2nd laid back day..

Another laid back day. Waking to a foggy head from the medication, I knew I had no choice but to listen to my Dr. and take several days for just me. And that I did.. fell back to sleep waking at 11:30 I have not slept that late since I was a teenager. Finally heading for a shower and then to a bottle of water and my medication. No coffee …. then a protein smoothie for breakfast and sat and enjoyed my daughters company. She added some songs onto my playlist she thought I would enjoy and I did. The house filled with music. We pretty much like the same music. After when she was down in her place I went and grabbed some fresh air before the the sky decided to open up and send some rain down. Well I shouldn’t say some it’s been raining ever since. Tonight I will start some episode of Orange is a new black . Love these girls! I ended up missing these as well. So I’m happy I can catchup finally. And good time when you need to lay low.

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End of a long week..

This week of endless humidity has finally came to an end for now at least , until Wed when their forecasting an even warmer and humid rest of next week. Happy as well to see last week end … was in a bit of a funk… it is time to face the new paths that life is throwing at me from every direction. Time to do what is right for me . I quote a few special friends on here that have told me this. It’s heard but time. Need to be happy finding my way in this next chapter of life. I guess it’s not so bad to just be…. have I excepted the age I’m turning…. hmm NO! (Hahaha) for now I’ll work on those new paths .With that said and done . I’ve had a quiet nice start of a weekend. Let’s see On Friday night hubby and I enjoyed watching the movie Bohemian Rhapsody . I was hesitant but watched it because my hubby loves the band and I remember when we first started dating he had a phase where he played their cassettes , yes I said cassettes , 🙂constantly.. I do like some of their songs . It was interesting I must say … a good interesting. That filled our night. Once settling I received a text that my son would be out with friends after his late shift at work , my daughter out as well. So we decided to get some sleep . A light sleep at that … our front door swung open and shut several times as each came home and I heard them , then my daughter texting me from her place are you awake hmm ..!of course I was this was about 1 in the morning she loves night time chats as I do . They are the best. We talked for a bit then we decided to get some sleep.

I woke to the sound of my hubby and son banging around in the kitchen figuring it was time to get up myself grab a quick shower and coffee. My hubby and son where heading out the door to drop off my sons motorcycle for some work on it. Yes he has a motorcycle . Had me a bit frazzled for a couple of weeks I’m not frazzled now but it still makes me say a little prayer when he drives out of the driveway and second one at that within two months first one he decided wasn’t big enough🙄 Ive come to except this one as well . I really have no choice not to ..he is an adult.

Enjoying this mornings coffee with my daughter and a good conversation was a nice start to this day. She laughed as she saw me and hearing me sing as I added some songs from Queen in my playlist on my Chromebook that had stuck in my head after the movie. She made me laugh when she said I looked so happy as I was singing when she came up from her place. 🤷🏻‍♀️ after that the guys arrived home and I left with my hubby to do some Saturday errands and of course a coffee …. love my coffee. No errands or ride is complete with out a coffee stop . Once home hubby went for a run and I caught up with a friend Ive known since Elementary School. She is a nurse and works at night so we try to catchup as often as we can . Even though she’s busy she makes a point to always check in and see how things are going as I do with her. That pretty much filled the rest of my afternoon so now supper is done and cleaned up. Both kids out son working daughter with a friend. I’m going to start a new book . I had posted one recently but just could not get into it. My sister is a huge Stephen King fan and has all of them plus waiting for his newest one she preordered . I have read several and enjoyed them . They have spooked me at times but a good spook this one is called Lisey’s Story 509 pages ..this may take me till Fall to finish. I can’t remember if I posted this but here it is anyways…. so far it’s really good . I’ll keep you posted how it is . It’s 8:30 hubby is watching the Baseball game and I think I will get some reading done. Have a great night everyone.

One day at a time, one thing at a time..

