Learning..

No matter how old we get ,we are always learning . I must say I’m finding that even though my Son has graduated ..the drama with my sons friends parents…not all but most still can’t let go of the drama. I could blame social media but I can’t say it’s to blame … I have met some wonderful people and am happy to call them friends it’s just what you choose to do ,for instance Facebook I have many family members from out of State many local friends and many from a afar from other parts of the world that I love to connect with on Facebook , there’s just a few (locally ) that are a thorn in my side and make me want to shut my account down , these few act like we are still dealing with high school kids and have to get involved okay become nosey and start trouble … my son and I have always had a complicated relationship he never liked me to be that mom who was involved in every school activity , or his friends this was his world and I’m his mom not his friend now we get along much better since his graduation, do we have our moments oh yeah but we are both learning , but a few are so in their kids business it’s horrible , when I get on fb just to catch up with people I enjoy ,this one lady just has 20 questions of course about my son my life what she has what she’s doing what she’s getting I want to write in all upper case I DO NOT CARE! I know karma will bite me… but come on I do not need this . But I am learning , and letting it be okay to ignore change the subject when I get a message from her . So many people have said well just get off of Facebook , no I do not believe that is the answer well not for me. I’m learning just how I want to use it . If that was the case then I would drop every social media site … I love my Twitter all my soap fans are on there and we chat about our soap.I love my instagram because I can share special moment in pictures on it and see other parts of the world with my distant friends. I love my blogging because I can share my feeling my life and I have met some wonderful people that I also would like to call friends. So yes I’m learning how to now be on these sites with no more high school track pics .. no more coffee pics since I do not buy coffee out anymore. 😥 yes a learning experience and new chapter begin and please no drama🙂

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Give me strength …

it’s night time once again … happy that this week will soon be over and then April vacation begins on Monday for my son , yay!!!! He needs a break from all the drama at school and needs a break from people he thought was his friend best friend but sadly my son found out the hard way … my son holds trust and loyalty so high and now this kid who broke his trust will never see my son as a friend again . My son won’t let that happen.. why do people have no guilt in hurting others ? Life can be cruel in so many ways but I’m hoping in less then two months when he graduate he will see life in a different light . Yes not always easy but so worth looking to another day , new beginnings hopefully he will see a happier road in front of him . I pray that he will .

Yes being a teenager has its drama but it’s so different these days . The times have changed people not all but a lot are out for them self’s . I try I’ve taught my kids to be good people , but in this world like the saying goes … “nice guys finish last ” but just maybe being last isn’t so bad maybe its a good thing if your last then your not up there where all the hurtful disloyal people are ., yes… I try to find a silver lining out of everything .. one of my many faults ,hmm maybe but it keeps me hopeful that silver lining .. when I pray at night I always tell god it’s so hard down here why ? I wish he would answer maybe then I could find the answer the would be able to see that smile on my sons face more often , Or hear my daughter come home from work and tell me one time how nice a customer was to her then to hear how they complained over her not having something that they so needed that they had to be so hurtful about🙄 Really is this right? No ! Karma I want to say but with that make me any better then them … just hard being a parent hurt me I can take it but do not hurt my kids. Well on that note I will try to settle my mind down and let this humming of the fan hahaha yes gotta love this fan 🙂 drift me off to sleep . Maybe hubby is snoring could be a long night 😂

Stop Thinking…

As you see the sky’s cleared the sun came out but the wind came with it. It’s night now and the winds are raging havoc on the trees .My hubby does not like thunderstorms and winds ..high winds, tonight I actually do not it’s wild out there. Trying to settle in bed it was a quiet day did what needed to be done then relaxed started feeling under the weather with so much going around I’m not surprised Plus the rain was bothering my hip I feel blah yes hahaha I do not know how else to subscribe it . So watching tv in bed with my hubby. My son is as now gone to bed , my daughter is out with her boyfriend and probably not happy with me but that is okay…yes she is 23 but if you live under our roof and do not pay rent I have a say to state my opinions about certain things that I know she will regret . I know that’s her problem being 22 Shes an adult this parenting thing is so frusturating thinking it’s time to charge some rent … Honestly I do not want to have to be right and it’s not about her needing me because it’s not ,it’s about her finding a foundation ..growing up getting it together and I getting some sleep and not worrying if she’s home yet, or having to pick the pieces up when she falls apart . I just feel so tired of worrying about everything and it gets me no where. I feel I should be able to be happy I’ve done my job .. Im starting to get use to the idea my youngest is graduating and will be heading to college and I want my daughter to have the confidence the ability to grow like her brother is yes they are such opposites but I think they could learn something from one another …well the wind is not calming down it’s actually worse and so I think I will try to cozy up under the covers and try to sleep so I do not hear the wind and I don’t think myself to an all nighter .. Goodnight Everyone.🙂

