Summer night scenes..

Starting to feel like summer. Night time is my favorite I know it sounds a bit odd but I’m such a night person, so of course summer nights are the best. Here is the second night photos of this summer. The deck is a work in progress the white on the railings and the deck floor is all treated with paint remover . It was so hot my hubby had to stop so little by little getting rid of the old paint to had the new. Other then that I think the yard looks peaceful with the solar lights illuminating the yard . The sky is a very dark blue, clouds slowly moving in. I was hoping to catch some eyes glowing in the pics through the woods .. but nothing , it’s all calm in the woods tonight . The boys (coyotes) are probably settled in or hunting elsewhere .Sometime tonight I should hear the trains whistle echo through the darkness . Or the dog barking at the nearby house . All such a comforting sound as I lay in the darkness of our bedroom saying my nightly prayers as I’m slowly drifting off to sleep . With that said I guess it’s time to do that . Back to the work week for my hubby and son and for me back to getting the house in order and errands to run as well as my daughter on her day off. Good night everyone.

Oh the life of a mother ..

The weekend was beautiful despite the rain. This week though even with the sun finally showing itself I just feel this dread or something .. I cannot place this feeling it’s nothing to do with a lack of energy ..oh that I have a lot of .I do know I put myself back in that mom take care mode .. okay you are probably thinking what is so wrong with that ? Well a lot is wrong with that. I’m back in my mode and I promised myself when my son came home after Basic and being away for 6 months I would get on my own routine . And when my son got on that plane that first day . I was good had to be this is what he wanted ..my hubby and I hugged him and let him go and then hubby and I headed home with a coffee stop . And a phone call from him asking if we were home since he had a 2hour wait till his flight I knew he was missing us already being his first time away all to be expected. When we arrived home I cleaned up the house . Room by room not my sons he had cleaned his before he had left. So I just paused at his bedroom door . Then made myself move along. Supper came and my daughter at work then boyfriends … hubby and I ate just it just being the two of us . Well over the 6 months with a 10 day Holiday pass for Christmas he was home . It felt great but so strange I was in a whole new routine . And so him and I clashed a bit … sadly . I was told this was normal. Then the time came and he had to go back. By March I was ready to have him home. And this time it was better we were at an adult son and his mother relationship We talked on a new level . My time ..my routine was still there and he had his routine. Then here we are in May and I’m finding myself out of my routine .. well more then I want to be . I’m worrying if he’s ate what he’s doing . He has been very good about it when before he did not like it. All the mothering believe me I can get over bearing🙄Yes he has had his moments and has told me in a nice way to stop but then sadly apologizes when honestly I do not want him to. I know this summer is going to be a long one. Right now he is working two jobs and he is gone a lot . So I’m trying to get back into the routine of just my hubby and I . In the Fall along with National Guard drills and going away to college it will be my hubby and I and my daughter again when she is here. and I think it will be hard to let go of him this time. He will not be far away it’s for a matter of convenience for him to dorm with our bad winters . And now with all the things happening in this world and him In the Army National Guards has added this worry more then when he signed up . And I can’t say much about this but I do not know if I’m coming off a vibe he is giving out since I’m so good at both my kids vibes of something there worrying about or doing tends to bounce off of them on to me . Always been this way. So could this be it? I’m feeling his worry. Yes he knows what he as signed up for but being 18 there is concern I’m sure with him. He is such a thinker like me . And his humbleness is been a bit more apparent. Which makes me feel anxious…Even though I feel this way I would never change it for the world . Being a mother is just so hard sometimes because the love you feel and there is nothing you will not want to do for your kids . This Fb quiz actually says it. well except for the cowering in your presence well unless you hurt my kids🙂

I made a book list and ordered a book that is on its way that I’m very excited about and I’m looking forward to it . Which it’s been a bit since I was excited about a book since not been able to find a good one and I’m going to keep ordering hoping for more good book to occupy my mind at night , especially when I’m thinking or when he is out late both my kids with that. So my mind doesn’t wander. When I get my book I’ll post it . For now yes finishing the Road. Yes it’s dragging .. but according to my daughter she is shocked that I’m in the last two chapters of it, being that it’s not usually something I would read or even think of finishing. 🙂 well it’s getting late need to try to get some sleep so off I am to bed. Hoping to hear that train and its whistle in a distance I’m so comforted to while saying my nightly prayers falling asleep .

