Where did the day go..

This day flew by as fast as the evening did it’s 10:00 at night as I write this . I was going to read but then got sidetracked on here so reading my book may wait another day. Nothing like getting on your phone to search something and before you know it your on everything else. Sitting in the living room with Miss Abigail country awards is blaring from the TV really not watching just listening to the bands as my hubby is asleep in bed .the kids are out as usual .. times have change no more curfews for my youngest now that he’s 18 my oldest has her own entrance into the house whenever she gets home. Now to say I do not worry a bit when their out would be a joke.. moms always worry . Trying though to be better about it . I know it’s only 10 , I could read but I know that will bring me to 2in the morning. I guess I will call it a night and settled into bed with my sleeping hubby and air conditioner. Good night everyone.

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Stop Thinking…

As you see the sky’s cleared the sun came out but the wind came with it. It’s night now and the winds are raging havoc on the trees .My hubby does not like thunderstorms and winds ..high winds, tonight I actually do not it’s wild out there. Trying to settle in bed it was a quiet day did what needed to be done then relaxed started feeling under the weather with so much going around I’m not surprised Plus the rain was bothering my hip I feel blah yes hahaha I do not know how else to subscribe it . So watching tv in bed with my hubby. My son is as now gone to bed , my daughter is out with her boyfriend and probably not happy with me but that is okay…yes she is 23 but if you live under our roof and do not pay rent I have a say to state my opinions about certain things that I know she will regret . I know that’s her problem being 22 Shes an adult this parenting thing is so frusturating thinking it’s time to charge some rent … Honestly I do not want to have to be right and it’s not about her needing me because it’s not ,it’s about her finding a foundation ..growing up getting it together and I getting some sleep and not worrying if she’s home yet, or having to pick the pieces up when she falls apart . I just feel so tired of worrying about everything and it gets me no where. I feel I should be able to be happy I’ve done my job .. Im starting to get use to the idea my youngest is graduating and will be heading to college and I want my daughter to have the confidence the ability to grow like her brother is yes they are such opposites but I think they could learn something from one another …well the wind is not calming down it’s actually worse and so I think I will try to cozy up under the covers and try to sleep so I do not hear the wind and I don’t think myself to an all nighter .. Goodnight Everyone.šŸ™‚

Snow day tomorrow?

It’s 10:00 Thursday night laying here checking my phone every to seconds well not that often but often enough hoping they will cancel school tomorrow now so we don’t have to get that horrible 5 o’clock telephone call telling us it’s closed , it’s only a 3 hr day then Christmas vacation begins .theres a storm coming in snow and freezing rain right at the time of the morning commute through out the whole day . My son is in bed been sleeping since 8 couldn’t sleep last night and it would just be nice to know now then he can stay sleeping and get the rest he needs . Crazy this waiting I do yes a mom to the core šŸ™‚ I’m hoping sleep takes over soon so I’m not checking constantly . Many schools have cancelled. Oh the things I can think about . At least I’m cozy in bed Miss Abigail is in bed with my hubby and I as my daughter is out with her boyfriend so she is cozy with us , love that the kitty does this . Well here I go check my phone one last time before I fall asleep .No they haven’t cancelled well phone call there may be … okay sweet dream every one Good Night.

Life……

what is life …let’s see when I was a little girl it wasĀ  the smell of fresh cutĀ  grass coming through your open window , bright sun shining inĀ  and jumping out of bed as fast as you could to get outside and feel the grass under your feet. spending the day outside playing kickball or riding your bike with the neighborhood kids until you could hear your mother’s voice yelling supper time. when winter came we couldn’t wait for the snow ,making snow angels and snow forts trying to find the biggest hill to slide down till you couldn’t feel your toes then it was hot chocolate with marshmallows floating around in it. Awww the the life of a kid we we thought we were invisible life was good . Then adulthood came .. college work ,what we were expected to be Or I should say what society expected of us …I must say I was one of the lucky ones my parents just expected us to be happy save and healthy good honest adult andĀ  which I am happy for that . I am a mom now and I go by the same ideaĀ  .I am proud of my kid’s no matter what I only ask for them to be respectful to others and honest to themselves and work hard.study hard and live their life to the fullest THEIR way . I get so upset what pressures the kids are under now and the technology that has taken away the play time I grew up with kids do not know what they have missedĀ  .I know life changes but why does everything have to, we put so much pressure on our graduates .. The kids now just have to much handed to them and I try not to fall into that pattern but it’s hard I see kids that have everything handed to them and their selfish and want more but then I see stressed out kid’s depressed kids kid’s heading down a bad path ..Ā  Not all of them but for the most part a large amount of them. I hope at least my kid’s know me not pushing them to the point of exhaustion does not mean I do notĀ  care ….but that IĀ  do care and I want them to be happy rounded adults.