The house is quiet my sons friends all went home the kitchen is clean thanks to my hubby ..and now we are all relaxing my son watching a movie no exams for him tomorrow he did them today and then Fri he has some so that’s good he can relax my hubby and I are relaxing in bed, I’m enjoying my book and he is watching tv ..was hoping he would read but that’s okay the book will be there on his shelf.
Like I’ve said in my past posts he’s not a reader I just pushed it hoping it would help him to relax but that will not be he what relaxes him by running and hiking is it where I cannot with my hip . But it’s all good . We just have our own thing what relaxes me is writing reading and coloring. Yes I would love to hike and run , I use to be able to but as I got older and had kids it’s not easy and that’s okay because I’m lucky to have been able to have kids and that is the greatest gift and sacrifice. When they where younger I was younger so I was able to do a lot with them and it was perfect to be able , now their older and I’m older and my job has lesson as well as my body of doing a lot of things. what I can do is sit and watch my sons track meets well In the spring more seating available the indoor winter meets my hubby goes and messages me. I can enjoy a cup of coffee with my oldest my daughter and I love to chat with our coffee and go to a book store and get our books. I can make supper for my family and my hubby cleans up and then we settle and watch our favorite shows or movies so it’s taught me one thing getting older and having no choice but to slow down that it’s not a bad thing that the most simplest things are just as important if more then the bigger things and when my house is filled with my kids friends and their filling the quiet with laughter and loud music and messing my kitchen up making food that is what I call a special moment . Life isn’t always easy but it’s good and it’s how you look at it and that is what life should be about not what and how much you have material wise but how many special moments you make and have to look back on .
My hubby was doing what he does best and flicking through channels on the TV and he came upon the 80’s music flashback …yes our era. Oh my do I feel old hahaha I can sing every word and I thought it would make me feel sad looking back but honestly I am very surprised …. I’m not I feel yes older but mature and not as young in my mind as much as I thought but younger then I should feel for my age that I have to admit…but content . A couple yrs back watching this would of sadden me hahaha if anything yes I miss the good times of my youth my friends ..dancing to this, crying over lost boyfriends over these songs but that’s what we did and now listening is like hmm ok this song I like this song no . I believe I finally got past my 80″s fetish except for my hair yes I still have long curly puffy hair but that’s me love my hair yes there’s some grey in it that needs to go 🙂 but honestly I think what saddens and makes me feel older is my kids growing up and not needing me like they use to . Makes since right?? I think so..
I guess we are never to old to learn . . I’m learning I need to let things go I had posted in my last post how I was worried about my daughter and her relationship she is in . We had a good talk and we are on the same page , I thought we where not this is where I am letting people work things out for themselfs ( my kids) and not to let things get to me when it’s not to my liking well or different then what I’m use to . ..my daughter is doing what she needs and wants to do at her own pace. I find I’m connecting better with my kids lately . Things baby books you get when your expecting doesn’t teach you how to be a mother to them when their older but then again I never read them. I just went by my heart and my hearts is telling me now this is right what I’m learning , ,it’s hard I find myself biting my tongue a lot lately this is going to take some time but I need to let go a bit more and let them learn to take care of things and let them fail too if that’s the case.
This is good for me too and my husband we are doing more together with just us and this we have not done much of since we had kids . It’s strange how thinks come full circle again but we are older now and what we did then we do not do now it’s so much different but I’m enjoying the difference . Change is good.