It’s been a very warm humid week . Air conditioners have been working over time. Went out only if I really needed to otherwise I just enjoyed the air conditioners and got a lot done with the help of music piercing down the hall from my sons bedroom. It wasn’t his music but mine. He has the best speakers to hook my phone to. 😂It was nice to listen to my music as loud as I wanted having the house to myself . I was able to drown out all my thoughts that have been occupying my mind…  and get a break from them. This summer has been another learning experience . They have been for the last couple of years. This one is been a bit more . This month I turn 50… wrapping my mind around this is ..has been really hard . I’ve just started to get use to having adult kids and trying to find myself after all these years .I know I have talked about this in recent posts about not being the person I was before kids and now after having them . Yes we do age ..change ..grow up time doesn’t stop but now I’m trying to find contentment in this next chapter. I find myself questioning what I do what I enjoy ,how I spend this time of no more family routine but just being is okay. I tell myself I have done my job raising my kids being the best mother, wife anyone can be. And doing this with a chronic illness . Which when I was raising my family I did not think about it sure I felt the effect of my  health issues but I was occupied I focused on my family. I exceeded more then Imagined . I wasn’t even suppose to be able to have kids especially two of them.  I should take this as a time to now enjoy my books, writing , socializing and I do not mean with other mother’s but my friends . Friends I grew up with. funny thing is I have lost most of those mother’s now we have all gone other ways. I have lost one that was very close to me and I thought even when our kids grew up I would enjoy this next chapter with her…

IMG_8931Life had other plans. I slowed down a bit more which ugh…age does that. and with a chronic illness makes it a bit more challenging. I guess I just couldn’t run with her like she run’s and I do not mean jogging I mean constantly going here there and every where . Did this realization hurt yes. I never wanted this illness to define me it never has until this summer and it hurts. I let her define me by showing me what I cannot do.  and her walking away from me I  am not her problem she has a right to live her life but I thought she respected me enough to know that I still had thought we where still friend… now I have faced yes I am a bit different in ways your health can effect you. My mind feels so young but my body feel so much older….and now add 50 into the mix . Do I know aging is a blessing yes do I know it’s just a number ? yes but this is still  going to be a hard one. Please I am not having a pity party Or want pity just letting my thoughts out Everyone is fighting their own battles and my heart breaks for them .as much as life is beautiful it can be hard…with us all sticking together I think it will make it a lot easier to get through. . ..Thankfully I have found , become great friends on here with someone that has helped me so much and she know’s who she is. I feel so blessed to have found her as I hope she feels the same way about me. She is such a blessing. I am so happy to add her to my short list of close friends . She has reminded me what matters  many times over… and for that I thank her and hope everyone who is fighting their own battles has a person like her in their life like I do. I promise, well will try to have more of an up beat post next time.💖

Laid back day…

It’s been a Sunday of many things. This house has been alive with loud music from my hubby playing his music while he puts the last coat of paint on in the kitchen and hallway. Only way he can paint. Then it was quiet for a moment while he took a break . Then it was replaced with the laughter of my son relaxing in his room watching a movie .. how could I hear him laughing ? Well for some reason he left his door open. I guess he wasn’t worried about privacy. I sat after putting somethings back in place on the kitchen counters and read some more of the book The Road. Hmm it’s good but so sad at this moment to where I am in it it’s not a very uplifting story. Have some mix feelings . I will keep reading it though because it has me curious to see how it ends. Then after the music came back on and it was a program my hubby had found bands going into the Hall Of Fame from Def Leppard to Stevie Nicks, the Zombies, The Cure, I feel so old now … 😂 oh how time flys …. now supper is done ,it’s 8:30 and settling in to read . My hubby will be getting some sleep soon and my son as well as they have to be up early for work . As fast as the week ended Monday already will be here. At least it will be warmer . Was a nice weekend can’t complain. . I guess it’s time to read some of my book. Enjoy your night or if your day is just getting started.

Photo Monday!

