It’s the first day of summer. I woke refresh after the night before not getting much sleep . Took a quick shower then enjoyed my coffee while talking with my son .. well I was talking he was busy on his new laptop he purchased for college in the Fall. A bit later my daughter and I headed out grabbed some coffee her first my second of the morning. Then checked out prices on tires for my car and a stop at the appliance store to purchase an air conditioner for our living room . We have them in the bedrooms but the living room and kitchen gets unbearable so bought a small one that should do the job. Paid some bills and headed home. Cleaned up the house as I heard my son leave on his motorcycle and my daughter with her boyfriend , I turned up the stereo and got lost in the music as I cleaned .. thankfully no one was home as I love to sing 🙂 the humidity cleared and the night is cool so I made chocolate chip cookie bars as my hubby enjoys the baseball game.
Now let me just say this was a different first day of summer for me. In the past it would start off with my kids begging to get to the community pool so making up sandwiches to bring and a lot of water . Pile towels into the car and off we go take in the sun the friends until it was time to call it a day and get home to cookout for dinner and a movie together till bed. Aww how I miss those days. Weekend nights at the drive-ins , ice cream rides, still have bonfires even as time went by it would be the start of kids driving .. so the door to our house opening and shutting …well more like slamming more then I can count . Kids friends hanging out outside or in their room music echoing from my sons bedroom walls And sound of giggling girls from my daughters room . To quietness of them falling to sleep or leaving. Then last year it changed it became a bit quieter my youngest graduating from high school as yrs before my daughter. My daughter with her boyfriend on days off from work or with friends . My son with friends .. and hubby and I having more bonfires with the rest of our family members .Saturday suppers out to different eatery’s , daytime car rides the two of us , occasional outings for a coffee run with my daughter all the things that become the new or I should say start of the next journey of life after kids . My son enlisting in The Army National Guard so that meant he had to be on his best behavior doing training at nearby base until heading to Missouri in the Fall. Less running here and there and everywhere .
This first day of summer as you see is no different then last summer a bit more quieter my son working until 10 then going out with friends will be asleep by the time him and my daughter arrive home. Now just the baseball game and the smell of fresh baked cookies. For my hubby and I . Miss Abigail having a treat of being with hubby and I tonight roaming to one window to the next looking out to the dark summer night . . Did capture this guy as it was getting dark heading off to settle for the night . Now going to read my book until I fall asleep . Happy First day of summer everyone 🙂
Just before dusk started to settle in my hubby and I decided to settle in the bedroom where it was a bit cooler. I with my book and him with the TV . We were closing things up and out our kitchen slider leading to the back woods there strolled a beautiful animal. So graceful as she walked . Sleek posture she held as she took in her surroundings. Making sure she was safe. As she looked for food. We just watched her keeping silent so she knew nothing was going to harm her . In time she walked deeper into our woods to settle in for the night.
The sky is a light pretty blue and the sun is shining at the moment . The birds are all around as the bubble bee that keeps buzzing around my head . I take in the strong brewed taste of the coffee just how my husband likes to make it. Sipping it as I reflect on the day before… on the conversation with my son in the late night hours , and wondering why I had felt the unease feeling . It lingered with me all through out the day .I passed it off as over thinking that I am so good at. Then my kids came home from work one after another. My daughter first happy a bit talkative as she was getting ready to settle down in her place with a friend and Miss Abigail . Then my son arrived home hours later, tired but talkative my husband staying up listening to him chat away until his eyes became to heavy to stay open and said his goodnights. Then there it was just my son and I and his tone got quieter and more serious and then I knew what that uneasiness that lingered around me all day was.
My son talked about college in the Fall , how he was excited but was thinking oh .. no I thought thinking he is as good at that as I . I just sat quietly listening knowing what was coming next. He stated he wanted to go but dorming was going to feel strange . He felt too old that all the child’s play of being a college student living in a dorm was going to feel off . He felt that he should of gone to college first then Army . Or just had gone to college and not dormed. I had this feeling as well . Since his arrival home from Basic he has become so matured ..done things that others not in the Army have experienced and it’s quieted him , humbled him. I see him as this man now not the loud child’s play 18 yr old he was before Basic. That is what he is worried about . He said he feels so much older laid back that he’s going to feel out of place. Oh I knew this all before he did this step but the one thing that hasn’t changed and I know never will is his impulsiveness . That is the trait that bites him every time. So I listened I talked to him about other alternatives …But it led back to what was more convenient , yes he will only be a little over 45minutes away but back and forth the gas and mileage on the vehicle would get too much . Days of snow another issue . We talked about trying to bunch his classes to so many days a week but the major is impossible to do that. It came down to going to this orientation in two weeks and see how it feels ..meet his roommate and go from there. I only hope he doesn’t make another impulsive u turn but if he does it’s his choice and I can only guide him and be there for him to talk. It was after mid night so we called it a night . I laid in bed and felt that uneasiness lift a bit. It still amazes me how I can be so in-tune to my kids feelings , thoughts. I have manage to grab another cup of coffee as I wrote this and my son came out on the deck and sat with his coffee and phone in hand and us not saying much but that was okay we were in our own mind set and taking in the morning surroundings, we said what we needed last night . 🙂
It’s late afternoon everyone at work just sitting out on the deck enjoying the sounds of this peaceful day. while the rain holds off. The clouds are moving in so soon the rain will come down once again . The breeze is cool but pleasant . It’s nice . It’s getting darker out and the breeze is picking up. I think I just felt a rain drop fall on my head . I guess it’s time to go inside. It was pleasant while it lasted. 🙂 enjoy the sounds I posted.
