The things you see…

Today my daughter and I went to the store to order my hubby’s birthday cake . The parking lot is always such chaos, my daughter and I know it all too well she works there and I shop there .we pulled into a parking space and sat there waiting for a friend of my daughters to come meet us , as we sat there we just watched … it was very interesting just sitting there taking in the world around us just from a parking lot hahaha people drove in drove out my daughter and I cringing at how some parked almost hitting the other car next to them by inches with their doors and not seeming too concern . One lady pulled in and pulled so close this poor guy did not have much room to get into his car . Oh and then these two women if you want to call them that flying through the parking lot and If they where not going has fast as they were would not had to slam on their brakes and yelling out their window at the lady and calling the person a moron because of the car in front of them who was doing nothing wrong just pulling in front of them at a normal speed . My daughter and I shouldn’t have been surprised it’s the way of the world lately .. but just watching it from this view it was remarkable what you noticed. People walking in with expressions of distaste I’m not judging just observing I know we do not know their story but what’s the story of the women yelling moron 🙄

Inside the store it only got worse hahaha oh people why are we all so angry …. my daughter and I and her friend just did what we needed to do and yes that came with glares because oh no we didn’t move fast enough out of their way …. patience people oh my …. or say excuse me if you want me to get out of your way quicker … yes this world can be so pleasant at times but watching it from the parking lot put it in a new perspective … people just stop 🙂 smile be polite or not…

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Tired….

Oh this time change is not going to be easy …. let’s see my hubby and I settled in bed around 9 and I can’t even tell you how many live PD episodes my hubby was watching as I adult colored . My daughter and her friend came home around 10:30 my son was snowboarding with his friends till closing … then I get a text that he was staying after with the ski school department he works for saying they where going to have pizza , play pool , then would be home . Well lets Just say this was around 10 and it’s 11:30 and he’s still out live PD is not what you watch over and over … I put my coloring away told my hubby to go to bed I would text him if it got close to his driving curfew 12:30 … oh lets just say I was hoping my son didn’t make me feel I had to text him I wanted him to know I trust him . So I laid there dozing off and on looking at my my bedroom window hoping above the shade would light up , when someone drives in at night it lights up the yard and my window.. hmm so it got to 12:10 no light , I closed my eyes begging don’t make me call hahaha when I open my eyes saw no light heard no door opening I grabbed my phone I lit it up to text what’s up when ahh.Saw Lights ….yes ! I quickly shut the screen to darkness and put it on my night stand and got comfortable and acted like I was settled he came in I could see him come walking down peaked in to my room I said oh did you lock up ? he said yup all set goodnight. I said goodnight with a smile on my face looked up and said thank you for getting him home safe and on time and for my patience. 🙂

Morning came and yes time change had kicked my butt hahaha and it was going on 8 ughh when I dragged myself out of bed and into the shower even though by rights it was 7 … and my son is back up on that mountain already his third home well he’s working but it’s his third home second is the gym . My hubby and I are just sitting here enjoying our coffee in a daze .. my hubby will be going to a friends this afternoon to play some cribbage with a friend a thing he does with an old friend of his twice a month I will stay back do some more adult coloring on the page I was working on last night that I’m really enjoying. Still feel a bit under the weather. .

Mornings….

Good Morning ! Woke to an empty bed my hubby up early and out hunting , my daughter still sleeping, late night out ughhh hate them makes for a late night for me wondering , need to let go a bit more ….. how? my sons up and I’m trying to catch some time with him before he leaves for work and then whatever he will be doing after that.. in the mean time trying to eat my breakfast and talk and grab things for him because he is running late ..ughh my fork fell into the syrup I swear this poor plate of pancakes has been in 3 different places sense I made them oh don’t you hate when your fork ends up in the syrup and you pick it up and now your fingers are all sticky .. ick nasty feeling , so that’s my morning . The rest of the day will be food shopping , thankfully Christmas shopping is about done . This yr my hubby asked me what do you want he said do not say nothing hahahaha I said actually I do want something he was like really okay tell me I said it’s nothing money can by he looks at me and says I know what it is 🙂 I said I want peace in my head from worrying about things I cannot control . I want a good nights sleep. I want to know I raised my kids right that they have a good happy life after all the over protecting I feel I’ve been as a mother. Yes that’s my list can I have that ? Time will tell .

Summer…ahhhhh

Once again I’m having a hard time where to begin have pressed backspace several times. I feel the time getting onto my blog is getting more and more of a distance I do not want to get into a habit of but my time is at such a minimum of what I have to do to what I want to do .Today my friend and I actually got a moment to chat on the phone and the first thing I told her , I do not want to be an adult anymore and her response on the other end was laughter…and a sigh and then she said I understand. It’s only been two weeks ‘s been a crazy busy summer and did I say it’s  only been two weeks.

