Tonight my dear friend and I were chatting ,work has her down . She’s tired and just feeling over whelmed . So we were chatting and she had asked if I had heard from my son . I replied with a no .. no letters only the phone call on Thanksgiving . I went on telling her I believe he’s busy with finishing what he needs to do to graduate from Basic and come home for Christmas in three weeks. I went on by saying I miss his letters and writing to him . I sent one out the weekend after Thanksgiving which he probably just got this week . I want to send him another but afraid that as soon as I drop it in the mail they’ll say no more letters . I’m hoping he sends me something soon or a phone call before graduation. I know it’s only been a week from hearing from him but for some reason it seems longer then that. Oh the mother in me… so my friend and I went on chatting and she said your going to miss writing letters I know you enjoyed it . Oh yes I did indeed . It was a nice change of pace from typing , it was comforting. I joked and said I may have to write to you followed with a laugh … she is about three towns over so about an hour away but our life’s are in different directions so we do not see each other as much as we like. She paused and I asked are you still there? She responded with a yes but with a different tone . I wondered … she went on , you know you laughed but honestly that isn’t such a bad idea. I’m Like what? She says us writing letters back and forth. Why not I think that would be fun and she stated you did say they say it’s good for the mind . I thought about it and said are you serious ? I’m in if you really are . It could be therapeutic lol . For the first time through our chat tonight she was sounding more up beat . Yes she said defiantly let’s do it . It would be a good way to empty our heads and look forward to something in the mail beside bills ( hahaha) okay then we will . We explained no time limit on replying or how short or long. And we could be as creative as we wanted. She said this will be fun bringing back something people really do not do much of anymore . Sending handwritten letters in the mail. As we ended our conversation we were both excited to try this . I hope this works out. It would defiantly be something positive to do . Since lately it doesn’t seem like a lot of positive things in the world .Tomorrow I’ll go into town and see if they even sell stationary anymore and if not at least some nice paper. Excited about this . Hope it’s what we are hoping it will be like. I’ll keep you posted.
I have been trying to bring in the good energy be more positive instead it’s seeming to go the opposite ..things are breaking and going wrong all around me and it’s making me unhappy. , what am I doing wrong ? Am I not trying enough to bring the good energy in? I’ve never been a high believer in this but I thought I would try it. Should I just be who I am think the way I always have because honestly I think I was less exhauste when I just letting things go the way they will I seemed more happier with thinking and living one day at a time and taking things has they come then looking through roes color glasses . I’ve always have believed that somethings you just cant change no matter how positive you are . In some case yes but but not all the time I’ have always lived I guess in the middle . So I guess I need to stay that person. Especially this yr with all the changes I need to just focus on getting use to the changes is that a bad thing. It’s been a rough day and Im sick of being who I’m not . I’m sorry my sister in law said I should try this good energy positive thing I don’t know how it’s working for her it seems more like she avoids things and people and shelters herself in her home with her family and that’s it and doesn’t want to hear or read about anything bad … is that such a good idea ? I’m so confused. Any advice any one I guess what’s good for som isn’t for others.
I woke to a new day sun shining big blue sky and saw this simple beautiful rose out side my front door and I just looked at it so bright and peaceful soaking in the sun not bad for a November cold morning ..it was just being and I sighed thinking now if this world could be as content as this rose taking in each day as it comes blossoming with not a care in the world just being …sometimes just being is such a beautiful feeling.. so I stood there admiring it as long as possible as the world around me was in total chaos over our new elected President , rioting in the streets in the cities and on the media and people in my town voicing their opinions again and not being very nice I just turned off the sites and started on with my day with a thank you to this rose for showing me that life is still beautiful and life still goes on and we have the choice to watch or not , to shut everything off and make it into a beautiful positive day . Positive was the direction I went, okay I will warn you nothing exciting but I enjoyed a peaceful quiet cup of coffee and then did things around my house with my pups by my side happily carrying his toy in his mouth once things were in there right place I settled down to watch my favorite soap opera with a cup of hot chocolate and watched the drama unroll through my show, now this drama I can handle. Soon the quietness will be replaced with dinner plates clanging my family chatting about their day and for me I will sit and listen laugh and smile as contentment sets in and that my friends is a good day.
Good Morning siting enjoying my cup of coffee and the sound of the birds outside my living room window the sun is shining and it’s a beautiful morning… sadly my heart is heavy, our little town as witness so much grieve in this past year is just so unbelievable and we all ask why? but there are just no answers. life can be so harsh its just unfair a young family in our town as suffered a horrible loss their daughter of the age of 9yrs old was killed while getting off her school bus this past Friday …do not have all the details but something on her got caught in the bus door and the bus driver did not realize she was caught and drove off her poor dad I believe witnessed it and tried to stop the bus but that did not happen…..the rest is too much to explain. I cant imagine . Why I ask once again …Being a parent Is I believe one of the hardest thing to be and it doesn’t get any easy easier as they get older there are new worries and you just want to keep them in a bubble sadly that is not possible . We need to remember that life is a gift and we cannot take anything for granted and do are best to make each day count so pleases everyone count your blessings everyday.