It’s 10:30 at night laying in bed enjoying my book . It feels good to finally settle and read . My comfort zone. The house is quiet everyone is home and settled in their rooms . The fan is all that echos through the house as I read. This was so needed . It stops my thinking wandering thoughts. In which case is always something I do. But for now I am focused on the story my book tells . And it’s comforting. I think another chapter or two then I will get some sleep. Good night everyone.
This is our summer evenings . The sun setting in front of us into the mountain but its rays of light peaking through the tree that gives us some shade and is home to the chickadee’s and robins. Tonight we shared the beautiful evening with our turkeys and fox eating and frolicking in the grass just a bit away from us. They new we were there sitting on our deck . I believe they find this as their home as well. As we talked they just did their thing then as the night slowly rolled in and the light turning into darkness they disappeared into the edge of our woods to settle for the night as we headed into the house to settle in as well , now the house is as quiet as our woods. Everyone tucked in for the night in there place in the house , I will do the same ..enjoy my book for a bit until my eyes get heavy with sleep.
This weekend we had a bit of wildlife in our yard. On Saturday evening coming home from enjoying dinner out we were greeted by the our fox and turkeys walking through the yard. Then this Sunday evening looking out my kitchen window as you can see this was the scenery yes more turkeys. They have become very comfortable over the yrs on our land. We do not mind even Miss Abigail loves to see them. She may not look happy but she does enjoy them . She is just a bit grumpy with the rain that keeps coming down off and on through out today. Can’t complain about country living it’s relaxing , serene. I hope everyone is having a beautiful weekend.
The weekend was beautiful despite the rain. This week though even with the sun finally showing itself I just feel this dread or something .. I cannot place this feeling it’s nothing to do with a lack of energy ..oh that I have a lot of .I do know I put myself back in that mom take care mode .. okay you are probably thinking what is so wrong with that ? Well a lot is wrong with that. I’m back in my mode and I promised myself when my son came home after Basic and being away for 6 months I would get on my own routine . And when my son got on that plane that first day . I was good had to be this is what he wanted ..my hubby and I hugged him and let him go and then hubby and I headed home with a coffee stop . And a phone call from him asking if we were home since he had a 2hour wait till his flight I knew he was missing us already being his first time away all to be expected. When we arrived home I cleaned up the house . Room by room not my sons he had cleaned his before he had left. So I just paused at his bedroom door . Then made myself move along. Supper came and my daughter at work then boyfriends … hubby and I ate just it just being the two of us . Well over the 6 months with a 10 day Holiday pass for Christmas he was home . It felt great but so strange I was in a whole new routine . And so him and I clashed a bit … sadly . I was told this was normal. Then the time came and he had to go back. By March I was ready to have him home. And this time it was better we were at an adult son and his mother relationship We talked on a new level . My time ..my routine was still there and he had his routine. Then here we are in May and I’m finding myself out of my routine .. well more then I want to be . I’m worrying if he’s ate what he’s doing . He has been very good about it when before he did not like it. All the mothering believe me I can get over bearing🙄Yes he has had his moments and has told me in a nice way to stop but then sadly apologizes when honestly I do not want him to. I know this summer is going to be a long one. Right now he is working two jobs and he is gone a lot . So I’m trying to get back into the routine of just my hubby and I . In the Fall along with National Guard drills and going away to college it will be my hubby and I and my daughter again when she is here. and I think it will be hard to let go of him this time. He will not be far away it’s for a matter of convenience for him to dorm with our bad winters . And now with all the things happening in this world and him In the Army National Guards has added this worry more then when he signed up . And I can’t say much about this but I do not know if I’m coming off a vibe he is giving out since I’m so good at both my kids vibes of something there worrying about or doing tends to bounce off of them on to me . Always been this way. So could this be it? I’m feeling his worry. Yes he knows what he as signed up for but being 18 there is concern I’m sure with him. He is such a thinker like me . And his humbleness is been a bit more apparent. Which makes me feel anxious…Even though I feel this way I would never change it for the world . Being a mother is just so hard sometimes because the love you feel and there is nothing you will not want to do for your kids . This Fb quiz actually says it. well except for the cowering in your presence well unless you hurt my kids🙂
I made a book list and ordered a book that is on its way that I’m very excited about and I’m looking forward to it . Which it’s been a bit since I was excited about a book since not been able to find a good one and I’m going to keep ordering hoping for more good book to occupy my mind at night , especially when I’m thinking or when he is out late both my kids with that. So my mind doesn’t wander. When I get my book I’ll post it . For now yes finishing the Road. Yes it’s dragging .. but according to my daughter she is shocked that I’m in the last two chapters of it, being that it’s not usually something I would read or even think of finishing. 🙂 well it’s getting late need to try to get some sleep so off I am to bed. Hoping to hear that train and its whistle in a distance I’m so comforted to while saying my nightly prayers falling asleep .
It was such a beautiful weekend . Saturday we were in the70s and it was just a simple day enjoyed the outdoors spending time on the deck and chatting with my hubby while he did things around the yard. Then after he finished we went for a ride and treated ourselves to coffee. Went on the back country roads and just took in the leisurely day. After we arrived home to throw some pizzas in the oven for supper and relaxed on the couch watching tv. On Sunday woke to a cold rainy Mother’s Day. I dragged myself into the shower just as I heard my daughter shutting the door to head out for work . She had a long day at the floral shop . A bit later I got a text from her saying Happy Mother’s Day sorry she missed me but loved me and would see me later. I smiled as I headed out to the kitchen for coffee . My hubby told me she left me a card and she wanted me to open it. .. so I did very sweet and a Amazon gift card was also with it. I was telling her how I wanted to order some books there so this was perfect. My son woke and came out with a sappy face and said Happy Mother’s Day and said he still needed to grab me something he had worked late the night before and didn’t get a chance. I told him it was fine he then said go get ready I’ll take you out for breakfast . My hubby loved the idea and said yes let him do this . So the three of us finished getting ready and headed out . We went to a local orchard that has the cutest little restaurant . It was so nice and comfortable laid back. I do not like stuffy restaurants . I like to be comfortable and I love comfy food not fancy. So absolutely perfect I ordered blueberry pancakes and corn beef hash , my son said only order one pancake it’s huge it covers the whole plate it’s so filling . Well he was right oh my I couldn’t finish it. And a plateful of hash and endless refills of coffee. So there we sat stuffing our faces (hahaha) and chatting and laughing. It was nice do not do this often with my son. After we took a ride as he drove . Then once home my son left for a run with a friend … how he did that after eating I do not know🙂My hubby and I headed over to his moms to give her the plant we got her and sat and enjoyed coffee with her for awhile . Once home still full from breakfast we ate light my son came home from running and settled in as my hubby and I did . My daughter came home with a big hug for me and said she hoped I enjoyed my day . Then we all relaxed . A very simple content day . Oh and my hubby also got me a plant as well my daughter helped him pick it out . I hope all you moms out there enjoyed your day!