Ahh night ..

The day seems to fly by now with the sun settlings earlier captured a nice photo of the sun setting and then the darkness followed shortly after. . The day went as plan errand to the post office . Then cleaned around the house for a bit until my daughter asked if I wanted to go with her to get her studs on her car at the garage and grab a coffee at our many coffee stops in town. We both ordered a pumpkin spice flavor coffee. After she went with a friend for a bit and I started supper for my hubby and I . Very easy (hahaha) fish stick , mashed potatoes with gravy and a veggie defiantly easy .tomorrow I think meatloaf. After supper was done and cleaned up my daughter arrived home and as my hubby was catching the nightly news her and I sat at the kitchen table chatting and laughing , always the best chats around the kitchen table if my son was home he would be sitting there as well. Something about a certain place in your house that is a comforting setting for good chats and memorable moments. I believe this started with my mom we had the best chats around my family home growing up . I will always remember those times growing up seeing my parents with their coffee in hand chatting away and laughing and then when I grew up I joined in . Nice memory. ❤️ after the time flew by and my daughter was ready to go settle down in her place . My hubby and I settled too and enjoyed our favorite show well one of them .. Seal Team . Show is over house is quiet except for the sound of my hubby sleeping away as I think I will now . First need to say my nightly prayers and send a prayer my sons way that I’m thinking of him .and then I can get some sleep a bit earlier tonight.

Hurricane Florence .. not good

Rainy dark morning …thankfully the thunderstorm has subsided and now just rain , it’s scary when you notice a storm is just not a simple storm anymore they are so strong and damaging . My prayers go out to the Carolinas and the other states in the path of hurricane Florence ,I have been watching the weather channel and Twitter is doing a good job of tracking this and giving out a lot of info . She’s a monster and no chance of slowing down. It’s stated that the storms are so and getting more powerful because the ocean water is warmer Hmm .. sounds like Global warming to me . Some may debate this but so be it . That’s for another time let’s just keep all that are in it’s path in your thoughts and prayers

Settling .. thinking stop thinking, ..

Today time seemed to move in slow motion. I went around cleaning up things around the house ,dusting, the usual .Figuring what to make for supper . .. knowing I had time because my hubby had texted to say he was working late. I watched my day time soap and then as I was waiting for the washing machine to finish I sat outside on my swing closing my eyes trying to stop thinking .. reflecting back to what my daughter had told me earlier in the day.. ( read my post before this) couldn’t imagine how that family was coping with this loss … I looked up at the blue sky and thought how beautiful it was and the same word echoed in my mind…..why? Does God know why ? Does he understand ?

I worry about this I must admit because I have a daughter that suffers from such anxiety since high school she is doing much better now , has her moments but gets through . She is so sensitive which I believe is what makes me so nervous .. I know when she hears about suicide it breaks her heart . She has such a big heart . After sitting outside for a bit I knew it was not doing me any good because I just sat there swinging back and forth which usually I love but I was thinking thinking to much . I got up and made myself busy until finally the washing machine was done.. About 2hrs later my daughter walked into the house alone I looked around for her boyfriend she was with earlier … no where to be found . She stated he would be here soon was with his family getting a car from them and I just wanted to come home and wait for him . I didn’t push , I watched as she went down to her place and came back with her book in hand and settled on the couch as she asked what I was doing … I stated not much sat in the living room with her with my book . I knew she was needing some quiet time but also wanted to talk but not , always when she grabs a book. she then said said I think everyone is at the beach I was like what ? she said on Facebook everyone for the most part is saying their at the beach ..going to the beach …you will see this all summer posted on there . I told her yeah I’m sure. Do you want to be ? she said no not at all just wonder why it has to be plastered all over Facebook . I thought to myself that’s what happens on there . People need to state where they are . I rolled my eyes to myself . I just replied well then stay off Facebook . Take a break from it. She sighed .

