Loving the new Starbucks cups! It was a perfect day for a Starbucks Gingerbread Latte , Holidays are here and the holiday flavors are out My daughter and I did some errands then we treated ourselves to a treat perfect rainy cool day for it. and a nice day spent with my daughter very few of these kind of days now since she is busy with odd hours at work then friends ,so when I can get a moment like this I takeit that’s all I need . The simple things that’s what matters❤️
The evenings are so much shorter these days as I’m not just talking about it getting darker earlier , it just used to be consumed by early suppers then getting the kids doing and finishing their homework then baths and showers and one tv show and reading time and then off to bed. Now it’s later suppers and whoever is here to eat what I make and when then earlier settling in bed to watch some shows but now replaced with catching up on them on stream lining NBC the next day because hubby has to get up so much earlier for work so earlier to bed because we are older now and mornings are not good without the proper sleep🙄 how things have changed … oh believe me this is not a rant or complaint just a sad statement to life and how much it changed in the past couple of years . I’m adjusting it’s a lot more simple and sometimes less stressful but I’m learning or should say my hubby and I are learning how to relate to our older kids now and our life with eachother again … you will be so surprised if your younger and just starting out with marriage, babies and your reading this and going what ? Believe me now that my kids have grown and we are less needed and the focus is not all on them . You come to realize how much you and your better half have changed and grown it’s such an amazing thing . I find that we are settled in our own routine and that’s okay and we have our routine as a couple as well it’s so different how we relate now ,this whole new chapter . Waiting to be discovered .
Laying here now in bed and remembering .. just went through old photographs of my Son when he was little trying to pick some out for his senior congratutory page in his high school yearbook . Never thought this would be so hard, so many photos I want and I have to choose from but yes it’s only a page🙂 and looking back just reminds me how fast time does go by… sad actually seems like yesterday I was just rocking him to sleep with his little head laying on my chest and always one hand holding on to my hair that hung down . I never knew why he did that but I will always remember that . Now I look at him it’s remarkable how much his appearance has change well of course it has hahaha but when he was little his hair was as white as snow and his face his longer then oval now tNothig like the photos that stared back at me some hours ago . . My daughter still has some features from when she was little so people can still tell it’s her . No one recognizes my son if they haven’t seen him in awhile it’s so unbelievable . I think I have some resemblence when I was a kid . It’s strange how it goes . So just laying here and amazed and slowly drifting off to sleep . Monday will be hear before we know it So I guess it’s time to get some sleep. Good Night …
When I look at you I see a young man standing before me so strong and ready to conquer the world , but then when I look in those blue eyes I see that little boy that could melt my heart with just a tug on my leg looking up at me to pick him up and hold him and that smile you gave when I did just broke me I just never wanted to let you go , but I need to it’s time now , your grown and you are letting go you crave for that freedom to be you … all the dreams you hold in your heart there ready to explore. I must and I will let go but in my eyes you will always be that littlle boy with the big smile looking up at me I will hold that memory close to my heart forever.
Ahh…the quietness except for the sound of my fountain and the soft breeze blowing gently at my face letting whims of hair tickling the sides of my cheeks . The sky is an amazing blue . It’s nice sitting here with the warmth of the sun on me. Soon there will be the sound of banging doors as everyone comes home and settles in after their busy day but for now it’s just myself and enjoying this serene moment.
At 7:20 tonight I realized the sun had set and it was getting dark out….so it begins shorter days , where has the summer gone … not that I’m unhappy to see it go it’s been a challenging and sad one. My son received his class schedule and all the paper work that needs to be signed and sent back to the school but sadly my mind is having a hard time getting back into the routine of another school yr so I think I will take a couple of days to take a breather from the have to’s I know my son is hahaha he slept the day away today but it was well needed. So I will give myself a break stop beating myself up that I’m not being wonder mom and take those two days one day at a time and reflect over this summer and learn from it then go from there. I must say it’s nice to see my son home and reading his book he needs to read for school. Then worrying where he is running around to with his buddies . Being his Senior yr I’m hoping there will be more nights like this then last yr when he had more free time which In his case is not always s good thing and was out. We will see if I have anything to do about it🙂
I’m laying in my bed the Windows wide open the warm summer night with a gentle breeze feels just right the light of the moon shadows the walls of my room .Down the hall ‘ in the next rooms the sound of the girls contagious laughter is comforting ..my daughter and her friend catching up on the days gossip. Love these moments for there short and less often So I take it in absorb it for those the are moments I will remember when the house grows quieter with only the sound of the walls showing there age.this will be one more memory I hold in my heart .