Shaking my head…

The day went by quietly and calm it was snowing and then rain for most part of the day . Getting things done around the house was easy and then I had time to adult color which I have not done in awhile. That was relaxing. hubby came home and we had supper then cleaned up the kitchen and settled in for our shows . There is a show that came back after 30 years and yes it’s about my time my era and I actually enjoy it the humor it’s funny nothing to take serious just laugh forget about the chaotic world we live in at the moment. A lot of people like a lot do not but that’s fine we do So my hubby and I watched it and yes laughed and now we are settled in bed Tv’s off house is quiet my kids have settled in also for the night . Yes the fan is quietly humming🙂 I wasn’t ready to sleep so I decided to go on to my Twitter …..such a bad idea especially before bed , . I usually love twitter and respect people’s opinions but found it pretty rude tonight .. really knock a show so bad that it’s hurtful . Say nasty things over something as simple as a tv show. I’m not going to get into the politicalpart of it because there shouldn’t be it’s just a show explaining how things use to be back in the day and yes it’s different harsh parents where not afraid to discipline their child for the fear the children would not like them ….(not perfect family) come one what teenager doesn’t get mad at their parents if you say not yours then your lucky and one of the many. Any how that’s one of the reasons it’s not liked also but it was just the hurtful comments the way people expressed harshly and the show was and not up to their standards hmmm something is wrong here we have kids and yes it’s trended on Twitter and any other social media site …our generation eating tide pods and if that’s not bad enough now the new thing is snorting condoms then they pull it out of their mouth , yes you read that right .. yes nasty , why no one knows . Hmm for the fun of it yes our standards , maybe we should stop with our opinion about oh what’s right what’s wrong on tv and watch what our kids are doing . Really do we have a right to be so hurtful and judgmental over something so little as a show and complaining over social media okay yes we do but hmm somethings wrong here when our kids could be getting seriously hurt or killed by the latest ridiculous new trend and believe me I know how bad it is I have a friend who’s a nurse and if this gets stuck in their nasals the procedure is nasty and sadly lucky if they survive .. I’m shaking my head … where did society go wrong ? Our priorities are so backwards yes judge a show call someone nasty name but all the while your kid could be doing one of these new trends ok if you don’t have kids okay then you live in a society where we do this but judge on the things that are so meaningless. hmm tell me who’s right who’s wrong matters so much now. Sadly I’m thinking I need to to stop looking at Twitter enjoy my shows laugh at them enjoy some books , adult color do my writing and laugh and chat and yes enjoy my family more . Let the rest of the word tweet away. And with that said yes only my opinion 😦 Good Night Everyone 🙂

Monday!

Good Morning ! Unbelievable it’s Monday already . The last week of March and Easter , my hubby’s Birthday this weekend oh crazy of the timing this yr … but then again this is a bit of a crazy year … changes .. trying to go with the flow one step at a time . More like trudging through wet cement . Well that said 😦. How was everyone’s weekend ? I hope good . Sitting here looking out my window the sun is shinning the sky is a beautiful blue and the coffee taste good . Quiet at the moment soon my son will be up hustling and bustling around the kitchen getting his breakfast and showering to head off to school . I will just sit back give him a good morning and let him do his thing he is not a talkative morning person and he has his routine . Days of dragging him out of bed oh wait that was my daughter 🙂 he didn’t mind getting up and going to school he would do a mad dash to the kitchen for me to make him his breakfast that was something different every morning then dressing quickly and rushing me out to get him to school so he could play on the playground before school started. Where my daughter would eat the same breakfast get dressed slowly with a little push from me and wait till the bell was about to ring then just go into the school. … ahhh such opposites and still to this day. It alway felt like a tug of war being pulled into two different directions and now with them older and looking at them with their separate things going on and I still feeling that pull because I have something to say to both to help …suggest but can’t especially my adult daughter my son yes but will not listen hmm either of them will not listen. So yes hard to watch but at the moment it’s about the only thing to do I guess will see.. always a mom… 🙄 well my sons up so I guess I will go say good morning and then get back to whatever I need to do today.