Sometimes I believe life is only exciting for some if they state all their where about’s and play how happy they are to the world … but are they? . Or just need to brag or just like to state where they are . I do understand my daughters point. I grew up without it and I think life was easier . We lived our life’s did what we wanted and no one had to really know. I think that’s why getting back into reading again and doing projects . Plus waiting for my journal I want to start and so believe it’s a perfect time .not going to say anymore until I receive it. I believe will be a great blessing. 🙂 Tonight I settled in and watched my hubby and i’s favorite summer show . America’s got Talent. Now he is snoring away and I was trying to read but my eyes started to get heavy . My son is settled in for the night my daughters with her boyfriend so I think I will say my prayers and get some sleep .. hopefully I can finish saying them before I find myself falling asleep., yes my prayers are long.. ❤️

Nature❤️

video /Photo should. Turn around when you click on arrow I loaded sideways ? this was earlier this evening when the sun was setting , the sky looks like it was on fire . The temps are and still are in the 70″s as 10:00 approaches . The peepers are still just as loud as in my video . I am wide awake . I should of sat outside but everyone else has settled in and sometimes sitting out by myself is creepy …. yes I’m a scaredy cat as they say 🙂 I’m always hearing something in the woods. So I’m settled in bed with the fan blasting for air it’s hot in the house. The weekend will be back to the normal temps for this time of yr the 60″s and my hubby won’t have work so he can sit outside with me

. Love looking at the stars and the planets. It’s so peaceful looking. Up and hoping you spot a falling star. My son will not sit out and just look at the sky he has been this way since he was a child .I think the sky gives him a feeling of the unknown . It makes him uncomfortable . He will only sit out for bonfires and fireworks where he is focusing on them. My daughter can sit out for hours just looking at the sky or listening to see what she can hear .my hubby and her love to see eyes staring back at us from the woods …hahaha yeah it’s true usually a fox or a coyote ( the boys) their eyes reflecting off the solar lights that surround our fountain in the flowerbed. I’m so wide awake hmm this could make for along night. I never sleep well in the summer and nights are usually my favorite time of the summer . Strange perhaps but it’s true I feel more awake it’s a bit cooler and it’s just peaceful. Yes makes for rough morning but you can win them all 🙂 tomorrow their predicting thunderstorms this will be nice I love thunderstorms . My hubby does not . If there at night my son will just sleep through them . My daughter and I will sit in the living room a bit by the widow a watch the lightening . Yes a sky thing again . Well the time is ticking away and I should say my nighttime prayers while I’m awake sometimes they help me fall asleep saying them because it relaxes me . So goodnight everyone.❤️

More snow coming😥

More snow coming their predicting 6to 9 inches plus a mix of freezing rain . Schools are already cancelled for tomorrow , my son is at a friends house in town so he is closer to school because he still has track practice ,I know it’s Championships Friday but really they know what they need to do , he needs a break. My daughter will or I should say may be home because work will be slow so she is going in on Friday which would of been her day off. The photo I posted was this evenings sky it defiantly looks like a storm is coming ,I thought it was pretty so I captured it before it got dark. I love the evening skies . ..any chance I can get a photo I do . Well it’s getting late I guess I will settle and try to get some sleep early for a change . My daughter is down in her place with Miss Abigail for the night hubby’s sleeping away . So I will say my prayers and whisper a good night to my son hope he feels the vibe hahaha I could text him but you never know how he will feel about that if his mom is texting to say good night with his friends around😂 teenagers❤️