Outside my door the winds have calmed the storms have passed ..for now. Settled in last night with my new book . After about 45 mins later I put my book down and shut the light off. It wasn’t that the book wasn’t good it was . I just wanted to lay there in the darkness and watch the flash of the lighting and hear the roll of the thunder . Love nighttime storms. As the storm came through flashing shadows on my wall I laid there taking it in thinking about the Memorial Day weekend approaching .. like everything things change. I know a part of life. Even if I wanted time to to stop it would not ..even for a moment . Even laying there watching the storm was different… my daughter at some friends house . My son tired from work in bed as well as my hubby just I watching it .No kids running into the bedroom or sitting in our living room watching counting between the lightening flashes. Just I … As this Memorial Day approaches this will not be the same as well. Yes they’ll be a cookout ,bonfire on one of the days but less around the fire. but our hearts with them . No friends sleeping over , no sleeping out in a tent and being waken by kids running in as fast as they can to sleep on the living room floor because they heard something in the woods. No movie nights with buckets of popcorn and wide eyed kids as they watched .No just my hubby and I watching a movie , or sitting and watching the stars , taking a ride . As our door swings open and close as my kids come and go from work. I will embrace this change and then the next one and the next one. But for now I will embrace this moment . with a smile on my face and also a tear in my eye.
It’s a sunny warm day . Shall I add quiet into it? it’s always how it is..enjoying sometime on the deck taking in the beautiful sun. After the oddest thing this morning .. I’m still laughing about it. Telling my daughter about it as she enjoyed her morning coffee with me before she went to work .I had her Keeling over in laughter. Let me start with if you read my past posts I have stated, posted photos of the wild turkeys in my yard. Well this Spring there has.. is an abundance of them roaming throughout our woods, the front and back yard. Every morning sometimes in the after noon but for the most part morning and evening. Anyways so I came out of the shower wrapping myself in a towel and straight ahead of me there is a small window that faces the back of the house into the woods so no one is going to see me plus the screen is tinted so it makes it look just dark looking in ..well I look out and there looking in at a little distance has their neck stretched out and so I’m basically eye to eye with a turkey 🙄 now he can’t see me (hahaha) not worried but it’s the fact it’s staring straight at me . I think it heard the shower running. I just shook my head and called out to it …what are you looking at ? And the thing just walked away . My daughter as I’m telling her said well I wondered who you were talking to I did hear you say something and I knew it wasn’t me you were talking to because you never knew I was upstairs. What do you know as I’m sitting out here it’s 5:30 in the evening. Yes started writing this earlier when the sun was shining and it was warm but now the clouds are moving in blocking the sun a bit making it a little cool out . I’ve had to keep stopping to write this between phone calls , my son coming home asking me questions my daughter texting me, and then my hubby coming home talking as well . Not quiet any more. 🙂 And as I’m sitting here the turkeys have made their way back into our yard taking their evening stroll through . And not caring that I’m sitting out here. Crazy birds.
It was such a beautiful weekend . Saturday we were in the70s and it was just a simple day enjoyed the outdoors spending time on the deck and chatting with my hubby while he did things around the yard. Then after he finished we went for a ride and treated ourselves to coffee. Went on the back country roads and just took in the leisurely day. After we arrived home to throw some pizzas in the oven for supper and relaxed on the couch watching tv. On Sunday woke to a cold rainy Mother’s Day. I dragged myself into the shower just as I heard my daughter shutting the door to head out for work . She had a long day at the floral shop . A bit later I got a text from her saying Happy Mother’s Day sorry she missed me but loved me and would see me later. I smiled as I headed out to the kitchen for coffee . My hubby told me she left me a card and she wanted me to open it. .. so I did very sweet and a Amazon gift card was also with it. I was telling her how I wanted to order some books there so this was perfect. My son woke and came out with a sappy face and said Happy Mother’s Day and said he still needed to grab me something he had worked late the night before and didn’t get a chance. I told him it was fine he then said go get ready I’ll take you out for breakfast . My hubby loved the idea and said yes let him do this . So the three of us finished getting ready and headed out . We went to a local orchard that has the cutest little restaurant . It was so nice and comfortable laid back. I do not like stuffy restaurants . I like to be comfortable and I love comfy food not fancy. So absolutely perfect I ordered blueberry pancakes and corn beef hash , my son said only order one pancake it’s huge it covers the whole plate it’s so filling . Well he was right oh my I couldn’t finish it. And a plateful of hash and endless refills of coffee. So there we sat stuffing our faces (hahaha) and chatting and laughing. It was nice do not do this often with my son. After we took a ride as he drove . Then once home my son left for a run with a friend … how he did that after eating I do not know🙂My hubby and I headed over to his moms to give her the plant we got her and sat and enjoyed coffee with her for awhile . Once home still full from breakfast we ate light my son came home from running and settled in as my hubby and I did . My daughter came home with a big hug for me and said she hoped I enjoyed my day . Then we all relaxed . A very simple content day . Oh and my hubby also got me a plant as well my daughter helped him pick it out . I hope all you moms out there enjoyed your day!