Saturday’s ….

This day is going by fast … woke to the sound of the wind doing havoc outside to the trees . It’s making for a cold day. So good day for food shopping and grabbing a coffee . Happy that is done nothing I hate more is food shopping. People are so rude in a grocery store have you ever notice that? I guess it’s probably because they hate it as much as I do 🙂 but I am nice until you hit my carriage … yes this has happened many times. People trying to get around you and you do not notice so instead of saying excuse me they hit my carriage with theirs . Hmm then that’s when I’m done and I want out of there .

Thankfully Home until I walk into complete kitchen mayhem ..I know I had clean when my hubby and I left… dishes everywhere . My son can cook and cook good but lacks the ambition to cleanup after ughh . My daughter just sitting at the table on her phone just getting up .. oh my what have we created🙄 kitchen”s clean groceries put away and now enjoying my coffee, hubby laying down feeling a bit under the weather. So it’s most likely going to be a quiet day ,my son is at the gym and happy for the moment we are so confused ..the friend my hubby and daughter and i thought was dating his ex was over last night hanging with several other boys that where hanging with my son . And my son was getting along great with him … Teenagers …. sadly I can’t ask because my resource comes from a mother of a girl my son is good friends with and I only talk to her on Facebook . So when we are talking Facebook ughh it’s the drama I so try to stay clear of you know the warning signs when the chat starts with so I heard .. yeah that’s when you know it’s time you write back saying oh someone’s at my door gotta go. No I got suckered in heard all these things then she ends it with don’t say anything to your son I’m not sure if he knows or if that’s going on… why! Social media sometimes can be so troubling and now we are all trying to figure it out by the way he acts or what he says this should not be like a puzzle but at the same time I can’t ask him by going off of hear say. Thanks social media . My gut instinct says do not ask so I’m going to go with that , it’s usually is right , I will keep an eye on him. If my instinct tells me to ask then I will…parenting…. well time to get some other things done and hope for a quiet happy day and no tree’s coming down from this wind. 🙂

Ahhh…Friday!

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Yes it’s Friday …same ol for me the usual laundry dishes prep for supper and yes a quiet house for the moment. I am only happy about it because it gives my son two days away from school . It’s been a long horrible week in the eyes of a 17 year old and okay his parents as well having to see is sadness and feel is wrath…not fun, Girls …..What I hear is only through certain resources so I do not know the whole story but knowing this girl who has been off and on in his life for 4 yrs and played games I cant even imagine when I was 17 is  just shocking ,then his best friend breaking the bro rule we all know what that is …well once again in my day there was one you know don’t date your best friends ex .. I would not want to be a teen in this day in age, so its been a long week my resource tells me that their not sure if their dating or if so if my son knows ..well live with him and you may get the idea he knows banging doors and for him taking a lot of runs , yes he is in training Spring track and field starts Monday. …but he is doing a lot more running which is always been amazing release for him.

Thankfully being Friday he woke up and actually talked with my daughter and I while eating breakfast before school. I’m just afraid it will change by the time hes home this afternoon after school . Ready for him to graduate and see how different life is and he will not have to see her.  sadly we still have to get through a prom which he said he didn’t want to go to which is fine with me . His friends are trying to set him up with girls to go with ,will see. I know there is worse things in life but when your 17 its the worse thing in life sadly. yes we have all been there but its so hard when you become a parent and you feel their pain.  being a parent is not easy and really do believe in this day in age its a lot harder.well need to make a late lunch have a great day everyone. I’m hoping for one.