ,blue for him..,It’s Sunday at 9:00 at night. Mine and my sons birthday weekend has come to an end .. Saturday on mine we went out for dinner , had a lot of laughs good food , nice and simple my family gave me some really nice gifts I loved them but most important love my family more. It was nice to have both of my kids present . A rarity these days. Then today was my son birthday we celebrated his day with extend family, pizza and cake and ice cream and a fire in the fire pit. After many hours enjoying, family left and we cleaned up and settled in for the routine of the new week ahead. Over and over family members asked how does it feel to be 50?…hmm what kind of a question to ask.. I really couldn’t answer it . One in my mind I feel more like 20 but my body feels much older. Honestly I really do not know if I will ever wrap my mind around it. My son was quiet . He usually loves his birthday. Oh he is so humble .. He acts so much older then 19. I must say he has said a lot of I love you’s to me this weekend. I wonder if he feels my vibe of me not liking this age of mine… even though I tried to stay upbeat about it. Now all have settled in bed early my hubby needed to be up at 4 for work and my son heading to the gym early in the morning . My daughter settling down in her place with Miss Abigail and a friend. I’m just sitting in the living room been off and on reading my book. Taking a break for a moment to figure out what I have read. This Stephen King book has so many twists to it . I haven’t gave up on it yet…Kind of like a fly being drawn to a spider web . (Haha ) hesitant to finish it but your drawn to it to see where this story ends. Stephen King has a way of doing that. It’s nice any way even if I’m not totally into it . The quietness is welcoming. I feel exhausted but emotionally exhausted. Happy this weekend of celebration is over . My day not my sons.

Now on to a new week . Not much planned it will be relaxed. Monday I will spend the day with my daughter . But other then that not much planned. Fine with me tho. I like easy weeks. Well time to read a bit more until I call it a night. 🙂

End of a long week..

This week of endless humidity has finally came to an end for now at least , until Wed when their forecasting an even warmer and humid rest of next week. Happy as well to see last week end … was in a bit of a funk… it is time to face the new paths that life is throwing at me from every direction. Time to do what is right for me . I quote a few special friends on here that have told me this. It’s heard but time. Need to be happy finding my way in this next chapter of life. I guess it’s not so bad to just be…. have I excepted the age I’m turning…. hmm NO! (Hahaha) for now I’ll work on those new paths .With that said and done . I’ve had a quiet nice start of a weekend. Let’s see On Friday night hubby and I enjoyed watching the movie Bohemian Rhapsody . I was hesitant but watched it because my hubby loves the band and I remember when we first started dating he had a phase where he played their cassettes , yes I said cassettes , 🙂constantly.. I do like some of their songs . It was interesting I must say … a good interesting. That filled our night. Once settling I received a text that my son would be out with friends after his late shift at work , my daughter out as well. So we decided to get some sleep . A light sleep at that … our front door swung open and shut several times as each came home and I heard them , then my daughter texting me from her place are you awake hmm ..!of course I was this was about 1 in the morning she loves night time chats as I do . They are the best. We talked for a bit then we decided to get some sleep.

I woke to the sound of my hubby and son banging around in the kitchen figuring it was time to get up myself grab a quick shower and coffee. My hubby and son where heading out the door to drop off my sons motorcycle for some work on it. Yes he has a motorcycle . Had me a bit frazzled for a couple of weeks I’m not frazzled now but it still makes me say a little prayer when he drives out of the driveway and second one at that within two months first one he decided wasn’t big enough🙄 Ive come to except this one as well . I really have no choice not to ..he is an adult.

Enjoying this mornings coffee with my daughter and a good conversation was a nice start to this day. She laughed as she saw me and hearing me sing as I added some songs from Queen in my playlist on my Chromebook that had stuck in my head after the movie. She made me laugh when she said I looked so happy as I was singing when she came up from her place. 🤷🏻‍♀️ after that the guys arrived home and I left with my hubby to do some Saturday errands and of course a coffee …. love my coffee. No errands or ride is complete with out a coffee stop . Once home hubby went for a run and I caught up with a friend Ive known since Elementary School. She is a nurse and works at night so we try to catchup as often as we can . Even though she’s busy she makes a point to always check in and see how things are going as I do with her. That pretty much filled the rest of my afternoon so now supper is done and cleaned up. Both kids out son working daughter with a friend. I’m going to start a new book . I had posted one recently but just could not get into it. My sister is a huge Stephen King fan and has all of them plus waiting for his newest one she preordered . I have read several and enjoyed them . They have spooked me at times but a good spook this one is called Lisey’s Story 509 pages ..this may take me till Fall to finish. I can’t remember if I posted this but here it is anyways…. so far it’s really good . I’ll keep you posted how it is . It’s 8:30 hubby is watching the Baseball game and I think I will get some reading done. Have a great night everyone.

Comfort..

It’s 10:30 at night laying in bed enjoying my book . It feels good to finally settle and read . My comfort zone. The house is quiet everyone is home and settled in their rooms . The fan is all that echos through the house as I read. This was so needed . It stops my thinking wandering thoughts. In which case is always something I do. But for now I am focused on the story my book tells . And it’s comforting. I think another chapter or two then I will get some sleep. Good night everyone.

summer Evenings…

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This is our summer evenings . The sun setting in front of us into the mountain but its rays of light peaking through the tree that gives us some shade and is home to the chickadee’s and robins. Tonight we shared the beautiful evening with our turkeys and fox eating and frolicking in the grass  just a bit away from us. They new we were there sitting on our deck . I believe they find this as their home as well. As we talked they just did their thing then as the night slowly rolled in and the light turning into darkness they disappeared into the edge of our woods to settle for the night as we headed into the house to settle in as well , now the house  is as quiet as our woods. Everyone tucked in for the night in there place in the house , I will do the same ..enjoy  my book for a bit until my eyes get heavy with sleep.

Beautiful day out!

After a rainy humid Sunday ,the night had given away to a windy night …waking to a sunny cold ,windy Monday not feeling like June one bit.  After laying in bed dragging myself out of my warm bed.  I grabbed a quick shower and a cup of coffee. accomplishing  a few thing around the house before my daughter woke . We were going to spend the day out ,check out the sales at the candle shop and grab some coffee. The sale was good so my daughter stocked up on candle melts of her favorite scents as well as car freshener’s . I bought some wax melts and this quote wall decore for my kitchen. I love what it says . My daughter agreed when we saw it. Remarking how I am  always talking about the simple things saying I needed to buy it , after we left there we headed to grab our coffees and then headed home chatting, laughing about random things and singing songs that my daughter had programmed into  her radio. Had a beautiful day with her. We may not do this as often as we use to but when we do we cherish the time and we always have a lovely day out. and yes my quote decor is hanging up in my kitchen and it fits perfect.💖