Adult Coloring night!

Last night after supper was done and cleaned up, I decided to take out my adult coloring book and coloring pencils. It was relaxing . I haven’t colored since the week my son flew back to his base that was about 3weeks ago .. the strange thing is it feels so much longer then 3 weeks …. I know it feels very short for him.. that time is standing still for him. I guess feeling the way I feel is harder because I think oh soon and he will be home…. but no I think it means how much I miss him.. so picking up my coloring was refreshing and it stopped my wandering thoughts as I focused on the pattern I was coloring. I finished what I had started those 3 weeks ago, I like it it was a fitting pattern (hahaha) yes a heart 🙂Now to find another pattern. Feeling like coloring a bit more tonight. It’s now a rainy night . Nothing like rain in January ..NO!(hahaha) can’t win, no snow , brutally cold to a foot of snow, to now rain …. we have had it all. Thankfully before the rain started and the ice looked a bit easier to navigate so I wouldn’t slip I was able to get to the post office and send my sons book he had asked if I could send him..I guess it was a smart choice I got out ,a friend of my daughters said she just found out her siblings do not have school tomorrow because of the higher elevation and dirt roads in most part of the towns here will be covered In ice . Good call I must agree.I guess its time to settle In and color and enjoy my husband and I’s favorite show .. well one of them We have many of them. Have a good night everyone!

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Stopping a wandering mind…

It’s A cold ..Full moon Monday night. Thankfully my daughter is home and took Miss Abigail with her down to their place. It’s bad enough the full moon is intensifying my anxiousness . It was causing mischief for her . My husband stayed home from work after waking up and still not feeling well still .. plus had a checkup he was going to take a half a day for to come home and change before it. . I’m still feeling a bit under the weather so took my time with doing things . Prep supper … yes in my crockpot (hahaha) love that thing which I believe a lot of my readers have noticed. Then I ran to the Post Office to mail our letters and extra envelopes and stamps to my Son. Grabbed a few things at the market then headed home to fold a bit of laundry . Now been settled in reading my book . It helps at night when my mind has been now switching gears to missing my son at night .. before it was around supper time now it’s at night when I’m either sitting in the living room or laying , settling in bed I think I hear the back door click open and I think oh he’s home from working out or being with friends . but then I know it’s only my mind playing tricks on me. It’s only been 12 days since he left …. but it seems so much longer. That’s why reading helps but tonight with this full moon I’m having a hard time concentrating and twice I think Ive heard the door. and my husband keeps asking me what I’m looking down the hall at ..🙄So happy he’s coming home for Christmas for a bit. I’m happy I can write him letters but I never realized how long it takes for him to get them … unless it’s always taken a long time and we have adapted to texting and pushing the send button and bing .. they get it. I hope he realizes how long and doesn’t wonder why or think why is no one writing ? See this is my wandering mind . Okay time to read and then get some sleep . Good night everyone.

Monday…

I woke to a dark quiet house doesn’t help that a rainy one at that. My hubby and daughter were already at work .I just laid there trying to not think about how quiet it was and knowing the longer I laid there I would think….. showering the night before I dragged myself out of bed ran a brush through my hair and went to the coffee pot made a cup for myself and just looked around at the kitchen ….. it was clean nothing to have to pick up, sad how that is a bit upsetting no breakfast chaos cleanup … I alway thought of it as . Crazy how we tend to miss the chaos of housework or the slamming of the back door.through out the day . When that’s been your life for many many yrs it’s not easy to forget.. Today is the beginning of my new routine or whatever you want to call it. My husband took last week off so after my son left for Missouri on Wed , my husband and I took rides watched movies stayed up late watching tv ,sleeping in the next morning so it still felt different the quietness was different even though my husband and I kept one another busy.my daughter who is out just as much as my son would be even stated it was different when she came home and saw all the cars in the yard. As of Sunday reality set in ,…my hubby getting himself back in the work routine he woke early ..we did separate things. I know it’s only been 4 days but thought maybe my son could call home being that it was Sunday and Sunday night will be when he will call ..A long night when the phone didn’t ring and it was 8 at night and we knew we were not going to be hearing his voice .. Today is his first day of Basic Training if all went well physically and the Army schedule. I would think if it didn’t we would have heard something…. so now it was just Miss Abigail and I until I had to run out to an appointment and do some errands. Then I came home to a daughter who arrived home at 2 after her shift and feeling a bit under the weather . I decided it would be a good day for homemade chicken soup ,as I was making the soup my daughter and I chatted and she said how as the day progressed at work she didn’t feel that good and had stated that the house was quiet and was missing her brother. As a 5 yrs difference in age and complete opposites one thing that they have in common is blood and they have each others back so I knew she was missing him. After the soup was made and the house was nice and warm from cooking and smelled quite good. She grabbed a movie she had . She put the movie in got comfortable on the couch and we watched About Time if you ever watched the Travelers Wife it was something like that . Very interesting and sadly a bit sad. It was good though. Worth a watch.

It’s evening ,movies over ,suppers done and cleaned up hubby’s settling in our bedroom watching tv since my daughter has fallen asleep upstairs on the couch …. I know she isn’t feeling well but most important I think she’s needing sleep . She stated she hadn’t been sleeping good and her boyfriend who was off all weekend and works nights was up so she was up with him . A good night for resting … still raining and cold and now dark out. The house is nice and toasty still since I ran the oven and made a fresh batch of cookies. . Later I think I will settle in bed with my hubby and read some more of my book . Hoping to get to the library tomorrow when it’s open and get a new library card . Their open two nights a week and Saturday morning . So when I think about going it’s always on the night their closed or closing. Plus another run to our PO Box for our mail hoping that the Army base sends out the address so we can write letters to my son. . I guess it’s time to settle I think I ll let her sleep on the couch until she wakes herself up and I will get comfortable and get to my book.

Quiet house…

It’s Saturday and having this house so quiet is just not right. I am missing the chaos of a active strong will son razzing me , the sound of the back door opening and closing .. even the sound of the blender waking me in the early morning while he made his healthy smoothies. Sadly it’s been only 3 days and it feels like he left weeks ago. Yes can you tell I’m not embracing this new change well? I’m hoping when he can start to call home once a week and we get his address and we can send letters I’ll adjust better. It’s just so hard when I’ve been a stay at home mom and this is what I’ve done for so long take care of my family. The funny thing , well not funny a bit frustrating I think our dryer is gave in and decided to retire ughh … now the funny thing is this would have been a catastrophe on any other day or time but tonight when I realized it and I had to hang the clothes that were not fully dry and know that it could take until Friday to get a new one by the time their open on Monday and then deliver and take away the old one it could be Friday and going to the laundry mat I may then loose it….I think my husband was shocked that I did not loose it when I realize it wasn’t working. I guess there so much more to worry about then this bit of a inconvenience but what can you do . I guess another funny thing I’m yawning .. yes a good thing I will get some sleep then letting everything keep me up worrying .. thinking . I guess it would be a good thing to get off here and get some sleep. Good night everyone.