What happen to days spent by the pool…  Popsicle’s melting in the sun , weeks spent at the beach now replaced with me being a taxi to and from drivers ed my sons job drop offs and pickups with his friends  thank god for moments of bliss enjoying a coffee or lunch with my oldest she his my savior hahaha from having to be an adult and when weekends use to be day trip adventures is now me recovering on my deck swing and enjoying some peace of mind. I tried to get into a book its been awhile since I read , that worked for a day and now it sits on chapter 4. I am not complaining I know it sounds that way, I am just stating the unbelievable change this year has been and amazed how fast childhood disappeared and I am exhausted hahaha  so moms enjoy your summer with your little ones because it goes by fast and if you think your tired now just wait when they get older and they have places to be and no license  and your older you too will be saying I wish I wasn’t an adult at the moment 🙂 so I will try to be on here more maybe not everyday but more then I have been so please keep reading my post.  I also welcome feedback.

 

Can you say rollercoaster….

So it’s a cold Wednesday night in June …Yes cold and remarkably windy . I could almost get away with using our electric blanket. Crazy weather that goes with the crazy changing moments at my house. So  my Son’s best buds have graduated and he went to it and was happy when they all hung out after ,see my Son if you read my past posts he is only a sophomore so he is much younger then them but they are all great friends and teammates . His attitude has been so hard and trying to help him has been like being on a roller coaster ride , one minute I am good ..  do not need you attitude to I need you, so I have been crazy busy,  Its not like my Son is my only child my daughter is soon to be 21 but it just seem like she was younger so much longer and a lot less demanding, she is my quieter one and we connect pretty well but it’s hard to know when to let go because you know you should because she is an adult but she  gets unsure at times and I  have to  choose what I know I should help her with or make her handle  herself. Being a mom is just such a hard job and sad  at times it’s so hard to let go when you know you should but your heart gets in the way. so sadly  I been neglecting my blog and my post I put up on Mondays and Fridays . So please be patient with me if you follow and like my posts . Things are calming down a bit here my Son is finishing up this school yr in 6 days and happily doing so he still getting to see his graduating buddies and spending time with new ones.,he found a summer Job which is so great that was one of  our problems too and starting driving classes at the end of the the month as well so I hope to be back on more and more family moments to share if anyone wants to hear !! and you can go on this new journey of motherhood with me.So stay tune .

The Nail……

Let me tell you about this nail , It’s not just any kind of nail It’s very special to me before I explain why let me tell how I came about it. On Valentines Day my family I went to church in honor of an anniversary mass for my husbands Grandmother who was a very special person in all of our lives. This day was special in so many ways …I stayed firm and my teenage son had nothing to say but was going …a battle that has been forever which is hard to take . So at Mass the Deacon spoke and he talked about love.. life and living getting harder.. times of lack of patience and just a lot of negativity ..this was amazing he hit on all the emotions I was feeling negativity lack of patience and then he took the nail out of his pocket and told us his father gave him a nail when he was younger and said put this in your right pocket and every time you say something bad about some one or hear someone saying something bad and you agree put this in your left pocket and when you   say a bad word put it back in the right pocket and so on….and at the end of the day think of how many times you may have had to do that and each day try to change what made you do that and see how less that nail moves and that means you are trying to at least be a better person. well I do not put it in my pocket…I keep it on my bedroom dresser next to a photo of my kid’s and it’s the first thing I see so I use it has a reminder to have the patience for my teenage son and to be a good person for them to follow and for me also knowing I am trying .Also  to not judge others for their actions even if  I disagree to just walk away …easier said then done. so I  just use it  as a guide to be a better person I know I can be happy with.20160303_153926

Contentment….

I know I have written about this subject  before but need to say it’s so worth repeating. My Son was enjoying the day snowboarding at one of the bigger ski area’s that him and his friends never had been too so I was happy he was doing one of the many things he enjoys. My Daughter had a later shift in the day for work so we decided to enjoy a relaxing lunch at our favorite place to eat, Panera the best I had their zesty creamy tomato soup and grilled cheese she had a chicken soup and macaroni and cheese …yes very simple and yes we could of made that at home hmm …maybe but not as good as them and the atmosphere is so pleasant and relaxing even when it is busy and today was one of those day but what do you expect when something is good people go there. so we took our time and enjoyed . love the simplicity of this to some this would be nothing but to me its just who I am simple I wish more people could just sit back take in their surroundings like I saw today people chatting away smiling or reading a book as they enjoyed their meal. life should be happy and enjoyable and not stressed and rushed and full of judgmental opinions and anger shall I go on ? …yes I know I’m asking too much but can we at least try. I know life is full of all kinds of ways just seems we need to enjoy the life we are given as a gift.