It’s Monday already and already mid day. It’s a sunny and in the middle 40’s not bad. It feels nice coming through the windows. Had a nice weekend . A fun Saturday evening out to eat for my nieces 16th Birthday. We went to The Texas Roadhouse a lot of fun . Country music playing in the distance a lot of food! And the waitresses and waiters line dance off and on ,if it’s your birthday they bring out a horse saddle on wheels and the birthday person sits on it and the one waiting on your table yells out today is this ones birthday can you give out a big yahoo! And let’s say we hit a Birthday night a lot of yahoo’s😂 so my photos are from over the weekend . I hope you enjoy. And yes the weekend ended with a beautiful sunset.

Weekend… Full circle

It’s been a nice Weekend ! Saturday evening close friends came over, a couple that my husband has been best friends with since his school days .. yes very rare these days and I best friends with his wife since the day I met both of them dating my hubby back in the day. We became fast friends when a little while after she began dating my husbands friend . We had many fun weekend adventures the four of us, so many things together. laughs and great chats before we both decided to start our families .. actually her and I were pregnant within 8 months of one another. Our two daughters growing up together from babies to now in their 20″s yes in different places of time but still best friends My friend has 3 kids so her son came a yr after our firsts then her third child her second daughter we were once again pregnant together with her third and my second my youngest my son . We did a lot together as families Trick or treating. Birthday parties sleep overs , some vacations . Many chats on the phone talking about the kids .. the good.. the bad , the drama , and then one day they all grew up as well as us (hahaha) and things Began to change less time together different towns apart . different parenting groups and less chats , yes life got busy and as always for the most part we lost sight of us being friends as we once started out to be. .. much like how you loose who you are once you have kids , everything seems to be surrounded by this new life your family your kids , not that you meant to but you just in some cases loose sight of who you are. Then one day your kids grow up and here you are but sadly thinking who are you now? If your lucky you kept sight of this when you began this new journey called parenting. If you haven’t then you now begin the new journey called next chapter and let me tell you starting a family and becoming a parent is no easy task but honestly I think this new chapter after kids is a bit more harder to except. Luckily my friend and I have found our way back to one another . Oh so different still adjusting , learning . So last night finally got together after sometime and as couples not a family get together. They came over our husbands went and grabbed the food we ordered ..and we stayed back and just let the words flow out .. we couldn’t stop talking 🙂 it was so refreshing .husbands came back with the food we ate chatted the four of us then after the guys stayed in the kitchen playing cards enjoying some drinks and her and I settled in the living room chatting , laughing then after we enjoyed some dessert my husband turned on the good ol 80″s channel and the music from our past just filled the air around us . We just stood in the kitchen laughing singing being foolish to the point of tears (hahaha) then it dawned on me I told them this is so like the saying “coming full circle ” that’s what we were doing without even realizing it .. yes older but it was such an amazing moment as we paused for a moment taking in that thought . It was indeed a nice night . I think we need more of these nights .

So it begins…

It was a quiet Saturday the temps here were warm and a bit humid after doing what needed to be done around the house and waiting to hear how my son was doing at his meet .I went and sat out on my deck swing and listen to whatever was making the thrashing noise in our woods. Sat there for a bit and never figured it out . My son made it into the finals for the relay race so now onto the State Championships. So very proud of him ..just the timing is not good it’s the following Sat night under the lights and his graduation is the next day so it will make for a very tiring ceremony…why do they do this… any ways so evening was here by the time the guys came home from the meet ,my Mother in -law called to tell us her sister was doing a bonfire ,now that may sound strange but her sister is a lot younger then you think hahaha my mother in- law is in her mid 60″s and her sister is in her mid 50″s so she loves to do fires so we went over with the the rest of the family had some drinks sat around the fire the sisters son plays guitar so he brought it out and getting foolish we sat their singing random songs he played. like Leonard Skyner .. John cougar , all the good oldies that’s fun to sing around a fire . As I write this I have to laugh .. if people could of saw us they would of defiantly thought we had lost our minds🙄 so as I had titled this post yes it begins , the endless bonfires I see coming this summer. If the rain hadn’t come crashing down on us I think we would have still been sitting out there.. sad it’s midnight and I’m wide awake not good .. I guess I’ll just listen to the rain as I try to settle in for the night …morning will be here soon enough..