Growing Up…

Night has arrived and my heart is heavy. Yes I’m probably thinking too much but isn’t that what night does sometimes to people who think too much…. Its the School April vacation week and it’s just not the same . The days are too quiet and normal . The nights have been quiet as well . No loud music playing shaking the walls down ,no laughter of a house full of kids. No not having all our food ate up .

Instead the walls are not shaking just the sound of a movie playing in my sons room no laughter unless it’s my son laughing about something in the movie and a house is full of food . I know he’s growing up . The high school yrs are just about over , he’s done with work the ski season job is over so looking in the mean time for another but not having much luck . So it’s been going to the gym then to sport practice and then maybe one night he ate out after with his track friends but has been home the past 4 nights . I know I shouldn’t complain but this is just not how he is .The friend group has changed so he’s not hanging around with friends that are constantly running in between everything, the friends he has are doing what he is doing and as he puts it chilling at home at night. Does he miss the running hmmm I don’t know but why do I feel sorry for him? He came home tonight after gym and practice made his special diet for supper showered and then put on a movie in his room .. about an hour later he texted me ….yes he did I was in the living room. He asked if I would make him a pb&j sandwhich . How could I refuse 🙂 I brought it to him and there he was in his bed in his comfy clothes watching his movie and looking content so maybe he’s not missing the running around … maybe he is just growing up. Or maybe he’s doing wha I’m doing and thinking too much and needs a movie for distraction🙄 a lot of changes are happening to him and it’s fine if he’s actually chilling himself 😂 I need to stop thinking myself and let him be ,soon it’s back to school ,exams prepping for graduation college signups so yes I need to let him be…oh nights can do a number on you and Facebook as well al the posting of who’s doing what ugh need to stop comparing our family with others . That actually is maybe the problem … and him as well he seems to be on it a lot okay I need to stop …. always a mom…. well I do not hear the movie anymore he must have gone to bed. What I should be doing. Along with my hubby who is fast asleep …okay think I will good night everyone …

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Ahh all home 🙂

It’s a cold icy Sunday night outside the sleet and freezing rain started this early evening both kids where out …as the ground became a blanket of white ..with the sleet and not pretty especially in the middle of April …. I’m happy we are all home now . Thankfully the kids got off the roads earlier then usual. My son went to bed relaxing with his music . My daughter is enjoying the Country Music Awards with Miss Abigail in their place as hubby and I are enjoying them too settled in bed nice and warm. .well off to finish enjoying the awards and hearing the sleet bouncing off the windows . I hope whoever is out tonight and on the roads stay safe.

Friday!

It’s Friday and a very warm one ,we hit 68 today it was nice to have it feel like Spring . Tonight it’s just my hubby and I kids are out my daughter with her boyfriend and my son had a date which I was happy to hear .I do not think it’s anything serious I just want him to be happy and move forward can’t wait for all the Prom thing to go by so overtly played ..any how the warm weather brought the peepers out so my hubby and I went out on the deck to listen . I recorded the night sounds hope the video works for all of you . This is what I’m hearing laying in bed with our windows wide open . It’s so nice . Love having the windows open at the moment. Hope you enjoy 🙂

Stop Thinking…

As you see the sky’s cleared the sun came out but the wind came with it. It’s night now and the winds are raging havoc on the trees .My hubby does not like thunderstorms and winds ..high winds, tonight I actually do not it’s wild out there. Trying to settle in bed it was a quiet day did what needed to be done then relaxed started feeling under the weather with so much going around I’m not surprised Plus the rain was bothering my hip I feel blah yes hahaha I do not know how else to subscribe it . So watching tv in bed with my hubby. My son is as now gone to bed , my daughter is out with her boyfriend and probably not happy with me but that is okay…yes she is 23 but if you live under our roof and do not pay rent I have a say to state my opinions about certain things that I know she will regret . I know that’s her problem being 22 Shes an adult this parenting thing is so frusturating thinking it’s time to charge some rent … Honestly I do not want to have to be right and it’s not about her needing me because it’s not ,it’s about her finding a foundation ..growing up getting it together and I getting some sleep and not worrying if she’s home yet, or having to pick the pieces up when she falls apart . I just feel so tired of worrying about everything and it gets me no where. I feel I should be able to be happy I’ve done my job .. Im starting to get use to the idea my youngest is graduating and will be heading to college and I want my daughter to have the confidence the ability to grow like her brother is yes they are such opposites but I think they could learn something from one another …well the wind is not calming down it’s actually worse and so I think I will try to cozy up under the covers and try to sleep so I do not hear the wind and I don’t think myself to an all nighter .. Goodnight Everyone.🙂

Moments!

Oh how I love the laughter! I believe there is 6 teenagers crammed in my sons room ones a girl but all good her brothers here too her brother is my sons good track buddy who is now in his 2nd yr of college and his sister is graduating with my son. they all showed up to ransack my kitchen making food and to hang out . Ahh love nights like this as long and little it lasts I’ll take it. Basically when the food runs out 🙂 my hubby and I are in the living room watching our shows . I know as much as my son was tired and wanted to rest for his race tomorrow I think he is happy that their all here . We are too 🙂 it’s a nice Friday night.

Occupying the mind..

I’m settled in bed my daughter lend me a book she was given for Christmas to read . She wasn’t sure if it was something she would like and has others to read . I’ve started it probably will not get to far into it tonight I m feeling like I could go to sleep at any moment. It’s good so far and will keep me busy being that it’s 460 pages long . I will keep you posted how I do with it and when I finish . It’s nice to have a book especially a thick one to get into . Well going to read a bit more then off to bed goodnight everyone.

Snow Day… Stopped counting.

imageIt’s the after noon the snow isn’t bad at the moment their saying as the day progresses into the evening and into tonight it will be at its worse. At this point it’s whatever… 🙄 My  hubby had to work , my son has happened to leave the house three times today lets see  the gym then came home to tell me he is going to the bank and post office before they close early ..okay so twice he’s left.  . My daughters home cleaning  her place and doing laundry …that poor machine is constantly running . As much as that poor back back door opens and closes, The house feels like a bomb hit it no matter what I do . That is the feeling I get when I know I’m done with winter and ready for Spring and to be outside on my deck enjoying the sun and the stars at night…a little wine next to a bonfire doesn’t sound too bad either 🙂

Today is today so the snow will do what it wants .. I have  a nice chicken cooking away for supper and  a lot for leftovers.  My son is resting finally and so happy  for him he did get a letter in the mail today okay not his first choice but one of the colleges he applied to and they said YES they want him … So we , he is getting somewhere , he likes the University that says yes but is waiting for first choice still . I’m excited for him it’s a good college  but it’s his choice I just want him to be happy and that being said he needs to be comfortable about his choice . As I write this the snow has become a bit heavier  the temps have dropped had to turn up the heat to get the chill out. hmm the night could be messy.  😥